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Sugar, Spell It Out

Chapter four

Monday morning. I would lie if I said that I didn't feel good. The weekend went by fast, just in my liking. Wanted Monday so bad I even dreamt it was Monday, twice. But now it's here and I'm waiting in line for my coffee so I can get to the movie set and see the girl that hasn't left my mind since I met her.

I'm actually a bit nervous, which definitely isn't like me. I try to suppress the feeling but I can't seem to get rid of it. It's ridiculous, I know. Something is seriously wrong with me.

I sigh to myself as the teenager behind the counter hands me my coffee and I walk out in the bright sunlight. It's really warm today, maybe not the best day to sit around on a movie set or maybe it is. We'll have to wait and see.

As climb out the car I see Jamie talking to that Chelsea girl so I walk over to them.

"Hey, ladies!"

"Hey, Ashley." Chelsea say with a smile.

"Hey, stud." Jamie says with an even brighter smile.

"Stud? Really?" I laugh.

"Yeah, just trying it out. But it's not working. Need something with even less class."

"Oh, you're so nice to me."

"Yeah, well since you stood me up and left me all alone Saturday I don't have to be nice to you."

"Hey! You weren't alone. I was with you." Chelsea says with a sad expression.

"I know you were. I'm just trying to get Ash to feel bad and you're not helping."

"Yeah, well. You're mean and you shouldn't make her feel bad." Chelsea says hitting Jamie's arm playfully.

I watch them and can't help but wonder if there's something between more than friendship. I space out as their banter continues and see Spencer and Madison coming our way. God, she looks good today. As they approach us none of them acknowledge my presence and Madison starts to talk with Jamie.

"Rick says we're ready to shoot in 10."

"Awesome, can't wait to get started." Jamie says with a sheepish smile.

Madison's throws me a glare before walking away. What the fuck is that about? Did I do something to her? I haven't even met her more than twice if you count this interaction.

Confused, I look over at Spencer, who's avoiding my gaze. What's wrong I think to myself? Is there something I missed here? I still look at Spencer who finally look back for the briefest moment with a small smile before she and Chelsea walk away.

I haven't a clue of what the three talk about, I was to caught up in my own thoughts.

"Didn't I beg you to leave her alone?"

"What?" I ask totally confused now.

"Spencer?" She says frustrated.

"I...I didn't do anything wrong." I have no clue what's happening right now.

"Then why is both Madison and Spencer all weird around you?"

"I don't know."

"Yeah, right." Jamie says as she start to walk away.

"Hey, wait." I grab her arm and turn her around.

"I'm serious. I really don't now why they are acting this way. I mean, I don't even now Madison. Met her the first and only time when you introduced us. Spencer too, except for the fact that she overheard our conversation last Friday and then a little and totally innocent talk we had afterwards when you left."

"Okay, I trust you."

"Yeah, you should." I say a little disappointed that she doesn't have more faith in me.

"Sorry that I jumped to the wrong conclusion."

"It's alright, but don't do it again." I say with a smile.

"I won't. Now I gotta go direct a movie. Come with?"

"You go. I'll be right behind."

She nods and walks away.

I walk over to a bench, take a seat and light up a cigarette. I actually quit smoking but sometimes I need one to calm my nerves. Don't know what it is, but there's a calming effect to take a deep drag and exhale the smoke slowly.

"Didn't I tell you that was bad for you?" Ah, that voice. Got to love it. Like. Got to like it.

I turn my head to the left and see Spencer leaning on her hands against the back of the bench.

"Shouldn't you be on set?" I ask and turn away from her gaze. Don't really understand this girl right now. First the silent treatment and now this? What's next? A heavy make-out session? Yeah, I wish. That would be awesome.

"No, free until after lunch. So, why are you here today?" She asks with a smile as she sit down next to me.

"Why are you?" Woah, when did I become a bitch to her.

"Wow, sorry." She says with a confused expression but sound sincere.

I sigh and take a drag from the cigarette and hands it over to her.

"No, I'm sorry. Don't know what's wrong with me. Start over?" I ask and smile at her.

"Sure, but if you bitch at me again, I'll leave." She says with a chuckle.

"Sounds fair." I chuckle along.

"So, what are you doing here today?" She asks again.

"Well, I really hadn't anything to do today so I thought why not check out the beginning of this masterwork."

"Understandable." She says and take the last drag of the cigarette before dropping it on the ground and watch the smoke slowly fade out.

"So, what are you doing here?"

"Well, I work here." She says smiling but not looking up from the ground.

"No, I mean here, here?" I gesture to were we are sitting to making my point clearer.

"Aha! Well, you got the cigarettes." She answers with a shrug and my chin drops in fake hurt.

"So, you're just using me for my cigarettes?"

"Yes." She answers trying to suppress a smile.

"So mean..." I say with trying to contain my own smile.

"Yeah, well that's me. Mean as hell."

"Yeah, that's not believable. At all." I say with a laugh.

We sit in a comfortable silence and I realize that maybe she has a clue of what made Madison so angry with me.

"So, what's the deal with Madison?"

"What do you mean?" She asks and looks at me confused.

"I'm talking about that stick up her ass that's so far in that it may be impossible to get it out."

"Seriously Ash? Really?" I may be very confused right at the tone she's using, like it's something I'm missing. But the fact that she shortened my name does wonderful things to my body and I can't help but smile.

"What?" I ask her after a moment of silence where I try to gather my thoughts and understand what she's talking about.

"You really have no clue?" She ask apparently not believing my confusion.

When I only answer her with a slow headshake she continues.

"You slept together." She says and looking away from my gaze.

It takes a second for it to sink in. No. No, it's not possible. I didn't sleep with Madison. Did I?

"You're joking with me right?" I say, really hoping she is.

She meets my gaze with a sceptic expression.

"No, I'm not. She told me this morning right before we met you. She's pretty pissed, 'cause she thinks you don't remember her. Which I now see that you don't." She finishes with a chuckle.

Now I know the reason Madison was a bitch, but still doesn't explain Spencer weird behaviour.

"I can't believe this is happening. Did she say when we slept together?" I ask as I stand up.

"Yeah, she said something about before you went to the rehab, when you still were touring."

"Well, that explains the fact that I don't remember her. I was guaranteed pretty high and drunk. And not to sound like a slut or something, she was probably not the only girl I slept with that week. Hell, not even the only one that day."

She laugh at this.

"Okay, that does sound pretty slutty." I say and grimace at my own stupidity.

Probably not the smartest things to say in front of the girl you want to be in a relationship with, but nevertheless true. Wait! Did I just say I wanted to be in a relationship with her? I did. No, I didn't! Totally going to deny this conversation ever happened in my head.

"Yeah, it kind of does make you sound a bit slutty." She says with a laugh.

"Fuck, fuck and screw me over! Jamie is so going to kill me." I say slightly panicked.

"Calm down and sit!" She orders as she reach out to take my hand and pull me back down at the bench. The tingly feelings are back as soon as her hand touches mine but it doesn't last that long as she lets go of my hand when I'm back on the bench.

"She's not going to kill you. Maybe kick your ass, but not kill you." She says and laugh.

"This isn't funny! At all. She kind of..." I trail of because I don't want to tell her that I promised Jamie to stay away from her cast and crew. Makes me sound even more like a slut than I already made myself out to be. If that's even possible.

"She kind of what?" She ask with a smile.

"Eh... Made me promise to stay away from the girls on her set." I answer and look down at my now fidgeting hands as I blush. What the fuck is with the blushing when I'm around this girl? And the nervousness, it's killing me right now.

"You promised to stay away from cast and crew?" She ask with surprise in her voice and I look up and meet her gaze. I wonder if it's disappointment I see in her eyes.

"Yeah. She said if I screwed someone over, she would fire me. Even though I technically didn't screw someone in her crew since this was a long time ago, she's not going to be happy."

"Don't say anything then?"

"Yeah, that's one plan but if things get out anyway she's still going to kill me. No, I got to tell her."

"Yeah, I guess you're right. We are having lunch later, tag along and tell her then?"

"Are you sure? Don't wanna destroy your lunch." I say with a laugh.

"Yeah, I'm sure. Besides, I think you're going to need the protection."

"No kidding. But moving along to another subject..."

"Yeah? What do you have in mind?" She says looking at me.

"Your eyes. They are sooo gorgeous today!" I say dramatically which get her to laugh.

Man, I'm on a roll today. Getting her to laugh and keeping up with the challenge with one sentence.

"I was hoping you forgot about that."

"Hoping as in winning the challenge? Because I'm not losing this one."

"Somehow I believe you." She says with a sigh.

"Besides I don't forget a pretty face that easily, you know." I say sincerely as I see Jamie climb out from a trailer and start talking to a guy.

"Uh... You kind of forgot about Madison pretty easy and she isn't really bad looking." She says with a laugh.

"Back to being mean again ah?" I laugh and realize that she kind of just called Madison good-looking. Sooo, Miss, just got out of a marriage, Carlin has been checking out girls. Interesting.

"Wait? There's two ways I can go with that statement." I say as lean back on the bench and watch as Jamie starting to make her way over to us but get hold up on the way by another guy.

"Yeah? Which are?" She says and looks over at me.

"First off I can be offended and defend myself with that I wasn't anywhere near in my right mind then. Drugs do that kind of shit to you, half of the time I didn't even know my own name. And second of..." I turn my gaze to meet her eyes for this one so I can see her reaction. "You've been checking out Madison?" I say and smile as she brakes the gaze and I see some traces of a blush showing.

"Uh... No. No, I haven't..."

"Such a pathetic lair. I hope your acting isn't this bad" I say with and laugh.

"Ouch. Who's the mean one now?" Spencer says and punch my arm lightly.

I just smile and light up another cigarette and take a deep drag as Jamie now frees herself from the guy and makes another attempt at getting to us.

"Besides, there's a huge difference between you and Madison."

"Yeah? What's that?" She asks with curiosity.

I turn to her and meet her eyes.

"You, gorgeous, I will never be able to get out of my mind." I say in a whisper as Jamie approaches us but our gaze doesn't brake until...

"Hey, douchebag! What's your problem?" Jamie snatches the cigarette from my hand. Throws it on the ground and steps on it.

What did I do now? I think as I turn to face with an confused expression.

"You shouldn't be smoking and definitely not with my star actresses this close to you!"

Spencer snickers at this and I just shake my head and give her a look saying, this might me the time to tell her you smoke. But she doesn't seem to wanna save me from Jamie's little display of wrath.

"Jesus, mom! I'm sorry. Didn't mean to poison your precious Miss Carlin." I mock her.

"Don't be a smartass." She says with a sigh.

"Sorry, did I hit a nerve?" I say as I stand up.

"No, you didn't. Don't you have somewhere to be?" She says calmly.

"No, not really. You invited me here, remember? But since you want me out of the way I'm gonna hit the nearest Starbucks for some coffee. Anyone want anything?"

"Good thinking. I want the usual." Jamie says.

"Spence, you want anything?" I say now looking at her.

"Whatever you're having." She answers meeting my eyes and smiling.

"Okay, see you in a bit gorgeous." I say winking at her and turning around. "You too, mom!" I say to Jamie as I walk away and knowing her, she's probably rolling her eyes at it.

When I get back to the set, Jamie and Spencer aren't were I left them, but I soon find them shooting a scene. I guess the schedule must have change, since Spencer told me she was free until lunch. I approach Jamie who's currently staring at a TV screen. I hand her the coffee without a word and start watching the screen to. In the scene they're shooting Spencer and her co-star is having a heated argument, mostly consisting in Spencer yelling at the other girl. It hits my why Jamie like working with Spencer, 'cause even though it's a really long scene and Spencer has really long lines, she doesn't falter a bit. It takes them three takes because of the other girls screw ups.

"Awesome Spence and Jenny! You can go on lunch break now, be back here at one." Jamie says as she walks over to Chelsea to discuss the next scene. I check my watch as I walk over to Spencer, 10:52am.

I hand her the coffee with a smile which she returns.

"Thanks."

"Your quite welcome. You did good out there."

"You think?" She questions with a smile.

"Of course. No wonder why Jamie is so protective of you and keen on keeping you around."

"What does that mean? And why wouldn't I stay around?" She looks at me with a curious smile.

"What? No, it doesn't mean a thing. Simply..." Why was I born with an IQ of 12? And how do I save this now? Come on! She's waiting for an answer.

"Simply that she want you around, I don't know..." Stupid, stupid, stupid... She's not going to let this one go that easily.

"So it has nothing to do with the promise you made to her? You know, about staying away?" She says with a smile and draws the last words out.

I desperately need to change the subject and that is now.

"What? No, why would it?" I say trying to fake looking surprised. And how is that changing the subject? I am really digging my own grave here. God, help me please?!

"I don't know, you tell me?" She says with a smirk.

She's definitely enjoying this way too much. Me not liking this. Think brain, think!

"Ready to head in to town for lunch?" Thank you God for sending me Jamie to the rescue, without her I would be dead for several reasons.

"Yes, please!" I exclaim let out a breath I didn't know I was holding.

"Okay, I'm not even going to ask about your overly big excitement." She says and give me a strange look and starts to walking in the direction of the parkinglot.

As I'm about to walk Spencer takes a hold on my shoulder and leans in to my ear.

"This conversation is far from over." She whispers. Her breath against my ear makes my whole body shiver and then she gives my shoulder a little squeeze and walks up to Jamie.

I would like to walk to but my brain doesn't really work the way I want it to at the moment. I just stand there, dumbstruck, until Jamie breaks my trance.

"Ashley! Are you coming or not?!" She screams as they now reach the parkinglot.

I jog up to them where they are waiting.

"What's wrong with you?" Jamie asks with a laugh as I catch up with them.

Everything?

"Nothing, I'm fine."

"Are you sure? You look a little flustered." Spencer says with smirk.

I open my mouth to answer but nothing comes out. Not a thing, no comeback. What's wrong with me? I always have a comeback. I'm the freaking queen of comebacks! This girl is breaking me and I don't like it. Not at all. I need to step up my game and that is fast.

"So where are we eating?" Jamie ask as we all climbed in her car and she's driving out from the movie set.

"I'm thinking Spago?" I say with a smile from the backseat. I love that place. Jamie and I usually go there when there's a celebration or something like that, but now we haven't been there for a while. "It was a long time ago now, Jamie. I know you want it and it's on me." I continue with a even brighter smile.

"If it's on you then I can't say no, can I?" She says with a laugh.

"Not to kill your happiness, but how the hell are we going get a table there now?" Spencer asks biting the side of her lower looking at me.

Jamie pats her on her tight and smiles at her.

"You're forgetting who we are going to lunch with, Spence." Jamie says with a smile.

Spencer looks at me with confusion before she gets it.

"Oh, right! Famous ex-rockstar and now famous producer. Sorry, I forgot." She says giving me an apologetic smile and gaze in to my eyes.

"Definitely no need to be sorry." I answer giving her a nose, crinkling smile.

When we arrive at Spago, we get a table almost immediately and sit down to order our food and drinks. I look up at Jamie sitting across from me and then to Spencer who's beside me to the right.

Time to do my confession and my plan is to ease her, taking it slowly.

"So, Jamie? I have a confession to make." I start of with a remorseful voice, though regretting it directly because her head snaps up so fast that she probably could've gotten a whiplash injury from it and her facial expression holds a lot of worry.

"What? What did you do?" She almost screams. "Please tell me you didn't relapse again?" She continues in a lower voice.

"No!" My turn to half scream. "God, no Jamie. Of course not, how low do you think of me these days?" I ask her angry. Now I suddenly don't feel so hungry anymore. Can't believe she jumped to that conclusion. I throw Spencer a look and she sees that I'm not doing to good right now so she places a hand on my thigh, squeezing it lightly before making soothing patterns with her thumb against it. I give her a sad smile. Her touch actually helps and my breathing calms.

"Sorry, I didn't mean it like that. I was just worried. I absolutely don't think low of you in any way, the other way around actually. I think you're one of the strongest people I know." Jamie says after what seems to be forever.

"Thanks." I say with a small smile. "So, now I'm going to tell you what actually has happen and I want you to promise me no freak outs, okay?" I say trying to cover every possibility to another outburst.

"I promise."

"Okay, you can't be mad for this." I start out looking intently at her.

"Just say it Ash." She says sighing.

"And I'm not proud of it. Definitely not." I continue.

"Ashley! Say it already."

"IsleptwithMadison." I rush out looking down at the table.

"Madison? Really?" She says like she doesn't believe me.

"I can't believe it either." I mumble.

"Madison told me this morning about her and Ashley. It happened three years ago when Ashley still was on tour and she believes Ashley doesn't even remember her. This is why she was so short with Ashley today." Spencer says explaining the situation for Jamie.

"Makes sense in a way, but what doesn't make sense is the fact she is happily married and have been for a year. So don't really understand why she's pissed. I mean, it's been more then three years."

"I guess I'm hard to get over." I say with a smirk.

"Doubt it." Jamie says with a chuckle. "You really don't remember her?" She continues.

"No, I really don't. It's not so strange though, if you think about it, I don't remember much between my 18th and 20th birthday." I say with a sad smile and Spencer squeezes my thigh again. I wish she had any idea of what her action are doing to me.

"You know, if she's still pissed in a couple of days, you got to apologize to her. Okay?" Jamie says calmly.

"I know. Just hoping she gets over it by herself." I say at the same time our food arrive.

Halfway through our meal I realize Spencer's hand are still on my thigh. I could really get used to this, feels really... I trail of because as Spencer bends forward for her glass her hand moves up and more to the inside of my thigh, dangerously close to where I really want it.

The movement makes my breath hitch which doesn't go by unnoticed by either Spencer or Jamie. I see Spencer smirk as she takes another bite of her food and then I look up to see Jamie looking amused at me.

"Man, you're behaving real weird today. What's wrong with you?" She asks with a chuckle.

"Nothing wrong. All is good." I answer as I consider the pros and cons of taking Spencer's hand of my thigh or keeping it there. The only con I can come up with is that it's really hard to think of anything else besides her hand which leads to my inability to form coherent sentences so I decide that I just going the keep quiet and enjoy this while it lasts.

The rest of the dinner went by fast and so did the car ride back to the movie set. I decide I'm going to head home while they go back to work. I need to clear my head, this day has been to much for me. I'm getting totally smashed, by a supposedly straight girl, at my own game.

"Call me later, Jamie!" I yell as she leaves to go fix an emergency someone called her about.

Which means I'm alone with Spencer.

"Hand me your phone?" I say and as I get it I type my number in. "Call me if you wanna do something or just want someone to talk to." I say with a smirk as I hand the phone back to her and open the door to my Porsche.

"I will do that. See you around, Ash" She says with a smile and I really hope she will call. I close the door with a smile on my face and watch her walk away. Yeah, definitely not going to keep that promise to Jamie...