This chapter is mostly from Finn's perspective =). Don't own glee - much to my dismay. The title of this chapters is a Joshua Radin song =D- which I unfortunatally don't own either =/. Sorry for any spelling mistakes guys, im not that good at spelling and my spell checkers on the blink =(
Needless to say Glee wasn't on that day. Mr Schu went on for an hour straight, relentless in questions that none of us answered. We just all sat there with a blank expression not really absorbing what he was saying. The look on my friends faces was one thing but the look on Mr Shue's was terrible, 10 students he really cared for all sat in one room, no conversation, no bitchyness, no singing …nothing. Empty of any joy that made them the kids that he stayed here for. He kept talking, trying to get someone to say something, but no-one did
Rachel.
I sat on Finn's knee for an hour while Mr Schu babbled on about something or other; I caught the odd word like 'trust' and 'responsibilities' but really I just sat there staring into space, there was so much going on inside my head, it was hard to straighten out my thinking, I was scared for myself, worried for Brit, concerned about Finn and pissed at whoever had caused all this worry and pain. This wasn't just about me anymore, I'd spread the panic and fear, oh god! I started taking shorter breaths, unable to fill my lungs with oxygen and panicking even more at this recognition. Finn noticed the change in my breathing and looked at me worried-he knew I was about to loose it. He stood up and helped me outside and round to some tables by trees just in time for me to break down. I don't know how long I stood there in his arms crying and trying to breath, he held me close and told me that it would all be ok, that he would fix it and I knew he would, I just didn't know what would happen to him in the process, this thought brought a whole new load of tears.
Finn.
The bell for second period rang while I was with Rachel, I asked her if she wanted to go back home kinda hoping she would say yes so we could both collect our thoughts and calm down in her house, but her being the strong and determined girl I fell for shook her head and wiped her tears away with the edge of her jumper. Now I was in Spanish, with Mr Shue as a teacher-Just great-I hoped that he would forget I was in his class or at least what had happened earlier today. I wanted to stand on tables, scream at everyone find out who was causing the people I love so much pain but not wanting to draw any attention to myself I sat at the back with my head on the table going over in my head who would want to hurt Rach, I mean sure a lot of people liked to humiliate her but actually cause her pain…do something like that to her, who?. This was the only thing I thought about all day and at dinner I couldn't even go and see Rachel as I had to go to a lunchtime detention, not like I deserved it all id done was thrown one lousy paper ball across the room like the rest of the class but it had just been my luck that figgins and happened to walk past as I was throwing my paper ball. As I walked down the hallway I saw Puck-things between us had got a lot better recently and even though we would never be best buddies again we were...ok now.
'Hey man' he greeted me with a grin as I came close, I stopped as I had a new thought and headed towards him
'Hey, listen I need you help with something, its do with what Rach was saying before in Glee'
His face sobered and he nodded' just tell me who to beat up and…'
'No' I cut him of 'that's the thing, I can't think of anyone who would want to do something like that I mean slushying someone is one thing but well you know, that is something else entirely, we gotta find whoever it was man, what if, what if he tries again I..I…' Puck looked at is former best friend in a new light
'You really care about her don't you? '
'More than I can describe' Finn replied.
'I'll spread a word ok and ill keep my ear to the ground, if I hear anything you'll be the first to know' He promised me
'Thanks man, listen I gotta go got a detention with Figgins'. Before I went into his office I pulled out my phone and sent Rachel a text
Hey babe. I'm sorry I wasn't there at dinner got this detention with figgins. Listen meet me in the car park after school ok ill drive you home. Finn x
The rest of the day dragged on, I needed to see Rachel, check she was still ok, Until we found this creep she would be my number one priority day and night, I wasn't gonna let anyone hurt her like that again. Finally the bell for the end of the day rang and I sprinted to the car park were I said I would meet her, I was only stood there a minute or two when I saw her approach, she looked weary and scared and my heart broke into a million pieces when I saw her like that. This was getting worse for her, the uncertainty the unknowing, she didn't like not knowing things and I could tell that this was breaking her. As she walked forward to meet me two lads were play fighting and one was lightly thrown a foot or so in front of her. She froze. The guy gave her a cheery smile and apologized she unfroze and slipped her hands around her stomach then started walking over to me faster. She walked straight into my open arms and I could feel her relax as soon as she was with me.
'Come on babe lets get you home' I said into her hair. I felt her nod and helped her into my car.
As I approached her house I realised her dad's cars weren't there, at least one of them was always in when she came back. She undid her seatbelt and got out of my car, I followed confused about the 'no car situation' She held the door open for me when it was unlocked.
'Do you want anything to eat or drink?' she asked –ever the hostess.
'No, no am ok thanks… Rach where are your dads?'
'Away' she replied simply like they'd just popped down to the shops
'Away? What do you mean there away?' I asked confused
'There on a business trip, they should be back in a week or two'
What! I couldn't comprehend what she was saying parents would actually leave there teenage daughter alone in a house for weeks on end, and didn't even come home when there daughter had been raped! I was angry now, the previous day's events finally catching up with me, it washed over me in a wave of rage
'Rachel what the hell kind of parents don't come home when there daughters been …' but because she tensed before id even said it I stopped myself and took a deep breath.
'Rach how can they not be here after what you've been through, you shouldn't be on you own you should know there are people to protect you!'
She looked away from me and without even realising I had moved I was by her side
'They don't know' she whispered. I chocked on my intake of breath.
'Rachel why haven't you told them babe, you should have to be here on you own'
'I don't mind being here by myself' she contradicted but as she did she scanned the room' and, well I didn't want to worry them, there out in some foreign country helping the little children Finn! I don't want to stop the little kids getting help!
I tilted her chin up and looked into her eyes, even at a time where she should only be worrying about herself she was still concerned about others and was putting their needs first, but she needed to understand that she was important too.
'I love you' said to her and a huge grin appeared on her face, I knew it was because that was the first time I'd said it out loud
'I love you too Finn'
'And I want you to know that am gonna stay with you till they come back ok, your the most important thing in my life and am not gonna have you by yourself at a time like this' Then I softly kissed her.
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