Wow, I seriously can't believe I have been so selfish and haven't updated yet! I guess though, todays the day, so..Leggo. P.S. This chapter, Tris will have a 'flashback' to when she was without Tobias in Cali.
Tris POV
I could hear the plane engine turn on and my body jostle as we started to move. Blinking away tiredness, I look at Tobias. He sits with his jaw clenched and brows furrowed. He is thinking about something, something important. I nudge him with my elbow hoping to knock him out of his trance.
"Hey, you okay?" I ask. I try to look concerned, but my face has been permanently set in a frown due to the last three months. Tobias nods his head yes but I know he is not okay. Before I can ask again, he turns his head away from me and looks out the window watching us take off. Sensing that he is not in the 'conversation' mood, I tuck my legs up to my chest and lean back into the seat. The constant hum of the plane pulls me into the sweet warmth of sleep and I am out.
'Hey! I am Brittany, your new roommate! Welcome to the Chi Omega!' A girl with red hair says as she pulls me into a hug. I awkwardly wrap my arms around her and try to give her a hug back, but it's a fail. Brittany takes my bags and leads me into the sorority house. It was pink, pink, and pink! There was a pink chandelier, a pink couch, and even a pink microwave! She walks down a hallway and opens a door at the end.
'This is our room. I hope you don't mind that its blue, I can't really stand the color pink..'
'Oh, we will get along perfectly then!' She laughs and I knew I had made a good impression.
'Yeah, you better be a good roommate. My last one would always have a guy over! But, I am guessing that won't be a problem with you. Haha.'
'Ha-ha. Your hilarious.' I say flatly. I try to keep a straight face. But I knew she was probably right. Tobias was the only boy who had ever liked me, and that probably won't change here in good ol' California.
"Tris, Tris honey, wake up" Tobias whispers. I rub my eyes and sit up. "I need to go to the bathroom, can you let me out?" he asked.
"Seriously," I say groggily, "You're gonna wake me up for that? Ugh.." I reluctantly stand up and let him out. He walks down the isle and disappears inside one of the restrooms. Slumping down in the seat I twiddle my thumbs and wait for Tobias to come back. When he does I stand up and let him back in the seat. Once again, I pull my knees up to my chest and shut my eyes. Right before I am gone, I feel Tobias grab my hand and move his thumb in a circle on the back of it. He must think that I am asleep when he says it, but I still hear him. 'I love you. '
'Hey are you all unpacked?' Brittany asks as she walks into our room. I nod my head yes and turn around and plop my butt down on my bed. 'So, there is a frat party tonight, and like..I don't know. I usually go with my friend Kaitlin, but she's gone. So..urhm, do you want to go with me?' She says awkwardly while looking at the ground.
'Yeah, I'll go. As long as you make me look presentable!' as I say this her eyes brighten up. Brittany reminds me of Christina, someone I can trust. She motions for me to sit down in front of her mirror and I do. Brittany goes to work first on my hair.
'So, you don't have much hair, but I think I know what I am going to do!' she says. She turns me around so I can't look in the mirror and gets to work. After about ten minutes, she starts on the makeup.
'Done!' Brittany squeals with joy.
'I better not look like a clown.' She rolls her eyes and turns me towards the mirror. I hear laughter behind me and I know why, my jaw dropped. If I thought Christina was good at makeup, well then Brittany was excellent! Brittany gave my hair that beachy look by giving me soft curls that framed my face. For the makeup, I had a little bit of eyeliner on that made my eyes pop, rosy cheeks and shimmery lips. I didn't dare call myself pretty, but I was definitely something. I jump up and give Brittany another awkward hug and run to my closet. With her help, I put on a pair of shorts and a flowy tank top. She said she was going for the 'Beach Goddess' look. After I was done, it only took minutes for Brittany to get ready and then we were off.
We pulled up at the party and hopped out of her car. There is a sign that says 'Party in the back!' So we go to the backyard. The music is blaring and people are dancing. Throughout the party, Brittany introduces me to a couple of people, but the only one who made an impression on me was a boy named Luke. I knew I wasn't looking for a relationship, but I had been lonely, and it would be nice to at least flirt a little. Luke asks me if I want a drink and he runs to get me one.
"Here" He says as he hands me the drink. I greedily take it excited to try my first taste of alcohol. I down the drink and once I was done, I looked up at a laughing Luke.
"What?" I ask.
"I just didn't take you as a drinker, but I guess..cheers!' He winks at me and chugs his drink as well. I giggle as I feel the effects of alcohol take over my body. Then Luke pulls me to where everybody is dancing and we join in.
After about an hour of dancing and drinking I stumble away from the party to catch my breath. I stand there for a while before I feel grab me from behind in a bear hug.
"Hello looove" Says Luke. I can smell the alcohol on his breath, or maybe it's the alcohol on my own breath.
"Well helloo there!" I slur out as I turn around and face him. This is the first time I really get a good look at his face. He has light blond hair, high cheekbones, and gray eyes. He looks airbrushed, too perfect to be true. I am not sure if it was the alcohol or me acting, but I suddenly lean forward and fit my lips to his. He pulls back and looks me in the eyes to make sure I was okay with this. I nod and he kisses me hungrily back. My hands get tangled up in his hair and he picks me up and I wrap my legs around his hips. He carries me over to the side of the house and pushes me up against it. Our kisses go from passionate to desperate and we are pulling at each others clothes. But then, Tobias face flashes into my mind and I pull away.
'I can't do this' I say out of breath. I push him off me and walk away looking for Brittany. But he grabs my arm turns me around.
'You got me excited, now your going to help me out.' He is drunk. Really drunk. I need to get away from him. Adrenaline rushes into me and I feel panic. I try to pull away but he pulls me back and drags me behind some bushes and tugs at my clothes.
'HELP! HELP!' I try to scream but it comes out as a muffle because his hand is over my mouth. I kick and push and try to think back from what I learned from Tobias. I bit his hand until I taste blood and he pulls back in anger and hits me in my ear. My world goes black and all I can feel is his hands on my body..
I sit up panting from my nightmare. I hadn't thought about Luke for months. I tried to put that memory out of my mind. From what I heard from the doctors, I was out the whole time he raped me and Brittany eventually found me knocked out, naked, behind a bush. I shudder at the memory. Tobias stirs and sits up. He must have been asleep to. By the way I look, eyes alert and face flushed, he must have known I had a nightmare. He lifts up the arm rest separating our seats and pulls me into his chest. I feel like the sixteen year old girl again that Tobias saved. Saved me from Peter, saved me from Jeanine, and saved me from my own brother. I shrink into him and he kisses my forehead. I feel safe, safe with him and only him.
OKAY GUYS! HOW WAS IT? KINDA DARK...I KNOW BUT I WANTED TRIS TO HAVE SECRETS KEPT FROM TOBIAS..OH AND LUKE, OH LUKE. ALL I AM GONNA SAY IS REMEMBER HIM, HE WILL BE BACK SOON (;
P.S. RAPE IS NO EASY SUBJECT TO TALK ABOUT, SO THATS WHY I HAD TRIS KNOCKED OUT DURING IT. BUT HOW WILL SHE BREAK THE NEWS TO TOBIAS? HMM? LOVE YOU GUYS(: -L
