Hi! Here's the new chapter of Dasha's story. I know it took a long time but I've been really busy with college and the chapters I published for other stories were already written, so this one took me longer. I also have a strong belief that my teachers were trying to kill me and my classmates but they failed as we're still alive and kicking! Ah! Ah!. Now continuing with one more chapter for Love within darkness.
Please enjoy!
Dasha's POV
"Well I believe I have nothing further to say you executed your duty perfectly. You can go on your way lieutenant Dasha." Ayanami said from his chair behind his desk, his expression unreadable. It only added fuel to the fire because I couldn't get a read on his thoughts. Ayanami was starting to infuriate me, correction to frustrate me as I could not read him or read myself which had become more and more irritating. I didn't have a clue as to why I reacted that way to Ayanami. Asking Tomo-chan crossed my mind but I quickly scratched it from my options as she would definitely jump to weird conclusions.
"Dasha-san" My eyes widened slightly I was startled I had became too ingrained in my own thoughts. " Yes?" I managed. " Is there something you want to say?" Ayanami asked slightly smirking as he leaned back on his chair. " N-No." I said embarrassed my hand reaching for the door knob behind me. "Thank you sir. I'll take my leave" I ended before a small bow and leaving the room.
With fast strides I headed down the hall way fully intending to have a peaceful rest in my rom. When on my destination I slumped on the bed wishing for the much needed rest to come. Those days had been hellish namely because of Hyuugas' nagging, Kuroyuri cakes which made her faint but if I didn't eat them I think Kuroyuri would kill me, work in the ship that made me walk around all day and the last battle against the sklaves. But last but not the least actually the icing on the cake was my reaction to Ayanami's presence within two meters of me. Honestly when he was near me I was never myself. I would always be nervous around the said man therefore I couldn't maintain my calm behavior. Maybe it was because I wasn't used to have the person I admire around me most of the time so he wouldn't get out of my head." Yes that's it." I whispered to myself eased with my conclusion .
" I just need to focus on the job as usual." I thought dozing into sleep.
I really wished that sleep would come to soothe and ease me but I was wrong my wish wouldn't be granted albeit so simple. I was once again haunted with nightmares. My childhood and youth were not filled with good memories overlapping those where many horrid memories. Specially this one which still pursued me; the atrocious memory of the one who tried to murder me still child, as a child in my dream I could see that hideous man trying to stab me to death, I ran and ran, screamed till my voice escaped me. Until, until … I fell on the grounds of the garden of my family house he got closer… and closer to me, with no emotions in his eyes like I just was a piece of meat he could slice. I fell in my haste this time he managed to pierce my shoulder, blood flowed from the deep wound. It was still imprinted in my eyes, no wrong , in my soul… that moment in which he plunged his knife towards me to kill me…those maniac eyes . The knife never pierced through me. I remember I screamed with the whole strength I had left with my eyes closed and then with I opened them I saw the man lifeless on the ground. I trembled like leaf in a storm I had killed a man. My zaiphon I had used it to kill that man. It might not be a surprise for me now but at that time I had never done it. I had never manifested it with such intent and I always had needed profound concentration to use it. I never really understood how I did it that time. Next I only remember waking up in my aunties' arms.
I got up from bed hastily to splash my face with cold water. I wanted that nightmare to go away I had become strong I needn't to be afraid. Tired I went back to bed praying that I could sleep again however I ended only tossing and turning under the blankets. It was dark outside it was surely late and dawn was still far. Sighing I sat up on my bed maybe a walk around the ship will bring me to sleep. I got up and dressed only in my button up shirt and trousers left my room. Indeed my uniform wasn't worn properly but if didn't go near the control room it would be fine. I was sure I wouldn't run in anyone.
Wandering around I came across another panoramic window. I must've been at the other end of the warship , I remember this was the other location with such a thing. It was beautiful the view of the starry sky and the lights of the city below. I stayed watching for a while in l silence.
Before someone's' steps tore me out of my reverie. " Dasha-san" I heard has I turned around. My eyes widened in surprise I really thought I'd encounter no one. And now that I did it had to be him.
" Goodnight Ayanami-sama" I said with a slight bow. He just nodded in acknowledgement. " Is there something wrong ?"
General POV
Ayanami was enjoying the calm that the night´s sky brought with it until he heard steps on the corridors, from his seat it wasn't clear to whom the steps belonged but as minutes passed those came closer and then to a stop, but, now the Chief of Staff was fully aware of whom created them.
"Dasha" he whispered to himself, a devious glint went through his eyes. To the man that woman was an enigma because he didn't know why he was drawn to her. Well Ayanami wouldn't say drawn but, instead, intrigued by her. Dasha always had an endearing reaction to his presence nevertheless this reaction could change drastically to one of detachment. This was the way he saw it the truth was that Dasha was just trying to sort her own predicaments.
So all in all, interest, as Ayanami would put it, took the best of him, so he rose from the comfortable couch he sat on watching the night heading her way. When he came upon her he could finally call her name aloud and he did with his smoky voice. She quickly turned around with a bow. Sometimes it irritated him her formality towards him. And with his thought more questions formed in his mind. Ayanami nodded in acknowledgement his eyes closed. Why did it irritate him so? From anyone else it would have been irrelevant. There it was again her incongruity that had first come when she fought, he would follow her with his gaze and now he came to her. Still the last hit had yet to come. It came when he opened his eyes . She looked scared. Ayanami could not prevent the words to slip from his lips " Is there something wrong?"
Dasha was indeed startled with his appearance but that wasn't the only reason. She still had the images of the recent nightmare playing in her mind and not aware she was wearing her fear on her eyes. It was so uncharacteristic of her.
Dasha paused as to gather words to say, she wouldn't say what really was happening that would be disastrous. For some unknown reason Dasha definitely didn't want to look like a coward in front of that particular man. "Umm…I …." Dasha tried a hand running her hair. " Yes?" Ayanami intoned taking few steps to diminish the distance between them." Nothing's wrong, Ayanami-sama" Dasha tilted her head up as Ayanami's height was towering her." I just couldn't sleep" now she hid her face avoiding his stare fidgeting a little on her place.
" I see. Then did you think the night's sky would help you? It can indeed be calming." Ayanami said a softer tone underlying his voice that even he didn't recognize. Dasha turned to him. Was she imagining things? Or was Ayanami-sama trying to soothe her. No, that wasn't possible. So her lips cracked a sad smile in self admonishment there was no reason for that to happen as there was no reason why she would want that from her boss. Then, she replied, a sad gaze on her irises. "Yes that's true. However isn't that just one side of the coin?" Ayanami now fully turned to her Dasha did not avoid his intent look" Although I deem it beautiful I also find it dreadful in a way. The night hides many awful dangers, does it not?" Dasha explained her voice even and demure. Ayanami was now closer to her than he intended to be. Her speech had induced him to step closer, he couldn't explain why but he felt that Dasha had meant something more. Something linked with her. Ayanami moved a hand to touch her however he quickly stopped himself as her reaction was one of shock. "One should be able to protect himself in order to not be hurt." Dasha ended an edge to her voice. Again words spilled from Ayanami's lips before he could stop it .Holding her chin so she looked directly at him plainly ignoring her shock from before and from this minute, he said "Stay as you are… " Dasha hands now hovered above Ayanami's wrist unsure of what to do. " …or stay here and no harm will come to you. Be assure of that." Ayanami quickly removed his slick fingers turning around to leave with no further notice leaving a woman confused with his actions. He had left walking back to his room fuming with himself. Why did he act like that? It was so not himself.
Dasha's POV
" Stay as you are or stay here and no harm will come to you. Be assure of that."
My body shivered his touch still lingered on my skin , the place where he had touched was warm ,and his smoky baritone repeated in my mind time and time again as I restlessly lay in my bed. I was stunned. What did Ayanami-sama mean? For the love of God I could not fathom what he wanted to say. It was confirmed. Since that man entered my life my mind had swirled and swirled around him tiring me out, the reason why I did not know. "Ayanami-sama would you answer me?" I whispered dozing into slumber relinquishing in the security his voice and scanty touch had brought me.
