(Edward's POV)
"Edward! Where are you going?" Esme called.
She's been worrying over me ever since I came home the first day of school. After catching Bella, I had been tense the rest of the afternoon. At the time I was afraid I would blow our cover and launch myself towards her. The truth was unbearable and unwanted; I coveted for her blood. In all the years of being a vampire, I had never felt such a strong urge to kill someone as I am now. Every time I see Bella, the beast wakens inside of me, tempting me to make the final kill. Instantly I glare at her when we meet, coming off incredibly rude. In my mind all I think about is the fact that she's an innocent human, who has no idea what she's now been thrown into. Nowadays, I take out my anger on anyone who will permit, especially my family.
"Hunting."
That was a lie. For some reason, I had gotten into the habit of spying on Bella, as if being close to her would help make me immune. Another reason is that during school, I had discovered I couldn't read her mind. I could hear the thoughts of everyone around her, yet hers alone were immune to my spying ways.
"Alright, but don't stay out too late." I turned around, raising an eyebrow.
"I know, I'm sorry. It's a force of habit." My gaze softened and I gave her a quick hug before leaving. Before I could even make it out to my car, I heard someone else's thoughts, ones that made me pause.
You need to stop Edward, it's unhealthy.
I turned and standing at the bottom of the stairs was Alice. I wanted to respond but knew it was too risky because of Esme being so near, as well as the others upstairs. Instead, I tried to psychicly respond. I'm not totally telepathic but because of Alice's ability to see into the future, we had figured out a way.
What are you talking about?
You keep visiting her and it's not right Edward. Sooner or later she'll notice you and you'll be in trouble. If that happens, people may try to discover what we are. None of us need that to happen.
I don't care.
Edward, I see what will happen. I'm not against it, but it's really dangerous. Just be careful and think of what this means.
I looked away and walked outside.
I will.
With that I started running towards Bella's house. It didn't take long to locate once again. I had to be careful though since it was near one of the most driven roads in Forks. It's always safe under the cover of darkness, so I wait until 8 when most people are home. Charlie is usually still at work, making it even safer.
Inside Bella was listening to the radio while on the computer. From the sound of typing and the look of her reading, it was as if she was checking her e-mail. At one point she hit enter and a new song began on the radio. Instantly she smiled, jumping up from the computer and began to dance around the room.
Unbreakable by Fireflight
Where are the people that accused me?The ones who beat me down and bruised meThey hide just out of sightCan't face me in the lightThey'll return but I'll be stronger[Chorus:]God, I want to dream againTake me where I've never beenI want to go thereThis time I'm not scaredNow I am unbreakable, it's unmistakableNo one can touch meNothing can stop meSometimes it's hard to just keep goingBut faith is moving without knowingCan I trust what I can't see?To reach my destinyI want to take control but I know better[Chorus]Forget the fear it's just a crutchThat tries to hold you backAnd turn your dreams to dustAll you need to do is just trust[Chorus x2]
Her singing was surprisingly well. Half way through the song she had grabbed a hairbrush from her dresser and began to use it as a microphone. Her performance had amused me incredibly. I laughed silently as I watched her when the next song came on. This one was much slower and by the end of it, all amusement was gone. It had disappeared completely, being replaced by a serious sensation.
If I die young by The Band Perry
If I die young, bury me in satinLay me down on a, bed of rosesSink me in the river, at dawnSend me away with the words of a love songUh oh, uh ohLord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my motherShe'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh andLife ain't always what you think it ought to be, noAin't even grey, but she buries her babyThe sharp knife of a short life, wellI've had, just enough timeIf I die young, bury me in satinLay me down on a, bed of rosesSink me in the river, at dawnSend me away with the words of a love songThe sharp knife of a short life, wellI've had, just enough timeAnd I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdomI'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I'veNever known the lovin' of a manBut it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's aBoy here in town says he'll, love my foreverWho would have thought forever could be severed byThe sharp knife of a short life, wellI've had, just enough timeSo put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearlsWhat I never did is doneA penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollarThey're worth so much more after I'm a gonerAnd maybe then you'll hear the words I been singinFunny when your dead how people start listenin™If I die young, bury me in satinLay me down on a, bed of rosesSink me in the river, at dawnSend me away with the words of a love songUh oh (uh, oh)The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)Go with peace and loveGather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocketSave them for a time when your really gonna need them, ohThe sharp knife of a short life, wellI've had, just enough timeSo put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
As the song faded away, I thought of every temptation I've felt with her. I also thought of what Alice had told me earlier. I felt ashamed at my actions, yet I couldn't bring myself to regret them completely. Slowly I pulled away, beginning to wish I had never come. I was endangering her for no reason. Before I could fully jump down from the tree limb, she glanced around. Though I moved incredibly fast to avoid the chance of her seeing me, I could have sworn she looked right at me. For a moment, it was like her chocolate eyes were looking directly into my bronze ones. From below I heard her gasp.
"It must have been an animal." Her voice sounded unsure. Before she could come and check, I swiftly left back towards the house.
