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Well ok I don't know what's going to happen in this story jsut so you know whatever comes to mind at the time for this story is written down so if it sounds stupid after a while that's why sorry
Bella POV
I couldn't believe it, this had to be a dream for twenty-seven yars I don't see any of them then my daughter goes to school for her first day here in Forks and she ends up meeting them? Edward, I can't believe i ust saw him! I love him still but yet I don't...it's so hard to explain I wonder if he still really cares for me? If he does then why did he leave me? So many questions that needed to be answered and so many things I needed to tell Selene, I never wanted her to deal with this, I wanted her to have a life without the pain I had to feel for all this years that is never going to leave probley.
We pulled into the driveway and I got out quietly and walked to the door unlocking it Jasper and Selene right behinde me when I opened the door I could see Edward siting on the chouch stareing into space not even paying any attenion to me at all I wanted to curl into a ball and cry at this point but it seemed so wrong to cry over him I was in my early forties and he still seemed seventeen I hated every minute of it yet loved it Selene walked quiely in and past me to the living room sitting on a chair I could tell she was confused and thinking hard I set everything down and walked in sitting next to her "Selene.." I said she looked up at me waiting for me to talk "You'll probley not believe me but, there vampires." I said "What!?" She yelled "You know the bloodsucking creatures you see on tv..." I said "I know that, but, there VAMPIRES?" She said not sure wether to believe or not a long silence soon followed then she spoke again "That would explain why for one he would think I was you and you were calling them two totally different names from what I knew!." she said stareing at me then at them I turned to look at them "Why are you here?" I asked "We came back after a while when we figured it would be safe and you wouldn't be here." Edward said "What do mean!?" I said Jasper sat down "What mister deniel here is trying to say is, he thought it was best and safer if we didn't keep in contact with you that's why we left, he still loved you, still does actually, but he didn't want you to get hurt." Jasper said "So you left me making me deal with the pain for the rest of my life?" I asked not sure wether to sound angry or hurt Edward nodded "I wanted Victoria to leave you alone and you not to get stuck in anymore of these problems that sem to follow us and go after you." Edward said a single tear rolled down my face as I looked at Selene for a minute.
I stode up and walked to the kitchen not speaking to either one I was to afraid that I would breakdown in front of them, once I got in the kitchen I held onto my stomach the pain ripped through me making my start to cry a bit more Edward had left me because he left me, but now we jsut couldn't be, it would feel so wrong to be with him again I mean I was so old and he was so young I wanted to die right now but thought of Selene and not them I whiped my eye's and grabbed a water and walked back in Selene had been stareing at the wall above Jasper's head she seemed distant right then "Jasper, you seem better around humans now." I said then Selene looked up a bit intrested and a bit worried "Yeah, whenever Alice left me I guess I just tried to become more in control of everything to see if that's why she left, but really it was only because he had fallin' in love with some human kinda like you and Edward." He said "Wait , does Alice still live with you?" I asked "Yeah, just me and her aren't together were more like really close friends now." He told me I nodded and looked at Edward he had been stareing at me the whole time "She looks exactly like you." Edward said quietly " I know." I said he sighed heavily and looked me in the eye's "What are you thinking?" He asked "How I just can't seem to figure out how you could leave me." I said "Even if you thought it would save me." I added his eye's seemed hurt at that "I never wanted to lleave you Bella, but I didn't want to lose you." He said "But, you did lose me Edward!" I said loudly then Selene got up and walked out Jasper followed her leaving us alone "Bella..." Edward sighed looking down "Edward I love you but I can't be with you anymore even though I want to be so badly." I said "Why can't you?" He asked "Because, I'm older than you by more than a couple of years, heh, alot more than a couple." I said "So what Bella you could still be with me!" He said begining to be hurt by this "Edward I can't, I have my daughter to think about not being arrested because some kid ends up seeing us makeing out or kissing or something somewhere and reporting me!" I told him "Bella, you know that nobody would ever see us I wouldn't let them" He said "And what about Selene?" I asked "WHat is she going to think if she sees us together, vampire or not she be shocked and disgusted. I don't want her to think about damn stuff like how sicking it looks for a forty year old to be with a seventeen year old!" I said soon crying again because I was getting so frustrated Edward just sat there stareing at me "Bella, i'll still love you even if you can't." he said I looked up him stareing.
I wanted to throw myself in his arms and kiss his lips again but I couldn't I jsut couldn't do it the love I felt was so small and so long ago I didn't really know what do at this point I was afraid all I wanted to do was take care of Selene and not worry about things like this but now that's not even a damn option "Listen edward do me one favor." I said he looked at me "What?" he asked "Whenever I die , don't kill yourself and watch over Selene for me." I said he looked at me not sure wether to agree or not he was going to argue but stopped "Fine." He said I looked at him shocked at how easy that was "thank you, Edward." I said "And I still do love you." I said getting up to leave and find Selene, her and Jasper had been talking about all this and everything she reminded me of myself in so many ways including how she wasn't disturbed by how they were vampires I jsut hoped she didn't end up like I did.
"Hey Selene don't you think it's getting a bit late?" I asked she looked at the clock and nodded "night mom." She said and hugged me then ran upstairs quickly "Jasper, I don't know what to do know, at this point." I said he looked at me "What do you mean Bella?" he asked "I mean I don't know what to do about Edward, I love him but I can't love him anymore. Besides, I actually love someone eles I can't tell any of you not even Selene." I said "Huh? Why?!" Jasper asked me "Because, I don't want to bring him up to this subject. Just know I still love Edward as much as I used to." I said turning to go to my bedroom "Good night all of you." I said as i walked in and shut the door I felt like some cold hearted Bitch at that moment from all of that I went to my bed and pulled down the sheets and curled up under them and cried myself to sleep.
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Okie Dokie I'm half awake and still writing...This chapter is probley really crappy...I'm terrible at Bella I swaer anyways Reviews please and I really need some help, If you have ANY ideas for this story let me know and i'll see if I can use them thanks!!!!
.Bleeding from the Heart.
