Why? That was all Remus could think as he lay in his bed in the hospital wing. Why? I thought he was my friend. Why?! I could have killed him! All I've fought against would have been for nothing and why? Because of Sirius Stupid Black and…
He was broken from his reverie by the sound of the door to the wing opening. Immediately knowing who it was he rolled over and pretended to be asleep. I can't do this now. I can't.
The sound of shuffling feet got louder and louder before coming to a halt at his bedside. He heard a small gulp before the figure began to speak.
"Hey Moony…Moony…Rem… are you awake? …I know you are….you…you don't breathe like that when you're asleep….Moony…."
Oh come on…like you know how I breathe…you great git…I hate you! thought Remus as he continued to feign unconsciousness.
"Ok…look….I..I'm so sorry Moony!….I….I…it was meant to be a joke…I never thought…." Sirius stuttered as he struggled to find the words he needed to explain himself.
A joke! thought Remus A joke! I could have killed him! Then where would I be…up at the ministry for the death penalty that's where!
"I never meant for him to get as far as he did…I just…I wanted to scare him, you know….show him that he shouldn't stick his slimy nose in our business"
In our business! Its my business you plonker. MINE! I'm the one who gets expelled when everyone finds out like they are bound to. I'm the one who gets executed for putting people at risk, not you, you lousy piece of…..
" Look Moony, Remus….I…I'm sorry…I really don't know what else I can say…but…I really am sorry and I mean it. Its not like when I apologise to McGonagall for whatever it was we did in class, I really do mean it and …I'd do anything to go back…anything….but I can't…..I'm sorry"
He heard another small gulp followed by the sound of footsteps away from him and towards the exit.
Oh what a lovely little speech. He's sorry…yeah right…sorry he got in trouble more like. What an IDIOT! How could he be so bloody stupid?!
Once again Remus found his thoughts disturbed and once again he knew exactly who it was.
Just leave me alone James! I don't want to talk to ANYONE!
The footsteps drew nearer and once again a familiar voice began to speak.
"Rem…I know you're awake…Rem?…"
I don't care. I'm not talking to you.
"Look Moony…I know you wanna be on your own right now but you need to hear what I've got to say…"
No I don't! the last thing I need is you making excuses for him!
"…Ok, well three years ago we found out your secret….and we promised to keep it just that…a secret"
Oh well that worked well didn't it!
"We told you that we didn't care….and we didn't…because you were our best friend. And that secret Rem…its been all of ours. Every full moon you'd leave and we'd know exactly where you were going and we'd know why and it hurt. It hurt us to know that you were going off to be in as much pain as any of us could even imagine. It hurt us to know that at the time when you needed us most we couldn't be there…..so we came up with an idea and you know exactly what that idea was and it brought us closer….closer than friends…it made us brothers Rem. Brothers. Brothers who shared a bond so deep that I dont think we even realised it til now…til it was almost broken. That bond Rem…well that's because of you …because of your secret and its made us brothers…..Look Moony….I know you're angry but brothers don't give up on each other when they make a mistake. They forgive and they learn. He's you're brother Rem and you might feel like you hate him but it only hurts this much because you love him…not hate…love…. Just…don't give up on what we all have because he made a mistake. Please"
There was a short silence before Remus heard the sound of feet shuffling away. Slowly exhaling a deep breath he didn't know he'd been holding he didn't know what to think. He's got a point one side of his mind thought. But he ruined everything…I could have been expelled…or executed…the other half kept telling him. He was my best friend and he betrayed me! He doesn't deserve my forgiveness…but he's my best friend….
As he tried to think up reasons to hate Sirius he found he couldn't, that one word just kept overriding everything he thought. Brothers. Maybe James does have a point he thought. We're brothers….brothers….and brothers don't turn their backs on one another. So in that moment Remus made a decision No matter what he has done I will forgive him…I may not forget but I will forgive…he's my brother.
