12 weeks.

Beca walked home again alone. She pushed her headphones over her ears and tried not to notice the looks she was getting and tried not to notice the whispering that followed. This was hard to not notice though so she turned her music up. That's what she does isn't it? Beca Mitchell, the girl who blocks everything out.


She got to her door to find she had been locked out. She left her keys home today as she was meant to stay after school and walk home with Stacie after her detention. But she felt sick, which defiantly had nothing to do with the fact that Jesse had tried to speak to her today so she went home. Fucking Stacie and her detention, Beca could have gone round hers and waited for her mother.

'Beca why are you just sat out here?'
Beca was in a complete daydream she didn't even notice Jesse come into her front garden or the huge box he was carrying.
'I'm locked out, what do you want?'
'I came to eh, give you something.'
'You can't buy me back Jesse.'
'No this isn't exactly for you, it's for erm, the baby.'
'Oh.' Beca just stared at Jesse, she couldn't decide if she wanted to know what was in the box or not.
'You can't stay out here beck, it's freezing.'
'I can do what I like.'
'It's not just you to think about Beca.'
'Funny, that seems to be how you function.' Beca knew she didn't mean what she had said. She was just so pissed at him, at herself for allowing this situation to occur plus she was way out of her comfort zone.
Jesse didn't reply when she looked up he had his stupid puppy dog face, well not his normal i want to watch this movie face, he looked hurt. Beca felt incredibly bad for what she had said. Stupid fucking hormones.
'Jesse I'm sorry.'
'No you're right.'
'No I wasn't, I –'
'No, you said I wasn't ready, and I'm not, but I got a job, in the baby shop in town, it means I get a discount, so that's helpful. I think they gave it to me because of our you know, situation.'
'Jesse I didn't mean what I said.'
'But you were right. I'm going to save enough for us to eventually move out and be comfortable.'
Beca was incredibly unsettled by that comment, she couldn't move in with Jesse, especially if they weren't seeing each other anymore.
'I want to stay with my mum Jesse.' Beca looked at her feet.
'Okay, that's fine, can I at least help furnish the nursery?' Jesse gestured to the box. 'I have a crib, it's the first thing I bought with the discount, I just got plain white as we don't know the gender yet.' Jesse rubbed his neck awkwardly.
'Thank you' Beca squeaked, barely audible.
There was an awkward pause, Beca didn't know if she wanted Jesse to leave or to stay. She wanted the stupid pain in her heart to stop, but it hurt with Jesse there and hurt even more when he left.
'If you're locked out, we can go shopping, look at baby stuff?'
Beca shrugged, she may as well if she was locked out, and it needed to be done. Jesse put the box into Beca's back garden so neighbours didn't see it and grabbed Beca's hand as she went to leave.
Beca flinched and pulled the hand away, she tried to make it look as if she just wanted to tuck her hands in her pockets, but judging by the hurt on Jesses face, he wasn't fooled.

'Just because we're going shopping doesn't mean we're back together.' Beca shrugged, Jesse nodded and followed behind her. She was glad she couldn't see his face at the moment, and vice versa. Judging by the fact that she had constantly seen Jesse speaking to girls since they broke up and he was probably considering going to college, she was sure that getting back together would be a bad idea. She just had to wait until Jesse finally gave up and left, it was inevitable.

They arrived in the town in silence.
'Do you want to shop first and then get food, or just shop or what?'
'Uh, we could shop and then eat, I can't be bothered to cook.' Beca shrugged.
'Okay, erm, we can go into the shop I work, they said they would give me discount on everything, even if it's not meant to be, you know, because of the situation.' Jesse rubbed his neck nervously.
'Sure.'
Beca awkwardly followed him into the shop whilst he picked up a basket. They strolled around a little aimlessly for a while before Beca finally spoke.
'This is kind of hard when we don't know the sex.'
'Well, we can get uni-sex stuff for now, and then get the rest once we find out, do you know when we find out?'
'I have a scan booked for 18 weeks, we should find out then, so 5-6 weeks I guess.'
'Seems ages away.'
'I don't know, my mum keeps saying how fast this is going to go, and it is, everything is happening so quickly.'
Jesse nodded and picked up some white baby-grows and socks, the continued around the isle and Jesse picked up a tiny white teddy and added it into the basket.
'Do we want to get white furniture, to match the cot?'
'Yeah, I wanted to paint little flowers or dinosaurs or whatever around the room, so white furniture will be fine.' Beca smiled, Jesse loved how she smiled when she spoke about the baby.
They paid for the few items they had and ordered a tiny wardrobe, drawers, shelf and changing unit. Beca tried to ignore the sympathetic glances from Jesses co-workers and left the shop. She shoved the baby bag into her school bag, the rumours were already starting, she didn't want more of a incentive for them to stir.


'What do you want to drink?' Jesse asked, she tried to ignore the pain in his voice which hadn't left since she refused his hand.
'I don't know, no caffeine, so erm a milkshake would be fine I guess.'
'Banana and Strawberry with cinnamon?'
Beca smiled at the fact he remembered her favourite milkshake but quickly removed it before he read too much into it.
Beca sat at the table whilst Jesse went to order. She felt like crying, she was hurting Jesse but she was trying to make things easier for him, she wanted more than anything for things to go back to normal, for him to come to hers and make her watch some crappy dvd. She wanted him to decorate the nursery, she wanted him to be there at the scans, but she wanted him to be happy, which she knew he wouldn't be if he stayed.

'You've been spending a lot of time in the crèche lately.'
'Yup' was all Beca managed to say back, her mouth was full with milkshake, she swallowed before continuing to speak. 'My mentor suggested it, to get me used to kids you know, it was meant to just be a day a week, but I guess these hormones suck and made me super baby crazy so I've been there a lot, plus the girls who work with me are cool, they've been really good throughout it all. They're paying me, it's not much and it's unofficial, I guess another sympathy perk.'
'That's really nice.'
'Yeah they said one this one is born I can go down and stay with him in my frees I'm dropping English too to make more time, so I only take Music and Philosophy now.' Beca shrugged.
'I feel like I'm doing so little compared to you.'
'I'm the girl that's kind of the point.'
'Well you're not doing this alone.'
Beca didn't reply, she just looked down at her straw.
'I'm serious Beca, I'm here to stay.'
'I don't want you to stay Jesse.' She took one look at the hurt on his face and instantly regretted what she had said.
'No I don't mean that, I mean, I want you to go to college and parties and meet girls you know? I don't want to hold you back.'
'You're not holding me back Beca.'
'You might say that now, but in 2 years time when you think oh I could be in college studying music which I have always wanted to do, but no I'm in some shitty baby shop with a 2 year old at home then you will resent me, I don't want to be resented Jesse.'
'For fuck sake Beca, I'm not leaving. I've already looked into this, Barden College, the local one does an evening course once a week in music composition, I can do it once a week and still work full time. And see you and the baby, so my dream is being postponed slightly, so what. I want you two Beca.'
Beca smiled, Jesse grabbed her hand over the table, he felt her tense up but he refused to let go.
'I'm not going anywhere Beca.' – 'Oh shit, don't cry Bec, I, what did I do?'
'Nothing' Beca sobbed. 'You're always so fucking organised in that head, how can you be so calm when I feel crazy?'
Jesse leant against the table and placed a light kiss on her lips.
'I have you, it's all that matters.'


Woo, so it's Christmas break and this is my new baby, I can update it until I run out of ideas! So there will probably be pretty regular updates! Tell me what you guys think, give me ideas and criticism, etc :)