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Adrianna's Point of View

The music was banging, the place crowded, and the drinks kept on coming; Buck's was in full swing tonight. I had been dancing with Leroy for the better part of the night and I was wasted. My head was spinning but it wasn't the drunken headache kind of spinning, it was the fun kind. It was thrilling, like no one could stop me, as if I couldn't be denied of anything.

I was swaying to the music with Leroy when I saw Evie and sent a glare her way. Soda must have talked to her because she sure knew better than to approach me. It was probably for the better because I would have socked her in the face otherwise.

"Hey, baby I'm going to go the bathroom. Will you be alright by yourself for a while?" Leroy asked, his brilliant brown eyes shining down on me.

"Sure thing," I said, smiling back.

Leroy left and I went to pour myself another cup of alcohol.

"I don't think you need any more of those," Sodapop Curtis said from behind me, ripping the cup from my hand.

"Maybe you should stop thinking then," I replied, in the bitchiest voice I could muster.

"Come on, Adri," Soda exclaimed, throwing his hands up in frustration. "Will you swallow that damn pride of yours and please leave with me so we can talk to Steve and get this mess sorted out?"

"If my bastard of a brother wants to talk to me he can come get me himself," I said.

"You don't mean that. Just like Steve doesn't mean what he said outside. That got out of hand, he's real sorry you know," Soda said, running a hand across the back of his neck.

"Look, Soda I love Steve, I do," I said. "But, if we go and say the usual fake apology to each other this problem is never going to be fixed. He's still going to be the same rat ass bastard tomorrow."

Soda sighed deeply and rubbed his eyes. He looked exhausted. His eyes barely had a glint to them.

"Okay, okay," Soda said in defeat. "But, promise me that you'll try and fix this, and soon."

"Fine," I said back, placing a hand on my hip.

"Fine," he replied, copying my action.

"Fine," I said, this time grabbing a drunk blonde off of an even drunker Buck's lap and placing a kiss on his cheek.

"Okay, we're done," Soda said, walking out the door.

I laughed and swallowed down the rest of my drink. The fun dizzy feeling suddenly came to a crashing halt. I felt as if my head was about to explode and I needed a release. A source of light that could make all the bullshit in my life go away. I completely lied to Soda because I couldn't mend things. Especially because things in my life are so beyond repair.

The feeling scared me and I sprinted to the upstairs bathroom to look for Leroy. I got to the bathroom door right when the door sprung open.

"Are you okay?" Leroy asked me.

"I'm fine," I said, kissing him in a way that I never knew I was capable of.

I pushed him back into the bathroom until his back hit the sink and I kicked the door closed with my foot. My hands were fighting to pull his shirt over his head. Meanwhile, his hands flew to my back. All I remember is that the repulsive feeling was gone.

He broke away too soon and the feeling started to spring back to life.

"Don't stop," I said, desperately.

"Adri, are…I mean are you sure? Here?" Leroy asked confused.

"I don't care where as long as I'm with you," I replied, my voice dark.

I kissed him again and his shirt came off, which was soon followed by my own top.

Zippers were being undone and my lace bra flew across the room near the bathtub.

I was going to get all the bullshit out of my life. So, I had to make the feeling go away.

When Leroy pulled off my skirt he gave me a look that asked if I was okay with this.

I nodded and repeated "Don't stop."

If there was any pain, I didn't feel it. All I felt was pleasure.

The gut-wrenching feeling didn't just stop. It disappeared completely.

For the first time in a long time, I felt free.

I felt good again.

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