Disclaimer: nope…still don't own DOTM
Authors note: Ok, wanna here something funny? I was looking up Latin names, I found Stanton, Serena, and Cassandra. Know what Cassandra means? One who is ignored. I dunno, I found that hilarious, that's probably why Lynne Ewing chose it.
Black Hearts
Chapter 4- Cassandra
Her heart leapt when she first laid eyes on him, so beautifully well defined. Her voice caught in her throat and her stomach gave an interesting drop. "Cassy! Earth to Cassy!" her best friend Julia's voice seemed a thousand miles away from him. His eyes surveyed the room of Planet bang, and fell on…her. Is he looking at me? She felt excitement fill her, oh goddess he is! As soon as the thought left her mind he looked away and now disappointment flowed through her. "CASSY!" Cassandra fell from her dreamy state and looked at Julia, "The guy's hot, okay? I get it, but dang wipe the drool". She didn't understand. How could she? She was never in love…LOVE? She questioned herself, LOVE? She didn't even know this guy! But it was…it was love. Love at first sight. She never believed in those childish fairytales until she saw him…
She walked away with Julia until she felt hands hold her hips and pull them back against a warm body. She danced with their motion. "You're beautiful" she more so felt the words, a shiver came down her spine, it was him. What are you doing? He's a stranger! She asked herself and reluctantly pulled away, "I can't" she whispered, she could see the pure shock in his face. "Sorry," with that she walked out of Planet Bang.
Cassandra stood at La Brea high to get her purse searched "Oh just let her go," the guard said and she got by without having it checked. "You didn't check it," she protested.
"Oh, common, we know you'd never do anything wrong". White-hot anger burst through her, how could he do that? How could he just insist that? One day she'd show them one day…oh who was she kidding no she wouldn't. She filed into the building with many other students…another day of high school.
On the good side, she was going to graduate soon. She was in all advanced classes and had all her credits even though she was only a juniour, even funnier; she was valedictorian and was going to give a speech at graduation. Something she'd been dreading. What would she say?
"I missed you," somone breathed into her neck, she whipped around. Him. But no one was there. But the hell was going on? She had felt it, she had hoped for it. A shiver ran down her spine, she was really scaring herself. How could someone make her feel this way, how could someone…
"Cassy!" Not now. She turned to see Julia running towards her, she stopped to catch her breath. "Oh, wow, girl you walk fast," she laughed, "You were totally spacin'"
"Sorry, " Cassandra sighed, "It's just…the speech, I mean I can't get over it". Why did she just lie to her? They never lie to eachother. And since when does she not want to see her best friend? This new Cassandra was scaring her, but in a way she wanted to embrace it. Take flight to the wind, no worrys for once.
She sat in trig, normally she'd be scribbling notes like a madman but her mind was wandering now…Casssandra. She gasped and looked around…nothing but students writing & looking casual. But she was positive she heard it, she was positive she heard him. She turned back to the front rubbing her temples, maybe she was nuts.
"Through the year, we've had good, we've had bad… no no that's not good" suddenly someone turned her around. It was him! "Where are you off to?" he tilted his head curiously. It doesn't matter now! "Um…" But he put his finger on her lips.
"How bout comin with me?" he opened up the passanger seat of his black Camaro. She felt her heart race, mom will ki- her thoughts cut off as she followed her heart and got in.
Stanton (he told her his name now) drove her to a little coffee shop where they got some drinks and talked. As the sun began to go down and the moon to rise he suddenly stood. "Come on," he stood, "I have something to show you". She nodded and followed him out.
The beach was deserted and there was no moon, it seemed to bad omen. Enough! She screamed to her concious, I'm just having fun! He pulled her close to him, she took in a breath, he was going to- his lips tutched her softly. She pulled a few inches back to whisper, "I love you". She didn't know where it came from but when he replied, "I love you too," she knew it was true. They kissed and she didn't even notice the shadows whipping around them, the change in his eyes, or the utter dread that was filling her…until it was to late.
She tried to pull back once she realized but he held her firmly with a large grin on his face, "You love me, remember?" He shouted a mock over the loud crash of the waves and wind. "No!" tears swarmed her eyes, "Please, no" it was a despirate plea but he was having too much, fun. It swarmed her, and she couldn't cry. She couldn't scream. But she could feel betrayed, so betrayed. His laughter filled the whole place, "pathetic" he spat and disapeared. She sat on the beach, feeling horrible. But it was weird, no matter how bad she felt, no matter what he'd do; she'd still love him.
Two weeks later…
" Welcome, class of 2001," Cassandra looked down at her paper but it seemed to be a bunch of blur, she looked back to her audience,
"Welcome, to the end" She shot up a look at sudden realization
"Maybe the beginning of the end," She crumbled the paper
"Think, we might miss our old lives,
Happieness
Sincerity
Innocence…but maybe it isn't that bad. We have felt betrayal, hurt, and loss. So I stand before you today and say: Goodbye to La Brea High, good-bye to our lives, goodbye to our lies".
