[Hello all, were you surprised? Yes, I know, fifty percent of you hate me, right? It's all good~ I understand. There will be some smut in this chapter, not CanMano. Don't worry ^^ Also I would like to thank all my readers. I was really nervous, considering this is my first fic, but thanks to all of you I feel happy, and accomplished. ^^

DISCLAIMER! I do not, in any way, own Hetalia or its characters. If I did, Prussia would be chained under my bed. ^^ That's all; take care, and happy readings.

With lust and hate,

~Torahime]

What reason do we have?

I want you so bad

It burns my skin

I need to feel your warmth

This is my sin

I want to make you mad

Make you cry

What reason do I have

To lie

I want your touch

Your hands on me

I need your skin

So please touch me

I want to make you smile

Make you laugh

Even if it's cruel

I love you with all of my heart

What reason do I have

To lie

I need you

I want you

I'll fill you up

Until you collapse

You're so beautiful when you sleep

It makes me dangerously thirsty

I love you

With all of my heart

I need you

So rip me apart

And if I die

In your arms

Is it bad

I wouldn't mind

We need each other

We'll never say aloud

The desire in our hearts

Eventually in time

We'll destroy each other

Our love is cursed

But we will love

What reason do we have

To lie.

"M-M-Mattie?" He asked a rosebud of a blush creeping across his cheeks.

Matthew slid his Tongue over the inside of his mouth. That was when Lovi smelled it, or more accurately, tasted it. 'Liquor?' He wondered, 'And just where the fuck did he get liquor?' Pushing that thought aside for the moment, he slammed Mattie backwards with one hell of a push.

"You seem to be forgetting, that I, Lovino Vargas, live with the king of rapists," Even as he said it he knew Matthew was drunk…And when Matthew got drunk, you ran the fuck away.

Matthew glared at him, Violet eyes flashing, and as he started forward, Lovi did the only thing he could do…He ran. Down the curving stairs, through the winding halls, and right out the door. He ran for a few more blocks before taking shelter in the bushes. He pulled out his black and purple cell phone, and then he dialed.

~~~~~~~~Feli~~~~~~~~

Feli was sitting alone, at his table, in his house. Alone. He wanted Lovi back so bad, he'd easily sell his soul to the devil. He was eating pasta, but for once, no joy was beheld, he wasn't smiling, and it tasted…Bland, lifeless, empty.

He wondered why he wanted his brother so bad, but it was obvious wasn't it? He would never admit the truth, never tell anyone, about the depths of his heart. He decided, they were cursed. He would never gain the heart of his fratello… He would only continue to destroy him, rape him, break him…

"What the hell am I even doing?" Feli asked himself. He gave a laugh, a cruel, cold, and mocking laugh. He hated himself. Yes, he was cruel, but he had never wanted to hold his precious fratello, so painfully.

He had sent him clues, hints, all of it, but Lovi was dense, and he hadn't figured it out. And one day, he snapped. He had thrown him on the bed, entered him, and raped him. He had fucked him until he had passed out. He would break him…

Lovi was jarred out of his thoughts when his phone rang. Quickly he answered.

"Who is it?" He asked.

"F-Feli…"

"Lovi?"

"Y-Yeah."

"What's wrong, you sound like you're afraid, fratello"

"Can you come get me?"

"From Matthews?" He hated that damned Canadian…
"No, from the gas station on Brook Avenue."

"Why the hell are you there?"

"M-Mattie's drunk…"Feli sighed.

"I'll be there in five minutes" He told the phone. He then snapped it shut. Feli grabbed his keys, and jumped in his Ford explorer.

~~~~~~~~~Lovi~~~~~~~~~

Lovi couldn't believe Feli had been the only one capable of picking him up. He stood at the Station patiently waiting, and when the red explorer pulled up, he jumped in the front seat. The ride home was painfully quiet. It seemed like decades before they arrived at their house.

Lovi dashed into the house, heading for his room, however before he could get there, a rough hand grabbed his wrist. Lovi was slammed against the wall, and a voice, Feli's voice whispered into his ear.

"Ti odio, fratello, Ti odio…" His voice sounded almost…hurt? Betrayed? Feli stared at his brother in shock.

"Lovi, are you…crying?" He asked Disbelief crossing his face. Lovi was embarrassed, and ashamed to find that, yes, he was crying. He couldn't take anymore. He couldn't hide his heart, not one more day.

"Y-You may hate me, fratellino, but Ti amo, Ti amo! Even if you hate me, I'd give everything for you. With all of my heart, with all of my soul, Ti amo!" Lovi was sobbing, falling against his brother's chest. His chest was heaving. He was angry at himself, hating how weak he felt. He was crying, or rather, sobbing, into his brother's shirt.

Feli stared at his brother, he couldn't take it. He wanted him. Now.

Gently, he lifted Lovi's face up, and kissed him. The kiss was different, less controlled. His hand slowly trailed down Lovi's back, leaving him burning from the simple caress. Their tongues danced together, in sinful harmony. Before he even knew it, Lovi was on his waist, straddling him. Lovi licked his cheek.

It was the first time, the first time Lovi had willingly touched him, loved him, pleasured him. Feli felt as if he would go insane, Lovi's erotically sexy face gazing at him with both lust and love…

Feli was jerked out of his trance when he felt Lovi unzip his pants, and reach inside. He shuddered violently, Lovi's hand was squeezing, stroking, teasing… It was almost too much to handle. Lovi ground his hips into Feli's, moaning at the pleasant friction. Then, somewhat shakily, he stood. He pulled off his shirt, trailed his hands from his neck to his abdomen. The slowly, as if he were teasing Feli, he pulled off his pants, his boxers soon followed suit. Feli had already freed himself of his own damned clothes and was moving forward. Pulling Lovi down he gently suckled the older boy's nipple, while his hand was snaking around, to do a much more important job.

Lovi moaned as Feli inserted the first finger, his back arching.

"Aaaah aahhnn F-Feli." He whimpered out. Feli was up to three fingers and was curling them, twisting them, trying to find the right spot.

"Nnnnnnnnnnn" Gasped Lovi, his body suddenly twitching.

"F-Feli that's enough, I need you inside me…" Feli felt his eyelids lower, and let loose what sounded like a satisfied purr.

I have always wanted him... and now I have him, wanting me.

Lovi thrust his hips back, searching, seeking his Fratellinos warmth.

Feli withdrew his sinful fingers, making Lovi whimper out a loud

"Mmmphnn"

Lovi shuddered and arches his back, his cock weeping, pleading, needing, and waiting. He waited, but nothing came. With an exceptionally confused face, he glanced at his brother. Feli was smirking, his handsome features mocking.

"If you want me inside of you so bad…Do it yourself." Lovi gazed at his brother, uncomprehending for a moment, then, he realized what Feli wanted. Feli wanted him to climb on top of him, and ride him. Had his brain been working, his defiance would have shouted at him, tell him to hold on to what little dignity he had left. However, at this particular moment, he could barely remember his own name; Much less try to fight the lust induced fog that was surrounding him.

Lovi slid forward, without really noticing he was doing it. He shuddered at the feel of his member against his brothers. He gripped his brothers cock, almost as if it were a lifeline, something keeping him from losing consciousness. He was numb, except for an exceptionally pleasant feeling, in his lower abdomen.

His brothers cock piercing him though…That he felt, he sat there for a moment, not moving, just sitting there with his brothers cock filling up every inch of his ass. Then he lifted, until it seemed he was trying to pull out. Firm hands gripped his slender waist, pulling him down with a force that knocked the wind from his lungs. He whimpered and moaned. Feli had to admit one thing, never before had he heard such a beautiful voice, or felt as much pleasure as he was receiving. Thrust, thrust, thrust, thrust. Feli almost came, hearing the sounds of their bodies slapping together in such a lewd manner… He thrust harder as he pulled those frail hips toward him. His body straining within Lovis clamped heat. Lovi's body was straining, arching, quivering over this, over him. It was enough to destroy a mans mind, this luxurious sight, this feeling. As Lovi strained above him, he reached up and wrapped his hands in that beautiful hair, pulling his face closer, until their lips locked.

How was it possible, for a kiss to cause so much pleasure? Lovi wondered as he felt himself come closer, his breath faster, and his body faster, wild, reckless. I want him. His vision began to dim as he rode this man, this beautifully cruel creature. Feli was pulling him closer, deeper, taking everything, and giving it back a hundred-fold.

Lovi couldn't take anymore, he closed his emerald eyes, and with a fierce shudder, came.

Feli felt his brothers climax, those muscles clenching him, even as Lovis hands did the same. Feli let loose a cross between a grunt, and a growl, and soiled his brother, filling him completely. This was different, he was no longer sinning on his own, but with his beloved fratello, who accepted it, and didn't run away. Lovi was clutching him, and shaking. He ran his hands down his back, trying to comfort him, soothing him. It took minutes before he realized it wasn't Lovi shaking, it was him.

"Ti amo, Lovi." He whispered, positive the smaller male was asleep. Lovi held him closer.

"Hmmm, Ti amo, Feli, Amante." And for the first time, Feli didn't leave.

[So? How did I do? I know it took a long time to put this up, and I apologize. School just started, and I just got my computer back XD I love all of you, and I thank you for staying with me this long. Should I continue this? Tell me what you think, also, I will be writing a new fic, here in the future. One always has a right to fall in love, no matter how cruel, sadistic, or cold. Never forget that. 'Oh yeah, I almost forgot.

Ti Odio- I hate you

Ti amo- I love you

Amante- Lover

Well that's all for now, I hope you enjoyed.

With lust and hate,

~Torahime]