Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush or their members Kendall Schmidt, Logan Henderson, James Maslow and Carlos Pena. I also don't wanna earn money with this story.
Chapter 3
Days went by and the doctors didn't have much hope for Kendall but Logan wouldn't leave his side. He just felt so guilty that he even slept on the chair net to Kendall's bed. Nobody was able to get Logan home. Every day that Logan spent by his side, holding Kendall's hand, made him realize how much he still loved the blonde.
"Logie, you need to eat something", said James who just came into the room.
It was day 8 after Kendall's accident and the boys were of course all still in Minnesota. Carlos and James as well as Mama Knight started to get worried about Logan. He hadn't eaten anything since they arrived and he barely drank enough water.
"I'm not hungry, James", was his response.
"Logan, it's bad enough that one of us is sick. Do you want us to worry about you, too?", Carlos asked looking at Logan.
Logan didn't look up, he kept staring at the beautiful blonde's face hoping he would soon wake up. "I'd deserve it. It should be me laying here like this. He doesn't deserve this. It should fucking be ME!"
Carlos and James were terrified. They've never seen Logan act like this or get angry or anything. When Logan started sobbing James was there to hug him and squeeze him real tight.
"Logie, listen to me", he said. "Kendall will be fine. And he'll be happy you're here when he wakes up. He'll be fine."
"If he wakes up", Logan sobbed.
"He will, Logie, he will. Believe me. Kendall's a fighter, he will wake up."
Logan gently pushed James away to look at him. "Thank you. Thank you so much." Then it was his turn to squeeze James really tight and let go of him. "Thank you both for being here."
"Hey, Kendall is our friend, too, remember? And we can't leave you here on your own", Carlos said. "Now come on, let James watch Kendall for a while and go have breakfast with me."
Logan nodded though his eyes said he'd rather stay with Kendall, just in case.
"It's okay, Logie, you should eat something. I'll call you if he wakes up." James pulled Logan out of the chair and pushed him to the door. "Eat something!"
Logan wasn't sure whether to believe James or not. But with all his soul, with all his heart, he wished that Kendall would wake up. And he knew that if Kendall died he would commit suicide. Because living without Kendall knowing that he was okay was hard enough but living without Kendall because he was dead was simply not imaginable for Logan. He would not be able to face a world where Kendall didn't exist anymore.
Logan honestly didn't want to catch something to eat but he knew that if he didn't eat now, James and Carlos would probably force him to eat later.
Logan and Carlos both got themselves a sandwich and a coffee from the hospital café and sat down at one of the tables. Logan only bit into his sandwich once.
"Logan, please?", Carlos begged looking at Logan with those puppy eyes he just couldn't resist.
So Logan forced himself to eat at least half a sandwich and drink his coffee. "Okay, I'm done, can we go back now?"
Carlos shook his head. "Nope, I'm still eating. Look, Logan, I know you wanna be there for him because you somehow feel guilty for what happened but you seriously need some time off. James and I see the way you look at Kendall, I mean, you're practically staring at him, but what good will you be if you need to be hospitalized as well because you took such good care of Kendall but forgot to take care of yourself?"
Logan had to admit that Carlos was actually right. "I know you're right, Los, but I just...I still love him, you know?"
Carlos nodded. "Yeah, we know. And it's okay. But, Logie? Do you mind if I asked you a question?"
"You wanna know why I broke up with him, don't you?"
Carlos just nodded.
"Well, I got letters from a person telling me to break up with Kendall or something would happen to him, something bad. I got like five of those letters. After the fifth one I decided not to take a risk and I broke up with him. I wanted to protect him. I just didn't want him to get hurt, you know? But I never stopped loving him."
Carlos nodded again and just when he wanted to say something, Logan's phone ran. It was James. "James?...What? Really?...Really?...Yeah...Yeah, tell him, I'm coming."
Logan hung up and Carlos looked at him.
So, I hope you like cliff hanger :D What do you think? Why did James call? Did Kendall wake up? Or was it just because Kendall's doctor wanted to talk to Logan? What do you think?
Oh and I decided, I'm not gonna upload a new chapter after this unless I get at least 2 reviews. I honestly think that this is not too much to ask for now, or is it?
