Chapter Four

Did she tease you for your flirty quips?
Did she leave you frozen with the wrong words chosen?
You gotta show her why she can't resist
Make her blush when you put your hand on her hips
So wrap your arms around her body
Tell her all she needs to know

Hanson – Give A Little

Sleep hadn't come easily last night. That kiss had thrown me completely off centre so I was more confused than ever about Christian. The guy was so hot and cold, one minute I was being warned to stay away, he was actually walking away from me and then he turns around and kisses me. There was no denying it had been one hell of a kiss in fact my body was still reeling from onslaught of physical and emotional responses he'd ignited within me. It had been so long since I'd felt anything remotely close to that and even then it hadn't even touched on anything Christian had done. If he could do that with one kiss then I could only imagine what he was capable of in regards to other 'extra-curricular' activities.

Running a brush through my hair I stared back at my reflection in the mirror. Yes, Christian Grey had been on my mind since last night as well as his parting words. After the ceremony he wanted me to head to Seattle with him, he hadn't even asked, just told me. Whilst I found the domineering side a slight turn on for reasons unknown I wasn't sure I wanted to head to Seattle with him.

Around Christian I became confused easily and I knew nothing about him aside from the fact he set my head a whirl. He was handsome, successful and not very forthcoming, not only that but he set off alarm bells within me, he screamed danger but still I couldn't deny the pull I felt. I couldn't deny that I wanted him; the way my body had reacted last night proved that. Shaking my head I pulled myself away from the mirror, dropping my brush into the top of one of the many open boxes littered around my room. No, I couldn't go to Seattle tonight, I knew that I just wasn't sure how well he'd take me telling him that. Already I knew Christian wasn't the kind of guy who liked being defied and I was maybe a tad too stubborn sometimes.

Smoothing my hands over the soft material of my dress I smiled, loving my newest purchase. I wasn't one to splurge on clothes but with it being graduation I'd indulged and I had to admit I was very happy. The white keyhole dress stopped just above my knees. Ruched chiffon with crisscross panels shaping the halter neckline, with a wide banded waist and a softly pleated a-line skirt. The back was also cut out. It was very feminine and I loved it, it made me feel amazing and as I slipped my feet into my t-bar, open toed, 5 inch tanned heels I felt great. It was incredible how new clothes made you feel especially when like me you didn't have money to burn, it seemed to make every purchase that much better. My hair was loosely curled with some tendrils pinned back; the rest framed my face and fell over my shoulders.

One last look at the time I sighed softly, it was time to go and I felt my nerves kick in. Now I was confident by nature I'd like to think, it took a lot to make me nervous, took a lot to make me blush but I guess knowing Christian was going to be there affected me in ways I wasn't ready to look into. Grabbing my cap and gown, I finished putting them on and headed out of my dorm, wanting to get to the campus gym early to see if I could see my family.

Almost instantly my nervousness over seeing Christian again after the kiss was over-ridden by the excitement I felt over seeing my family. With college hours, work hours and splitting time between my friends I was lucky if I got to see my family once a month and I hated that. We were so close and Skype and emails didn't come close to seeing them properly. I missed them more than words could ever say and today I'd finally see them all again. My Mother, my Father, my annoying big brother and his wife, and my little sister, all of them were coming to see me graduate, another reason why I couldn't go with Christian to Seattle.

One of the many benefits to living on campus was the fact I didn't have far to go to reach the gym. A crowd of black and red is scattered outside the gym when I finally arrive. Suddenly I'm nervous, excited and unable to wipe the smile from my face, caught up in the infectious excited chatter going on around me. Blowing out a breath I looked around, scanning the crowd for my family when out of nowhere I found myself blinded by two hands over my eyes. "Guess who slugger." Laughing I spun around as the hands fell away and felt happiness wash over me.

"Dad!" I exclaimed, throwing my arms around the shoulders of the man in front of me now. My Dad laughed his own arms snaking around my waist as he lifted me from the ground, spinning me around. When my feet finally touched the floor again I kept my arms around my Dad but pulled back enough to get a good look at the man.

He stood at around 6 ft, with a slightly athletic build and broad shoulders, his light brown hair highlighted with grey flecks that were now more prominent then they had been four years ago, then last but not least his eyes, they were a brilliant blue. Stepping back I took his hands and looked down, feeling a surge of love course through me, unlike many of the Dad's wearing suits, mine had gone for a jeans, white shirt with a navy blue suit jacket, smart yet casual and very him. "I missed you." I said finally looking up to meet his eyes.

"I missed you too baby girl." He told me, wrapping his arm around my shoulder and tugging me in closer to him, I went willingly inhaling the comforting, familiar scent that was my Dad. It was an earthy scent mixed with shaving soaps and tobacco and all over a sudden I was transported to my childhood. For the first time in a long time I truly felt at home, oh how I had missed this. It was only when he spoke again that I was brought out of my musings and realized we were walking towards the gym slowly, following the crowd. "I still can't believe you're graduating college, seems like only yesterday we were watching you graduate school." He mused.

"Does seem to have flown by..." I said, biting down on my lip a frown settling onto my features, "Where are the others?" I asked, feeling my Dad's arm around me tighten a little.

"Penny's not been well, some nasty bug going around school and she can't travel so your Mom stayed with her, as for Leo and Amanda well Amanda's been in hospital for a couple days. Nothing for you to worry about but Leo couldn't leave her." He'd cut me off before I could reply and ask about Amanda, strange thing was he was smiling. If he was smiling then I really had no need to worry right? When he leaned in and kissed my forehead I felt relaxed once more, "Don't worry, they're all sad they couldn't come but Leo has sent me with a present so I'm sure it'll make up for them not being here."

Now I was intrigued but before I could ask about my present Dad smiled again, kissed the top of my hand and let go of me moving away with the other parents all heading towards the tiered seating. Watching him go I couldn't fight the smile, despite being sad the others weren't here I couldn't help but feel happy. Shaking my head I turned away and began moving with the other graduating students towards my seat. With my last name starting with a 'W' I was closer to the back but still with the other students whose last name began with 'W' I was closer to the beginning of the line.

Finding my seat and the beginning of the 'W' line I sit down and began conversing with dark haired girl beside me, all in a bid to calm my nerves. As eleven finally rolls around the teachers begin to fill the stage and we all stand to applaud them politely and if I'm honest most of them look bored and as though they're wishing they were somewhere else. Now they knew exactly how we felt a lot of the time during lectures right? Chuckling to myself I shook my head, smiling when my eyes landed on Kate and then Christian. When my eyes locked on him I stopped clapping, my smile slipped away and I felt my entire body flush.

Wow he looks so good!

I follow the lead of the other students as the clapping stops and I sit down, finding my eyes glued to the man who for the last twelve hours had plagued my thoughts. He looked so in control and contained in that suit, the look on his face as serious as ever when he looked around the crowd. How was it possible he looked so calm yet here I was suddenly overcome with the memory of him pressed so tightly against me, his sculptured lips moving over mine expertly and that beautiful ache between my legs? Shifting slightly I crossed my legs again, my breath catching as his eyes finally locked onto me and even at this distance I could see the subtle change in his expression, the darkening of his eyes.

"Now he is beautiful." The girl beside me muttered and smirking slightly I nodded my head, not needing her to say his name to know who she was talking about. Glancing to my left I looked at her to see her flushing a light pink.

"Yes he is." I whispered back making her giggle quietly before we both refocused on the chancellor. As time went on it took a lot more effort than I'm willing to admit, not to look back at Christian, I could however feel his eyes on me but this was my graduation and I wanted to remember it for more than Christian Grey, so I stayed focused. When Kate stands to give her speech I smile, joining in as a round of applause erupts around the gym, I look around and lock eyes with Ana, winking at her, making her smile before we both turned back to watch Kate.

I felt a rush of pride that this girl was my friend, she looked liked she belonged, so at ease. I was confident but the idea of standing up there in front of so many people caused an uneasy feeling to settle into the pit of my stomach. Still she worked the crowd like a pro, they were eating out of her hand, she had them laughing, applauding, she was amazing. We stood to applaud her and cheers erupted all around and I think at one point I distinctly heard Elliot, his booming voice carrying over the crowd. Sitting back down I frowned, watching Jamie Mitchell come rushing in to the gym, making a not so quiet trip to his chair.

By time I turned back to the stage, clapping with everyone else I saw Christian stood staring out at us all and my breath caught again. Damn. Slowly I blow out a breath, trying to calm my racing heart and listen carefully as he begins to speak. Like Kate he was the audience captivated and not just the women, one quick glance around proved even the men seemed spellbound. Smiling softly I looked back at Christian, "...over a billion people, mainly in sub-Saharan Africa, South Asia and Latin America, live in abject poverty. Agricultural dysfunction is rife within these parts of the world, and the result is ecological and social destruction. I have known what it is like to be profoundly hungry. This is a very personal journey for me..."

Now that left me stunned, Christian had known what it was like to be hungry? Again it nailed home that I knew nothing about him, but why should I we'd never really spoken, kissed for sure but had a decent conversation, no. Though now I found myself wanting to know him, wanting to know everything about him, everything that made him who he was. Again I ended up in my head wondering if I should go to Seattle, could I really afford to with the move tomorrow? It didn't make sense to go, then again since I'd met him nothing had made sense.

When a chorus of applause erupted all around me I was brought out of my musings and stood, bringing my hands together with the rest of the crowd. Christian had certainly made an impact, people liked him, he and Kate certainly had a knack for winning over the crowd. I don't really have time to think anymore about Christian or what little I'd just learned, because no sooner has he sat down and the clapping died down then the long, gruelling process of name calling begins. Sadly being at the end of the alphabet I know I've got some time to wait.

It isn't long before I begin to get restless and glancing over my shoulder I locate my Dad and smile at him, recieving a slightly sympathetic one in return. Finally after what has to be close to an hour and half I'm heading up to the stage with my line, beyond happy I'm at the front. No more waiting, finally I was getting my degree, and for some reason it only occurred to me Christian was giving it to me when I walked across the stage and came to a stop in front of him.

The electric charge between us was as potent as last night and when his hand encased my smaller one, that electric pulse only seemed to intensify some more. Forcing myself to not sink into him I smiled softly as he spoke, slipping my degree into my other hand. "Congratulations Miss Watson." his voice velvety smooth, there was that familiar dark glint in his eyes. "I expect you're ready to head out with me soon?"

Damn. He wanted to go straight after this? I definitely couldn't, even if my Dad wasn't here what was I thinking. I barely knew him, maybe when I was in Seattle we could meet up but there was so much for me to do tonight. "I'm sorry but I have a lot to do before the move tomorrow, so I can't make it." I told him, hating the words as they tumbled from my mouth. I wanted this man and here I was having to say no because of the whole stupid moving thing.

Christian's eyes seemed to narrow dangerously as he stared me down, obviously not liking my answer but he didn't say anything, he looked over my shoulder and nodded, his hand squeezing mine just a little, "Later." he said simply and I knew I was being dismissed, for some reason that annoyed me, but I nodded and continued smiling as I walked past him, giving my Dad another wave before I moved off the stage to join my classmates back at the chairs.

When the ceremony finally ends I stand and wait for my row to let out eager to get back to my Dad, not knowing how long he was staying. Finally we began moving, heading outside I paused briefly to give Ana a hug and greet her Dad before I set off in search of my own Dad. Locating him I smiled and hurried forward into his open arms and snaked my arms over his shoulders. "Congratulations slugger." he whispered and I could hear the pride in his voice, it made me smile as we parted. "Your Mom and I are so proud of you, you know that right?"

"Of course I do Dad," I replied, shooting him a bright smile. Leaning into him as he lifted a camera, snapping not one but two pictures of us both before he stepped away from me and had me pose with my degree. Even I had to admit at this point I felt proud, having that degree in my hand, having physical evidence that these last four years had meant something was a thrill. I'd graduated, I was a graduate and now I could do anything I wanted. That was a freeing thought, also a very scary one.

"From your brother." looking down at the card in my Dad's hand I smiled and took it from him, my eyes flickering up to meet his not missing the look on his face. Shaking my head I opened the card to peer at what was inside. There in black and white lay a picture, taped into the card and not just any picture, no, this was a sonogram with a clear outline of a baby. A gasp escaped my lips, my other hand covering my mouth as I gazed down at the little miracle. Below lay the words, 'Congratulations on your graduation Auntie Jess. Can't wait to meet you. Blip x x x'

"I'm going to be an Auntie?" I exclaimed looking up at my Dad whose grin was almost as big as mine and when he nodded I made a very girly squeal and hugged him again. This was by far one of the best presents I could have gotten. There was nothing more important to me than family and to know there was going to be a new addition to ours was amazing and I couldn't wait.

"Handsome devil coming through."

I broke away from my Dad in time to see Ethan along with Kate and Elliot coming to a stop in front of my Dad and I. Smiling brightly and laughing at Ethan I shook my head and leant into the hug he quickly instigated. "Always the modest one aren't you Ethan." I joked as we parted enough for me to share a friendly cheek kiss with Elliot. Ethan smiled brightly, his arms draped around my shoulder tugging me into his side as he nodded.

"You know it beautiful. Mr Watson good to see you sir." he said smoothly shaking my Dad's hand before dropping a kiss on my forehead. We'd always been close, as mentioned I'd known Kate for fourteen years and with her came Ethan, he'd been my biggest crush for most of my childhood and who could blame a girl right? He was funny, handsome and so easy to be around but alas like most childhood crushes nothing came of it and I'd grown out of it. Ethan was still considered one of my best friends though, always a shoulder to lean on.

"You to son and Kate, as beautiful as always. Well done today sweetheart." my Dad said making Kate beem brightly as they embraced briefly. She looked at me and winked, making me roll my eyes. Here we were Graduating college and she still hadn't grown up. Kate had always listed my Dad as her ideal guy, mostly I think she did it to wind me up but we'd both made fantasy lists as teenagers and I had always been amused to find my Dad's name at the top of her list.

"Why thank you Mr Watson, say have you met my fiance Elliot Grey?" she asked, introducing the handsome man at her side. As my Dad and Elliot shook hands I watched Kate's eyes light up in mischeif. Before I could even begin to fathom what it was she was up to she spoke, "Oh and his brother Christian Grey, both he and Jessica are fairly close." she said and at that moment I felt my face flush with the overwhelming urge to kick her.

As if on cue though I felt Christian's presence before I saw him, that familiar pulse passed through my body. Looking up I found him to be stood on my left side, his hand outstretched towards my Dad, "Mr Watson it's a pleasure." he said smoothly, my Dad's eyes flickered from Christian to me and then back again before he shook Christian's hand.

"Mr Grey." he says simply as Kate goes onto introduce Ethan. I don't miss the frostier reception poor Ethan gets but thankfully Christian is still polite. As for me well I'm at a loss of what to do or say, not surprisingly my heads fuzzy again with Christian being so close, it's hard to concentrate. I'm still not sure what to think about the effect he seems to have on me, it's rather disconcerting considering I've never felt an attraction of this magnitude before.

It takes me a moment before I realize all eyes are on me, gazing expectantly and somewhat amused. Frowning I look at everyone, "What?" I ask, wondering if I'd missed something. Kate smirked slightly as she looked at Christian, following her gaze I looked at him to find him staring down at me an unreadable mask in place. "Did I miss something?" I asked again, feeling the dreaded flush of my cheeks, Christian smirked slightly and nodded.

"I asked if I may talk to you in private?" he asked and I felt my heart begin to race once more. In private? Him and I? Suddenly last nights confrontation rushed to the forefront of my mind and I felt breathless. However we were in a crowd of people, nothing would happen, no matter how much I desired it to right at this moment.

"Sure. Dad will you excuse us." I said politely, watching an unknown expression cross my Dad's face as he nodded his head once, refocusing on the others. I allowed Christian to take my hand and lead me away, not missing the chance to shoot a glare at Kate before I went, annoyed that all she could do was smirk sarcastically in my direction. Shaking my head I allowed Christian to lead me away from the safety of my Dad, my friends and then out and away from the crowd. Now I felt nervous, where were we going? "Christian where...?" I started only to be cut off when he spun me around a corner, my back colliding with the cool stone of the outside of the gym, out of sight from everyone.

"Now explain to me why it is you feel you can't make it tonight" he told me, towering over me in very much the same fashion as he had last night. It was beyond distraction, was it any wonder I found it difficult to concentrate, just looking at him now made it obvious as to why. He wasn't touching me but man was I on edge. Forcing myself to lower my eyes to somewhere more neautral, his chest, that tie I blew out a breath.

"I move to Seattle tomorrow. I have belongings I'll need to drive down, it doesn't make sense for me to make the trip to Seattle with you only to come back and head straight back to the city." I told him, it was the truth of course. I was all packed I had nothing left to do minus moving my things to the city, to my new apartment.

"If that's all it's easily taken care of." Christian said and I looked up at him, frowning as he pushed away from the wall and reached into his jacket for his phone. Gazing down at it he pressed a few buttons and lifted it to his ear. "Taylor. Please arrange for Miss Watson's belongings to be moved from her dorm room to her apartment in Seattle. Yes. Thank you." with that he turned the phone off and placed it back into his jacket.

I was stunned, that was all I had the ability to feel right now. It over-rode the annoyance I felt that he had made arrangements like that for me, the fact that he felt he could do that was, I'll admit it was irritating. I opened and closed my mouth a few times and I was sure I looked ridiculous. Christian though smirked and leaned closer to me again, his body pressing against mine as he towered over me dangerously. Frustratingly he kept his hands planted firmly on the wall beside my head, not touching me, despite my irritation and annoyance I couldn't deny the desire to feel his hands on me. "Now. Anymore excuses?" he asked me.

"You can't just...do that, arrange for my things to be moved it's not..." I'd somehow found within me the ability to say something but Christian stopped me, his finger moving to press against my lips, silencing me.

"Jessica I want you to be mine, so I need you to come with me tonight. I've already violated my own rules. I need you to give me written consent before we can get what we both desire..." as he spoke he ran his nose along my jaw, inhaling against my skin and causing me to catch my breath once more. What was he doing to me?He wants me to be his? That was an exciting thought but written consent, what the hell did that mean?

"Written consent?" I managed to squeak out, confused by that term. Though maybe he was actually serious, though why would I need to give him written consent to touch me it seemed almost ludicrous to me.

"Exactly that Jessica, now come your Father will be waiting for you." and as quickly as he'd had me against that wall, he'd put a substantial amount of distance between us, his cool mask slipping back into place. My head was spinning, he had taken away any excuse I had not to go with him tonight, he needed my written consent before he'd put those incredible hands of his back on me and he wanted me. Looking at him I felt a thrill pulsate through me, I had no doubt if I wanted to I could surely think of something to help me get out of tonight but I didn't want to, I knew that now, not only did I want him more than anything but I was intrigued, there was something so dark and mysterious about him and I wanted to be in the know. I wanted to be reckless for the first time in my life, stop thinking and just do.

"Right." I said softly, pushing away from the wall biting down on my lip as I smoothed out my dress, surprisingly steady on my feet as I took a breath and began to walk around the corner of the wall. Only before I'd gotten two steps I felt Christian's hand settle at the base of my back causing my heart to start racing again. This man definitely knew the effect he had on me. I knew this because one glance up at him, I caught the faintest of smirks. "You're not some crazed serial killer waiting to get me alone are you?" I asked teasingly, the mystery surrounding him had me hooked.

Christian looked at me in surprise before chuckling lightly, shaking his head as his fingers lightly drew patterns on the exposed skin of my back. He leaned into me slightly "Oh getting you alone and making you scream and writh in pleasure has been on my mind since the moment I locked eyes on you in that kitchen." he whispered, his breath warm against my cheek and as if on cue, his words caused my lower stomach to coil tightly and my breath to catch. Swallowing down the head spinning desire threatening to overtake me, I looked away from him ignoring the flush in my cheeks and stepping back into the marquee.

Oh man I was in trouble.


Short chapter I know but Chapter 5 will be up in a couple days and it's set to be longer and involve only Christian and Jessica. It'll be a heavily based Chapter on her eventual discovery on who Christian really is, will she stick around or won't she? Keep reading to find out.

However with this chapter we've concluded her college years, she's now graduated and heading out into the real world which will bring a lot of exciting twists and turns.

Hope you enjoyed the chapter! Now onto review replies.

pammathews1 - I am looking forward to posting the next Chapter I'll admit, since that's the whole big thing where she should discover what he's about and exactly what he's expecting from their coupling. Question is will she remain open minded and give in to him or turn away from him and run a mile. Hope you like this chapter.

MrsLeona - Again you always make me smile. I did enjoy writing the kiss, they have pretty electric chemisty but maybe I'm bias. I like to try and build a picture when I'm writing and it's easy sometimes to go overboard so I have to reign myself in sometimes. As explained in Chapter 3 Ana and Christian met when she went to interview him, I rearranged the timing of the interview to two months before this so yes, that's how they met. I cannot wait for Elena in this story as always she should be fun to include. In Chapter 5 you'll find out what she thinks of his lifestyle and if it's too much for her, she does like the domineering side a little I think but how much is too much? I hope you liked this chapter!

Guest - I understand hun but thank you for taking a chance and reading it. You're review made me smile and I appreciate the compliment and kind words.

Chibiss - Makes me smile to think you love Jessica, I love writing her and learning more and more about her. Thank you for the review hun and your kind words, hope you enjoyed this chapter.

Grey Steele Fan - I think we all like the bossy side of Christian, he's so commanding! As you can see yes she is going with him to Seattle, he took away her only excuse so, Chapter 5 we head to the city and she finally discovers the kind of man he is and what he wants out of her. Hope you enjoyed this chapter.

nikkid3 - Hi there, I do enjoy writing long chapters. Though this one is a little shorter the next will be long, so thank you again for your review and kind words. Hope you stick with us and enjoy this chapter too.