Disclaimer: This again? Really. Okayyyy I'll say it again. I do not own these characters. The wonderful Stephenie Meyer does quite obviously.

Here We Go Again

Chapter Four

EPOV

She doesn't believe me... She hates us... Its my fault... My Bella... I love her... She hates me...

Alice could see I was going to pieces, I couldn't concentrate. I could vaguely feel my feet shuffling towards the car. I could feel my lungs working over time as I stood gasping in more useless breaths with Emmetts grip on my back as they hurried me to the car.

Suddenly we were speeding towards home leaving behind a confused group of bystanders wondering what had happened.

"STOP!" I yelled at the top of my lungs making Jasper swerve in the road then screech to a stop.

"Oh my god what is it?" Jaspers frustration was justified.

Now I could concentrate on my surroundings again the emotions flying around inside the car were suffocating. How Jasper can deal with them all at once is mind boggling. I can barely contain my own hysteria.

Finding my voice in the haze of thoughts surrounding me, I knew I had to get them to understand. Their determination to get home was palpable.

"We need to go back and stop her, make her understand. She could leave! I cant live without her again. She will understand. She has to!" I was gasping again by the time I finished.

There was silence as everyone took in my plea. They could see my reasoning but were desperate to get home to Carlisle and Esme to tell them about Bella and get their opinion as head of the household. My desperation was quickly becoming aggravation as they took longer than I'd hoped to decide. Alice was the one who spoke up.

"Edward just calm down, please, take deep breaths." She pleaded

"Spit it out Alice we don't have much time" I hardly ever spoke harshly to Alice but this was different, this was about my Bella.

"Edward I can't see exactly what Bella's going to do but I know that if we try to approach her it wont go well. We can all see that after her reactions today. I think she has a gift but I'm unsure what it is. Don't panic but I cant see her future. I think her gift comes into it somehow. What I suggest is we wait until tomorrow and try to speak to her gradually. She may be less aggressive if we keep it as one to ones for now. We all miss her but we cant push this."

Alice's plea made sense but it doesn't matter to me. I will try and find her tonight after we've told Carlisle and Esme. They deserve to know but it wont stop me from being near my love.

As we hurried into the living room of our new home in Anchorage, Esme could tell instantly something was wrong as she came to greet us from school and saw our animated expressions.

"What's wrong? Is anyone hurt? CARLISLE!" As she yelled, Carlisle appeared seconds later at her side.

He took in our appearances and hurried us into the dining room to sit around our dining/conference table.

"What's happened?" Carlisle and Esme sat next to each other holding hands facing us.

"Its Bella" I breathed into the still silent room.

"Edward, honey, I know you miss her, we all do. What do you need? I'm here for you." Esme was always supportive of course.

"No you don't understand! Bella's alive. She's a vampire. We saw her at school today!" Thank god Rosalie broke the news, I don't think I could have said that out loud without rushing out of the house to go find her. Her words alone made me glance towards the door desperately.

They didn't know what to do. They saw we were serious but couldn't believe it. I understood that feeling, it had me rooted to my spot in the cafeteria earlier. Their minds were in chaos much like ours. Their faces seemed to have paled, there eyes wide with shock and disbelief.

Carlisle broke the silence in his commanding tone. "Explain."

Alice told them how we first saw Bella sitting in Anchorage high on her own. She described Bellas beauty, her expressions of disgust, how we couldn't find her scent until up close. She described in detail our excruciating conversations.

At this point Carlisle noticed my frenzied glances at the clock, so he addressed me in his thoughts. Son, what do you have planned?

Speaking aloud for the first time since we entered the room I told them my plans. "Carlisle, Esme. She might leave! I can't let her go now I have her back. She can hate me if she wants as long as she's still around. You deserved to know what happened first but I have to go find her!".

Esme was only capable of gasping a quiet. "My baby".

We all new she was referring to Bella and not my frantic state. I could hear Carlisle's jarring thoughts, he wanted Bella back here where she belonged and wanted to come with me to help find her. However his more practical side was in agreement with Alice. He told me so. Edward if you do find her scent, which isn't very likely after what you described earlier, she could become even more aggressive towards us all. That could lead her to leave. We don't want that. I'm sorry.

I already knew what he was going to say out loud to everyone and didn't want to hear it. "I agree with Alice. I believe it would be wise to wait until we are around the student body so she cannot become aggressive. As much as this is a huge shock to our systems, I imagine it's the same for Bella. We should gradually start to talk to her in small groups. The less we aggravate her the more likely she will be to stay put".

As everyone nodded in agreement, I loudly scraped my chair back and stood up. Bracing my hands on the edge of the table I gave my frustrated reply. "It makes sense I agree. But I will not sit in this house knowing she's out there on her own. If it was any of your other halves you would feel the same way. She may hate me but I will never stop loving her. I will track her scent and find where she is, I wont speak to her and she wont know I'm there but I have to see her".

With that I sprinted out the front door and into the forest to search for my Bella.


Racing through the darkening forest, I came to a stop by an old evergreen tree and let out a loud cry of defeat scaring a bird from its perch in the canopy. I slumped against the trunk and slid down to the ground. With my head in my hands I had to think of a plan. I had found a trace of her scent around the high school and been able to follow it for a few minutes until it ended near the side of the road a mile away. I carried on running in the general direction she was headed hoping to catch another wisp of her scent. There was no luck.

I hadn't given up, the forest had been scoured for the past 4 hours with no trace anywhere.

Whatever gift she has must be very powerful.

I knew I should be heading back home as the others are probably worrying beyond belief. Even with Alice's visions she cant always see outside factors that could change the course of the future. I would head back soon but I needed to think.

I would get Bella to understand. I had to! I would remind her of how we fell in love and explain how leaving her had been the biggest mistake of my life and that I had returned for her. What if she believes me but still doesn't care? I can't live without her. I would have to go to the Volturi and ask them for a favour. If I keep it from my mind I'm sure I can keep it from Alice's sight. Again.

When Charlie told me Bella had died I booked the flight to Volterra within the hour. Arriving at the airport I had been confronted by 6 very hurt looking vampires. I was pushed into the back of the Jeep and taken home with Emmett and Jaspers 24 hour supervision. Over the next few years I had tried to get to Volterra again on the lie of a hunting trip, but the pixie never fell for it. Always one step ahead. So I resigned myself to an existence of torture, hearing everyone's sorrow at Bellas death, seeing them change in front of my eyes. Even worse than my agonising heartbreak was the knowledge that Bellas last impression of me was that I didn't want her. As if I could ever want anyone else!

Feeling the whole in my heart ache in longing for my Bella, I picked myself off the muddy ground and headed home.

I expected to be bombarded with questions on my arrival home but was met with silence and looks of pity instead as they sat scattered around the living room.

Esme spoke up first. "Alice told us you had no luck. I'm so sorry Edward. Could you take a seat we need to talk about tomorrow".

I sat next to Jasper on the leather sofa hoping he could feel my anguish and help in some way. As he got the hint I felt my spirits lift minutely. Not enough to stop the pain but enough to function. I threw him a quick smile and sat back for the plan of action.

Alice sat up straighter. "You all saw how she acted when I hugged her." She stopped to smile sadly at us all. "I think we should restrain ourselves as much as possible around her for now. I've contacted the high school and swapped our schedules to match Bella's. Myself, Jasper and Edward will be in the same classes all week. Emmett and Rose will only see her at lunch" She mouthed a quick sorry in their direction. "If we get the chance to speak to her, keep it simple, don't ask anything personal, she obviously sees us as strangers maybe even enemies. I know we all want to talk to Bella but keep it simple". She slouched back into her seat looking slightly defeated. This was difficult for Alice, it had really hurt her when Bella pushed her away yesterday.

School would be starting in a few hours. The atmosphere in the room was quickly becoming optimistic. Esme was even considering picking us up from school to see Bella, but was becoming worried it'd cause us trouble from the other students, however her urge to see her daughter was over riding any logic inside her mind. They were hopeful to talk to Bella. I was hopeful she would show up in the first place. If there is any higher power out there, I pray with all my might that Bella will be at that school today.


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