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Here's the story! (Oh, by the way, i know this might sound a bit confusing but Tsukiko's real hair color is red while her
eyes are red too. She can change her look that's her special ability from her clan.)
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You Was Always There Chapter 4
The door clicked shut, and I began to run. Wobbly, shaky, almost numbed legs kept me from going anywhere really. I knew if I had stood there any longer, I would have lost my mind or something. I couldn't bare to look at him. I just didn't have the guts to look him in the eyes. My throat, it felt like it was being crushed.
A large lump formed in my throat. Guilt. It was written in my torned, bleeding, blac k heart of mines but it didn't show on my circular face. Besides, I couldn't show myself to him if I looked like this. I was a total mess right now, so there's no way I'm going back.
Legs just kept running in front of the other, almost tripping me in the process and I couldn't stop myself from running away. I just kept going. I was so out of it that I didn't know where I was going. All I know was that the best thing for me right now, was to run and never come back.
When the hospital was out of sight, I finally stopped to hold my composure but the thing is, I tripped over my own foot and landed hard on the pale, cold, marbled-crossed, kind of cracked ground before me. Damn, my ankle, I twisted it. I'm such a klutz aren't I?
Yet it felt like I was dried out like a well, but small rain-drop-sized tears formed in my eyes. I couldn't let myself be weak and cry over something so small but painful at the same time. I held back my tears, picked myself up and when I looked at where I was I had immediately froze.
That road... The same path Sasuke took... No, there's no way I'll be a missing-nin. I'm not a traitor like him. I gasped softly at what I just said. I had just called Sasuke a traitor. Yes, I knew he was a missing-nin but I never once thought of him as a traitor, that is, until now.
Where was he anyways? Hang on a second. Back there, I helped someone out. The person had midnight-blue spiked hair but that could have been someone else. I mistook that person for Sasuke or was that person really him? Why can't I...?
"I finally found you" My body was tensed and I got into a fighting stance. I was getting very defensive and I figured this person should watch who they're talking to, but I didn't look at the person at first. Then I decided to take a risk and turned around only to come face to face with Tsunade's assistant. My body relaxed and I was calm now. It was only her.
"Shizune? What are you doing here?" It's this early in the morning and yet, I cam running here, trying to think things through, but fell in the process and got up, my body getting tensed because someone had spoke to me only to find out it's Shizune! Jeez... what was going on here?
"Lady Tsunade told me to come and get you. She says she wants to speak to you and are you willing to go? H..huh? Your not trying to leave Konoha are you? That's the only road to take when you want to leave the village, then you'll become a missing--" With what she said, that made me upset and grass-green eyes stared into coal-black ones coldly.
"You think I'll betray this village? I know what road this is but I have no intention on leaving. That's out of the question for me, I won't do it. (Shizune was taken slightly aback eith the way my tone was. She never heard me speak to her like this before, so this is a first and it scared her just a bit. But even if I was scaring her, I didn't care. She made it sound like I've been a traitor all this time or something well, she has the wrong idea) So Tsunade wants to speak to me? That's interesting. Usually, she has too much work to do that she barely has the time to speak to anyone besides, you. Exactly, what does she wants to speak to me about? Do you know?" Whatever she says, I'll have to deal with it, in one or more way whether I like it or not.
"Actually, I don't know what she wants to speak to you about but you'll see when she speaks to you. I can't say anything really. I'm sorry if I can't answr your questions but anyways that doesn't matter here. What matters is that you come back with me to the tower and see Lady Tsunade. This is important so let's hurry" If it's that important, then I can't complain. Then again, there's no need for whining. Whatever she has to say, I'll just have to put up with it. After all, I have no right in saying anything.
Soft, speeding, footsteps kept running. Every step that was taken was filled with a thumping heart beat. All I can do is hope for good news. I don't know why but, what Tsunade was going to say to me, had me somewhat scared. Doubts began to fill my empty mind. My heart rate quickened. My ears were clogged, and I couldn't hear anything. It felt like I had just turned deaf. The feeling of fear, that one emotion that's so strong, carried within me. There was nothing I could do right now except, listen and say not one word.
There, standing before me was the door. The only thing that was heard was a fast-beating, bleeding, tightened heart. My heart to be exact. I ignored my heart, like as though I heard nothing. Slowly, Shizune twisted the dull golden knob, and we entered the room. I failed to breathe, I just stood stiff, like a statue. Honey-brown eyes made way from scattered piled papers to my grass-green eyes. Her eyes told me that what she was about to say, meant serious business. There was no time for joking around or childish games. I knew that every ounce of words being spoken was to be taken seriously. At this point, I looked back at her with a cold expression plastered on my face. Right, I was to be serious at all times.
"Akacho Tsukiko. You, one of our top strongest shinobi of this village has a S-ranked mission. This mission involves you watching over a certain someone who decided to come back to Konoha after 5 years. I want you to watch him 24/7, every day, every night, and every hour. You won't be given a break and I don't expect for you to complain about all of this, correct? Good. Also, just to be specfic, I'm sure you know who I'm speaking about right? He's a familiar face that was once a ninja of our village that is, until he decided to leave and abandoned his own homeland. He's at his house right now, with an ANBU watching him. Go there and take over. Since your more capable of handling this situation than any other ninja, I trust you. You have 6 months to watch him. I also want you to write me a report on his status whether he could be trusted or not, and if he's cut out to be a leaf shinobi again. Is that understood? Well, he can train but only on his grounds. Keep him company as best as you can and everything will go smoothly. That is all, now you may leave" Obviously I nodded to all of what she had to say. I didn't complain or anything of course, I can't fail her. This is a mission after all.
"Before I go, I would like to request something" There's just no way i could leave here, and have people calling me by original name. I don't want this person, who I have to watch know my name. I can't afford for my identity to be revealed.
"A request? (Hm, I wonder what type of request does she wants) Tell me what you want" Whatever she wants as a request can be done in a second I mean after all, I'm the Hokage and I have the power to do that.
"I would like to change my name. I don't want to be called Tsukiko. I will have my family name but my first name would be Madoka. No one should know who I really am, only you and Shizune. And if someone was to call me Tsukiko, I'll say something to prove them wrong. Can that be done? A nod of her, that's all I need Now, I'll be leaving" No longer would I be known as Tsukiko Akacho but as Madoka Azami. Whoever this person is, would probably get the biggest surprise in their life. Actually, she doesn't know how right she is.
Clock slowly ticking. Sweat was rolling down my face and yet, I didn't bothered to wipe it away. You know, it would be nice if I could take a shower right now but as possible as it may sound, I can't even do that. I wanted to stretch my arms and legs, not be here, tied up, unable to do anything. I felt trapped and caged up like I'm some type of wild animal or something. How long do I have to stay here, in this position, and do nothing? Why can't I just... A knock on the door? Who could that be? The ANBU that has been watching over me for a couple of hours now, got up, and made his way to the door.
I was left alone in my room,tied to a pipe, and was in deep thought for a moment. I wanted to know who was at my door and why that person was here and what they wanted from me. I gulped silently, barely making any movement. The only thing I could do was just sit here, say nothing and watch.
Dead, silent, and still. This entire house was lonely. Dark, even a mystery to some people. My mouth was dried and I needed something to drink. But what can I do, tied up like this? There was nothing I could do or say so, I'll just have to wait. Suddenly, this sinistful, dark-clouded, burning chakra was felt. I've never felt anything like this before, and it sort of scared me.
This chakra, belonged to someone but it wasn't human. So why was my hands beginning to shake slightly, my body trembling just a bit, sweat rolling down my face, cold shivers waved down my spine and my eyes searching, trying to look for a clue or something? What's going on...?
"Uchiha Sasuke" I turned my head slowly, sweat consuming me, my body shaking just a little, and I made eye contact with the person who said my name. My dark eyes widen just a bit because the way my name was said... only one person who I know says my name like that... But then since it wasn't the person who I was expecting to see, my cold, dark emotionless facial expression was played.
"Do I know you? Am I supposed to know you?" This person... she was stronger than she looked. She have this chakra that isn't one I've seen before. Who is she anyways?
"Maybe you do know me maybe you don't. Anyways, my name is Madoka Azami. I'm here to watch over here and as boring as that sounds, I can't go against this mission I was given to directly from the hokage. You will do as I say since I'm the one who's in charge here. You will have no right in complaining since I won't hesitate to smack you. If you do, disobey me, disrespect me however, I will put you in your place. Is that understood? Listen, I will say this once, and only once. You will answer my questions and respond a bit whenever I talk to you. Don't make me have to knock some sense into you since I'm not one to mess with. Curently, I'm not in the mood right now so do as I say and you won't get hurt, it's that simple" Grass-green eyes burned into dark onyx-black ones. Neither one took eyes off the other. It was like a staring contest.
Sasuke, just looking at you, seeing how much you've grown and matured over the years, it makes me happy. But at the same time angry. You left me behind... you didn't even bothered taking me with you. When you left, you left for good, not one word from you was heard again. I don't know if I should love you or hate you. After all these years, I still have feelings for you. And I made a promise to you as well.
"Hn, fine whatever. I'll do whatever you say if thats what it takes for me to get out of here, then so be it. But can I say something?" She... this Madoka person... she reminds me of someone but who? I just can't put my fingers on it. I kept looking at her, my eyes still cold and dull, watching her every move. Her eyes... the shape of them... they remind me of that same person...
"Why do you continue staring at me like I'm a mirror or something? Stop it with what. Oh, so you want to say something? Well Uchiha, you may speak but I'll be careful if I was you. Watch what you say to me because I could easily rip off your tongue if that's what you want" Forgive me Sasuke but I have to be this way. I can't go against Tsunade or this mission, and besides, it's in my blood to follow orders. Hm... you'll probably hate me after all of this. Still, something has been bothering me lately. It's like I want to see you but then again I don't. I hate you but then again I love you. I want to hug you right now, but I know I'll be pushed away from you. Sasuke... I don't know if I should tell you who I really am. It wouldn't matter to you if I said something or not I mean, you wouldn't care anyways but then again, you had feelings for me. You said you like me and you meant it. But now what? What should I believe now? What can I believe to say that nothing was a lie? I don't even know...
"First off I'm thristy, Secondly, I need to use the bathroom and take a shower. Untie me just so I could do those things. Or, is that too much asking?" Her eyes... they're pretty.. it's like... no.. they're just like... Tsukiko's. If only I could see Tsukiko just for a moment... If only for a minute I'll be relieved. I'm so tensed right now and I want to calm down. I need to calm down but I just can't.
I want to touch her... I want to feel her again. I've lost my warth but she will never lose hers. I want to give her something that I haven't given her for a long time now, my lips. I want to feel her body against mines. There's so much I want to do with her, and for her. I've been so lonely all these years, and my heart ached for a while. I need her here with me now, more than ever.
"I guess but you better not take long I mean, I don't need a wild animal on the loose. I'll give you this one chance but if you screw it up then I won't go easy on you. Now, do I make myself clear? Remember, don't take long" Sasuke... I'm coming close to you. I'm getting closer to you. My heart is racing but I can't feel it beating. I wish to touch you. I wish to take you in one swipe, embrace you and kiss you. I waited for a while for you to finally kiss me but I never recieved that kiss. It's like an illusion to tease me, taunt me, and make me want to get a kiss from you even more. All I have to do is untie you right? Well, that's simple. Once I finally do that then I can...
Lying on the woodened floor on my back. I looked back up, to see what had just happened and I found dark onyx-black eyes staring right at me. I didn't blush but I knew I was turning a bit pinkish-red here. I just looked back at those dark yet handsome eyes of his... If I was my old self, I would have just kissed him or something. If I was to kiss him right now, I wonder how he'll react. If only he knew who I really am... Your muscular Sasuke... your taller... your handsome... Your hair has grown too... wait. What am I saying? That's my old self saying this. Suddenly with a rough shove, slim arms had shoved and pushed away the Uchiha that he stumbled backwards and fell on his butt kind of hard.
"What was that for!? Why did you have to push me like that? What's wrong with you!? Tch, forget it. It's not like I care anyways, hn, whatever" Just what was I doing on top of her like that? Why did it felt like I know her? That I felt like even kissing her? What's wrong with me? I stared into her eyes for a bit and it drives me insane to acutally want to feel her. But, she's not Tsukiko. I know if it was her, I would have kissed her hungrily.
I would have took her in my arms and embraced her, not wanting to let her go. I would have tell her how I really feel. But she reminds me of Tsukiko even though she's not her. Her eyes are just as pretty as Tsukiko's. Her hair is long just like Tsukiko's, though her hair is black and Tsukiko's is red. But still. Her fingers... that touch... it reminds me of the way Tsukiko touched me once. Her skin tone... smooth, white-creamy.. just like her's... Just who is she really?
"You shouldn't have been on top of me in the first place. I didn't ask for you to fall on me or anything but next time, watch your step you clusmy moron. Now get going before I change my mind" Why did you do that Sasuke? Why did you fall on top of me? Was that by accident or did you do that on purpose? Just what were you thinking Sasuke? If only... you knew how much I want to kiss you. How much I want to hold you. How much I want to be with you. I... I just don't know what to do...
Needle-spiked, pouring, stick-rain-drop-sized water was heard. The white faucet was turned on to cold water. The dull brown-wooden door finally clicked shut. I closed the door and looked into the squared-glossy mirror. I had to think things through. What just happened a minute ago... was that really me that did that? What's wrong with me? Why I tripped over myself and fell on her? But it just happened all of a sudden.
Still... I keep seeing Tsukiko in her. But they have almost the exact physical things in common. What's going on here? I can't even think straight. I had fell right inbetween her legs, and stared right into her eyes. I just can't seem to figure this out. Those lips of hers... they looked just like Tsukiko's.
Almost everything about her... reminds me of Tsukiko. I shook my head in disbelief and slowly got in the long-oval circular-shaped white bathtub and let the warm, steaming, refreshing droplet water consume me whole. It felt like I was in a long daze since I couldn't look anywhere else. I kept my eyes focused but they seemed to drift off to the door then come back to focusing. I don't know why but.. whoever she is... she might just be Tsukiko. Then again, that's to my imagination.
A figure stood in the darkest part of the room. The person sat down, on the cold woodened floor and was eating some ramen. She waited patiently for the traitor of the village to come out of the shower and she didn't bothered to check on him but listened carefully with every movement he made and recorded it with her sensitive wolf-like ears. She sat there, in silence, and ate her noodles.
I finished eating my cupped ramen, and threw it away in a garbage bin somewhere. The whole house creeps me out literally. It's so dark, quiet, lonely and abandoned. To me, Sasuke looked the same way that I just described his home. Just how much have he changed over the years? Maybe too much but that's ok with me. The attitude towards me still seems like his old twelve year old self. But what about his thoughts? What does he think about? Who has his heart? My heart just fell out of my chest. Why would I even think that? My heart ahces just from it all. Still, I love him and that's all that matter but I just don't know what to do... Everything seems...
"AH!!" My eyes widen. My mind was clogged. My ears only listened to sounds here and there. My hands began to shake slightly. What's wrong with Sasuke? I rushed to the bathroom, had to turn the knob a few times before opening it then froze with what I saw. Sasuke... his body... it's covered in those marks... Sasuke's heaven curse mark, began to take over his body. I had to do what I have to do in ordr to protect him. I didn't stand here much longer and I quickly got into the tub, trying to calm Sasuke down. I grabbed him by his shoulders, whipped him around to face me and noticed his eyes was closed, wincing at the pain before him and clutching the left side of his neck. After all these years, the curse mark starts acting up? What's going on...?
"Sasuke. Stay still. Just try to calm down, I'll have that pain stop once-- I said would you stay still--uh.. ahh!!" I came crashing down, hard on my back, as I slipped over some soap, Sasuke came down with me. I was tangled with him and we were laying down, so our eyes could meet each other. We were like two straight yet crooked-lines. This is no time for blushing even though, I could feel myself turning hot just a bit. I shot up quickly, only to fall right back down. Damn, a headache. That's all I need right now. I kind of winced at the throbbing pain that kept pounding on my forehead. I decided to ignore it for the moment then sat right back up a bit slowly, this time and pulled Sasuke up, held onto his shoulders and knew what I was about to do to him was going to cause a bit more pain. I was about to bite into him when I heard something that made me froze so quickly.
"Tsu...ki-kiko... ah!!" That name... Why would he call me that and at a situation like this? Sasuke... how long have you missed me? How long have you tortured yourself? Do you need me that much? Was you that lonely? There's so much I want to ask but little time I have. I want to know what happened from the day you left Konoha to when you finally killed your brother. I want to know everything. I care about you for the longest and I still care about you now. Just what happened to you in the past 5 years? How long did you made yourself suffered? Sasuke you idiot... the pain your feeling... clutching your shoulder like that... wincing at the throbbing pain that's hurting you and screaming in agony... it's making me cry... you jerk. You moron. you bastard. I can feel people's pain remember that! I have to do something about this and fast. I can't take it. The way he is right now... it's twisting my ahcing heart into a big knot.
"I'll make this pain go away you hear me!? Just stop it ok.. just please stop it... your hurting me Sasuke... stop it... I hate seeing you in pain... it's killing me!!" I had finally cracked. Loosely, hot, fresh burning tears fell down my cheeks. My ribcages felt like they were crushing me so I couldn't breathe. A big lump formed in my throat and I didn't dare speak. I was numb, crying my heart out, that I couldn't even move. I didn't care if my indentity was revealed or anything but when it came to the people who was close to me, and that I care about them... that I love them... I took serious risks even if I was the one who got hurt in the process. I just didn't care right now. All that matter to me was... saving him.
I gripped onto his left shoulder, pulled him closer to me and bit in to his neck without a first or second thought. I couldn't afford to lose him. Him, being on top of me. That was no mistake. Him, looking into my eyes like that wasn't, no coincidence. Him, being in agony right now, wasn't to run in here, showed that I cared and helped him out. The things he's done so far is not an act. The things that happened so far wasn't to fool me or anything.
It was to see how I reacted. How I'll respond to him. How I'll handled the situation with ease. How I'm able to put up with him. How.. I'm able to understand how he really feels about me... this is just the beginning but he's testing me... little by little he'll find out who I really am. And when that time comes... he'll see that I'm the person who he's been dying to see for the longest.
