Till I Get Over You

Chapter 3

Authors Note:

Tomrrow the 5th I start my junior year. Everything Ive written so far is from Sophmore year, and I still love her , its been pretty much 2 years and I dont know how in the hell im going to go through this year, I haven't hung out with her too much during this summer because I live 30 minutes away from her and all of my friends ( Basically I moved in the middle of last year beacuse my mom broke up with her boyfriend and it was too expensive for her to live out there on her own so we moved, but I still attended the same school with MUCH sacrifice) This year im still attending the same school. I really do want to tell her but I know ill REALLY regret it once ive told her, I might be just going through a phase you know? But i'll see! And you'll know it because i'll still be writing this fan fic! Well this chapter is just a random thoughts. I will be writing about stuff that happens at school and memories from last year and this summer.

Heres a comment she left a couple days ago on my, myspace page :) :

awww...well u know what? IM SO FUCKING HAPPY! u know why? cuz i get to see ur beautiful face & that hott ass on tuesday! fuck yah! i hope we get a fuckin class...i love u missy. i'll get at cha later. peaaaaaace. Love-(blank)

And what she said about me on her "About Me" section : ) :

(blank) is the coolest person u can ever meet. She's 100 honest & trustworthy. and she just doesnt give a fuckkk. she makes my chonies wet. hahaa. w/o these two girls, honestly, i think i would die. i'll love them forever and ever.

Chonies are underwear in spanish. Haha but shes completely white washed and I love every part of her. And she also mentioned "Rachel" in there too.

Ashley's POV

After my parents got divorced me and my mom had to move. 30 minutes away from my school, my friends, and her. This meant less time with her. But luckly enough for me she had cusions that lived really close to me, so she would still be around once in while at her cusions. I always loved it when she had to stay late after school because I had to wait until 4 because my mom worked 20 minutes away from my school and you know southern California traffic! That was the time where we really got to talk, about her and her life and about mine. Many times I wanted to tell her how much I cared for her. But I was too cowardly. If only she knew this other side of me. I always put up a facade up when I was around her, not to care about anything and that I was a strong person, even pretending not to care about her, just so she didnt have a clue about what was going on in my heart. That went on for a year but this year Im going to change all of that. Im going to be more touchy feely and more emotional, and maybe give her a slight thought that I might be flirting with her, then maybe then she would have a clue about how I really felt. Im going to have to work slow at it, but I know I cant hold it in much longer.

The wierd thing is that I didnt like her to spend the night, well I did , but I always was embarrassed about my mom and the small house I live in. And even when she did spend the night I would put my feelings aside and just be her friend inside and out. I didnt want to do anything I regret, like making a move or anything, that would just make my house more uncomfortable. She even tryed to hook me up with her cusion that lived maybe 5 miles from my house, he's cute but too quite. I still am attracted to guys, Im boy crazy, its just HER, and only HER that makes me feel different...

School starts tomorrow and im dreading it I'd rather just go to a school around my house but I know ill just end up missing her more. God how much I wish I could tell her. I always wonder if maybe, just a little she felt the same way but I know thats impossible. But this year, ill make her question everything about our "friendship". i'll flirt, little by little, and work my way into her heart, it may just work, but maybe (hopefully) i'll get over her and move on. But only time will tell.

During the end of Sophmore year.

"Uh here comes Mr. Michaels class, God I hate him! He so gay! haha" Spencer scowled as we were walking to our class after lunch. Spencer had a stong dislike for our 5th period teacher, he made me laugh actually. "I love him hes so funny but he doesnt even know it!" I laughed. " I know the way he moves his hands and the way he talks I really do think hes gay". Spencer said. "Haha you never know.." I trailed off as I felt something that ive never felt from her, you know how you can tell when someone is going to hold you hand, they get closer to you and you can feel there hand get closer to yours, thats what happend and she just grabbed my hand. Of course I was shocked, and I acted like an idiot, I should of just let her hold my hand but I still dont know what her intentions were behind that move maybe it was too see my reaction, which was a stupid one. I started to get nervous because I knew I had to react to it something like "what the hell are you doing?", but I didnt want her to feel stupid. So I just said something stupid and looked around nervously " Oh, ha I wonder how many people are talking about us now" Is something along the lines of what I said im sure it was more idiotic. " Oh I know I hold my moms hand sometimes and people are always staring like were lesibans and whisper to there friends its stupid". She said. "Yea lets see how many people start staring at us" I said like a challenge but her grasp was soon gone. Dammit you should of just played it cool and just let her hold it and let her do the talking. Fuck now she'll probably never try it again, was she trying to tell me something? I probably never know. I mean we talk to eachother differently like "Oh stop it your making my chonies wet" or "you looking sexy today sweetheart" and "Lets make love NOW!" And we would also grab eachothers butts and smack them but I always thought she was just messing around.But then I noticed she doesnt do it to any of my other friends not even Rachel. Wierd, so thats why I think she may feel something for me.Or maybe she knows im the only one of her friends that she can mess around with like that with out getting a wierded out reaction.

The rest of the day I couldnt get over what she did, I was caught completely off gaurd but I liked it, I couldnt stop smiling. Damn did she even know the affect she had on me?

Thanks for the reviews Im not sure of what to write yet but I still have some stories of borderline flirting type junk. I wont be posting a new chapter for a while but I promise the next chapter will be longer ok well I have to go to bed, I have a long tourterous day ahead of me. At least I get to see my L.O.V.E