Hey Everyone. I am so so so sorry that it's so late I had a mad week last week and barely had time to even think about writing but here it is finally Chapter 4. This isn't going to be the last chapter as I'm going to write an epilogue of sorts because I haven't been able to fit in people's reactions to them getting together [like the students and the S**ts which I know some people were looking forward to] as I just couldn't get it to flow into that it felt like I should stop were I have. Please please review I really want peoples opinions on this especially the kiss as it's the first kiss scene I have ever written so I'm worried about how good/bad it is. I have also realised that I didn't put a disclaimer on the last chapter so this one will count for both. I would again like to thank my Beta RoseHathaway-Beilkov xx and ask you again to please please review it would mean a lot. Right I should probably finish this author's note before it turns into a chapter all by its self. So here you have Chapter 4 of I Can't Do This Anymore. Please enjoy

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Disclaimer – sadly for I do not own Harry Potter even after numerous letter to J.K. if I did Sirius and Remus would never had died and Wolfstar would so be part of the books.

Chapter 4

Sirius Pov

She is right! She is so right! I have to do this I have to just walk up to him and kiss him. I can't hide myself from him anymore. I need to know if he feels the same. The what ifs are just going to keep following me around if I don't. What if he hates me? What if he laughs at me? I need to know and I can't beat around the bush I have spent the last 2 years beating around the bush and look where it's got me. I am a love sick mess going mad. I need closer I need to know if it's going to happen or not. The only problem in my master plan is that I can't find Moony. Fuck why didn't I pick up the fucking map that would help me out so much right know. Wait what's that. I stopped in the middle of a corridor that I think is close to the staff room having been awoken from my inner rant by a voice. Just the voice I was looking for. The voice of Moony. I turned the corner and saw him. He was stood with his back to me talking to Dumbledore. The sound of his voice drifting down the corridor

"I am sure that between us and Lily, we can reorganize the rounds partners so that Emily can go home and go to her uncle's funeral it will be no problem Sir"

" That is wonderful Mr Lupin I do feel sorry for the girl according to her mother her and her uncle were quite close" Dumbledore answered Remus. It is now or never. I need to use some of the courage Godric Gryffindor blessed me with. I started walking up the corridor towards Remus, Dumbledore and what looks like most of the teaching staff. When I was roughly a meter away I called his name

"Remus" he turned to face me

"Oh hey Sirius I was just talking to Professor Dumbledore about Prefect rounds. Emily Jones needs to go home for her uncles funeral so lily and I need to reorganize the rounds timetable" Remus said not aware of the battle in my head. One side screaming at me to just kiss him the other trying to convince me to not. Then a mental image of lily leaning over to me in the common room and saying "Just walk up to him and snog him" took over my brain and my mind was made up

"Moony I am so sorry about this but if I don't do it now then I never will" I said then I leaned forward and pressed my lips to his….

He didn't move. We stood there for what felt like an age but was probably only a few seconds. Then I felt his hand move to the back of my neck and thread through my hair and his lips began to move against mine. It was bliss! The feel of his lips moving against mine. His hands moving up and around my neck pulling me closer and tugging on my hair. It was amazing

Remus Pov

Oh My God. He's kissing me. He is KISSING ME. I just stood there frozen. Then… I started kissing him back and sub-consciously my hands wrapped around his neck pulling him closer and started tugging on his hair. He then pushed me up against the corridor and ran his tongue along my bottom lip begging for entrance. I opened my mouth and felt his tongue slide into my mouth and carefully touch the tip of mine. Soon enough our tongues were battling for control over the others mouth. Sirius then pulled away but kept his lips within half an inch of mine and had his forehead resting against mine.

"Wow" he muttered breathlessly the smell of him overpowering my senses

"Wow indeed" I whispered back. Trying to regain my breath. I looked into his eyes and I could see a fire burning in his eyes as he trailed his hand up my arm and neck bring it to rest on my cheek so he was cradling my face with his thumb stroking my cheekbone making a shudder run through me.

"Remus Lupin" he whispered as his lips very almost grazed mine

"Yes" I whispered back. My eyes darting to his lips willing them to brush mine again.

"Be my boyfriend" he said both of our eyes meeting at the same moment. I could see the spark of hope glittering in the depths of his gorgeous silver eyes

My heart stopped. He wanted me. Boring scared old me, then something clicked in my mind. He wanted me and you know what I wanted him

"Fuck yes" I said and pressed my lips against his and was pulled back into the brilliance that is kissing Sirius Black.

But out of the corner of my eye, as I moved my lips to his neck to start trailing kisses down his neck to his collar bone, I am sure I saw Professor Dumbledore slip Professor McGonagall a few Gallons and a mutter of

"I knew Sirius wasn't going to last much longer"

"Yeah yeah just take your money"

END OF CHAPTER

So there it is there finally together WOOOO! I hope you enjoyed it and remember there will be a final chapter up soon [hopefully…no promises] and again please please review

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