Hiya guys... I know it has been more than a year. I am horrible I know but I do have reasons. The most major one is that all of my files got erased including the next 6 chapters of this story. I couldn't remember what I wrote for the life of me. And then other stories came and went. I'm still working on them all. Then I got really sick, I still am sick technically. But I needed to start working on things again because well I've been bored when I'm not working on cyberschool. I won't be able to update that fast because I would like to run it through editing first, and with all crazy school hours it will be to top it all off my laptop decided it wanted to never turn back on. Ever so I had to get a new one sooo much fun. I just ask you stay with me. I really am sorry that I left it off at that for almost a year. Anywho onto the story...

Mai's pov.

When I wake up the next morning I rush to get a shower and to get to the hospital. I barley slept last night, not knowing if my baby was okay or not. I rush into Kami's room to see Naru laying on the bed asleep with both of the girls on him asleep holding each other. I smile and sit down in one of the chairs next to the bed. I leave the room and get tea for all of us, knowing they will be waking up soon. Once I get back into the room I see Amaya awake.

"Mommy, do I have to go to school?" She asks rubbing the sleep out of her eyes.

"Yes Amaya, you do." I say and she pouts. I give her the tea and call Ayako to come pick Amaya up for school. Ayako would always offer to do this so I could stay with Kami in case something ever happened. By the time Ayako got here everyone was awake and Naru was now sitting in the chair and Kami was sitting up in bed.

"Bye Amaya, have a good day at school." Kami said and smiled at her sister.

"Bye," She grumbled and I rubbed her hair.

"Be good," I say and she nods, Naru walks them to the car while I stay with Kami.

"Mommy?" Kami asks and I look up at her.

"Yeah baby?"

"When can I start chemo?" She asks me and tears form in my eyes.

"I don't know baby, I don't know." I say and sit on her bed bringing her into my lap. I run my hand through her hair over and over, singing a lullaby.

" You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.

you make me happy when skies are gray

you'll never know dear how much I love you

please don't take my sunshine away

the other night my dear, I laid there sleeping

I dreamt I held you in my arms

but when I awoken I was mistaken so I hung my had and cried."

I sang softly in English and when I looked down I saw her fast asleep. I hear light clapping and turn to see Naru standing in the doorway with a small smile on his face.

"You're a good singer by the way." He said and lent down so he could peck my lips. He picked Kami up and laid her down so I could get up.

"Now tell me Mai, how much sleep did you get last night?" He asked and I look up at him sheepishly.

"2 hours." I say and look down. I heard him sigh and then I felt his arms around me, just hugging me knowing I need it right now.

"N-Naru," I start but he makes me stay quiet.

"I know Mai, you don't need to tell me, I know. I know your scared to lose her, I'm scared to lose her too. I already lost my brother, no one should have to lose their own sibling. But no one should ever have to bury their child." He says and I let my tears fall not knowing what else to do anymore. Naru just holds me while I cry.

"You know it's weird; I opened right back up to you. I went six years telling everyone that when you come back I wouldn't let you in. I think what made me let you take the girls was because the girls have been asking for years about you. They wanted to know why everyone else had a dad and they didn't. Hell I even tried to date people for them and it just didn't work out. I would always forgive you no matter what because I love you and it took me forever to figure out the true meaning of those words. I became the you in the group, I would study and study and study and work more than needed so I could have money for collage and for the girls and it was not easy. And then somewhere in the middle of it all I stopped being mad at you. I just wanted you back to see our girls grow up.

I think that was around the time we first found out the Kami's sickness was really bad. I just wanted her to know you and now she has. I always feel bad that I send Amaya to school when her sister is sick but I don't want her to fall behind in her classes, I want her to be smart like you. Kami always looked so much like you. So to shorten my little story I forgave you years ago. I need you, and they need you too. Please don't leave again Naru, please." I say with tears falling down my face and I hide my face in his chest.

"Mai I am never leaving you ever again. I love you too and I love them as well. I really do Mai. I am always going to be here for you and them. For you when they get to their teenage years and are stressing you out, and for them when they need a calm parent to complain to about their crazy mother to. I will always be there for them through thick and thin, no matter what gets in my way these are my kids and you well you are my tea maker. Kami will be here to experience everything that Amaya will. These girls have gone through so much already at the age of six, what can they not face? We are all strong especially you Mai." Naru says looking down at me.

I just continue to let tears fall down my face from what Naru just told me. He wiped my tears away and walked me out of Kami's room. That's when I get a phone call from Emma.

"Hey Mai I heard about Kami, and I'm really sorry to do this but there is a lot of meetings and new lines coming out and we need to do something or our company is going to go downhill." She rushs out and I look up at Naru.

"Emma this is my child, I can't just walk out and then come back in when I am not busy and you know that." I say with venom laced in my words daring her to say another word about me coming back in and leaving my daughter.

"Well how serious is it this time?"

"It doesn't matter how serious it is this time she is 6 years old she needs her parents! But the cancer came back. So I won't be coming in for awhile. I will send you the files I worked on. Don't call me again unless it is important." I say and then hang up.

"Mai-" Naru starts but I cut him off.

"Don't she does this every time Kami gets hospitalized and it is getting ridiculous."

"You still need to do your job though Mai." Naru says and I look up at him.

"This is our daughter. What if something happens and I'm not here? Then what, I'll blame myself for the rest of eternity. I have come to near death experiences in my life, but that is nothing compared to the fear that that small girl in there who is supposed to be worrying about what friend to play with at school tomorrow but instead she has to worry if she is going to live another year! So don't you dare try to tell me to not be there for her." I spit out at him and turn around and walk back into Kami's room.