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'What have I done?' Lily cried as threw herself sobbing onto her bed. Everyone else in her room was asleep so they hadn't heard her come in. 'I just lost my best friend, and I broke his heart! I didn't want to ruin the friendship, but that's exactly what I've done.' Lily lay on her bed, still dressed in her school clothes and cried herself to sleep.
***~~~***
When James finally went to bed, he found Sirius and Remus waiting up for him.
'Hey James, where were you?' Sirius asked slyly.
'Nowhere.' James flung himself onto his bed and shut the curtains.
'Uh oh,' Sirius glanced at Remus. 'Looks like its James' time of the month.'
'Shut up, Sirius!' was heard from inside the curtain.
Sirius thrust open the curtains. 'I heard a little something about you and a certain flame-haired pretty Head Girl going alone to Hogsmeade. Am I right?'
'I don't want to talk about it!'
'What happened, Prongs?' Remus asked, trying for a gentler approach.
'I told you I don't want to talk about!'
'Lily?' Remus turned to Sirius and asked.
'Lily,' Sirius said with finality, nodding.
'Why don't you two just sod off!' James exploded.
'Ok, I can see that you don't want to talk about it,' Sirius said, patting James on the back.
'Sirius, ever notice how you love to state the obvious?' James laughed, trying to calm down.
'Prongs, you know that you can talk to Sirius and I about anything, right? You're our best friend, and we're always going to be here for you,' Remus said gently. (A/N what a sweetheart!)
'Oh, Remus, that's so sweet, I think I'm going to cry. I need a hug,' Sirius joked, walking towards Remus with his arms open.
Remus took that opportunity to playfully shove Sirius away from him. Sirius, being the dramatic that he was, stumbled back and flipped over his bed.
'Thanks guys, you always make feel better,' James said.
'You actually feel better?' Sirius asked amazedly, getting from behind the bed.
'Actually, no. But at least you guys have gotten my mind off what appears to be the worst night of my life so far. No, wait, I'm thinking about it again.'
'That's amazing James. You can still manage to joke around even when your heart's breaking,' Sirius said laughing.
A sad look passed over James' face. 'Yeah, ok, well, I'm going to go wallow in my self-pity, and cry myself to sleep.' With that, he shut his curtains, and went to bed, trying, but failing miserably, to not think about Lily.
'It takes a very secure man to admit that,' Sirius whispered to Remus, before they went to sleep.
***~~~***
Lily and James dealt with the loss of each other and their friendship in very different ways.
James drowned his sorrows in every pretty girl he saw. It seemed as if he had a new girlfriend every hour (he probably did.)
Lily pretty much broke down. She started skipping class (well, the ones she had to go to), and stopped eating. She also had trouble sleeping, and just sat in her room, thinking.
About a week passed, and the Prom was only a day away. By this time, both Lily and James had dates for the Prom. James had asked Brittany Anderson, a very pretty Hufflepuff, perhaps the only person in the world that Lily hated, besides her sister. On one of her rare ventures into the world, Lily had been asked by Graeme Holiday, a handsome boy from Ravenclaw. As the Ravenclaw seeker, and a very good one, Graeme was not very high at all on James' favourite people list. Some people thought that James and Lily were just going with Brittany and Graeme to spite each other. They were right.
***~~~***
'Do you love him?'
'What?' Lily asked, not understanding.
Emma repeated the question. 'Do you love him?'
'Do I love who?'
'James. Do you love James?' Summer chimed in.
The three girls were sprawled around their room, as Emma and Summer had come to hang out with Lily before dinner.
'No! Of course not! He's my best friend. I mean, he was my best friend,' Lily trailed off.
'Yeah, I'm sure, and I know you're not trying to make James jealous by going with Graeme, his enemy, to the Prom.' Emma's words were laced with sarcasm.
'He started it! No one in his or her right mind would ask Brittany Anderson to a dance without some ulterior motive. He's the one trying to make me jealous!' Lily cried, indignant.
'And are you?' Summer asked innocently.
'No! Of course not! He can take whomever he wants to Prom. Even if she is a skanky, bleach blonde, painted bitch.'
Both Emma and Summer gave her a look.
'What?' Lily sat up. 'I am not in love with James Potter!'
'Sure, sure,' Emma said. 'Well, we have to get to dinner.'
With one last pitying look at Lily, the other two girls left the room.
'I don't love James!' Lily said out loud. 'Do I?'
Lily sat back and thought about it. 'I do miss him so much that it hurts. I miss the way he sings at the top of his lungs to make me laugh. I miss the way his hair flops into his eyes and the way he brushed it off his face. I miss… well, I just miss him. Wait, do I? I do, I do love him. I am in love with James Potter!' Lily sat back on her bed in amazement. She loved him! And she had broken his heart. What was she going to do?
A/N; Ok, I know you all hate me for what I did to James, but in the next chapter. He gets his revenge. Or, well, revenge isn't the right word, but he does get some of his pride back. Thank you all for reviewing. Of course we all know that they eventually get together, so sit back, and see how I make it happen. I have a lot more chapters written so, review, and they will magically appear.
LupinsLover: Thanks for the tips on the British school system. But this is Hogwarts, all magical and stuff, so I'm just going to play around with it.
Elena: I know I am evil. You know how many times I thought that about myself when writing that chapter? My friends even said it. I hope you like the way it will turn out.
Argentum Lupus: I hope I haven't really leftt you hanging as much anymore. I told you to not worry about James, so don't. Things will get better.
'What have I done?' Lily cried as threw herself sobbing onto her bed. Everyone else in her room was asleep so they hadn't heard her come in. 'I just lost my best friend, and I broke his heart! I didn't want to ruin the friendship, but that's exactly what I've done.' Lily lay on her bed, still dressed in her school clothes and cried herself to sleep.
***~~~***
When James finally went to bed, he found Sirius and Remus waiting up for him.
'Hey James, where were you?' Sirius asked slyly.
'Nowhere.' James flung himself onto his bed and shut the curtains.
'Uh oh,' Sirius glanced at Remus. 'Looks like its James' time of the month.'
'Shut up, Sirius!' was heard from inside the curtain.
Sirius thrust open the curtains. 'I heard a little something about you and a certain flame-haired pretty Head Girl going alone to Hogsmeade. Am I right?'
'I don't want to talk about it!'
'What happened, Prongs?' Remus asked, trying for a gentler approach.
'I told you I don't want to talk about!'
'Lily?' Remus turned to Sirius and asked.
'Lily,' Sirius said with finality, nodding.
'Why don't you two just sod off!' James exploded.
'Ok, I can see that you don't want to talk about it,' Sirius said, patting James on the back.
'Sirius, ever notice how you love to state the obvious?' James laughed, trying to calm down.
'Prongs, you know that you can talk to Sirius and I about anything, right? You're our best friend, and we're always going to be here for you,' Remus said gently. (A/N what a sweetheart!)
'Oh, Remus, that's so sweet, I think I'm going to cry. I need a hug,' Sirius joked, walking towards Remus with his arms open.
Remus took that opportunity to playfully shove Sirius away from him. Sirius, being the dramatic that he was, stumbled back and flipped over his bed.
'Thanks guys, you always make feel better,' James said.
'You actually feel better?' Sirius asked amazedly, getting from behind the bed.
'Actually, no. But at least you guys have gotten my mind off what appears to be the worst night of my life so far. No, wait, I'm thinking about it again.'
'That's amazing James. You can still manage to joke around even when your heart's breaking,' Sirius said laughing.
A sad look passed over James' face. 'Yeah, ok, well, I'm going to go wallow in my self-pity, and cry myself to sleep.' With that, he shut his curtains, and went to bed, trying, but failing miserably, to not think about Lily.
'It takes a very secure man to admit that,' Sirius whispered to Remus, before they went to sleep.
***~~~***
Lily and James dealt with the loss of each other and their friendship in very different ways.
James drowned his sorrows in every pretty girl he saw. It seemed as if he had a new girlfriend every hour (he probably did.)
Lily pretty much broke down. She started skipping class (well, the ones she had to go to), and stopped eating. She also had trouble sleeping, and just sat in her room, thinking.
About a week passed, and the Prom was only a day away. By this time, both Lily and James had dates for the Prom. James had asked Brittany Anderson, a very pretty Hufflepuff, perhaps the only person in the world that Lily hated, besides her sister. On one of her rare ventures into the world, Lily had been asked by Graeme Holiday, a handsome boy from Ravenclaw. As the Ravenclaw seeker, and a very good one, Graeme was not very high at all on James' favourite people list. Some people thought that James and Lily were just going with Brittany and Graeme to spite each other. They were right.
***~~~***
'Do you love him?'
'What?' Lily asked, not understanding.
Emma repeated the question. 'Do you love him?'
'Do I love who?'
'James. Do you love James?' Summer chimed in.
The three girls were sprawled around their room, as Emma and Summer had come to hang out with Lily before dinner.
'No! Of course not! He's my best friend. I mean, he was my best friend,' Lily trailed off.
'Yeah, I'm sure, and I know you're not trying to make James jealous by going with Graeme, his enemy, to the Prom.' Emma's words were laced with sarcasm.
'He started it! No one in his or her right mind would ask Brittany Anderson to a dance without some ulterior motive. He's the one trying to make me jealous!' Lily cried, indignant.
'And are you?' Summer asked innocently.
'No! Of course not! He can take whomever he wants to Prom. Even if she is a skanky, bleach blonde, painted bitch.'
Both Emma and Summer gave her a look.
'What?' Lily sat up. 'I am not in love with James Potter!'
'Sure, sure,' Emma said. 'Well, we have to get to dinner.'
With one last pitying look at Lily, the other two girls left the room.
'I don't love James!' Lily said out loud. 'Do I?'
Lily sat back and thought about it. 'I do miss him so much that it hurts. I miss the way he sings at the top of his lungs to make me laugh. I miss the way his hair flops into his eyes and the way he brushed it off his face. I miss… well, I just miss him. Wait, do I? I do, I do love him. I am in love with James Potter!' Lily sat back on her bed in amazement. She loved him! And she had broken his heart. What was she going to do?
A/N; Ok, I know you all hate me for what I did to James, but in the next chapter. He gets his revenge. Or, well, revenge isn't the right word, but he does get some of his pride back. Thank you all for reviewing. Of course we all know that they eventually get together, so sit back, and see how I make it happen. I have a lot more chapters written so, review, and they will magically appear.
LupinsLover: Thanks for the tips on the British school system. But this is Hogwarts, all magical and stuff, so I'm just going to play around with it.
Elena: I know I am evil. You know how many times I thought that about myself when writing that chapter? My friends even said it. I hope you like the way it will turn out.
Argentum Lupus: I hope I haven't really leftt you hanging as much anymore. I told you to not worry about James, so don't. Things will get better.
