Chapter 4: Secrets and Sex
Anything.
Absolutely anything.
I know what this man is capable of doing.
I won't let anything happen to you little one.
I promise.
I promise I'll protect you.
I'll do anything I can to make sure you're all right.
"Well Alexandra. You might as well make yourself at home. You're going to be here for a very long time."
Alex tried to move, only to find her hands tied to the bedpost. She wondered how she hadn't noticed it the previous night.
"What do you want from me?" Alex asked as she struggled against her bonds.
"Well," he taunted her as he began to approach, "first, I want you to stop trying to get free," he told her as he slapped her across the face, "then I want to take a trip down memory lane," he continued as he began to unbutton her blouse, "I want to remember what it was like," he said as he moved to her skirt, "to feel," he said as he moved to his own pants, "the FEAR, the PAIN, the AGONY!" he finished as he plugged himself, not caring that Alex wasn't ready and enjoying the pain he was putting her through.
Breathe…
Breathe…
Breathe…
God that hurts!
Stay calm for the baby.
Think of the baby.
If you're okay the baby's okay.
Why did he have to do that!
It's just like it always was.
He's rough.
Really rough.
And he won't stop.
If I cry out in pain and scream, he'll enjoy it and continue.
If I lay here still, he'll beat me and make it worse.
Who am I kidding?
He'll make it worse and continue no matter what I do or what I say.
He'll continue until I'm in so much pain that I'll feel like I'm going to explode.
What a minute.
Did he just…
Stop…
Something's going on.
I didn't scream much.
Unless he's changed his ways.
I doubt it.
He would never change.
Or else I never would have had to leave him.
"And now that you remember that part, what do you say you get re-informed with what will happen to you if you should misbehave," he told her as he wrapped his hands around her neck.
He held tight for a few moments before he continued, "Do you remember now?"
Alex tried nodding her head.
"What was that?"
"Yes," Alex mumbled, barely above a whisper.
"I can't hear you Alexandra. Don't you want me to stop? I can always squeeze harder," he told her, laughing as he did.
"Yes, I understand," Alex managed to get out, and at last, the man seemed happy with the response.
"Now, don't get too happy, I have a surprise for you."
Alex shivered, completely terrified of what this man would do to her.
Where's Walker?
With that, Alex cried.
Who would kidnap Alex?
She hasn't worked any new cases lately.
Maybe it's someone from a past case.
Yet again, something was bothering her the other day.
She went outside to get the mail and came back a little nervous.
I meant to ask about it again.
We just got so busy.
I was going to mention it again.
But then all this happened.
I wonder if she got a letter.
Maybe someone was sending something to her that was scaring her.
Or maybe she was trying to protect me from something.
She's always so cute when she does that.
I was pretty busy at work.
Maybe she didn't want to bother me with it.
Not that she's a bother.
Alex could never be a bother.
Ever.
Walker arrived at the ranch ten minutes later and quickly began looking through everything he could get his hands on.
He came up empty in the living room as well as the kitchen and the office.
As he began to climb the stairs, he wondered if perhaps he was looking for something that didn't insist.
What if there isn't anything to find here.
Then I've wasted an entire afternoon looking for something that won't get be any closer to getting Alex back.
Wait a minute…
Something's wrong again…
She's in more pain…
And someone's hurting her…
"ALLLLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEXXXXXXXXXX!"
Walker cried as he finished climbing the stairs, unable to hold in his emotions anymore as he knew something was seriously wrong with Alex.
He felt his need to find her rise, as he knew she needed him now more than ever, and he was still so far away from finding her.
"I've brought you a visitor," the man called, opening the door wide so Alex could see a woman standing behind him.
As he stepped closer, Alex was able to get a better look at the woman.
Oh, God. She's pregnant too.
I wonder what she's doing here.
And how he got her here.
"Please forgive me for not introducing the two of you sooner. This is Alexandra Cahill-Walker," he said pointing towards Alex, "and this is Bobbie Quinton," he said pointing towards the other woman, "my girlfriend."
Like you had to clarify to me who she is.
I see you're letting her keep the baby.
So far…
"You see Alexandra, Bobbie here doesn't seem to understand what I expect from her, and since you've become so good at it, I thought I could use you as a demonstration. I way of helping Bobbie understand her position in this household."
"I already understand sir. I don't need to see you take her as well, take me instead. Please."
Alex starred at the woman, unsure if she understood what exactly was going on.
What in the world did he drug her with?
I understand what's going on, and I don't want to lay here as he has sex with me, but why in the world would you sacrifice yourself for someone you don't know.
Especially when you're pregnant.
I mean, I love people too, but if I were that far along, there's no way in hell I would be willing to put myself in front of his path.
I would have to do what's best for my baby.
And what's best for my baby right now if for me to stay calm.
Make sure it's not rape.
If it's rape, the chance of miscarriage is too high to chance it.
If I allow him to enter, it'll be my word against his.
There'll be enough to get him on anyways.
I'm not chancing my baby's life.
"I don't remember asking your opinion," he said walking over and starring her straight in the eyes as she backed up against the wall. "Now stand there and I will show you what I expect from you."
Think quickly Alex.
He's coming over here.
Now or never.
Say something.
Open your mouth and speak.
"Sir…" Alex began, hoping he would stop.
"Alexandra, do you have something to say?"
Alex remembered dealing with him before and tried to remember exactly how to talk so that he wouldn't hurt her. "Yes sir, if I may, I have something I decided that I need to tell you."
"You may continue Alexandra."
"I was hoping we could…make love…the way we use to."
The man looked at her shocked.
"Whatever you say, Alexandra."
It'll never be making love with you.
It never was.
The only one I've ever made love to is Walker.
It's brought us a beautiful daughter.
And another baby.
It will never again be love with you.
It never was.
He released the restraints around her wrists and they proceeded for the next hour.
He was still rough with her, but Alex felt more confident that this time that there wasn't anything that would affect the baby.
Just like when Walker and I make love…
Only this isn't love…this is sex…rape…
Why do I feel guilty now?
I only let him because rape can kill our baby.
I'd rather willing have sex with this sick man than take the chance of our baby dying.
Walker will understand.
He'll have too.
Walker continued climbing the stairs, wiping at the tears as they continued to fall.
He sensed her guilt over something.
I'll forgive you no matter what Alex.
I know you'll do what's needed in order to stay safe.
I promise to forgive you…
I will…
No matter what Alex…
No matter what you feel guilty about honey…
I love you…
Reaching the top of the stairs, Walker headed straight for their bedroom.
When we first got married, she used to put pregnancy tests between the mattresses until trash day when she could get them out.
She thought I never knew.
But I did.
She wanted a baby so badly.
Yet, she would still hide those false pregnancy tests.
I bet if she were going to hide anything…
She would put it there…
Lifting up the bed, Walker was shocked by what he found.
He had only expected to find one or two letters, if any at all.
Instead he found numerous, at least a dozen at first glance.
Why didn't she tell me about this?
He picked up an envelope and seen it was addressed to 'Alexandra,' a name no one ever called Alex, with the exception of Walker from time to time.
I would guess LaRue, but I killed him years ago.
He was shocked when he since who the letter was from.
It can't be him
Anyone but him.
Alex is as good as dead if she's with him.
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