Summary : Marissa Cooper is a happy straight A student who has always made her mother proud. Then what happens when someday, Julie comes home with a potential husband? Will Marissa have the courage to come out before she loses her girlfriend? Malex.
I will try to update sooner next time. But I can make no promises.
Thank you for the reviews!
Seventh Theory : Thxs. I'm trying to show both P.O.V of Marissa and Alex so people can see how it's hard for both of them. I'm glad it's successful.
WonderousPlaceForAnEcho. : Lol what makes you think I forget my homeworks? No no, I'm very organized on that part. I am however always late and it's became a serious issue. You would never date a girl who isn't out? Ouch. I guess that changes when you fall in love. Well for me Love is still a myth so who am I to talk. Yea you'll get more of Alex's perspective but I'm trying to write the chapters 50-50 Alex-Riss.
Madridcks : Well Thank you )
haelthy : haha, "Too Much" I kno what u mean. But being scared of coming out doesn't have much to do with love. It's more about self-confidence. I don't know if you're a Desperate Housewife fan for example... well Andrew certainly did not come out because of his love for his bf. It was more of a "I want to piss off my mom" sort of come out. Then you have Marco on Degrassi who was scared like shit of coming out because of his family's beliefs. Nothing to do with love, see?
two.way.monologue : Lol I'm doing my best to get people to understand Rissa's situation. I'll try again ) Thxs tho for reading.
Vero : Thank you, and keep faith.
orgy123 : Not bad semester, just hard. And Marissa's week thing was mostly a desperate act to keep Alex from breaking up, which she was obviously going to that night. That's nice of you to stand up for your cousin, and I'm glad to hear your coming out went well.
ALEXISSA2 : yea I kno what you mean, Alex is really in a though position.
bigblusky : Haha I like that "knowing you" comment. Thxs, and I'll try not to disappoint.
shassy25 : awn I hope so too ) (Ending not written yet) Lol thxs.
Halfreck3929: Okay! Thxs.
LitaDelacour : Lol Luke boring. I like him more than Ryan. He's such a better choice after Alex. Well of course Volchok comes first, but I couldn't write Volchok as the perfect fiancé, it sounds wrong! So yea me like Luke, but me like Alex more! Oh well thanks.
Will you marry him?
Chapter Four
Marissa was the first to open her eyes the next day. Annoyed, she reached out for Alex's alarm and turned it off, completely forgetting her girlfriend's sayings about work early. Then, at peace, she fell back on the mattress and found her comfy spot next to Alex. As soon as she drifted back sleep, Alex's eyes popped open. The room was too sunny. It wasn't good... She quickly stood up and reached for her cellphone to see what time it was. Cursing, she ran to the shower, thinking her alarm didn't ring.
She came back ten minutes later, half dressed and towel drying her hair. Marissa was now sitting in the bed, looking sleepily at her.
"Good morning" she smiled.
"Stupid alarm isn't worth shit" Alex replied, pulling the thing and throwing it in the garbage. Marissa blushed.
"... you got a message." Her girlfriend said, looking at Marissa's phone and throwing it at her. Marissa caught it and opened it while Alex finished dressing up.
"Anything important?" Alex asked once back from the bathroom again, this time a perfume bottle in hand.
"Just my mom." Marissa shrugged before throwing the phone on the bed. "Are you really that late?" She then asked, feeling guilty. Alex smiled.
"Well technically I can't be late since I make the schedules" She told her. "But I should really be there right now. We got a new worker and I want to keep an eye on him." Marissa nodded.
"... you think you could ride me home first?" She asked. Alex, keys in hand, turned to look at her. Marissa's hair was all messed up and she was still laying in her panties and a large tee.
"Only if you're in the car in five minutes." She said before leaving the bedroom. Whining, Marissa forced herself up. Five minutes! Knowing Alex, she hurried up before the girl abandons her.
XxX
"That's about time."
Marissa didn't reply, she simply walked in the house. She moved in such a hurry she barely got the time to steal some pants and a large hoodie from Alex. She could tell Julie was disapproving. Of course, from all the sweaters, Marissa had to put on the one with the curse words. Then again, all of Alex's clothes where provoking.
"Why didn't you come home yesterday?" Julie asked. "Now Luke will think you are the kind of girl who sleeps here and there." Marissa died to scream she didn't care.
"I was at Alex's. He knows, he kissed her ass too." She replied coldly. One of the good sides of still being in the closet was being allowed to sleepover at your girlfriend's house without your mother ever being suspicious.
"Don't say these words." Julie hushed her. "And go change, Luke is coming soon."
"Again?" Mairssa sighed.
"And don't tell him you want to be a painter!" She screamed as her daughter reached the stairs. "I told everybody you're studying to become a brain surgeon." Marissa froze.
"You told them what?" She asked, turning around. "Mom I hate science."
"Once married" Her mother told her, "You can just drop out and say you did it for your family's sake. They'll think your sacrifice is sweet"
"This is the stupidest idea EVER" Marissa screamed. "I don't want to be a high school drop-out mother!"
"And studying in arts is very bright?" Julie shot back. "You can't do anything with that." I can design Alex's club, Marissa thought.
"It is my life." She simply said, turning around.
"Oh don't be childish" She heard Julie say while she walked up the stairs. "I'm trying very hard to do something out of you." Marissa frowned. Something out of you. What was she? A total failure? The family's shame? Sometimes she really wondered why she kept her relationship with Alex a secret. According to Julie, she couldn't disappoint her more even if she tried. Sighing, she walked in her bedroom and closed the door. As her fingers reached the hoodie, she didn't find the strength to pull it out. It smelt like Alex.
XxX
She kept messing everything out. She called three times to change her drink orders and almost booked two bands the same night. Marissa. That was all she could think about. She barely even noticed the new bartender. Alex couldn't understand how their relationship could reach both extremes so quickly and often. They could be living hell one night and the next morning it will seem as if they were the happiest couple ever. She wondered why they couldn't simply enjoy each other's company. Why they had to suffer... The blonde bit her lip. Speaking of suffering. She clearly noticed her girlfriend's mood swing the minute she parked the car at her residence. Marissa wasn't happy at home. Alex felt it more than ever this morning.
"Brunette giving you trouble again?" Jodie asked. Alex turned to face her. They had been working together for years and Jodie was by far Alex's favourite co-worker. She was also her bestfriend. They always sided together against undisciplined employees, and Alex always double checked with Jodie first before hiring or firing anyone. She was her co-manager, and Alex fully trusted her judgement. The only thing they disagreed on was Marissa. Then again, Jodie always had convincing points.
"Not now." Alex sighed. "I've got loads of calls to do."
"Took care of them." Jodie replied. "While you were spacing out for an hour."
"Oh." Alex said. "Then I should ..." she started, trying to remember what she had to do.
"Go home." Her friend said. "Something tells me you didn't get much sleep yesterday." Both girls stared at each other. Jodie could tell the blonde was searching for a reason to protest.
"Please." Jodie insisted. Alex finally craved.
"...Thank you." She whispered. The Latina kept staring at her. To avoid being questioned about yesterday, Alex quickly left the place.
As soon as she reached her car, she felt her cellphone vibrate and pulled it out.
"Missing me already?" She joked, figuring it was Jodie.
"You bet." A loving voice replied. Alex's smile grew bigger.
"Hey babe." She said, hopping in the car. "Julie didn't give you much trouble?"
"Nothing I can't handle." Marissa answered, laying on her bed. "How's work?"
"Got sent home by Jodie." Alex laughed. "Not productive enough."
"Careful with this you might lose your job." The brunette joked.
"Well if someone" Alex said, "didn't crash yesterday night..."
"Oh shut up you enjoyed my company." Marissa hushed her. They both laughed again. Yes, things did get a little more interesting at night. Alex laid her back against the chair and pulled it down so she could sleep comfortably on it.
"I wish you were here." She heard Marissa whisper. It sent shivers down her spine.
"So do I." She whispered back, eyes shut. They remained silent for a while, content with the sound of the other's breathing.
"I love you so much." Alex's body weakened. The power these words had on her... But it wasn't a pleasant feeling. She felt ashamed for holding on to such a lost cause, for letting herself dream. She sighed, angry at herself for being so weak.
"...Alex?" She heard Marissa ask, and could tell her silence was worrying the brunette. She bit her lip, not trusting herself enough to reply. Then, slowly, she closed her phone and threw it on the passenger's seat before grabbing the steering wheel with both hands, her fingers strongly holding on to it as an attempt to transfer her pain. If only she felt the envy to cry, it would have been some kind of a relief. But Alex felt empty, completely washed off her feelings.
XxX
Marissa put her phone next to her on the bed and snuggled in Alex's hoodie. She hated it when the blonde snapped on her that way. She had given her seven days, didn't she? Why was she acting as if Marissa had already failed? The brunette closed her eyes, hoping Alex would be the one waking her up with apologies. She hoped too much. She didn't even get the chance to fall asleep that already her mother was knocking on the door.
"I didn't tell you to come in" The brunette complained, eyes still shut.
"Diner is in an hour" Julie told her. "Your father is already there, Luke's parents are on their way. You're not even dressed! What is this? Get up!"
Whining, Marissa stood up and waited while her mother picked up her clothes for her.
"Why are Luke's parents coming?" She asked, her mind still on Alex's silence.
"They want to see their future daughter-in-law" Julie winked. She took out two dresses and threw them on the bed.
"...we met yesterday!" Marissa screamed. "What's with all the rush?"
"The Wards want to marry Luke on September 21rst, just like their wedding day." Her mother explained, staring at the dresses.
"Let's say this reason isn't completely retarded" Marissa replied, "What's wrong with next year's September 21rst?"
"A whole year?" Julie screamed. "You'll lose him! Besides the Wards want to make the marriage now, end of discussion." Finally deciding, she put one of the dresses back in the closet and gave the other one to the youngest Cooper in the room. Taking it from Julie, Marissa bit her lip. Now she had something new to worry about.
"Don't you find it odd that they're in such a rush?" She asked.
"Odd?" Julie repeated. "I think it's a family tradition to get married on September 21rst and since Luke is going to college this year, they wanted to seal this before he leaves."
"Or it could be something else." Marissa objected. "Why can't he marry someone from his town? Why take a girl who knows nothing about him and his background?"
"You need to stop being so nosy and start being grateful." Her mother replied. "Now hurry dressing up and meet me downstairs."
Marissa watched her mother leave, seriously wondering what was keeping her from coming out. Julie could kick her out for all she cared, she would rather live with Alex anyway. Sighing, she took off her top and picked up the blue dress.
XxX
They were all sitting across the table when Marissa finally appeared. She looked around, searching for her father. Sadly, there was no empty seat next to him. In fact, the only empty seat was next to Luke. How odd was that. Deciding not to make a scene, Marissa simply sat down and smiled politely. As soon as she saw Mr and Mrs Ward, Marissa understood from where Luke got this annoying superior look of his. All blonde with blue eyes. Barbie's family. And they looked so... proud. Marissa felt like there was too much ego in the room for her to be there too.
"So Marissa is applying to Berkeley this year." Julie started.
"Neat" Mrs Ward said. "What field?" She asked Marissa.
"Science." Julie replied for her. "She wants to become a brain surgeon." Marissa shared a look with her father. Luke cleared his throat, slightly amused.
"That's impressive." Mr Ward said. "Luke here can't even get acceptable grades."
"Dad" The son protested, "I got a scholarship offer from Duke."
"Well you better thank God you're good in something." His father replied. "It it weren't for your football skills..."
"Sam..." Mrs Ward warned her husband. He shrugged his shoulders.
"The food is lovely" Mrs Ward commented. "You're an excellent cook." Marissa choked and Julie sent her a deadly glare.
"Actually our maid took care of it" She replied, still staring at her daughter, a smile plastered on her lips. "I will give send her your compliments." The conversation then oriented itself toward politics and Marissa didn't bother listening. It was around ten o clock that the conversation pulled her back in, when after taking a sip from his coffee, Samuel Ward had said:
"So about that wedding, where shall it take place? Newport or San Diego?" Marissa felt her panic increase. They were actually serious. She vaguely heard her mother's answer. Her heart rate has never been this fast. If Alex ever finds out about the seriousness of all this, they were over for good. Marissa couldn't take that risk. Alex meant too much. She stood up.
"I..." She started, feeling everyone's eyes on her. Who where they anyway? Did their opinion of her mattered enough to hurt Alex? To lose her? The simple thought of it gave her the strength she needed to do this.
"This is all wrong." She started.
"Right" Julie quickly interrupted her. "Maybe we should discuss the details some other time. Rissa had a long day, she's exhausted. I bet you all are." She followed the Wards to the exit, keeping her plastered smile that would creep out her daughter. Marissa and her father were left alone in the living room, the brunette still in her standing position. She was going to do it. She was actually going to. For Alex. And Julie had stopped her. Why was the room so quiet all of a sudden? It seemed to Marissa as if she had become deaf.
"Kiddo are you alright?" Jimmy asked, standing up as well. Marissa didn't reply. It took her a year to gather the courage to say it, and now that was finally ready, it had to come out.
".. If you're not comfortable around this wedding we can call it off..." He rested his hand on her shoulder. She turned to face him.
"Dad, I'm gay."
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OMG she's out! I bet you didn't expect that. Lol now I already know what some people might say...
-Ethereal-123
