Some Sirius Mischief Managed

Chapter Four: Oh Crap…I Think I Love You

Sirius was pissed. He wasn't completely sure why, but he was absolutely livid with a fiery passion that consumed his soul. And the worst part was he didn't have a bloody clue why. He was fine earlier, but now he just couldn't seem to wrap his head around things.

"Why, why, fuck-edy why??" Sirius moaned to no one in particular.

"Why what, mate?" James asked from over on his bed. "Why are you pacing and trying to wear a hole in the floor? Why are you talking so loud when Remus and Pete have just fallen asleep? Why are you not as amazing as me? Why are you staring at me like that? There are a lot of 'why' questions one could ask in this type of situation."

"'Why haven't I smothered you in your sleep yet?' is actually what I was going for." Sirius gritted out between his teeth, glaring daggers at James.

"Ow! That hurts me Sirius, right here," James pointed his finger at his heart and pouted. "Fine. So what's actually the question?"

"Why am I so bloody upset about all of this?!"

"Upset about what?" James said in a rather bored voice as he propped his head on his elbow to face Sirius from his bead.

"Everything. Everything's just so frustrating with Remus!" He quickly covered his mouth with his hands because of how high he realized his voice had gone. The color visibly drained from his face when he saw Remus begin to stir.

"What?" Remus muttered as he rolled over half asleep to look in the general direction of all the noise.

"Oh bugger! It's nothing Moony; I just tripped over your trunk. It's no big deal, just go back to sleep." Sirius replied hastily. Remus muttered something illegible, but slumped back down under the covers as James got up and placed a silencing charm around his bed and their door to be safe.

"What was that outburst for? People are sleeping."

"Since when do you care about other people's sleep?"

"Since I was almost lucky enough to be sleeping myself," said James, clearly upset.

Sirius just brushed it off, "But he's why I'm upset. After he told me he was going out with that Étienne bloke, I've been all like blah!" Sirius waved his arms around frantically to emphasize his point.

"You were like what?" James asked. In response Sirius repeated his crazy movements and James started laughing at him.

"This is not funny! I mean, now I know what's made me upset, but I still don't have the faintest clue as to why."

"Well that seems pretty obvious, doesn't it?"

"Clearly not." Sirius stated as he got up and began pacing around the dorm again.

"Apparently. Well the reason is because you, my dear friend, are jealous."

"You say that like it's the most obvious thing in the whole wide world, but why?"

"Because you're rich, good-looking, privileged, smart when you actually apply yourself, and used to getting every single thing that you want." Sirius still looked lost, causing James to let out an exasperated sigh, "But the one thing you can't have is Remus."

"You're missing something pretty basic here; I don't want Remus," Sirius stated.

"Yes you do. You just didn't realize it until you couldn't have him anymore. Now that he's going out with Étienne, he's off the market and you're realizing, subconsciously, that you didn't know what you had until it was gone."

"But I knew exactly what I had, and it isn't gone. Remus is still here; he's still my same old friend."

"Yeah, but he's not you're same old single friend anymore, so now it's all different."

"No, it isn't."

"Yes, it is. I can tell you clearly didn't realize this, but you act differently around him."

"Different, like how?"

"Like you look at him differently, you're always touching him in some way when you're walking or sitting down at lunch, you have these little jokes with him that make absolutely no sense to anyone but you. The list goes on….You're so jealous, I'm almost nervous what you'll do about it."

"You're wrong," Sirius stated firmly, but somewhere deep inside he realized James was right. However, he was going to let himself break so easily.

"You know I'm not. Just think about it." And Sirius thought. At some point he had had stopped pacing, and he was now staring intently at the floor thinking everything over.

The more he thought, the clearer everything became for him. It was almost as if an imaginative weight had been lifted off his shoulders; he felt free for the first time in a long time. "Oh crap…I think I love him." As soon as the words had left Sirius' lips he was simply amazed to hear them. "Crap, this changes everything."

"It sure does"

"No James, it changes everything."

"If it changes so much, then why don't you tell him?"

Sirius walked the few short steps over to Remus' bed and leaned over slightly over his sleeping form. "Oh crap…I think I love you," he said.

"How 'bout a little louder Sirius; with some more conviction."

"Remus, I think I love you!" Sirius almost yelled in Remus' face, but Remus did not stir.

"Great progress, mate," James called across the room as he finally got himself comfy for sleep. "Next time let's try that when he's awake and there aren't any silencing charms." With that, James turned off the lights in the room with a wave of his wand, leaving Sirius standing over Remus with his mouth hanging open.

"James…?"

"What Sirius?"

"Sometime I hate you more than a fat kid hates salad."

"That's an unfair assumption….You really enjoy a 'Caesar' every once in a while."

Sirius didn't even form a reply, but in the dark James could clearly hear the sounds of him attempting to make his way to the bathroom in the dark to have some quality time in front of the mirror.

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A/N: Sorry for such a long delay with my updates, but I got lost with time and then my laptop with the whole story on it completely crashed! Anyway, this is nothing at all like what I originally had for this chapter. In fact the original chapter 4 was roughly about 8 pages (twice as long as this) and I personally feel was a lot better. But like I said before, I wrote the original over 4 months ago and my computer crashed. My old chapter hardly even focused on Sirius at all, and he hadn't quite worked out his feelings yet…I feel as though I rushed this, but it'll have to do. I was determined today to post at least something for this, but the next chapter will definitely be a lot more thorough and like what I initially had in my head.

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