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BPOV
In
that moment, I said… well screamed, three words at Edward Cullen
that I'd wished he'd never hear. I told him I was raped and ran
away before seeing his reaction. I ran to Alice and her face turned
into a mixture of horror and confusion.
"He knows Alice" I
whimpered into her chest as she wrapped her tiny arms around me.
"Yes Bella, almost everyone does now" Alice sighed, sounded
slightly confused and slightly irritated.
"Not that Alice. He
knows how" I objected and I felt her arms stiffen around me.
"How?" she said almost inaudibly.
"I screamed it at
him" I cried and smashed my forehead with the palm of my hand. I
did this repeatedly while screaming the word 'stupid' at myself.
Alice grabbed my hands and held them down.
"Bella, you need to
calm down" she whispered calmly and I nodded slowly and took a few
deep breaths. Edward walked into the cafeteria and the first thing he
did was glance at me. I can't be positive about this, but I swear I
saw his face pained and guilty. I shook that thought off because
Edward Cullen is an insensitive pig headed player… and I think I
like him. DAM IT BELLA! Stupid, stupid, STUPID!
"Alice, I'm
going to go for a walk. Can I come to your house tonight?" I
whimpered and sniffed with each word. Alice nodded and then looked
away. She suddenly blushed and looked down. I looked to where she had
just before, and saw Jasper Hale. He was tall with blonde hair. His
eyes the most beautiful shade of blue and he was smiling and looking
down too. Hmm? Maybe they like each other. I know for a fact that
Alice likes him, she may not realize it, but when I'm at her house
he is all she talks about.
I walked through the cafeteria doors
and it wasn't until I was at the science building that I realized I
was being followed. My whole body froze cold and my hands started to
shake. The sound of gravel stopped and I dropped my bag that I was
carrying. I out my hand in my pocket and wrapped my hand around my
car keys, making sure the key point was sticking out from the middle
of my fist. I ripped it out of my pocket and turned around with
quick, forceful actions.
"STAY AWAY FORM ME" I screamed
before realizing who it was. "What do you want Cullen?" I hissed
at him and newly formed tears strolled down my cheeks as I thought of
how much he knows.
"I-I-I" he stuttered and I bent down to get
my bag.
"Spit it out" I mumbled, annoyed.
"I wanted
to see. If you were okay I mean" he muttered quietly and I found
myself having a smile threatening to break across my face. I mentally
slapped myself because I shouldn't be happy that he was concerned
for me. It was probably just a ploy to get into my pants.
"Let
me see Edward? I am pregnant, scared, can't trust the world and the
biggest jerk in school knows why all of that has happened to me. How
do you think I am?" I whispered and hadn't realized that I was
sobbing until his face turned somber.
"Upset?" he guessed.
"YOU'RE BLOODY WELL RIGHT I'M UPSET!" I exploded at him
and he staggered backwards away from my fury.
"Bella, Bella,
Bella, please listen to me" he whispered quickly and I fell to the
floor, once again, in tears. He crossed over to me and put his arms
around my shoulders as he sat down next to me.
"Don't touch
me" I whimpered and flinched away from his touch.
EPOV
"Don't
touch me" she whimpered and visibly winced as I touched her. She
was really scared of me? Or was it men in general? I traced my
fingertips over a scar on her arm. She flinched and scooted away from
me.
"Please, don't" she whispered and started to cry
silently. It broke my heart to see her like that. She shouldn't be
hurting like this. She had been an innocent girl who had all her
innocence taken away from her. She shouldn't feel like that was the
end of her trust.
"Bella, I need you to trust me" I whispered
softly. I needed her to see that she was driving me insane. She was
purely intriguing.
"Why should i?" she mumbled almost
incoherently. Okay, I guess I deserve that. I felt like telling her I
thought she was beautiful and perfect and amazing. Wait… what? HOLD
ON THERE EDWARD! What did you just think? Seriously man, it goes
against the grain. While I mentally argued with myself she stared at
me like I was a complete moron.
Finally my head came together and
I smiled at her.
"I don't know, but I promise you I never
meant you any harm" I smiled sincerely. She smiled the slightest
bit at the corner of her mouth but it didn't touch her eyes. Those
eyes had so much depth and fear lodged into the chocolate brown
centre and you could get lost in them. Edward! STOP IT MAN!
"Can I ask you something?" she
asked as we walked back into the cafeteria.
"Sure" I said
hesitantly.
"Why do you treat girls like tissues?" she eyed
me speculatively.
I burst into a roar of laughter and she glared
at me.
"Tissues?" I said, laughing at random intervals of the
one word.
"Yes, you use them once or twice a day, then you
throw them away and go for another one" she said, justifying
herself. I thought about that, and in some twisted, hilarious way,
she was right.
"What's life without it?" I shrugged. Her jaw
dropped in disgust and her eyes became thin slits.
"A normal
one with respect and a little thing called love" she winced
at the last word and looked away.
"What's wrong?" I asked
her and she shook her head viciously. "Bella? What's the matter?"
I whispered intensely.
"I can never have love because I can't
trust anyone" she sobbed and I wrapped my arms around her, holding
her to my chest. She only flinched a little, but it seemed like she
appreciated my concern. She grabbed my shirt and held herself there
why she cried.
"I'm so s-s-sorry" she whimpered while
sobbing. She was sorry? What the hell for?
"What for?" I
whispered.
Without answering she just burst into another spout of
tears and hugged herself closer to me. Suddenly she started laughing
in the middle of her cries.
"What's funny?" I asked whilst
raising one eye brow.
"You're the first guy I've talk to
other than my dad since it happened. Oh and you smell kind of good"
she giggled at the same time as crying. If I wasn't holding her in
my arms, I would have applauded her. This girl who has experienced
was she has, is laughing about talking to me. I rubbed my hand up and
down her back until she calmed down because she had stopped laughing
and cried again.
BPOV
I
smiled to myself. Maybe I could find love. I already spoke to Edward.
That was a first for me in this town. The only guy I'd ever spoken
to was my dad and now here I was crying on the chest of another guy.
Edward was so nice to me in this second that I almost forgot what he
was really like. I started to laugh at myself.
"What's
funny?" he mumbled sounding confused.
"You're the first guy
I've talk to other than my dad since it happened. Oh and you smell
kind of good" I admitted and kept giggling, but I was still crying
so I wasn't sure if he knew that I was still laughing. In all
truth, he smelled wonderful!
"Thanks, I guess?" he said and
it sounded like a question. I pulled away for his chest and he let me
go. For the instant leeway I was grateful.
"Thank you" I
mouthed and turned to walk away. I ran to my car in the rain and it
hit me that I'd been crying for the whole lunch hour, plus my last
classes. He was so understanding then, but I couldn't let myself
hope for it to last. I couldn't have someone like him as a friend
without there being something else wanted by one or both parties. I
drove to the Cullen house and ran inside where Alice was smiling
widely. She looked so excited I almost laughed.
"What?" I
asked.
"You talked to my brother!" she squealed and I
couldn't help but laugh. I stopped quickly and checked around
myself trying to hear what that sound was.
"Bella, what are you
doing?" Alice asked while giving me one of those, maybe-she's-crazy
looks.
"I laughed" I answered simply. She smiled and giggled
quietly at me. She grabbed my hand and dragged me up to her room.
"Bella! Sit down!" Alice
demanded and I quickly obeyed.
"What is it Alice?" I asked
while amused.
"You like him!" Alice squeaked and slammed her
hands over her mouth.
"What!" I objected quickly. Too quickly
in fact and before I realized it, I was blushing. I looked down and
smiled a small smile.
EPOV
I drove up to my house and saw Bella's car out front. I
smiled to myself and then stopped. I looked around myself confused. I
suddenly gasped.
"No!" I gasped and shook my head. I like
her! I actually like Bella! DAM IT EWDARD! You just had to fall for
the troubled girl who only trusts you enough o talk to out of the
guys didn't you? You SUCK! I mentally spoke to myself. I parked my
car and got out. I walked through the front door and ran up to my
room. I heard Alice tell Bella to sit. I listened quietly and swore
that I wouldn't ever repeat if I heard anything important.
"What
is it Alice?" Bella asked and I heard a slight smile in her voice.
That's better, I said to myself in my head. She should be
happy, not upset like she was today.
"You like him" Alice
squealed and her giggles were cut off quickly so I assumed her mouth
was covered.
"What!" Bella screeched almost absolutely. I
pouted and almost stopped listening when I heard Alice breathe.
"Oh don't be daft Bella. I
know it and so do you" I heard Alice say with a huge smile in her
voice.
"Uh…"was all Bella said? COME ONE BELLA! Let me
know!
"Well? Do you?" Alice pushed eagerly.
I heard Bella
sigh. Dammit! She doesn't! Karma sucks!
"Yes" Bella
whispered and I shot up straight. She likes me? YES!
"REALLY!"
Alice squealed in delight and I heard Bella's soft, musical
laughter and my heart pounded softly in my chest. I have to change. I
will not disappoint! I won't play with girls like…tissues. I
smiled when I thought that. She had the cutest way of phrasing some
things.
"I'm thirsty" Bella sighed, and suddenly the door
flew open front of me and Alice fell to the floor with laughter.
Bella's eyes were wide and her cheeks the brightest, most beautiful
red in the world.
"How much did you hear?" she whispered and
I smiled at her.
"From where Alice told you to sit down" I
grinned and walked away. I turned around and she was still frozen in
the door way.
"Well, I guess he knows!" Alice chortled.
"SHUT UP ALICE! THIS IS SO HUMILIATING!" I heard Bella say
before I closed my bedroom door.
