Chapter 4- Dreams

There were some days when Severus Snape just didn't want to fall asleep, for too much of the time he had a dream about Lily Potter. He'd either have a horrifying nightmare about her death, or on lucky days he'd have a good dream about her, in which she would be his wife.

He had a particularly bad day in mid-October. He knew that usually resulted in a vengeance that night. He was exhausted however. He had spent the day giving out detentions and watching students mess up their potions horribly, especially Neville Longbottom. That day the students were to make Potion de guerison, which was French for 'Potion of healing.' It was a bit of a complicated brew, but when following the instructions carefully, one is capable of accomplishing it, but of course not Longbottom. He had somehow put a few of the wrong ingredients into it. He had made a very deadly potion, commonly called, Potion de grave maladie.

"This just isn't my class." He said as the Professor deducted house points as well as assignment points.

'Arrogant dumbfounded Longbottom. Always messing up, no wonder so many students bother him non-stop. The confused child deserves it.' Snape scolded at himself silently, just before falling asleep.


He was holding Lily's hand and heading to their Muggle Studies class. Lily had practically aced that class, after all, her family was all muggle born, so everything she was learning was already very common to her. It wasn't quite as basic for Severus. He grew up with a mostly pure-blooded family, so the objects, technology, and muggle substances discussed were all unique and new to him.

"The oven and television seem interesting." He told Lily after class.

"Yeah, the television is quite entertaining when one is bored." She responded. That had been their final class for the day, so they were heading outside to their favorite spot under a willow tree. They were 14 at this point, and Severus was positive that he had feelings for her. He loved her features, the long and wavy ginger locks and the light green eyes. Her personality was highly favored as well. She was very genial towards everyone, even the stuck up and cold Slytherins. She was very intelligent, acing every class, including the highly difficult Advanced Transfigurations class. She was brave and courageous. There were just so many amazing things he could see in her.

"Lovely day isn't it Severus?" She asked him, likely to make conversation when he had his nose in another book, this time Hamlet.

"Oh, yes it is quite nice out Lily." He responded, looking into her emerald eyes. He almost wanted to tell her how attracted to her he was, but he couldn't pick up the confidence to, not yet.

"Reading Shakespeare again Sevy?" She asked him, looking at the pages with mature and intelligent writings.

"Yes, I really favor his work." He responded.

"Ha ha, you're such a nerd." Lily told him, in a non-offensive way, giggling in fact.

"And you're such a beauty." He responded, then suddenly thinking he shouldn't have. He continued reading his novel, embarrassed.

"Why thank you Sevy. You're not bad looking yourself, quite mysterious and charming in fact." She responded happily, and then to his surprise kissed his cheek.

He woke up, highly disappointed that it was only another false dream.

'Damn. Why is it that the good ones are always false?' He thought to himself, and then fell back asleep. Lily didn't appear in the next one, just previous bully encounters that shook his nerves at the vividness.

He went to class the next day in a rotten mood. The Marauders had been tormenting him in his sleep all night. It was almost like he could feel the throbbing on his head from the nookies he had received, or the severe embarrassment from having his underwear revealed to everyone, even his hair felt like it had been harshly twisted and pulled from receiving a twirlie.

"Take your seats and keep silent while I explain today's lesson. Perhaps I'll make it a bit simpler so that even Mister Longbottom won't mess it up." He stated, turning most of his attention to the poor and insecure Gryffindor.

He had them make Pigmentus Fleshle, a potion that can change the color of the skin of its consumer for two hours at the most. "Also, to make sure that all of you make this brew accurately, I'd like you all to drink a vile of your brew and wait a few minutes for it to take effect. If your skin does not change color, then I will know that the potion was made incorrectly, and you will receive a low grade." He stated, grabbing the full attention of all of his peers.

"Alright, you shall begin." He added after a few moments.

Everything was going alright. Even Neville seemed to be doing the procedure correctly. Severus relaxed in his seat, trying to forget about last night's dream, not the Lily one of course, but the Marauder's one.

'To the deep firey pits of hell to that James Potter, and his foul allies. That coward never stood up against me on his own. He'd always have Black and Lupin for backup. Just once I wish that filthy jerk could come back from the dead, just to have a quick tangle with me, not including his backup, just him and I, fighting to the death. Yes, I know I'd win, my sharp knuckled would pierce his inglorious face. My massive variety of spells, incantations, and curses would scar him greatly. He wouldn't stand a chance. Oh, how I should've fought for Lillian, he didn't deserve her, I did. Hell, I could've brought down that bastard easily. I could've put him under an imperious curse and made him cheat on her, then she would've surely left him for me.'

His thoughts were interrupted by Neville asking to use the facilities.

"Not until you finish your elixir Mister Longbottom." He told him.

"But Profess…"

"I believe I said no Mister Longbottom. Now go finish your brew." He replied harshly. Neville frowned and went back to his table.

Severus scowled at Neville's audacity to dare question him before he was done with his assignment. He picked up that day's Daily Profit and began reading what ridiculous thing Rita Skeeter had to say that day.

The Daily Profit- Affairs in the Order?

By: Rita Skeeter

'I'm afraid the title is no joke citizens of the Wizarding World. Shockingly it has come to my attention that Gillian Landlocket and Porfolious Yord were caught in one of the Order's meeting rooms snogging up a storm. Both members are married, and not to each other. Both members seemed to deny such an occurrence at first, but later Porfolious admitted that he was under an imperious curse, placed by Landlocket herself. Well, isn't this interesting…'

'Not at all.' Severus thought to himself. He put down the 'Pointless Profit' and went around the room to see how the students were doing with their potions. Some of the students already had a new skin color, like orange or blue. He walked over to Neville's table to see if he was doing any good.

"I see you're done with the potion Mister Longbottom. Drink it." Severus told him sternly.

"Um, yes I am Professor, but…"

"Longbottom, the assignment was to make a Pigmentus Fleshle potion and then drink it afterwards to make sure you've done it correctly. Now drink it or you will fail yet another potion assessment." He ordered.

Neville stared at his brew, looking nervous and unwilling to drink it. Imagine how much more the poor kid would get bullied with blue or purple skin, even if it was only for a couple hours.

He slowly dipped his vile into the lukewarm potion and filled it only halfway. He looked at the Professor again, who was glaring at him. 'Okay Neville, just close your eyes and drink it fast.' He silently whispered.

He drank it, feeling relieved that the pressure had ended. "There Professor, I believe I will be passing todays assign…"

Warts started popping up all over his body, and his skin hadn't changed color at all. Snape shook his head, knowing that Neville would've screwed up somehow, and he did.

"Bloody toad stools." Neville muttered, as Snape gave Neville an F in his grade book.


Severus climbed into his bed that night at 11:00, hoping that night would result in dreams of bliss and happiness with Lily Potter, or as he put it in his slumber, Lily Evans.

They were 19 and to Severus's great pride Lily had left James, for unidentified reasons. Severus was in Spinners End and he was headed for Lily's house to give her a bouquet of roses. He was confident that he'd win her heart.

He knocked on her door, wondering what he was going to say to her. 'Perhaps, hello Lily, I apologize for your departure, I'm here for you if you need anything.' He thought. Then her mother opened the door.

"May I help you?" She asked, as Severus couldn't help but notice the close resemblance she had of Lily.

"Um, yes, I'm here to see your daughter." He stated shyly.

"Alright, Petunia! A young man is here to see you dear." She yelled, shocking Severus that she thought he was talking about her horrible sister.

Before he could correct her, Petunia showed up at the door. Once she noticed that the man at the door wasn't her fat and boisterous fiancé, Vernon, she frowned and glared at Severus.

"Ew, what is Snivillus doing here mother?" She protested harshly.

Severus sneered at her rudeness.

"I wasn't here to see you, foul bitch. I'm here to see your lovely sister, Lily." He mustered back.

Lily suddenly showed up at the door, shoving her sister aside.

"Severus? What are you doing here?" She asked innocently.

He handed her the flowers and told her that he was there for her. He then asked her out.

"Oh, Severus, these roses are lovely. Yes, I'll accept the date offer." She said, smiling.

Her sister looked appalled, and a bit disgusted by her response.

"What? You're going to date this gothic freak?" She asked, rudely.

Lily glared at her sister.

"Yes, Petunia. Now go away and call that pig boyfriend of yours." She responded, smirking.

She glared at both of them, then walked off.

Lily leaned in and kissed Severus's forehead.

This time Severus woke up with a smile on his face. 'False, yet glorious.' He thought.


A/N- Thanks to those of you following the story, I try to fit the characters personalities and quotes to the way they are in the books/movies. I've got some unexpected twists coming up in a few chapters. Feel free to write a review if you have any opinions/ideas for the upcoming chapters :) ~