The thunder woke me up at the crack of dawn. The sky was as black as coal, and the wind howled. I yawned and fell back asleep; I did not wake up until it was late morning. The sky was still black as I called my lady's maids to help me get dressed. It was cold so I chose heavy red velvet to keep me warm. The dress had long sleeves and was tight around my chest so my bosom was pushed against me. I sat by the fire in my room and read for a while. There was nothing else to do and no one else really to talk to. I was not about to go out and find someone to converse with for it would make me seem desperate. I did, though it was difficult to admit, had a hankering for entertainment. I closed my book with a hard slam for I had no other way to express such frustration. I got up suddenly and walked out of my room without letting my ladies know. I walked alone, and with grace that I at the time thought put me above all others. The grace of a lady who was on top of the Earth and held the secret of a man's heart in her palm. Yes, the foolishness and arrogance of my young mind sometimes went against my better judgment.

As I walked down the dark hall of court people looked at me with courtesy. I entered the great hall where I saw the King and Anne Boleyn dancing in front of everyone, she saw me and gave ma a smug look and continued to dance. I just rolled my eyes and sat down among the other courtiers. Everyone was singing and laughing amongst themselves. It made me sad that I was friendless for the moment. My ladies where nice but I was not really connected to them on a more level of friendship. My eyes wandered aimlessly around the great hall until I finally saw a pair of piercing blue eyes stare back at me. I was too much into my thoughts to realize that Anne and Henry had concluded their dance and were sitting back at the table. He stared directly at me for a couple of minutes before I reluctantly broke the gaze and looked the other way. It was dangerous to be looking at him when his plan was in motion. Yet I still had the feeling that we would be found out anyway. In court EVERYTHING is picked up on. You couldn't even breathe without people noticing. I took in a deep breath at that thought and leaned back in the chair.

"Having a pleasant day your grace?"

I turned around in my chair to see who had spoken to me. It was none other then Charles Brandon. I gave him a playful smirk.

"Well do be quite honest, I am terribly bored. I have no friends here at all and everyone is too busy with their own little lives to pay any mind to me." I huffed and made a puppy pout. I knew that I was being immature but I did not feel like being so up tight at the moment so I just let go.

I heard Charles let out a laugh as he sat down next to me.

"You know I would happily have solved your problem of boredom but I think that the King would have my head."

I shot a look at him.

"Whenever did I insinuate that I wanted to have fornications with you Mr. Brandon?" I asked slyly. He came close to me as his lips grazed my ear, but I kept my ladylike grace and did not falter.

"I see it in your eyes." He said cockily. I slowly turned my head toward him.

"My mistake, I will be sure next time to look away from you." I said my tone dripping with sarcasm. He laughed again at me.

"I will wait for you." He whispered as he kissed my cheek. I blushed and turned away. He got up from his chair and left. The court women looked at me and whispered among their friends. I looked up and saw the King. He glared at me and shot up from his chair and left the dining hall. I got up from my chair and chased after him.

I could not call his name out publicly so I just followed him. He took a sharp turn right into an empty hallway. Figuring now that it was a sign that he wanted to be alone I passed the hall, but he took my arm and pulled me to him. He roughly pushed me against the wall, his body crushing me against it.

"What did Brandon say to you!?" He hissed.

"We were just talking. Why may I inquire do you care about us talking?"

"Because I know my friend and he doesn't just talk to beautiful women about the fucking weather!" He growled, pushing me farther into the wall.

"You should not be doing this, they may find us together." I whispered trying to get him to calm down. Henry only gripped tighter.

"Don't tell me what to do. I am the one who loves you Honoree; just remember that the next time you look at another man." He said as he released me; I rubbed my wrist.

"Why are you so jealous? I was just talking to the Duke; I had no intention of doing anything else. If you do not believe me then fine I will just leave you to your thoughts." I hissed as I tried to walk away. Henry pulled me right back and cupped my cheek with his hand.

"I am sorry; you must forgive me when I am like that. I just do not want to see you fall in love with another man." Henry said as he pulled me into a hug, his head resting on my shoulder. I sighed and rubbed his back; it was rather difficult to stay angry at him for long when I loved him so much.

"It is alright; I understand where you are coming from but you have to understand that I only have eyes for you my love, so please calm down." I whispered to him; he released himself from our embrace and then place a chaste kiss on my lips.

"Soon you will be my Queen, and we will be happy forever. We will have sons who will rule this land, but you must have patients." Henry said as he leaned his forehead on mine. I bit my lip and thought about what I was to say.

"Henry, I do not know how long I can wait. My father is searching for a husband for me and he would disapprove if I was to step in Queen Catherine's position so quickly. The scandal would bring shame upon my family if the world found out I took part in it."

"Then we must make sure that it does not go beyond these walls. You must bear with me my love, soon we will be together."

"Such pretty words you say; yet you do not even know if these dreams will come true." Then we heard footsteps from the halls. Henry placed one last kiss on my lips and whispered into my ear.

"Soon my love;" and with that he disappeared leaving me to find out who's footstep they were. Anne came around the corner and looked at me with a suspicious glare.

"Princess Honoree; what are you doing here; and who was with you?"

I had to think of something quick for I could not ruin the plans.

"Oh it was just some man professing his love to me." I said as I wiped my dress of any dust.

"Who was the man?" Anne asked quizzically; I wanted to gulp.

"He was nothing just some son of a lawyer; nothing that would impress me nor my family."

"Oh, well I will leave you to yourself; I must go see how his majesty is doing." Anne said haughtily as she sauntered off. I let out a long sigh of relief and leaned against the brick wall behind me. I childishly mimicked what Anne said to me as I straitened myself up and walked to my room.

I sat by my window and watched the rain fall down the window pane. There was nothing to do here in England. All of my friends were back in Italy and I was sure that Italy was having better weather. It was always gloomy here in England. There was rarely a week that did not go by without it raining. The Earth must have flooded a thousand times over. I was so bore as to follow individual rain drops with my eyes as the slowly slid down the glass windows. The fire was crackling to keep the castle warm and my ladies in waiting were in the other room sewing and tending to chores as usual. I got up and walked to my bed where I collapsed and looked up the ceiling. I played with my long hair and sang songs your head. I had no doubt in my mind that I was terribly homesick. The warmness and welcome of Italy was extremely different then England. I rolled off the bed and proceeded to walk towards the fireplace where my ladies in waiting were sitting.

"There is absolutely nothing to do here." I moaned as I took a set on one of the empty chairs.

"I know your grace; your father has left you here for god knows how long for no apparent reason." One of my ladies in waiting pointed out. I knew she was right about that; there was no real reason why he left me here. His "reason" why he left me here he said was to spend some time with my childhood friend Henry. Usually when my father pushed me to spend time with men it usually meant that my father was interested in that mean being my future husband. This was completely out of character for my father because the man who he wanted me to associate with is already in a marriage.

"You are completely correct; I do not know the real reason why he has kept me here for so long. I have written letters to him begging him to let me know of his real intentions but he has failed to respond accordingly. He keeps telling me that I will know his real intentions of keeping me here when he revisits England next year which means I will be here for a long time." I groaned as I leaned back in the chair. All of the ladies seized what they were doing to look at me. They were stunned my angry outburst; they knew I disliked being here but they did not know that I was about to strangle someone. A sevent walked in and bowed to her.

"Your Grace, His Majesty would like to have a word with you alone."

All of the ladies gave me a slightly confused look. I sat up from the chair and straitened my dress.

"Lead the way."

The man did not move but only stayed where he is.

"His Majesty is here your Grace and requests that you dismiss your ladies."

I nodded and made a motion for the ladies to exit. They all got up and left the room; Henry entered and told the servant to leave.

"May I be of some service your Majesty?"

"I am so bewildered by my feelings."

"What ever do you mean?"

"At the same time I love you, Anne is putting me under some spell." Tears welled up in my eyes; I knew that this would happen. I remained together and contained myself.

"Very well, then I give you my blessing to go after her; you must leave me now." I said icily as I turned by back on him. He came and grabbed my arm.

"Weren't you listening? I still love you."

I pulled myself out of his grip and walked towards the window and then suddenly turned around to face him. Anger had taken my body over.

'How could I be so stupid!? I knew this would bloody happen! You are so bloody arrogant that you think that I would accept your feelings for Anne and still want you! Now that you just said that I will free you of having to make such a painful decision. I hereby liberate you to go and marry that woman because she is so mystifying that she made a man who claimed to be in love with another woman for most of his life in love with HER! She bloody deserves you then if she worked so hard at taking your heart! I hope that you have a very fulfilling life together."

Henry came up to me and grabbed my arm roughly.

"You know I could have you killed for insulting me like that."

"Well if that is what you want to do, get rid of me, then I will honorably walk to the gallows."

Henry's eyes filled up with tears as he loosened his grip on my arm. I pulled my arm out of his grasp and rubbed it.

"Please don't do this to me Honoree."

I shook my head and pushed past him. I turned around when I got to the door.

"You did this to yourself Henry." With that I exited leaving him to cry alone.


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