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PRESENTING THE LATEST CHAPTER!~ CHAPTER 4!

Chapter 4

I woke up on a white room, with someone holding my hand while sleeping on my bedside.

Where am I? What happened?

I tried to take my hand from the one holding it, but he stirred, and squeezed my hand tightly. Then he woke up. I was surprised to find out that it was Nick holding my hand and sleeping beside my bed. Why are we here? Why is he holding my hand? I tried to squeeze back to let him know I'm awake. Then he realized what I did.

"Ashley? Are you alright? Is there anything you want? Are you thirsty?" he whispered to me kind of frantic.

"Nick, where are we? What happened?" I whispered back, I realized my throat is dry, so dry.

"We are in the hospital, don't you remember what happened?" he said to me.

I tried to remember what happened. But all I can remember was a voice singing me to sleep. So familiar voice.

I shook my head. "No, I can't remember anything." I tried to choke.

"It's alright, it'll come to you soon. Just don't force it, it might give you a headache." He told me while holding my hand.

"Where's Gray? Where's everybody?" I asked him.

"Gray's with your parents they went home to get you clothes. My family went home to catch up some sleep." He told me with a reassuring smile.

"And why are you here? Did you sleep here? Why did you do that? You could've let Gray stay and…and look over me… You shouldn't have done that." I told him, tears threatening to fall from my eyes but I tried to control it. I don't want him to see me vulnerable. Why did he do this? Who am I?

"Ash, it's fine, it's alright really, I volunteered. Gray was here last night. She was assigned to look over you last night. It's supposed to be Joe's turn but I suggested I should be looking after you today. Besides he needs sleep. I got enough sleep so don't worry bout it, alright? And I got lucky you woke up during my shift. You got lucky too." He told me in a soothing and teasing voice.

"Why?" I asked

"Because if you woke with everyone around, you would be bombarded with lots of questions, like "What happened to you? Are you alright? Do you want anything?" and expect that it would come from anyone in the room especially your parents and my mom. Do you want that?" he told me.

"You're absolutely right." I told him with a thank you smile on my face. He smiled back.

"So, stop the frantic questioning of why am I here and just say thank you…" he told me with a laugh.

"Thank you…" I told him laughing too.

Then he got up and took his guitar and a glass of water for me.

"Don't say anything, I know you're thirsty so just drink this." He told me

I took a sip and realized how thirsty I am. I drank all the water in the glass. Then he laughed at me. I was humiliated, and blushed furiously. I wanted to throw a pillow straight to his face if not for the guitar he was holding I would've done what I was thinking. So instead, I gave him a warning look. Then he stopped laughing, and muttered "Sorry" with an apologetic smile.

He started strumming. Then, sang,

She walks away

Colors fade to gray

Every precious moment's now a waste

She hits the gas

Hoping it would pass

The red light starts to flash it's time to wait

And the black keys

Never looked so beautiful

And the perfect rainbow never seemed so dull

When the lights out

Never had this bright aglow

And the black keys

Showing me a word I never knew no,

A world I never knew

I just sat there looked at him and listened to him.

She hates the sun

'Cause it proves she's not alone

And the world doesn't revolve around her soul, oh

She loves the sky

'Cause it validates her pride

Never lets them know when she is wrong

And the black keys

Never looked so beautiful

And the perfect rainbow never seemed so dull

When the lights out

Never had this bright aglow

And the black keys

Showing me a word I never knew no,

A world I never knew

He has the most beautiful voice I ever heard. And his eyes give him away.

And the walls are closing in

Don't let him get inside of your head

Don't let him get inside of your head

Don't let him get inside of your head

Don't let them inside

And the black keys

Never looked so beautiful

And the perfect rainbow never seemed so dull

When the lights out

Never had this bright aglow

And the black keys

Showing me a word I never knew no,

A world I never knew

Don't let him get inside of your head

Don't let him get inside of your head

Don't let him get inside of your head

Don't let him get inside of your head

Then he looks at me, in the eyes and sang the last verse

Sometimes the fight

Is better black and white

I was mesmerized, with his voice and his eyes. Did he just sing to me?

"Wow…" was all I was able to utter. I was speechless. That song kind of hit something in me. He smiled and started to strum the guitar again. And the song ended.

"Wow…" I said again.

"Are…you…alright?" Nick asked. Worry in his voice.

"Yeah…yeah… I'm fine… it's just, that song…" I stammered.

"What's with my song?" he asked somewhat surprised wit my reaction.

"Nothing… I just remembered something… just don't mind me." I told him trying to avoid the topic.

But the truth is. I was connected to the song somehow. It's like I was the girl in that song. I was speechless. I was silent. Nick too. Even though I wanted to break it, I can't, seems like my tongue's tied. I can't utter a word.

Nick was strumming a song. Nothing particular, I think, just playing some random notes on my bedside. While I was pretending I was asleep. Then the door opened I did not dare to open myself or else Nick will find out I was faking.

"How is she?" my Mom's voice asked. Worry in her voice.

"She's fine Mrs. McLoughlin, she was awake a little while ago, but she got back to sleep after an hour or two, maybe because of the sedatives given to her last night." Nick's reassuring voice told my mom.

"Thank you so much for taking care of my daughter when we were not yet here." My mom told him, I can hear from her voice that she was about to cry but was puling herself together.

I am more like my mom, I don't want to be transparent or vulnerable to someone who's not that close to me. The only time when I've seen her really broke down was when she knew that my brother was… when he… left… But it did not take long. She recovered fast and pulled herself together. She made me see that it wouldn't help anyone if I keep on mourning, and that I should not blame myself for what happened, it was bound to happen. She kept insisting that I have to accept what happened and just think about what Jimmy would feel, seeing me sad and mopping. "This is not what he wants you to do. He would want you to stand up, get a hold of yourself and be strong. He loves you, and he wants you to be happy." She always tells me.

And that is why I always try my best to be happy and enjoy every single moment of my life, even though sometimes, I can still remember how it feels when he was still around doing things for me, teasing me and showing how he loves his little sister.

I tired to fake my stir, then mom noticed. She came closer to me and touched my hand. "Honey? Are you alright?" she whispered to me. "Mom?" I tried to make my voice hoarse to make her believe that I just woke up. "Yes honey, it's me mom. How are you feeling? Do you want anything?"

"I don't want anything mom. I want him. I want him back." I told her crying while she wrapped me around her arms. I can't help it anymore. It's like something I kept for the past years since he was gone.

Then I saw the Jonas' mom signal them to leave us for the mean time. They slowly pile outside, then when Nick was almost out the door… "Nick! Thank You." I told him. "Please come back later." "I will." he answered. Then he gave me a reassuring smile and turned to the door.

Me and mom talked for hours until I got tired and fell asleep in her arms but before I drifted off to sleep my dad came in and joined us.