I woke up and found that I was in my bed and Phil was lying next to me, cuddling with me. I slipped out of his arms and went to the kitchen. I saw the TV was on and Jonah was lying on the couch sound asleep. I turned off the TV and went to go get my shower when I saw Phil walk out of my bedroom. He looked at me and hugged me. Oh how I loved him even right in the morning he still looked cute. I got my shower and then went to the kitchen. Phil was sitting on the couch and it looked like Jonah had made some breakfast seeing as both boys had food.

I sat down next to Phil and he put his arm around me as we ate and tried to get Jonah`s mind off of Colton. Dan texted Phil and asked him if he wanted to come over and make a Phil is not on fire so soon after that Phil was gone.

*4 days later*

"Come on Jonah the funeral is in a hour and we have to get there early."

"I`m coming, calm yo tits"

I laughed; he was taking this better than I thought he was going to. We got into his car and we drove to the funeral home. That's when everything fell apart. Jonah fell apart crying; all I could do was hug him and tell him it was alright. We got through the funeral service and the burial. After that we went home and he went straight to bed. Then I got a text from Phil.

"Hey want to come over to my flat, Dans going to be gone for the night."

"Sure Jonah needs some time alone."

I packed my bag and went to walk over to his flat. I arrived at his flat and I saw Phil was sitting on the couch playing Left 4 Dead which just happens to be my favorite game. I grabbed a controller and started playing which surprised him but he pulled me in close to him. We spent the whole night together then we said our goodbyes and I left. I walked down the street as the cold wind beat on my face. I rushed down to my building and ran up the stairs and I found Jonah lying on the floor with a pill bottle in his hands and pills all over the floor. He had cuts all up and down his arms and had a noose around his neck. I quickly pulled out my phone and dialed 911. The rescue squad came to my flat and took him away and I balled my eyes out as I thought the world was ending. I found a note on the coffee table and it said:

Dear Andrea,

"I just took a bunch of pills and now I'm feeling kind of woozy. I hope you don't think less of me because I cut my arms too. I want you to know that I love you and I will love you in the end. I was so upset about Colton because were dating and I felt without him I was nothing. I don't want you to revive me because I want to spend my afterlife with Colton. You will understand when that happens to someone you love."

Love, Jonah

Authors Note: Things do get better in the next chapter and I promise the next chapter will be longer.