Hey all, another for today! I am already at chapter 7, but an taking a break from writing because I'm trying to figure out how slow to make the boys go after this chapter. I think it'll be pretty slow, because Alec's new to the whole thing and Magnus doesn't date. He does sleep with people though, so who really knows at this point! Glad you're all liking this and thank you for all of the checkmarks being checked for this :)B

MAGNUS

I woke up with a headache. Going to be with the thoughts I did wasn't a good thing. Blue eyes being gay was a shocker, till I actually thought about it. I should have seen it, but with my mom, my radar has been off. I never dated, I couldn't risk setting her off at all if I really fell for a guy. Not that I haven't, I have fell before. Just not that much to actually care. It is different with Alec though. He works with me, which is fine. He isn't the first hot, gay guy I've worked with. The issue was keeping my hands off. I told him I couldn't and knew he'd keep to that, but I really wanted to. This was the first time I wanted to put myself first and I hated myself for it. My mother needed me, needed to see I was alright. I couldn't abandon her for someone, I just couldn't. I was all she had.

I shake my head, getting the dark thoughts out and get up, heading to do my morning routine. I stayed in today, resting for work. I turned on my TV and caught up on some of the fashion shows I watched. I couldn't believe that Alec knew Clary Fray. He had told me they all grew up together, which was neat. I loved her men's line, even owned a few things. At about four, I get up and head to start getting ready. I had inventory before my shift and so needed to be there by six. I make my shower quick and then head in to find which clothing to wear. I pulled out a black button up today, not going with a vest since they were optional. I did put on a purple tie, though. I then went to my vanity and did myself up, adding purple glitter and hair chalk. I always matched with my outfit, it was my things. I put on my jewelry and then grabbed my things, walking out. I got to my bike and rode to the club, parking next to Cindy. She always helped with inventory so I just went in to find her.

"Hey, girlie."

She looked up at me and looked totally not herself. "Rough night?"

She shrugged. "Rough day. How'd it go with newbie?"

I rolled my eyes and sat next to her in a chair, going over bottles. "Nothing happened, Cindy. You know that."

I looked through the bottles, not wanting to talk about it. I ignored her because I knew she'd question. They always did. No one here, except Kyle, knew about my mom. They just thought I was some player and that was why I didn't date. I turned to sit the list down to see her looking at me. "What?"

"You like him."

That was all she said. It sucked ass she could read me. I just shrug. "Doesn't mean anything, Cin. Just drop it, please."

She scooted closer and grabbed my arm. "No. He's nice, Magnus. I don't really think the playing rumors are true, but there's something to keep you from being happy. You can talk to me. You've worked here for about two years and I have never seen you like this."

I sat the pen down and ran a hand down my face. "I can't date. I really can't. There are things I have to do, people to take care of. I just can't, Cindy."

She studied my face and kissed my forehead. "He's different and I think you know that. I also know he's not going to wait."

She then got up and left me to it since her half was done. I finished the rest, trying not to think about what she said. I couldn't date, so what was the point. I finish and head out to get the bar ready, Alec already there. He was wearing a pair of black skinnies tonight with a red shirt and a white vest. He looked good, his hair was partially pulled back tonight. I shook my head, trying to get out thoughts I didn't need and walked up.

"Hey, how was your day?"

He shrugged, putting bottles up. "It was alright. Talked to my sister, lounged around. Yours?"

I sigh. "I've been here a bit for inventory so eventful."

He chuckled and I closed my eyes, willing that sound to not affect me. I opened them to see him looking at me. "You alright?"

I just shook my head and took the bag from by the register, putting the money in. We didn't talk anymore and I was kind of thankful Ric showed up. The night was a long one and I couldn't get what Cindy put in my head out of it. It seemed like Alec was getting more guys on his side tonight and I had to stomp the jealousy. I told him I couldn't date, but that didn't mean he couldn't. I saw this one guy, James, who's a regular come to talk to him. The guy was bad news, but I couldn't tell that to Alec. It would look bad if I interrupted every potential date. I shook my head and went back to making drinks for the tables.

"You alright?"

I glanced at Alaric as I mixed a margarita. "Peachy."

He leaned in closer as the drink went out and we had a small break. "Alec and you do something last night?"

I turned to him, Alex still talking to James behind us. "Nope. I told him I couldn't date, Ric."

"But you want to. Geez, Mags...for once do something for you. I don't completely understand but have heard snippets from you and Kyle. She'd want you happy."

He turned and walked off to get an order and I signaled I was taking a break. I went outside and looked at my phone. I could call her, she'd know what to do. My friend, Camille, back in New York was my go to, even now. I didn't talk to her as much, and decided it could wait. I could handle this, whatever, with the man inside. I put the phone back up and made my way back in. I tried not to let it affect me when I noticed James still sitting at the bar. He left Alec alone while we were busy, but they talked a lot. I sighed when the night ended, thankful it was over. We quickly cleaned up and then I leaned on the bar, trying to get the strength to leave and ride.

"Hey, you were quiet tonight."

I turned my head to see Alec walking over, James following a bit. "Thoughts, darling. James."

He gave me a look before putting on the smile and coming up. "Long time."

I smile. "Not long enough. Did you need a ride, Alec?"

He shook his head. "James offered. I just wanted to make sure you're alright. Everyone's left."

I nod and watch as the man leaves with the one person I truly hated. I close my eyes, willing the nerves to settle before going home. I get to the garage and turn off the bike, heading into the building. I didn't run into blue eyes, which I was thankful for, and hit the button for my floor. I walked to my home and opened my door, sitting the keys on the counter on the way by. I went into my bathroom to wash my face, my tie going to the floor and my shirt leaving before I get there. I'll just pick them up in the morning. I take out my wash cloth and the makeup remover, getting to work on my face. I sigh when I'm finished and my contacts are in their container, looking at myself. I was a wreck. There was no other word for my emotions. The guy I had no chance with two days ago is exactly what I wanted and threw away. I just wish I didn't throw him to James. I had met that guy when I moved her and it wasn't pretty. I blinked away the thoughts and went to lay down, stripping my pants on the way.


I woke up, not feeling all that great. I got up and decided I needed a walk. I hadn't walked in a while and it usually cleared my head. I got up and put on some gym shorts and a tank, slipping my sneakers on and grabbing my keys. I walked out the door and stopped. Alec was sitting in the floor by the elevator with his hands fisted in his hair and his elbows on his knees, which were bent and up by his torso. I walked over and kneeled. "You alright?"

He jumped and looked up. He had a bruise forming on his right eye and a cut on his lip. I reached out slowly to touch it and he flinched. "What happened?"

Alec took a breath and I now noticed the tear tracks. "I wouldn't let him in. We struggled."

I could feel the anger and help him stand. "Come on. I got some medicine."

I didn't say anything else to him and he just followed me back. I unlocked my door and helped him into my bathroom, sitting him on the toilet. I turned and got out my first aid kit, opening it to get out the ointment. "I don't have anything for the eye but some meat. I can heal the cut with an invisible band aid."

He just nodded and I lightly tended to his cut. I blew on it and he stilled. When I looked at him, he was staring at me. I swallowed and held his gaze, getting lost in a moment. I could feel something pulling me to him and then he blinked. I shook my head and stood back up. I gently pulled on his arm, leading him to my living room. He went to my couch while I went to grab some meat out of the freezer. I handed it to him and then sat in my chair, not wanting to be close. He didn't say anything, neither did I. I could feel the tension though and it was driving me crazy.

"How long were you out there?" I whispered.

He turned to look at me, his hand with the frozen item dropping to his lap. "Three."

My eyes got wide as I looked at him. "All night, Alec."

He shrugged. "I tried to stay in my apartment, but I had to get out. I didn't realize what I did till the door dinged. I then realized I didn't know your loft number and I sat down. I didn't realize I had been there so long."

I texted Kyle to let him know I wasn't coming in and neither was Alec. I didn't tell him anything, just that something happened and we needed to take care of it. I looked at Alec, who was staring at the wall. "We're not going to work. You should really get that looked at, Alec."

He shrugged. "I've had worse. Did you know?"

I leaned and put a hand on his knee. "He's the only person I have tried to date, Alec. He never hit me, but he's an ass. If I knew he'd hit you, I wouldn't have let you leave with him. I just figure you wanted to get laid."

Alec chuckled a bit. "He thought I did too. Magnus, I don't know if I can do this. I will still work, but this. Seeing you outside of the club, I don't know. I don't trust myself and you, for some reason, think you can't be anything to anyone." He whispered the end and I let go of him.

I closed my eyes and nodded. "I understand. For the record, I sure wish I could. If I could with anyone, I'd want it to be with you."

I watched as he got up and headed out, sitting my meat in the sink on the way out. I leaned my head back and let the tears fall. He was a great guy, one of those that don't come all the time. I knew Cindy was right. I already didn't want to wait. I heard my phone ring and looked to see the hospital. I answered the phone and made my way out, heading out to the woman that needed me more than I needed Alec Lightwood.


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