Isabella – in the room

I was so thankful to Jacob for giving me time away to just sort my shit out. Me and a guitar that was all I wanted and needed at the moment. He knows me so well, Hell we have been friends since fucking forever. I know I give him a hard time about calling me Bella, But only he and "him" could get away with calling me that name. Reminding me that I was still that mouse of a girl. I was awkward and lost, to simply to be notice or to keep a mans attention for very long. I was sort of OK with letting "him"

go but I still wanted him. Half of my heart and soul was missing and has been for the last 5 years. I was able to hide it pretty damn well now a days but in the beginning I was a total mess. Then when I meet Marcus at college and he recommend that I follow thru with singing. I didn't think I was worthy of such attention but he said that my voice was the only instrument that I needed. Angela and Ben encouraged me to follow that dream. We knew Tyler and Matt from music class. Marcus had a few friends that owned a local club and we took up a few gigs there. We had 1 practice together and that was all it took. We blended together so well, now we are family.

Jackson knew a few people in the music business and without telling us he called in some favors and had them come check us out. It was a huge surprise the next morning receiving a phone call from Atlantic records asking for a meeting. Lets just say that business is not my thing at all. So we all agreed to hire Ben to rep us. He was amazing and a week later we were signing a contract. AGAIN was now a official band.

Sitting hear playing my guitar I allowed my mind to wander over the last few weeks. So much had been going on and I made Nessie promise not to tell Jake, Only she a Ben knew about the packages. The first one was a real surprise. Nessie had come into the Library, I had been in there for hours working on a new song. I was just about to take a break when a knock came at the door. Nessie walked in with a small box wrapped in parchment paper. She said she went out side to get the mail and it was sitting at the gate. She placed the package on a small end table by the sofa and left to make me some tea. I got up from the huge overstuffed chair I had occupied the entire morning. And walked to the box like it was a bomb. I never received packages Angela usually handled that fan stuff. But of course I was to curious about it so I opened it. The smell is what hit me first, the sweet smell my chest immediately began to burn the hole was slowly being ripped open again. I took two steps back and staggered to a chair. What the fuck it that? Why the fuck would a Cullen send me anything after no contact for the last 5 fucking years. I shot up from the chair, pissed off at my own reaction. I tore at the tissue paper inside with a fury only to stop dead in my tracks at the sight before me. No contact , nothing , no Alice, No Rose nothing and now they are sending me a fucking CD. I threw the box and its contents at the library wall and screamed in frustration.

"What the fuck?" I heard a low laugh behind me and when I spun around Ben was standing in the door way. The look on his face was priceless he was laughing at me but trying to cover it up with scrunching his face up.

"Now Isabella, what has you acting like a 4 year old with a potty mouth?" Ben said laugh

"THAT" I spit out at him. I was so mad, I was just standing there with my hands balled at my side. He walked over and picked up the box with the CD in it. "I really don't see what has you so mad, who is it from?" he asked while looking at the box for a shipping address.

In a whispered voice I said "Alice" His eyes shot up to mine "what, Alice as in Cullen?" I took a breath "yes". He looked down on the ground at the small pink note that had falling out of the package. Slowly he picked it up, reading it he looked back up at me and I just shrugged my shoulders. I already knew what it said, I saw it only moments ago.

Bella,,

please listen to the CD.

You have to know.

Love your sister ,

Alice

I refused to listen and Ben took the package to leave but at the last moment I made him stay an listen to it with me. I couldn't be alone with the information I just received. Ben put the CD in the player and hit play. My heart stopped beating for 2 beats "oh my god" I whispered. Ben looked at me and said" you know who this is right? You realize that this is the group EC, the group that is one of the groups that could possible be opening for AGAIN at Voodoo fest." All I could say was "YES".

"Look I will get on the phone right now and make sure that EC does not open for you"

I thought about it for a moment and before I could say anything Ben was walking over to the phone on the desk. "NO, Ben, Don't do that. I want whatever is sopose to happen to happen. But please I beg you to not let anyone else know. I don't want the sympathy again, lets just leave it be. I wont take chances like that with the band, Voodoo is huge for us."

"Isabella, are you sure?" he asked with concern

"yes, I am a big girl now and I can fucking do this" I smiled at him.

"OK, but you let me know if you get anything else or you cant do it" He walked over to me gave me a hug and left me in the library with Edward fucking Cullen's voice floating threw the quite room.

A knock at the door pulled me from my thoughts. I hadn't even realized I was playing the same melody over and over again.

Jake's voice 5 minutes Bella. I looked up at the wall of mirrors did a quick once over thinking that Ang did a amazing job again. I slowly walked to the door and paused. I can do this, I know that he will be in the audience tonight. And this was my moment to shine to show him what he lost. I opened the door to the band standing backstage and yelled "Hell fucking yeah, lets do this shit."

Everyone laughed but it was the look on Jake's face that told me Edward was there and Jake knew it. Shit