Hello fellow fanfic lovers :) This is neither here nor there! Thought I'd chuck a bit of Quinn into the mix! Hope you enjoy it-rather rushed I must admit... vanay :) xx Excuse typos its late, thank x
Disclaimer: I do not own glee nor Journey unfortunately – they belong to their rightful owners!
Rachel's point of view
Rachel was aware of the fact she was shedding enough tears to feed the Nile – her eyes sore from the tears that appeared to be never ending. This is pathetic she-scolded herself, a star should remain composed and dignified at all times-but now look at me I'm crying...crying over a boy! Above all else the one thing that absolutely sucked was that she loved that boy – and just the thought that he might like she back brought made her frown soften. She pictures herself with him in the future, saw how happy he could make her, felt the longing for him rush through every part of her body-an aching of some sort. Then she remembered the past and the harsh reality brought right down, somewhere she no longer wished to be. Fortunately self pity was a place for others not for her she was Rachel Berry after all. She understood wallowing in her own somewhat tragic life was not helping matters for and was ready to get a grip on herself. Slowing rising up from the dirty toilet floor and supporting herself with the walls around her she managed to get up. She stood contemplating what to do next, apart for sort out her awful appearance – slowly she unlocked the door took small steps towards the mirrors. Even she knew her own eyes weren't deceiving her as she looked at her own reflection, it really was a sorry state – but right now she had gotten that determination back through her, knowing that this was only a small episode in her life. She slowly started routing through her bag looking for the supplies she would normally carry around in case slushies happened to come her direction, and admittedly that happened more often then not. She was preoccupied in her own tasks that she barely noticed the rest room door opening...
Quinn's point of view
"Manhands?" Quinn stood there looking horrified but eagerly waited for some acknowledgement of what she had just said, any reaction would have been fine, she expected it but no...no nothing!This was Rachel Berry-What the hell – this girl particular always had something to say even when no-one wanted to hear it (99.9% of the time they didn't, trust me). "Rachel! Hello? What's the matter with you?" She was growing impatient, and her tone matched. "Right FYI I'm not leaving until you tell me why you got a face liked a smacked arse. I may not like you all that much, but I don't really dislike you either. Believe you me, I should really just hate you but I'm also not a complete bitch and can't just see you looking like that and pretend not to care!" Slowly but surly Rachel was beginning to react to her.
"Trust me Quinn – I know you don't like me, I think you've made that a quite well known actually, don't you! Besides it's really none of your business and you don't have to pretend to care, I already know that you don't!"
She spoke in a tone that Quinn had never heard before, it showed a part of Rachel that Quinn doubted she ever seen before, a vulnerability leaking through her words. Quinn felt guilty of maybe being a part of what appeared to be the breaking the conceited over-confident girl. She also felt jealous of her, how she had it all – she was talented no-one could take that away from her, and how much her ex-boyfriend digged her was enough to make her want to hurl up her breakfast for like what was it the eighth time already that day. Anyway she left all her thoughts drift into the back of her mind before turning towards her, pursing her lips tightly then continuing.
"Rachel, what's up with you? You got everything you wanted, my boyfriend included, and we all now how you wanted that right! Too desperately if you ask me. Anyhew, just go ahead and spit whatever it is you have to spit out causing your boring me, so why don't you give it a rest and tell me already."
Rachel just stared at her blankly, but words were beginning to escape her again. "I highly doubt your wanting to hear anything I got to say. Your not going to like it much- that's already a given, its....its Finn ok!"
"So what's your point Rachel, what's your point exactly? You know don't even begin to tell me cause well I reckon I can already guess. The fact he likes you is it? The fact he's in love with you -God knows why exactly-the fact he stares at you the way he never looked at me the whole time we were together! Or is it the fact that now you can get what you want, your really don't want it-what is it, Cause right now I don't get it!" Quinn didn't realise just how much her voice had risen on those last few word, not until she saw the girl in front of her appearing completely shell shocked.
Rachel was completely frozen – opening and closing her mouth the way Finn did whenever he didn't get her(almost all the time but never mind). Speaking ever so softly Rachel began responding.......
"If you want the truth – I imagined this moment for a very long time, the moment where Finn & Quinn were no longer, I assumed that Finn would come after me and ask us to be together. Well that did happen, I got everything I wanted except I know the truth behind it. He stills wants you-not me, I'm not his equal, I'm his rebound. I really tried convincing myself I wouldn't care, but being second best to you, to the girl he's still in love with isn't an option for me. It can't be an option for me and I won't let it either." Rachel appeared exhausted with words at this point, and Quinn quite frankly couldn't be bothered to put up with the bull coming out any longer.
"Shut the hell up, will you! Have you even heard yourself-really heard yourself?" She knew she was shouting at the brown haired girl but she seriously couldn't stand the pretence for a second longer. "To say that your some intelligent freak of nature you really are clueless – far too clueless for me to be wasting my invaluable time on but nonetheless for some unknown reason I feel like I owe you, you know for telling Finn when I couldn't! So I'm going to save your bacon by explaining this nice and clearly for you...Finn is over me, he was over me as soon as he joined that God damn Club – as soon as he laid his eyes on you I didn't matter any more. Don't think I never saw you – the way he looked at you-you two staring at one another doing the journey song when there were only five of you in the Glee club. I witnessed the whole thing afar! The real truth in the matter is I joined glee to get my boyfriend back – but he never did come back." Quinn felt her eyes filling up but she was determined to go through with this even if it was killing her bit by bit. "The whole baby drama just meant I could keep him for that little bit longer even knowing that he didn't want me." Tears were literally rolling down her eyes now but she couldn't not tell Rachel this – she didn't owe it as much to Rachel but more so to Finn. He deserved to be happy. "Of course he probably still loves me, it's not easy to stop loving someone but it's also not the same thing as being in love with someone. He might love me but I can guarantee that he's in love with you. If you throw this away your going to regret it!"
Quinn had had enough now, her own heart was breaking-even though she had Puck now she wasn't sure if he was ever going to match up to Finn. Picking up her belongings she left Rachel behind and headed towards the door, knowing no matter how much this hurt her for once she had done the right thing by Finn.
Rachel's point of view
She could never quite believe what had happened just moments ago, but knew also Quinn well enough to know she was being sincere with the words she had spoken. Rachel looked in the mirror smiling that finally someone had assured her of all those insecurities that kept overwhelming her, oddly enough in the form of her frenemie. Even though she knew the conversation wouldn't change anything between her and Quinn, it certainly would change things between herself and Finn.
TBC if there's enough interest :)
