The Art of Music

Edited by: Oblivious2everything


A/N: HEY EVERYONE! Sorry it's been so long! I've been so busy with everything! Finals and Hw and just life... its so depressing... oh well... but now it's up! I really hope u all like it! I worked hard to do this one... it's from Edwards Point of view so please bare with me... I've never tried it from his but now i am... because if i didn't then I wouldn't have anything to give u... ok! i hope u like... PLEASE REVIEW! and get back to me! I couldn't do this without u guys!


Chapter 4 Running Home

Edward's P.O.V

I ran though the night as fast as I could. The wind wiped at my face and the rain fell down on me, but I barley felt a thing. Everything was dulled by the sharp tightness in my throat that threatens to chock me.

What had I done? I can't see what I did wrong. I stopped abruptly and looked at the moon in the sky. The rain socked my face but I didn't care. I deserved to be out in the rain. I did push her too far. I knew it. I shouldn't have tried to recreate that moment. That heated moment on the couch this afternoon was a once in a life time event and I should have seen it as such and not tried again. But, her warmth, her soft skin that burned under my cold hands. It filled me with such a degree of love and passion I thought I was going to loose myself in her.

As if I hadn't already done that long again. But now was different. She was still very broken. She was barely whole. How could I do that to her? Push her when she was still so weak. I knew better then to do that! I should have stopped her. I should have kept a safe distance away when I smelled the change in her scent. She was aroused and that only made it harder for me to stop. Curse these human male hormones!

But, had my leaving upset her? Should I go back? I turned to look behind me, back through the forest, in the direction that would lead me back to my Bella. I closed my eyes and I thought it through. But my thoughts were interrupted by the face I saw. I saw Bella's face behind my eyelids. Not her normal, beautiful, loving face, but the face of pure fear. The face that made me feel like a monster. I could still see it, even now. The face I loved so much was painted into a mask of fear and a blush that showed how fast her heart was racing. Like a prey caught in the jaws of its predator. That was pure fear and it was because of me that she was afraid. I hated that face. But I knew I deserved it. I was well over due to see that face. It was the face I should have saw over a year ago when I told her what I really was. A monster. A blood-sucking beast. A vampire.

I shook my head and slowly opened my eyes. Her reaction was clearly a rejection. I turned back around and headed for home. I ran for a few minutes in pure silent, and then I heard it. The thoughts of my family.

I slowed as I reached the white house hidden in the forest. My home. I heard only three voices from inside the house. Esme was up stairs reading. Jasper and Alice where in the leaving room watching TV. I couldn't hear where the others were so I took a wild guess that Rosalie and Emmett had gone hunting and that Carlisle was still at the hospital. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I ran into the house and tried to make it to the stairs as fast as I could. I hoped that they would assume I was in a hurry and that I wanted to leave to see Bella and wouldn't bother me. I suppose I would have to leave and wait for morning in the woods.

But before I could meet the first step Alice was in front of me. She glared at me. "How could you? Why did you leave? Are you insane?! Go back this minute!"

I should have known I couldn't fool Alice. I stepped to her side but Jasper was beside her now. I glared at them both. I didn't need this right now. All I wanted to do was go and listen to a few song and then head out to the forest.

"You are not staying outside! You are going to go back to Bella!" Alice hissed at me. 'How could you do that to her Edward?' All though her voice was filled with furry her thoughts were sad. This caught me off guard.

"What happened?" Esme came down the stairs. 'Edward, what's wrong? Did something happen to Bella? Is she alright?' She looked at me for the answers but I didn't want her to know. I didn't think she could take the fact that Bella was afraid of me.

"Edward ran away." Alice announced. Esme looked at her for more. "He upset Bella and rather then dealing with it, he ran away."

Esme now looked at me. "Edward, what happened?"

I glared at Alice. Slowly I felt the anger fade and the calm settle in. I turned to Jasper and glared as best I could at him. But he only worked harder to make me calmer. Alice turned to him and nodded. She was thanking him for calming me, hoping that this would make me explain. It only made angrier, which made fight harder.

"Now Edward, please tell us what happened. Alice saw Bella panic over something and then you left when she didn't talk to you. Please fill in the missing pieces." Jasper said in a calming voice. I some times hated how he could do this. I wanted to be mad and hate myself right now, but he was making that impossible.

'Edward, do you know what she was panicking over?' Esme asked.

I tried to fight the calm and the peace that Jasper was forcing on me. 'Don't fight me Edward. You know you won't win. It would be easier if you just let me help you.'

I shook my head. I didn't want this. I didn't want to face them. I turned to run out of the house, but Alice beat me to it. "Stop this! No more running!" 'Or did you forget what nearly happened the last time you left?' I winced at the reminder. 'I won't let you put yourself or Bella through that again! Just let us help you…please Edward.'

I looked into Alice's eyes. I saw the determination in them. She wouldn't let me go. Not without a fight. I relaxed a little and let Jasper's power cloud the anger and hurt. It made this almost bearable. Esme walked over to me and placed her hand on my shoulder. "Please Edward. What happened?"

I looked at her. My mother, in so many real ways. Could I really tell her? Tell them? I sighed. "I don't really know." I whispered. "One minute, everything was fine. I had helped her with her homework-"

I heard Jasper chuckle in his head. I turned to glare at him. 'Sorry. But you have to admit. That was pretty funny. 'My vampire boyfriend helped me with my homework last night.' Haha. The others would be so envious.'

I shook my head at him. I didn't need this.

Esme interrupted my thoughts. 'Then what happened?'

"I put her books away and then…" The images of Bella with her stomach innocently showing from under her night shirt filled my mind. The way she looked when I walked towards her. The way she felt when I finally touched her. I knew that if I could, I would be blushing now.

Of course, Jasper felt the change in my emotions and paid closer attention. I tried to stay calm but it was hard when he was trying to get me to fess up. 'What were you two doing? From that reaction it had to have been something fun.'

Alice glared at him. "Jasper, please." She shared a look with him and then she looked back at me.

"Well, I guess we can figure out what happened." Esme said. She smiled for a second at the thought of me holding Bella. But then it fell as she wondered what had gone wrong. 'Did you two get into another fight over her change? Or did something else happen…'

"That's just it. I don't know. One minute, everything is great. I was going to tuck her into bed and then she panicked. I didn't see what happened. It doesn't make any since." I moved from them and walked over to the couch. I sat on it and put my head in my hands. I felt like I was missing something but I still couldn't get it. Why had she reacted that way?

"You're forgetting something Edward." 'Think. What had she done after she jumped out of your arms?' Alice asked as she moved to sit next to me.

I thought about it. After I had kissed her, I moved to pull the sheets back and… there was a withered old notebook lying on her bed. She had moved it there after I had come in. Her extra credit. She had panicked when I reached for it. But, why?

Alice rested a hand on my arm and leaned closer. 'It was the notebook, wasn't it? That's what she was panicking over. Not you. You did nothing.'

I looked at her. No. Why would she not want me to touch the notebook?

"What?" Esme asked.

"There was a notebook. When I pulled back the covers on her bed to tuck her in, there was a notebook under them. I reached to grab it and she panicked. She…. She hid it in her backpack and then climbed into bed without saying one word to me." I didn't understand.

"Maybe there was something in it she didn't want you to see." Esme said.

"But what? What would she want to hide from me?"

'A diary? A slam book maybe?' Jasper thought.

I shook my head.

'Something embarrassing.' Alice answered. I looked at her and she smiled. 'I'm not going to tell you what. But it is something worth seeing for yourself. She thinks you will hate it. So she is hiding it from you. Believe me Edward, she isn't upset with you. She just isn't ready to show you her talent.'

"Talent?" I looked at her for more but she kept her thoughts from me. I looked to Jasper but he didn't seem to know what we were talking about.

"If you really want to know, go back and see for yourself Edward." 'Don't make her cry anymore.' I looked back at Alice at that last comment. And then I saw it. Bella jumping out of bed and turning on the lights, and running around the room looking for something. Me. She had been looking for me. Bella trying to sneak out of her house, but then, seeming to think better, snuck back into her room. Bella claiming back into bed and slowly start to cry, until finally she turned her head into her pillow and stopped moving. I turned away from Alice. I didn't want to see her cry. 'Don't like it? Then go fix it.'

I looked at her one last time before jumping up and heading towards the door. Esme stopped me and hugged me. "No matter what happens, don't hurt yourselves again." She whispered. 'I don't want to see either of you that miserable again.'

I nodded and then I was off. I ran as fast as I could back through the woods, but I wasn't fast enough to miss Jasper's last thoughts. 'He can be so moody sometimes it's painful. Bella better appreciate this.' I smiled at the thought. I'm sure she would.

The rain had started to pick up. But it didn't matter. The rain barely touched me. I had to make it back to Bella's before something happened.

How could I have been so stupid? It was never me. But what was I suppose to think? I should have known better.

As I ran my mind wondered over the notebook. What could possibly be in such a ragged old thing that would make Bella embarrassed? I had seen her carry it around school before. She used it for taking notes.

And today would have been no different. Had they taken notes over something that made her embarrassed? No. Alice had said it was her talent. What was? Note taking?

I thought of things Bella would do while we took notes. Sometimes, if she got really bored she would shade in the margin. Or doodle.

Was that it? Was that why she had so much homework? Because she spent the class time doodling? She was embarrassed over something as silly as that? The memory of her blushing face as I asked her what she had done today flooded my mind.

I chuckled a little to myself. All this over a little doodle. "Ha!" I laughed to the night as I ran. That was nothing! I would prove to her there was nothing to be self-conscious about. After all I had seen her little doodle's many times before. Why would this one make a difference? I didn't know, but I was going to find out.

As I reached her house I slowed and carefully claimed the tree that was in front of her window. I looked in at her still form. I should let her sleep.

I moved to go back down when I heard her speak. In a broken sob she whimpered, "Edward. Come back. Please. Edward."

It broke my heart to hear that. Or it would if I had one. I jumped from the tree into the window without making a sound. I walked to her bed and looked at her face. She was still crying, even in her sleep. Her pillow was stained with wet marks. Her hair clung to her face and her face held proof of where the tears had fallen down her checks. I leaned in closer to her. I lied down on the bed and wrapped my arms around her. I kissed the tears away as I softly spoke, "Its ok Bella. I'm right here. I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. I'm sorry." I kissed her forehead as she slowly began to relax. She moved closer and snuggled into my chest. I rested my nose in her hair and inhaled her sweet scent.

Slowly I felt her relax more and more. I began to sing her new song to her. It was so amazing how much this song said about her. It told how much she loved me, and how much I loved her. I kissed her hair and held her closer as she fell into a deeper sleep. I closed my eyes and listened to her heart beat. Her warmth spread through me. This was as good as any sleep. Softly, I heard her mumble in her sleep the words that erased all my worries. "I love you, Edward."


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