Biting

Thx for the review. It helps me going. I changed chapter 2 a little bit. There is a scene where it is just Elena and her thoughts after giving birth and I changed the beginning from the Stefan Elena dialog when she explains to him that she wants him back. It was difficult for me, because I didn't want to give a hint about his feelings.

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13 March 2017

8 am - Jenna knocked at Elena's bedroom door, nothing, after a few seconds had passed she opened the door and walked slowly in. There were no signs that she was waking up, so Jenna addressed Elena directly.

"Hey, Elena, wake up. It's late…." Elena turned around, dead tired and with swollen eyes "oh…. you look exhausted. Are you okay? "

Elena didn't know what to say at first, her face was lined with stress on her face from the last month and the last night. It wasn't the facial expression Jenna was used to see.

"It is okay, Jenna. I'm just tired…..I love my baby so much, but to do it all alone is not so easy. " Jenna nodded with understanding, but Elena could see the worry in Jenna's face.

" Just sleep it off. Emilia accepts us and we want to go with her in the garden, so you stay here and later we can spend some time together." Jenna assured her.

Elena was glad, she needed more sleep.

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9 pm

Elena was sitting on her bed with Emilia, her tiny girl was sleeping peacefully next to her in a new pink sleepsuit. After a few moments of watching her daughter, Elena began to plan her next step, what should she read next. She had 9 journals for 5 years. Where should she start to read? After a while she made a list and decided to read chronologically the entries from

-The two times they had slept together on Caroline's birthday party.

-The day Stefan had told her about Katherine and the days before.

-Their break-up

-The Katherine pictures, but when they had been taken? They could have been taken month before Sarah has showed her.

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-The two times they had slept together

Stefan had filled pages with every detail of their nights. It was like he had wanted to burn them in his mind forever. She felt breaking into his privacy, the memories and how he had written them down, how he experienced their sex was so intimate and so full of love and lust. While reading, she saw the images from them in her mind, beautiful memories, memories she hadn't allowed herself to think of for month. It felt like his words were caressing her, giving her what was missing.

She stopped reading this part; she didn't want to break his privacy, all she wanted were answers, so she went to the end of the description. Stefan had forgotten to put Caroline's replacement key in the flower pot in the garden, so he came back to do it. Inside he heard the conversation between her and Caroline. He had written every single word of it, behind Caroline's remark about Stefan's sex growls he had made a smiley, and added.

April 6th 2014

Need to go with Care in a zoo, circus or wildcat show in Vegas as soon as possible.

I hope they won't find out about my night with Elena. I hope they won't get mad at me. I know I shouldn't have done it, but Elena and the others agreed that we wouldn't tell anybody. Caroline was angry at me like last year, damn she can talk a lot. I'm just glad Damon doesn't know about it. He is not good in keeping secrets.

This made her suspicious. Who would get mad? One name was thrilling in her mind Katherine, but whatever it was, it must have happened before. Was Stefan really dating Katherine? She decided to read the entry about his visit when he told her about Katherine and the days before.

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- The day Stefan told Elena about Katherine

January 20th 2015

Unfortunately his visit was just a short summery of what had happened and how difficult it had been to tell her that, so she began to look the days before and she found something, a name she hadn't expected, John's name.

4 January 2015

Today John wanted to meet me. Odd. He came all the way to France from Atlanta just to talk to me, hmmm. Like I expected he wanted to talk with me about Elena. John explained that Elena was fine, but deep down it was difficult for her to move on. John saw an issue in the way she broke up with me. She didn't break up with me because of the person I am or because our relationship didn't work, it was to have a normal life with children. John said that she compared the guys with me and always found something she didn't like. He told me that it would be easier for her to move on if she could see more of my bad sides.

I almost killed a girl in front of her, can I ever get worse? I told him that the reason she broke up with me had been a real problem in our relationship. I could understand him, but I had the feeling he was holding something back. We spent more time and I offered him a lot of drinks. It worked; around midnight he finally admitted that Elena's behavior reminded him a bit of Katherine's. She had sex, but was not interested in anything beyond that. Hmmm? He didn't want to tell more and I didn't want to hear more. It hurts, imaging me that, but I do as well, rarely, just a little bit of closeness, not always being alone. John hoped that if she would have a more negative view of me, she would move on, so I agreed to help him, but I'm not sure about this. John said I should tell her something about Katherine. He had already made a plan.

Odd, odd feeling.

Stefan didn't seem to date Katherine was all Elena was thinking at first, she sighed relieved, but she had been blushed reading this entry, feeling embarrassed. In her mind she had this image of Stefan and her father talking about her sex life. Terrible, her cheeks were red and warm, she could feel it.

Elena went into the bathroom and let the cold water running down her face, enjoying the feeling the water produced on her skin. With a towel she dried her face and watched herself, she needed to be clear-headed she told herself, think logical.

Why was it so important that she was moving on? Something was seriously wrong. Why did they treat her like that? Whatever the reason was it must have happened before. It must have happed before Caroline's two birthday parties, so at least 4 years ago had something happened.

A yawn escaped her mouth and a look at her buzzer confirmed, it was 12 pm and she needed to sleep, more than the night before. Tomorrow she would find out what happened, she swore herself, before she joined Emilia in the bed.

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the next day - 14 March 2017

Elena opened the garage door and saw Jenna's old Mini, now the van was old, about a decade she estimated. This car was like walking down memory lane; she remembered smirking what had happened in this car almost 6 years ago. Elena had been in the drive-in-cinema with Stefan, bad movie, but they found easily something else do, unfortunately in this Mini. The next day John had kind of forced Jenna, Jer and her to go to a restaurant with him. Jeremy and Elena were in the backseats when Jenna hopped into the car. She wanted to take off, but something had stopped her, she bent her head down and found Elena's silk tights twirled around the gas pedal. When she got up, she held them in her hand, realizing slowly what this meant. Elena could never forget Jenna's and John's disgusted faces, both aware that they were exactly sitting on the place where she and Stefan had done it just hours ago. A smile crossed Elena's face, damn she had been so embarrassed while Jer had been dying of laughter, but now she loved this memory, now it was again a good memory, a memory which let her smirk.

A cry from Emilia snapped Elena out of her thoughts, but she was still smiling when Jenna and Emilia arrived. Jenna eyed her and seemed to be glad that Elena was in a better condition, so she decided it was time, time to confront her about the baby father and his right to know that he was a father, but again Elena refused to talk about it. She turned around, playing being preoccupied with Emilia. Elena buckled the tiny girl into the car seat and made sure it was secure, taking her time with it. A low groan escaped Jenna's mouth before she began to speak.

" One day your daughter will ask you who is her father and what will you say? That you didn't put any effort at all? "

Elena glared at Jenna lips pressed together before she watched in the other direction again.

"Elena, I know this is not easy. I heard you crying during in first night. You need to work on it. Maybe a therapy would help you. "

Elena looked down "Maybe…" She was not ready to talk about it.

Jenna didn't say anything else.

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Later Elena found the time to read further in Stefan's journals. She decided to read about their break-up 5 years ago.

June 2012

Elena had been on an educational journey with her writing class in Europe to see the places where so many important writers had lived. Stefan had visited Damon in Mystic Falls and Elena wanted to come there after her trip as well. There would be a big Jenna and Alaric party. Everything felt normal, but again she felt bad about breaking his privacy. The 5th night she found something.

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13. June 2012

Damn, I got bitten, fucking full moon, fucking werewolves. In the first wolf Damon and I pumped so many wolfs bane darts that he fall on the floor. Damon was about to rip his heart out, when the second one attack. I had no more darts left and he bit me in my arm while Damon shot him down. I tried to rip my arm off, but Damon was faster, cutting it off. I hope the infection has not reached my body. Later Elena called from her new hotel and I told her what had happened. She was upset and wanted immediately come back, but I assured her that I was fine. Even when I will get the infection, she would probably come too late. We had kept my arm and there we could see the infection was starting, even when the arm was dead. Luckily, my new arm and the rest of my body are not showing any signs of an infection.

Damon is playing the hard one, hey bro everything is fine, but I don't believe him. He is constantly checking my body for any signs. Later he went outside, saying he needed to work on his car. When I went outside, I saw him in his car on the phone. I was sure he was calling anybody, trying to find help, if the worst would happen. I was right he had talked to Bonnie who was searching in the grimoire's and wanted to come as soon as possible.

Elena was sitting on her bed, stunned, her jaw had dropped. She had no memories about that, nothing, she had never heard about that. Stefan got bitten from a werewolf. She was processing this new information. In her world, she had come back earlier to Mystic Falls because of Alaric's and Jenna's engagement party. She was confused, tried to remember what had happened, but there was not much. She just knew that in Europe she had made the decision to leave Stefan and when she had arrived at the Salvatore boarding house, Stefan had been a bit cold and distant like he had known what would come. Of course he knew her, she had thought. He hadn't come to pick her up at the airport, Damon had come. But Stefan was alive, so they must have found something to heal him or he never got infected. But why was her memory erased? Stefan would have told her something like that. This made no sense at all. _

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Will she learn the truth next chapter, hmmmm, maybe…