Chapter 4: Christmas break 2011.
Kurt.
"And so I told her that there was no way I was gonna buy her the laptop she wanted for Christmas, and then she started to whine, saying that I had enough money and that I was only being mean, keeping my money for myself and everything. It isn't being selfish keeping the money I earned to help pay my tuition for university, right ? Kurt ?" Mercedes had been babbling for thirty minutes about her Christmas so no one could blame Kurt if he blacked out at some point.
"Sure." Kurt answered, having no idea what she was talking about. Kurt's mind was stuck a certain night one week ago. He did not really know what had happened, well yes he knew what had happened but what it meant and why it happened, he didn't know.
As predicted there had been no news from Puck and maybe it was better this way, it was always better to ignore the meaning of things rather than knowing and getting beaten up.
"What's going on with you, Boo ?" Mercedes asked as Kurt was staring blankly at the wall behind her. "You've hardly spoken to me since the beginning of the break, and I had to blackmail you to have you here today."
"I'm just … you know, stressed out about my NYADA application."
"Oh come on, you're going to rule that thing, I don't know many people as talented as you." She told him with a gentle smile, locking arms with him.
She stopped talking for a while and Kurt resumed his thinking. So Puck had kissed him, big deal, he had already kissed almost everyone at McKinley, alright mostly girls but maybe he wanted to try something new and Kurt was the only gay guy around. Except for Julian and Blaine but he would not do anything with his cousin, and Blaine... Well Puck had been the first one to offer to beat him up after he broke up with Kurt so he would never consider do anything with him.
What bothered Kurt in all this was that they had had a really good time before the whole make out thing happened. They had been talking freely for a long time and it had felt nice. Kurt didn't know he could get along with Puck, he had always been thinking of Puck as nothing but a womanizer with nothing else in mind. He thought that he was like the others, only interested in himself and slightly homophobic. But apparently he wasn't any of that. Apparently they had a potential in being good friends, well, that was before they started going too far, of course.
Puck.
"You remember the other day, when that friend of yours, Kurt, walked home with us ?" Julian asked Puck when they were in line at the Lima Bean. Puck pinched the bridge of his nose and sighed. Of course he remembered, he had not stopped thinking about it ever since.
"Thanks for reminding me how embarrassing you've been that night." Puck answered. Julian did not seem to be listening to him, he was staring at some point before them in the line.
"Well I know now why I didn't stop hitting on him." Julian said, pointing the point he had been staring at with his chin. Puck frowned and looked ahead to see Mercedes talking to Kurt arms locked with his. He didn't seem to be listening to her, his brows were slightly furrowed as he was turned to look at her but not really looking. He seemed to be politely nodding to what she said, having no idea what she was talking about. Puck knew about it since that was what he had been doing with Julian for the past week. "I'm gonna try my luck again. Sober this time." Julian winked at Puck as he took a step forward. Puck caught his arm before he reached the two friends.
"You're not trying anything, we're just saying hello." Puck told him. Julian sighed but nodded and Puck released his arm.
"Hi Julian." Mercedes greeted him with a big smile. Kurt turned around and smiled at Julian as well.
"Hi Julian, what are you doing here ?" Kurt asked, looking worried.
"Hi Kurt." Julian told Kurt with a charming smile Puck didn't approve of in the slightest. "We're just hanging around, trying to busy ourselves." Julian explained. Puck did not remove his eyes from Kurt, trying to catch his eyes. Finally blue gray eyes spotted the brown ones behind Julian's shoulder and Kurt turned crimson.
"We ?" Mercedes asked.
"Hi." Puck told them, detaching his eyes from Kurt's for a moment.
"Hey Puck how are you doing ?" Mercedes asked.
"I'm going to the restrooms 'Cedes, you know my order." Kurt said before hurrying towards the back of the room.
"I need to take a piss as well catch ya later." Puck said before thinking.
"Charming." He heard Mercedes comment to his back as he tried to catch up with Kurt. The boy was just entering a cubicle when Puck opened the door, he ran and invited himself in before Kurt had a chance to lock the door. Kurt let out a squeak and Puck had to put his hand on his mouth before he alerted the whole restaurant. When Kurt calmed down he removed his hand.
"Oh my god ! What the hell are you doing here ?" Kurt asked, looking horrified and really, really red.
"Figured we needed to talk." Puck simply said, since he had no idea what he was doing here. Kurt bit his bottom lip and looked at the floor.
"About that, look, I'm sorry I kissed you, I never shouldv'e and I'd totally understand if you hated me or-"
"Wow wow, slow down here. Sounds like you're trying to take all the credit for what happened." Puck said. Kurt looked up at Puck with a puzzled look.
"I'm not trying to take anything, I'm just trying to explain to you that it was a mistake and that I'm sorry." Kurt said looking truly apologetic for Puck had no idea what.
"Oh shut up." Puck told him, while he cupped Kurt's cheek with his hand and kissed him. However, Kurt did not react the same way as the previous week, he backed away and looked at Puck like he was an alien.
"What the hell d'you think you're doing Puck ?" Kurt asked outraged, but trying to keep his voice low. Puck sighed.
"Tell me you don't want it." He challenged Kurt who was still cornered against the door of the cubicle.
"I don't want it." Kurt said, his voice almost steady.
"Look me in the eyes and tell me you don't want it." Puck said again, his eyes fixed on Kurt's which went downwards as he blushed. He let five seconds pass before mastering the strength to look at Puck in the eyes.
"I don't want it." He repeated, his voice much less steady than ten seconds before.
"Fine." Puck said shrugging. He stepped aside Kurt and opened the door to go out of the cubicle. Three, two, one.
"Puck, wait." Kurt called out, and Puck knew he had not even thought before calling him out.
"What ?" Puck asked casually, turning around to face Kurt who was biting his bottom lip again, and Puck wished he could be the one biting and sucking it.
"I... I don't know. I just... can we still be friends ?" He asked shyly. Puck took a step towards him again, he wanted to smile tenderly at Kurt because he looked really cute but that he didn't want to appear as a softie.
"Babe, we both want the same thing and you know it and it wouldn't keep us from being friends."
"Would it mean something to you ?" Kurt asked, looking doubtful. Puck did not hesitate on this one.
"Hell no, it would just be for fun !"
"Because I really don't want anything that would get me hurt." His voice trembled as he said that and Puck knew he had Blaine and his fucktard in mind, his blood started to boil, that guy was a real bastard. "But I do like hanging out with you, so-"
"I'm not gonna hurt you, how could I, we're only friends okay ?" Puck said, softening his voice.
"Really ?" Kurt asked, his eyes shining, oh, how Puck loved those eyes !
"Really. Come here." He said extending his arms for the boy to come to him. So Kurt did, and Puck lost no time to kiss him tenderly, not hurrying to slip his tongue in Kurt's mouth. This time, Kurt did melt into the kiss as he passed his arms behind Puck's neck to pull him closer. Puck had no idea if Kurt's lips were that soft because he used tons of care products, or if all men's lips were that soft, but he didn't think he could get tired of it.
"We should go back with the others, Mercedes is going to worry." Kurt said one minute later.
"I guess." Puck answered with a sigh.
"So we're not boyfriends, right ?" Kurt asked hesitantly.
"Nope, friends. And when we're only the both of us we get to have lots of fun. You okay with that ?" A big smile appeared on Kurt's face and he nodded. "Great." Puck said, he pecked Kurt's lips and went out of the cubicle, followed by his boy.
"Guys, where the hell were you ?" Mercedes asked when they joined their friends at the table they had picked.
"Puck was trying again to get me to agree to him beating up Blaine ." Kurt answered casually and Puck praised his acting skills.
"Please Puck, cut the crap already, Kurt will never agree to that and I agree with him, that's not the solution." Mercedes said, exasperated.
"Yeah, right, so we don't do anything and let him fuck with Kurt's heart just like it's some piece of crap ?" Puck asked, getting into the debate now because he really wanted to beat up Blaine.
"What has he done ?" Julian asked curiously.
"We had been dating for nine months when a guy named Sebastian started to go after him, hitting on him shamelessly even when I was here and one day we fought and Blaine broke up, claiming that Sebastian would not be as big of a bitch as I was being and that's how he dumped me." Kurt said bitterly. His eyes met Puck's and he smiled slightly and Puck was proud to have such an impact over Kurt just a few minutes after they decided to be more-than-friends-but-still-just-friends.
"He seems to be kind of a jerk." Julian commented.
"Kind of a jerk ?" Puck asked, scandalized. "If it was up to me and if I weren't on probation that dude would already have his nose broken in two !" Puck exclaimed.
"Puck calm down." Kurt told him sternly. "That's really nice of you but he's not worth taking a chance on your probation."
Then the conversation turned to very different topics Puck did not really pay attention to it until his phone buzzed.
I mean it Puck, you don't do anything to Blaine.
Whatever, if I get to see Sebastians face there will be blood on the carpet.
Puck answered honestly.
Fair enough.
Kurt answered, and Puck had to stifle a laugh at that.
"So Kurt, I was thinking, would you like to go to the movies tomorrow night ?" Julian asked suddenly, and given Kurt's expression, he was as surprised as Puck was.
"Oh that would be a great idea for you two to get to know each other !" Mercedes said with a huge smile and Puck had to fight a urge to smack her.
"I uh... I don't know." He said, shooting an alarmed look at Puck.
"What the hell did I tell you Julian ?" Puck glared at his cousin.
"It's his choice, not yours." Julian retorted, his chin high.
"Say yes Kurt." Mercedes told him, taking hold of his hand on the table. Kurt looked sideways, looking completely at loss of words to decline Julian's offer but not hurt him in the process.
"It's okay Kurt you don't have to accept." Puck told him, reaching out with his foot for his leg to give him courage.
"Ouch !" Mercedes exclaimed, letting Puck know he had missed his target.
"Sorry, my leg was numb." He made up.
"I'm sorry Julian but I won't go to the movies with you. As we just told you I just broke up with my boyfriend and I don't feel like doing anything of the kind for the time being." Kurt told Julian, looking truly sorry, but Julian just shrugged.
"That's your loss man." He said. Puck was glad he didn't insist, because Kurt looked highly uncomfortable.
"Great, the debate his closed ! Now if you'll excuse me, I have better things to do than hanging out with you." Puck said, standing up
A/N: Yay ! Here's chapter four ! What did y'all think ?
Let me know !
Love you all.
Ant.
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