I do not own the Inuyasha characters. I do own the plot for Scars and Cuts and the characters Akira Takahashi and Katsuo Yamamoto.
Scars and Cuts
Chapter Four
I've Been Alone All Along
It had been already two weeks since Miroku had walked out of the house. Of course he had come back and he didn't say a word at where he had been. I had already suspected that. It's been like that ever since he came back from wherever it was he was as. He's leave, come back late, go to school as if nothing was wrong, and then come home again only to leave fifteen minutes later. It was almost as if I was living by myself already.
I was sitting on the couch, half-awake and half-asleep, with the television turned onto a true crime channel. I was half paying attention to the detectives running around trying to find this messed up serial killer, my mind was more preoccupied on the very night it happened…the night I found out everything…
Flashback
I wandered back into the living room and sat down on the love seat. The clock on the wall said it was eleven twenty three. I grabbed the remote and turned it on. I flipped through the channels and found nothing interesting to I turned it back off. I looked at nothing in particular as the time flew by me. I guess I had fallen back to sleep because when I heard Miroku's car pull up the clock said two thirty. I heard the engine shut off and the door open then close. I waited and again I heard a door open and close. Was someone with him?
"Come on you drunken fool! Walk on your own!" Is that Inuyasha? And what does he mean by drunk? "Sango, can you open the door?"
I quickly got off the couch and rushed to the door where I unlocked it then opened it wide. There stood Inuyasha holding an almost passed out Miroku. Was this why he stayed out so late? So he could get drunk out of his mind? I watched as Inuyasha all but threw him on the couch. He said a quick goodbye to me and walked out of the door. But before he closed it I called out his name.
"What is it? I'm in a hurry," he said looking back at me clearly annoyed.
"Where's his car at?" I asked. The only car in sight was Inuyasha's red convertible car.
"That drunken retard called me at like four in the morning asking me if I could pick him up. I could tell he was drunk so I did then he crashed at my house. His car is still at her house,"
"Wait, who is she?" I asked again before he could close the door in his face.
"It's his girlfriend, who else could it be? Now I really got to go, I'm helping Sesshomaru move some things around,"
I didn't say anything this time as he closed the door shut. Did he just say girlfriend? There was no way Miroku had a girlfriend, he wouldn't have been flirting with me the way that he was! He would have also told me if he was seeing someone. There's no way this could be happening. I sunk to the ground as I realized what I was thinking. Of course this could be happening, Miroku was the biggest pervert I knew, and I was the biggest idiot ever. I should have known all guys were the same, they're all liars. I felt the tears burning behind my eye lids, just begging to be released. But they wouldn't be, I wasn't going to cry for that two timing asshole anymore. I hugged my knees and placed my forehead on my folded arms. Why had I allowed this? I knew this would happen!
"I really am an idiot…" I said out loud. When I heard groaning I looked up fast and saw that Miroku was sitting up.
"Why are you an idiot? And why is the room spinning?" he asked holding his forehead. "Damn I have a bad headache,"
"Who is she, Miroku?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Don't play stupid!" I yelled standing up.
"Stop yelling damn it! You're making my headache worse!" he said wincing at his own voice.
"Well you just made the hole in my heart bigger and you don't see me complaining! Now tell me who the hell she is!" upon hearing my words he looked at me and I guess he could see the tears that were evident in my eyes. He sighed and looked down.
"What did Inuyasha tell you?"
"He said that you got drunk and that you called him to pick him up from your girlfriends' house! If you had a girlfriend then why the fuck were you flirting with me?" I yelled again.
"I really do like you Sango…"
"That's not an answer, damn it!" there was no stopping the tears now. I hated liars more than I hated my dad. "Why didn't you even tell me you had a girlfriend? I thought we could tell each other everything but I guess not!"
"You're one to talk Sango!" he shot back. He was looking straight into my eyes. I had never seen his beautiful eyes so full of anger. "You didn't even tell me that you were being abused! So who's the real liar here?"
I stayed quiet after he yelled this. The hole in my heart just kept getting bigger. I'm guessing he knew how bad the words affected me because I heard him say my name. I could tell he was getting up but before he could fully stand I looked at him.
"That is way different, Miroku, and you know it. I didn't tell anyone because I was trying to protect the only family member who hadn't abandoned me. What do you think would have happened if I would have told someone and he found out? He would have killed Kohaku and me. What was your excuse?"
"I didn't want to hurt you," he said sinking back down onto the couch.
"You didn't want to hurt me?" I yelled again. "You already hurt me! You hurt me because you kept it from me because you didn't have the balls to tell me; you flirted with me and said all this bull shit about 'us' and how you wanted to be with me, when you were already with some girl I don't even know, and, on top of all that, you had the nerve to try and lie to me about it!"
"I didn't lie about anything!"
"Oh so you just didn't tell me the truth? That's the same thing as lying!"
"Sango, just please listen to me,"
"No, I don't want to listen to your lies anymore!" I didn't give him a chance to say anything else. I quickly ran to my room and slammed the door shut.
I sunk to the floor once again and let the tears fall. I was tired of his mind games. At this point I only knew one thing; my feelings for Miroku were gone.
End Flashback
I shook my head violently to try and erase the pain I was starting to feel. At the time, I had really meant what I said about having no more feelings towards Miroku, but even if I was pissed off at him, I couldn't help but still have the butterflies every time he came around, even if he had a girlfriend and that's where he was going. I like pretending that I have no idea where he's going. I hate that he didn't tell me. I still haven't met her yet; I don't think I ever will now. Why did I have to runaway and ruin everything? Another thing that doesn't really matter…
The phone ringing is what startled me out of my stupor. I got up slowly and made my way towards the phone. The bruises had finally turned a nice yellow color so I could finally sleep on my back again, I was getting sick and tired of always having to be on my stomach. I grabbed the phone from the cradle and answered it.
"Houshi residence," I answered blankly.
"Um, who is this?"
"This is Miroku's honored guess," I said sarcastically. "Who's this?"
"This is Reika; is Miroku there? He was supposed to be here twenty minutes ago,"
So this was his girlfriend, "I'm sorry, Reika, was it? He's not here right now and I haven't seen him since this morning."
"Yes its Reika, alright thank you, um…what was your name again?"
"It doesn't really matter now, does it? Make sure that when you see Miroku, tell him that I'll be at Kagome's house until he realizes I'm still here," I hung up. Screw what Inuyasha's dad said.
It had happened three days ago; Inutaishio had called saying that my case was going to be heard by a friend of his who was also a judge. He had explained that my parents would have to be present, and that while this was going on I was to stay at Miroku's house. Miroku was supposed to be my 'guardian' while I was here, but how the hell was he supposed to guard me when he was at Reika's house. I rolled my eyes lightly as I made my way to my 'room' to pack up an overnight bag. I'd only stay there for one night, I decided. I don't want to impose on them and, hopefully, Inuyasha wouldn't be there and start telling me shit about how I was disobeying orders. Well, on a plus side, I could always get Miroku in trouble with Inutaishio…
I smiled to myself as a mental image of Inutaishio tying Miroku by his ankles and hitting him with a stick. Then he would give me the stick and say I could do whatever I wanted with him. Oh and did I have some ideas…
After making a quick call to Kagome to make sure Inuyasha really wasn't there, I headed out of the house, not even bothering to lock the door, at this point maybe if the house got broken into he'll think I was kidnapped and actually worry about me. I laughed lightly at the thought; he probably would be happy, one less girl to worry about. I walked two blocks down and sat down at the bus station. I would have to catch the bus to her street then walk three blocks to the left and then all the way up those damn stairs to get to the Higurashi Shrine.
When the bus finally came, I used the money I stole from Miroku to pay my fair. I sat in the middle of the bus and kept my head down, just in case someone saw me. Most of the ride was quiet, except for the occasional person talking. I watched the scenery change from the window to neighborhoods to the hustle and bustle of the city. The bus then lurched to a stop as some people got on and more people got on. I still had my head down when I felt someone tap me on the shoulder. When I looked up I smiled.
"Hey Kouga,"
"I thought that was you, Sango," Kouga said smiling. "May I?"
"Sure," I said moving my bag out of the seat Kouga was referring to. "What are you doing out here in the city?"
"Oh nothing much, I was actually on a date until a little while ago," he said while getting comfortable.
"How is that nothing?" I said laughing. "Who was it with?"
"Ayame, who else would I go out with?"
"You guys finally got together? It's about damn time Ookami," I said joking.
"We got together like two weeks ago," Kouga stated. "You would know if you were at school," I didn't answer right away. When I looked at him, I could see in his eyes that he knew why I wasn't. Before I could ask him; he answered. "Inuyasha told me about it. He had originally wanted you to tell me, but when you never came back to school he decided to tell me instead,"
"I see…" I said quietly. I hadn't expected that; in all honesty, I had forgotten to tell Kouga about it. At the time I was mainly concerned with Kagome and everyone else that I neglected to tell my other best friend. "I'm sorry I didn't say anything to you, Kouga,"
"Hey, don't worry about it alright? I'm not upset or anything. I just wish I could kill the bastard for ever laying a hand on you," he growled.
"Can you please not make a scene inside of the bus?" I half teased. He only smiled at me and I lightly punched him in the arm.
The rest of the time was spent just talking about school and what we were gonna do once school let out. I told him honestly that I wanted to try and gain custody of Kohaku and then start attending the local community college since I was going to be tight on money if I had to watch over him. I also explained what Inutaishio had said since Inuyasha didn't really get into too much detail with Kouga about it. Another part of the deal was that I would have to work while I was living with Miroku. It would be somewhere where my dad would never see me at, which would most likely be at either Inutaishio's office or at Izayoi's office.
"I'm not even sure if I'll be able to finish high school," said while pulling the string signaling to the bus driver I wanted to get off. "Inutaishio said I might have to be homeschooled and that he would hire a tutor to go over to Miroku's house or get me over to his house to do it there. I'm still in shock that he's doing all of this for me,"
"You're like another daughter to him, Sango," Kouga said shrugging as if it was nothing. The bus was finally coming to a stop and when it halted he gave me a big hug. "If I were you, I'd be very careful around here, you never know,"
"I will," I promised while hugging him back. "See you later, Kouga!" I watched as he waved goodbye as the bus pulled out of the small station and I swung my bag back over my shoulder and started walking towards Kagome's house.
I had never noticed until now just how nice the houses looked. I had passed by them so many times, but I had never actually paid attention to them. Half the time I walked here I was talking to Kagome or I was in a car zipping passed these houses. But as I looked at the simple one story structures I was in a state of awe. The colonial looking columns looked so perfect against these houses. They looked like they should be in Inuyasha's neighborhoods. I wonder if the city paid to have all these houses fixed up the way they were.
I shook my head slightly and laughed at myself. Here I am supposed to be looking out for my dad and I'm too busy noticing the scenery. Just like me to get distracted. I was already at the end of the block when I almost got hit by a car, but just not any car, his car. I could vaguely see him sitting in the driver seat with that girl sitting next to him. Was that blonde hair I saw? Well no wonder he's with her, I thought rolling my eyes.
I crossed the street and while I casually looked down it I saw that the reverse lights were lit up. Oh shit, did he see me? I thought panicking. Sure enough, the car was reversing into a drive way and making its way back down the road, right towards me. I took off running as fast as I could. There was no way he was going to take me back to his house while I had to sit in the back and listen to them talk about all their fun times together. I'd rather go back to my dad then have to face that!
I raced past the second block and when I looked back I saw his car with the turn signal on; he was turning right. I felt my adrenaline kick in as I saw the shrine steps come into view. With lightning speed I raced up all of them in record time. When I reached the top I didn't stop until I reached the front door. I started knocking immediately and I didn't stop until someone answered. Kagome answered the door and the smile she had vanished and became a puzzled frown.
"Sango, are you ok? It looks like you just ran a mile in five seconds," she stated,
Without answering I rushed in passed her and slammed the door. I looked around for a moment and dashed up the stairs, passed Mrs. Higurashi who was caring a laundry basket, passed the annoyed face of Grandpa Higurashi, and nearly ran into the confused looking Souta. When I finally made it into Kagome's room the first place I went into was Kagome's closet where I closed the door. I slid to the floor and tried unsuccessfully to try and contain my breath.
"Sango, where are you? What has gotten into you?" she asked coming close to the closet. When she opened it she looked at me curiously and placed her hands on her hips. "What happened to you?"
"I saw Miroku," I said in pants. "He was with Reika and I guess he saw me because he turned around and when he did I took off running. Kagome, if Inuyasha has a record on how fast he can get up those stairs without using his demon speed I think I just broke it," I said while lying on the floor of the closet on top of Kagome's shoes.
"If you did it in less than five seconds, then yes, you broke his record. Sango I think you just broke everyone's record of climbing up those stairs,"
"Awesome," I said while finally calming down enough to be able to breathe right. "If he comes knocking on the door with Reika in tow tell him I'm not here,"
"Wait a minute, back up, who the hell is Reika?" when I looked into her eyes she turned on the closet light, made a space for herself, closed the door, and sat down with me. "Tell me everything that happened from the last time I saw you,"
And so I did. I told her about how when we were at Inuyasha's house when we were swimming how he was talking about how much he liked me and how much he wanted us to be together. I told her about how when I rejected him he had been gone every night to some persons house, who was obviously a girl since he had said "you don't know her," and then I got up to when Inuyasha came to his house with a drunk Miroku in tow and how he had unintentionally told me Miroku had a girlfriend. When I finished she nodded her head and told me to continue. So I did, I told her about how Reika called and how we talked for awhile before had I told her I was going to come here and told her to tell Miroku.
"Sango, if you had told her to intentionally tell Miroku, why did you run away from him?"
"He would have just dragged me back and I wanted to avoid the whole awkward silence of sitting in the backseat of his car with his blonde headed girlfriend, ok? Wouldn't you have done the same thing if our positions were reversed?"
"Point taken, I would have done the same thing," she agreed. A few moments later we heard a knock on the door. "Who is it?" Kagome yelled.
"Sis, Miroku's here to see you," Souta said while opening the door. "He said that he wanted to talk to you and Sango. Where are you guys anyways?"
"We're in the closet; tell Miroku I'll be right down,"
"I will," he said. We both heard the door close and then it opened up again. "By the way, he has some girl with him with blonde hair; do you know who she is?"
"Nope," Kagome answered. "I'll be right down."
I looked over at her and she sighed. I could tell she was battling with herself and whether or not she wanted to meet Reika. We both knew that her mother had raised her better than that. So with another heavy sigh she got up off the floor, opened up the closet door, and walked out towards the hallway. I sat there, not wanting to go after her; but, against my better judgment, I slowly stood up and headed towards the hallway anyways. From Kagome's doorway I could hear her offering drinks and snacks to them. Reika, the only persons whose voice I didn't recognize, was thanking her, but it was pretty obvious Miroku wasn't buying it.
"Kagome, thanks for being a nice hostess, as always, but I asked for both you and Sango to come down here, not just you,"
"You can't just summon us as if we were your slaves, Miroku," Kagome answered. "If Sango wanted to come down then she would have." Score one for Kagome.
"I understand that, Kagome, but I really need to talk with her,"
"What do you need to talk to her about?"
"Something private,"
"Miroku," I heard Kagome say. "I know everything that is going on with you two, and I mean everything,"
I could already see Miroku's face; he was probably sweating from his nerves, while the very reason I was pissed off at him was sitting next to him on Mrs. Higurashi's brown loveseat. He was probably avoiding her gaze, the way he always did when he knew he was trapped.
"So, just to add on, anything you have to say, you can say to me. Unless, for some reason, you don't want to say it in front of your girlfriend here,"
As quietly as I could, I walked lower down the stairs until I could see the side of Miroku's face, and right next to him I could see her, the blonde girl named Reika. She was a deep tan color, I guess you could say she was petite, I couldn't really tell with her sitting down. She was wearing a white off the shoulder top and she only wore a necklace. She leaned back against the sofa and I had to bite my tongue before I let out a loud gasp. She was wearing his mother's necklace; the only piece of jewelry that meant so much to him. He had told me once he would only give it to someone he intended on marrying. There was no way…
"Well, Kagome, you're my best friend also and I guess you would have found out sooner or later," I saw him shift in his seat to where he was now sitting up as straight as Reika was. He grabbed her hand and looked her straight in the eyes. "Reika and I have decided to get married,"
Silence; that is the only word I could use to describe that moment. After the silence, the only thing I heard was Kagome's gasp, my sharp intake of breath, and the breathing of Miroku and Reika. This was not happening; there was no way this could be happening…
"…congratulation?" Kagome muttered out meekly. "Congratulations, Miroku and Reika."
"Thank you," Reika answered, speaking clearly for the first time. "I'm really glad that one of Roku's friends approves of me, but what about your other friend?"
"Do you mean Inuyasha?" Kagome asked her.
"No, not him, I've met Inu on plenty of occasions, I'm talking about the other friend, the girl I talked to on the phone today,"
"Oh, you mean Sango," Kagome answered. "Well like I had told Miroku earlier, she's up stairs right now, she uh, wasn't feeling well."
"That's too bad…I was really looking forward to meeting her…"
"Maybe you can convince her to come down here, Kagome," Miroku suggested.
"I'll try…"
I already had my answer ready when Kagome excused herself from where Miroku and Reika were at. I was going to shout out 'hell no' until I realized Mrs. Higurashi would be very disappointed if such language would come out of my mouth. I stayed on the stairs and when Kagome started walking up she was a little startled when she saw me just sitting there. She could tell I was going to argue but in a flash she grabbed my wrist and all but dragged me into the empty bathroom. Before I could even begin to argue she spoke.
"Listen, Sango, just please try and grin and bear it. He's your friend Sango, regardless of what has happened. At least go down there and be a little supporting of him,"
"I refuse to be supportive! Didn't you see what she was wearing Kagome? She's wearing his mother's necklace! Or did you fail to notice that?"
"I did notice it…" she answered quietly. "I always thought he'd give it to you,"
"Don't be ridiculous Kagome," I answered. "If you want me to go and see them and pretend like everything is alright, then fine, I'll do it,"
"Thanks, Sango," she said while giving me a big hug. "Well, let's go down there and face the happy couple, Reika and Roku. Oh and remind me, when they leave, to give Inu a phone call."
I couldn't help but laugh at her tone of voice. I'm pretty sure Inuyasha was going to get an ear full for not telling Kagome that Miroku had a girlfriend and that they were that serious about each other. I looked into the mirror that was over the sink and sighed. I was so plain compared to Reika. I heard the door open and Kagome say to get going. I sucked in a deep breath and headed out of the bathroom and down the stairs to where Miroku and Reika were sitting.
I didn't say anything as I went and sat down where Kagome had been sitting. The first person I looked at was Miroku who was just staring down at his shoes. What a coward, he couldn't even look me in the eyes. My eyes shifted over to Reika and she greeted me with a warm smile.
"It's nice to meet you, finally, Sango," she said while extending her hand. "I've heard so much about you from Roku."
"Yes, well that makes one of us," I answered as calmly as I could. I gripped her hand and shook it firmly. I was quite satisfied when she pulled her hand back and rubbed it to try and make the pain go away. "The first time I heard of you was when Miroku came home drunk two weeks ago."
"Roku can be such a heavy drinker when he's got a lot on his mind," she stated while leaning against him. "I try my best to make him stop but sometimes he just doesn't,"
"Believe me; I know what you're talking about,"
"He can be such a handful sometimes," she said laughing. "But he's definitely the one for me,"
"Tell me, Reika, how did you two meet?" I asked completely ignoring her previous statement. "He didn't tell me and neither did Inuyasha, so why don't you tell us how you met?"
"Is that really important?" Miroku said, speaking for the first time to me.
"Of course it's important, Roku, I want to know how you two fell in love, seeing as no one knew except for Inuyasha," I said while glaring at him. "So please, Reika, tell us,"
"Hmm…let's see. Roku and I met at my school. You see I'm a college student at the moment and we met was it two years ago? Yes I'm sure that's how long ago it was. At first we just used to walk by each other whenever he was at my school until finally we started talking. Then a few months went by and I grew a very big crush on him. I didn't know he felt the same until a few months later when he asked me to be his girlfriend. That was a year and a half ago; we've been together ever since."
"So you met him while you were in high school then, Reika?" Kagome asked. She had just finished handing me a cup up tea which I sipped at while watching Miroku's reaction.
"Oh no, I was a freshman in college when Roku and I met," she answered while smiling up at him.
It was at that moment I started chocking on my tea. If Miroku was a senior in high school, then that means he met Reika when he was only a sophomore!
"Do you mean to tell me," I said after I regained my composure. "That you have been dating for this long and you didn't tell anyone!"
"Like Reika said earlier, Inuyasha knew," Miroku said while giving Reika's hand a small squeeze. "Besides, age doesn't really matter,"
"That's not the point," I said barely audible. I'm sure they couldn't hear me very well since I was clenching my teeth.
"We plan on getting married right after Roku gets out of high school," Reika said continuing on. "Well maybe not right out of high school, possibly as soon as he starts college. We plan to go to Tokyo University together. It'll be just us two until we plan on having children, but that won't be until we finish college altogether, right Roku?"
As they continued on about their plans with their future lives together, I was too busy clenching my hands into fists. Did I really have to be part of all this? I'd rather be back with my father then here listening to them talk about her wedding dresses and the bridesmaids dresses.
"Maybe, if it's alright with you guys, you two could actually be bridesmaids," Reika suggested. "I think it would be marvelous! It's obvious after we're married we're going to be spending time together, since you're best friends with Roku. What do you think?"
"I wouldn't have a problem with it," Kagome said smiling. "What about you Sango?"
"Before I agree to anything, I'd rather get to know you a lot better. Because what do we really know about you? All we do know is your name and how you met Miroku, I can't possibly agree to anything until I know more about you," I said staring Reika in the eyes. My eyes flickered momentarily down to the small necklace she was wearing. It was a simple silver chain with a rectangular shaped diamond. "I have to ask this, but where did you get that necklace? It's beautiful,"
"Roku gave it to me on our one year anniversary," she said beaming at him. "He said it was very special to him,"
"Yes it would be, considering it belonged to his mother," I said flatly. The look of shock that came across her face nearly made me laugh. I can't believe he didn't tell her it belonged to his mother.
"You never told me that, honey," Reika said while staring at Miroku.
"It was in his mothers' will that it'd be given to the woman Miroku was to marry," I kept going. "Until now, only two other women had seen it. Can you guess who they were?" Reika didn't answer. I could tell by Miroku's face and the way Kagome sat up while I was talking how uncomfortable is was getting in the room, yet I pressed on. "That's right, only you and I have ever seen that necklace; I'm sure now you know exactly why I saw that necklace. Now, if you'll excuse me…"
I didn't wait for anyone to say anything. Instead, I stood up and walked back up the stairs towards Kagome's room. Once the door was closed and I was back in the closet once again sitting on Kagome's shoes, was when I finally let all the tears fall down…
Kagome told me, after I had excused myself from the living room, that Reika didn't look very happy. She looked really hurt. Miroku apologized for my behavior and so did Kagome. I'm not sure how they got out of that one, but they managed because Kagome said Reika left with a smile on her face and also gave Kagome the biggest hug she had ever received.
"Why would you go and say that, Sango?" Kagome had asked me when she walked back upstairs. I didn't know how to respond. Instead I heard myself saying: "I'm guessing I had all this anger pent up in me from all the drama with him and that I exploded."
Kagome obviously saw right through that excuse, and if it wasn't for me mentioning she had to call Inuyasha, I would have gotten a very stern lecture that I did not want at the moment. On the other hand, hearing Kagome yell at Inuyasha was definitely a way to get me out of my rotten mood. Of course, it wouldn't last forever. I still had to go back to Miroku's house, regardless of what was going on, and I knew he was going to give me an ear full for what happened.
"Sango, you know you can stay here as long as you want, right?" Kagome asked me while I was packing all my stuff. "I mean it's not that big of a deal,"
"Kagome, I've already been here for a week. I've been wearing your old clothes and I must say I'm tired of wearing pastel colors and skirts. I won't be away for very long but I still have to keep up the appearance that I'm living with Miroku." I was finishing zipping up my bag when I turned to her. "Besides, I think grandpa is tired of me already,"
"You know that's not true," Kagome argued back. "Grandpa loves you as if you were his own granddaughter,"
"Oh how I wish that was true," I said laughing. "But really, Kagome, I'll be fine. I can see how it's going to be when I return. Miroku's going to yell at me, I'm going to yell at him, he's gonna leave to her house, I'm gonna be on my own for about two or three weeks. It really is no big deal, but if I get lonely I'll invite you over and we can raid Miroku's underwear drawer and toss them on the street."
Kagome smiled mischievously. "We already did that, remember?"
"How can I forget?"
A couple of minutes later, I was on my way back to my own personal hell. I thankfully didn't run into anyone I knew on the bus, although seeing Kouga again would have been great. I really missed going to school and seeing everyone like I always used to. Sometimes I wished it could be the way it used to be; even if that meant living with my father and getting beat every day; not knowing Miroku was in a serious relationship with a girl I didn't even know and me, being the idiot that I was, falling for him more and more each day. Life really was a complicated thing. Letting out an inaudible sigh, I looked out the window and took in the familiar scenery. It felt like it had been a decade that I was out of that house, in reality it was a little over a month, and yet, so much has happened. I rolled my eyes, this was getting ridiculous.
Finally the bus made it to its destination. I got off and headed towards the second bus stop that would take me to his house. As I was walking there, memories of before Miroku had his car, how when I was supposed to be studying with my friends, I would be at his house. He would get on the bus with me and we'd ride together until this stop. Then we'd say goodbye and he'd watch as I got on the bus that would take me home and I would watch as he began walking back to his house the whole ten blocks we had just passed. If I would have known that he would have fallen for another girl before we even had a chance, I would have gotten up the courage to ask him out way before. But no, life doesn't work that way. This time I didn't stop my sigh as it came out. Thankfully no one was there.
I watched various cars pass by while I waited and waited. The bus was taking way to long. I didn't have a watch or a cell phone to check the time, but I knew for a fact that the bus should have been here already. Today really wasn't my day, I decided. After waiting another ten minutes I decided that for some retarded reason, the bus wasn't coming. It wasn't even dark outside, so the bus should have showed up already. I stood up from where I was sitting and grabbed my bag. I began walking down the street and groaned. I always hated walking to his house.
It wasn't until I was three blocks away from his house that the bus went speeding by. After letting out various curses and groans, I kept on walking. At least I didn't miss one of my buses, I thought trying to stay as optimistic as possible. Finally, after walking for who knows how long, I made it to his house. I smiled, his car wasn't there. I all but ran to his house and when I reached the door I turned the doorknob. It was locked. I turned to my left and looked under the fake rock to find out that he had taken the spare key from there. What an asshole!
I stood there for about five minutes before I realized I could try seeing if the windows were open. I skipped the living room windows, knowing full well that they were locked. I went around, skipping the kitchen window to my own bedroom and cursed at myself for locking them the last time I opened the window. I tried every single window and was very displeased to find them all locked. The only windows I hadn't tried were Miroku's, because I wasn't allowed into his room and the kitchen window because it was too high up. Oh the hell with it, I thought while looking around the yard for something to climb on. I finally found a trashcan and placed it underneath the window. The window was thankfully open and the only problem I had was when I was trying to get over the clean dishes. Once I was successfully inside I closed the window and locked it this time. As I was making my way over to my room I head this strange thumping noise. Had someone broken into the house? I quietly made my way over to where the noise was coming from. It wasn't from my room because I had left the door open. When I was close to Miroku's door I head the same thumping noise but it was more in a pattern this time. Then I heard it, the same voice from earlier, except this time, said voice was moaning.
Not only did I turn red from embarrassment, I also turned red from anger. So this is why he removed the house key, he didn't want me interrupting them. What sick bastards! I marched back to my room and when I was safely inside, I slammed the door with so much force that some of the pictures from the hallway fell to the floor with a thud. I was quiet satisfied when I heard Miroku shout a profanity and also when I heard Reika shriek. I sat down on my bed as I heard heavy footsteps from Miroku's room, then as the door was opening I sat down crossed leg. When I heard running from the hallway I sat back on the bed and watched as my door swung open. There was Miroku, in only some sweat pants that I was sure were grabbed randomly from the floor to cover him up. When he looked at me I could see first the confusion then the anger.
"What the hell are you doing here?" he yelled.
"I live here, remember?" I said calmly. "Or did you forget?"
"I didn't forget. I just figured you would have stayed away longer. Why didn't you call like a regular person? If I would have known you were coming I would have—"
"You would have what, Miroku? Waited to have sex with your fiancée? Made up some lame excuse to make me stay over another night? Actually put the key back where it's always at? What would you have done Miroku?" I waited for his answer but it never came. For a long time we just stared at each other until Reika decided to break the silence.
"What's going on Roku?" she asked while wearing one of his shirts. "Oh, um, hello there Sango, what brings you here?"
"I live here, or did Miroku fail to mention that to you?"
She was taken aback from my statement. "I had just assumed you were visiting, that's why you answered the phone the day I called you."
"Well, you assumed wrong,"
"Miroku, what's going on?"
"She's only here because she needed somewhere to stay while her parents are out of town; she'll be here for only a few more weeks," he explained. He was about to keep going but I burst out laughing.
"Oh my goodness, Miroku, you are truly a comedian!" I said while holding my sides in pain. Tears were flowing from my eyes, but not because I was laughing so hard. "So my 'parents are out of town' now are they? Well I guess you could say that. But Reika, if you want to know the truth, I'm living with Miroku because my dad has been beating the shit out of me for five years. So Miroku, being the gentleman that he is, offered for me to stay here, wasn't that nice of him? But now, he's gotten himself in a bind. Want to know how? I have to live with him until I go to court to become free from my father so I can live on my own and get a job to support my younger brother and myself. The court says I have to live in this house, so because of that, Miroku has decided he'd rather stay away, but that was after the little incident we had at Inuyasha's house,"
"That's enough, Sango," Miroku said.
"But Miroku, I'm getting to the good part," I said as the tears continued to stream out of my eyes. "I'm getting to the part where you said that you—"
"SHUT UP SANGO!" Miroku yelled startling Reika who was standing next to him, staring at me as I spoke.
"And so he breaks from it all," I said while smiling. "See what happens when it all builds up? Can you feel it Miroku? Welcome to my life,"
For a long time, they stood in my doorframe. It was Reika who finally broke the stillness by going back into Miroku's room, shortly afterwards, Miroku left while slamming the door behind him. I could hear them talking to each other from his room. It was obvious that she was upset. I said some horrible things, but I didn't regret it. A few minutes later I heard a door slam followed by the start of a car engine. I thought his car wasn't here. Maybe he had her car or something. I guess there would be no sex tonight, I thought amusingly…
The slamming of the front door is what woke me up from my little nap. The jingling of keys being thrown on the floor is what I heard following the slamming of the door. Then it was the heavy footsteps headed towards my room, then my door being flung open by one very angry man.
"Why did you say all of that to her?" he asked me as calmly as he could. "Do you have any idea how much you've hurt her?"
"I have an idea," I said. "I'm pretty sure it must hurt to know the truth,"
"You've ruined everything Sango! Why couldn't you just keep your mouth shut? Why did you have to come back today? Everything would have been fine if you would have just stayed away! Everything would have been fine if—"
"You would have never said anything about me being abused!" I yelled back. "If you wouldn't have been being nosey that day you saw Kohaku being beat and then when my father slapped me then this would have never happened! You would have been free to fuck Reika all the time you were here! Who really is the one to blame in this situation, Miroku?"
"I want you out of here, Sango," he said. "I don't care if I get in trouble with Mr. Takahashi, I want you out,"
"If you were just going to throw me out why did you agree to have me here? What was the reason Miroku? Was it so you could get into my pants?" I yelled once more. My eyes were burning with all the tears I was shedding.
"I don't even know why I agreed on having you here. I regret letting you stay here. Why don't you just make this easier on me and just run away like you always do. I'm pretty sure you can lie your way out of it,"
There it was; the knife straight to my heart. I should have known he would say something like that. But what does it matter? All along I knew something like this would happen. I knew me moving in with him would have ruined our friendship. After all, I'm just a screw up…
"Fine, if you want me out of the house that badly, I'll leave," I said while sitting up from my bed. "I'll leave right now. Maybe I'll go to Kagome's house, or maybe even with Inuyasha. I have a basic idea of where Kouga lives. Maybe I can go there instead. Wouldn't it be safer if I went to a guy's house? My dad would never dream of looking at a guy's house since he figured I only had one friend. But I'll just pack my things and get out of your way, Miroku,"
"Stop trying to give me the guilt treatment, Sango. It's not going to work this time," he said sternly.
"I wasn't trying to give the guilt treatment. I'm trying to figure out somewhere where I can be safe. I guess the safest place would be with Kouga. If you don't mind, I'll use your phone and give him a call, then walk to his house when I get the directions. I don't think he lives very far from you, does he? I'm pretty sure my dad won't be driving around looking for me around Kouga's house." I stood up and made my way towards where the phone was at. I passed by Miroku who moved out of the way. As I grabbed the phone I heard Miroku walk back towards his room. I dialed Kouga's number and when we began talking I let out a sigh.
"I'm sorry, Sango,"
"Don't worry about it, Kouga," I said while trying to hold back the tears. "I'll see you later alright? I need to call Inuyasha now,"
"Alright Sango, again, I'm really sorry,"
I hung up the phone and hesitated. I really didn't want to call Inuyasha and ask him if I could stay over. I knew how upset his dad would be to hear that it wasn't working out here. The only thing I could do was explain it to him what had happened these past few weeks and hope that he would at least let me stay a couple of days to clear my head. Automatically, I began dialing his number and I waited for the phone to pick up. Just my luck, Mr. Takahashi answered. After the hellos were said I immediately began talking about what had happened with Miroku. Needless to say, when I was finished, he was not a happy dog demon. He explained to me again about how I had to stay with Miroku, no matter what was going on. Even after I asked if I could only stay a few days he had said no, and I knew that was his final word. I replied a thank you and then hung up.
"Well, what did he say?" Miroku asked.
"He said I had to stay here," I said while placing the phone back.
"It seems as if you're going to have to leave anyways, because I don't want you here,"
"You've mentioned that," I replied while walking towards my room. He followed.
"Are you going to leave soon? I convinced Reika to come back and stay the night but I assured her you'd be gone,"
"I knew it,"
"You knew what?"
"That I can't trust men, they're all the same," I told him while staring into his violet blue orbs. I looked away again and grabbed my bag. "It seems as though this is goodbye Miroku. I hope you and Reika have a nice life together."
He didn't say anything as I made my way towards the front door. As I was touching the handle I looked back at him for the last time.
"Oh wait, I forgot something," I said while walking back to him. I looked into his eyes and for a moment I saw that same look I used to always see in his eyes when he would look at me; pure adoration. My hands clenched into fists as I looked at him. Then, with all the power I could muster, I punch him right on the side of his face. "That's for being a two timing asshole!"
I turned back around and headed again for the door. I didn't hesitate this time as I opened the door and walked out of his house. I turned around and saw him just standing there rubbing his cheek. I was sure the tears were evident in my eyes, but I rubbed them away furiously. I would no longer cry over Miroku Houshi.
"And I'm standing here alone, still I hold my head up high, the time has come for me to leave, it's the only way to survive,"I sang quietly while walking down the street passed the bus stop and going past it. I looked up at the sky and then back down as I began walking to my destination. "It's the only way to survive…"
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