Cafeteria Scene

I hadn't made any contact with Kurt in a week and was pretty proud of myself. Honestly, it was really hard. Harder than I thought it would be.

I was eating lunch with the team on Wednesday when I saw him sit with his friend, the loud black girl with him in glee club. Mercedes something-or-other, I think.

It took a minute before the panic settled in. He and Mercedes were bff's, and she would be the most likely person he could tell. And she had a big mouth. If she found out, then everyone would find out.

Obviously, I couldn't hear what they were saying, so I had no idea if they were talking about what I hoped they weren't talking about.

I got up from the table, threw my plate away, and made my way over to Kurt's table. But I didn't know how to get his attention without hurting him or giving myself away. I figured I'd just insult him again. He should be used to that by now, right? Wow. That's just sick. When did I become such a heartless monster?

"'Sup, homo?" I saw him look at me with surprise. When he looked at me, I decided to remind him not to say anything by winking at him. The look on his face was priceless. It almost made me want to laugh.

But I knew it might not help. I had to take extreme measures to make sure that this didn't get out. And I knew I was going to hate myself even more afterwards.