Finally, an update! I'm too exhausted to say anything, so just enjoy the chapter. (:

Disclaimer: I do not own anything. (OMG, I finally put up a decent disclaimer. LOL)


"Umma!"

Kibum turned his head towards the source of the shout and a smile immediately graced his lips. Lee Taemin ran over and gave Kibum a hug, his shiny mushroom hair bouncing even more than usual.

"How's my son?"

Taemin giggled happily as Kibum ruffled his hair.

"Wonderful, umma! You should have come with me and Minho hyung!"

Kibum smiled.

"Yeah, I guess I should have. Where's Minho?"

Taemin pouted slightly.

"He got sick on the ride home. Where's appa?"

Kibum looked over at Jonghyun for help, but Jonghyun just shrugged.

"Kibum hyung, where is Jinki hyung?"

Kibum suddenly wanted to run away. Taemin had called him by his first name, something he never did unless he was really mad. Kibum couldn't look at the younger boy in the eyes as he answered his question.

"He moved to Canada."

Taemin furrowed his eyebrows. He wasn't angry at all. After all, it's not like it was Kibum hyung's fault that Jinki hyung left for Canada. But then, Taemin spotted Kibum giving Jonghyun just the slightest of glances, and he felt a burst of anger within him.

"You're with Jonghyun hyung now, aren't you Kibum?" Taemin purposely left out the 'hyung' after Kibum's name.

"I-I…"

"How could you just move on like that?!"

Kibum tumbled clumsily backwards, taken aback by Taemin's shout. The mild-mannered boy rarely raised his voice. Kibum felt guilt overwhelm him when he saw tears dripping from Taemin's innocent eyes.

"How could you…"

Kibum turned away. He had always known that Jinki and Taemin were close, but it felt like a slap to his face finding out just how much Jinki meant to Taemin. Kibum tried to press down the urge to hug Taemin and never let go. He stepped closer to the crying boy and glared harshly at him.

"You are not my son."

Without another word, he took Jonghyun's hand and walked away. Not before catching Taemin's whisper.

"I never was."

Kibum ran. Along the way his hand was disconnected from Jonghyun's but he didn't care. His mind was a blank as he ran blindly to wherever his feet took him. He felt the tears well up in his eyes when he realized he was standing on the roof.

He fell to his knees, taken over by tears. He missed Jinki so fucking much. He just couldn't seem to do anything right anymore. He wasn't whole. And standing on the roof, right under the pink sky, the images of Jinki were everywhere.

Memories of the time they watched the sunrise together.

(Jinki loved the sunrise because it meant another day with Kibum.)

Memories of their first kiss.

(Just close your eyes.)

Memories of them.

(We'll be together forever, right?)

And Kibum knows that he's still madly, entirely in love with Lee Jinki. Because Jinki belonged to him, and he belonged to Jinki. Because their fates were intertwined by a single red thread, whether they liked it or not. Just because. They were so in love.

Kibum spends the whole day up on the roof, thinking, regretting. As the sun set, casting an orange glow over everything, Kibum packs up and goes home.

(Sunsets mean goodbye, Kibum. And I don't want to say goodbye.)


Jessica notices something going on. Whenever Jinki's observant eyes scanned the classroom, his gaze lingered on Kim Kibum just a fraction of a second longer than it was supposed to. Jinki's eyes smile back every single time Kibum turns back to smile.

To the others, it might have seemed that they were in love. Jinki was in love with Kibum, yes. But not this Kibum.

Jessica starts seeing Jinki leaning against Kibum's locker, chatting with him. She sees Jinki helping Kibum carry his books. She sees the way Kibum changes. He is no longer disobedient and hard to deal with. He is calmer, and more mature. Jessica briefly wonders whether he's in love.

After school, Jessica stood waiting by Kibum's locker. He gives her a smile as he walks towards her.

"Hello. Jessica, Jinki's friend right?"

Jessica nodded.

"Jinki isn't in love with you," she said, going straight to the point.

Kibum stared at her for a moment, and then he laughed.

"Is he in love with you then?"

Jessica bit her lip, and truthfully shook her head.

"Then where is your proof to show that he's not in love with me?"

"What makes you think he loves you?"

Kibum blinked, running a hand through his hair.

"He says it all the time?"

Jessica laughed.

"Trust me; Jinki loves his ex-boyfriend, not you."

Kibum glared at the orange-haired girl.

"How can you be so sure?"

"He says 'I love you Kibum', doesn't he?"

"Well of course he would, I'm Kibum aren't I?"

Jessica sighed.

"When he says that, he's not talking to you. He's talking to his ex-boyfriend. Right before we left Korea, he found his ex-boyfriend kissing his best friend."

"What does that have to do with me?"

Jessica looked up and came face-to-face with Kibum's glare.

"His ex-boyfriend… His name is Kim Kibum."

Kibum's glare disappeared. "Oh."

He looked around and laughed to himself.

"And here I thought he loved me."

Jessica shrugged.

"I'm sorry."

Kibum shook his head.

"No, don't be. It's not your fault."

"Could I just ask for one favour?"

Kibum nodded.

"Stay away from Jinki. He's lost and confused right now, seeing a Kim Kibum might just drive him insane."

Kibum sighed sadly.

"If it's for his own good, I'll do it."

Jessica reached over and hugged Kibum.

"One day, you'll find someone who really loves and treasures you."

Kibum barely knew Jessica, but somehow he felt safe in her embrace, like nothing could ever go wrong with her there. He smiled as Jessica turned around to leave.

"I really admire you. Even though he's still in love with his ex-boyfriend, you love him so much."

Jessica turned back and smiled, but Kibum could see the sadness hidden in her eyes.

"Who says Jinki is the one I love?"


Jinki sighed as he stared at the photo. It was just him and Kibum. They had gone to the beach. He traced Kibum's smile in the photo.

"I thought you were happy with me," he said to no one.

On the other side of the world, Kibum clutched the same photo. Smiling and crying at the same time as he thought of the person he loved so much, the only one he ever truly felt happy with.

All I ever wanted was to see you smile.


I went all cheesy at the end. I'm sorry. Ideas were failing me. ):