Disclaimer: I don't own Hetalia!

Author's note: I would like to thank my readers and my reviewers for their support for this fanfic. I hope I can do a better job in the future and to be worthy by your standards. Sorry for my shoddy writing...

Truthfully if you want to imagine it better with music, I recommend listening to the song Lilium of Elfen Lied Music box version at some flashbacks or Inuyasha's lullaby when it is a sad childhood. For first love..hehehe First love by Utada Hikaru (either music box or not).


Outside their home, Napayshni took a deep breathe as he observed the snow falling from the sky. Slowly he could see that the once vast greenery is once again covered by white. He gently kneel down the crisp white snow, his hand gently scooping up a small young bird. A gentle smile slowly forms as the bird shook the snow off from its body before it flew away.

"I wonder..." Napayshni muttered "If I can get to see what is beyond my lands and see the vast new world like that young bird.." he looked up the sky as his arm raised upward as if he were to touch the sky "Someday all of us will have the chance to fly and be free like a bird..." he vowed.

Slowly he walked back into their tent.


"Madeline..." a young man murmured as he peered outside his home, guilt gnawing inside of him as he recall the events few days ago. His Madeline is now scared of him, refraining from talking to him and is constantly fleeing from his presence, that thought made him want to inflict pain into himself. He just wants her to understand, to show her how he loves her, how he cherishes her and he desperately wants her to be his, together forevermore.

He slowly lean back as he turned his gaze at the wall where a small red ribbon is hung.

A young Allen was reading his favorite book about fiction; stories in that category fascinated the young boy. The sun outside the library wing is slowly descending into its slumber, casting soft orange glow upon the room. The grand mahogany door slowly opens as the young boy whipped his head towards the direction of the door. His once indifferent face softens upon seeing a blonde hair little girl.

"Frere!" she greeted him as he acknowledges her "I have something for you!" she eagerly run towards him.

An eyebrow rose as he inquires "Hmm? A gift for me?"

She nodded eagerly as she fumbles in her pocket. Slowly she pulled out a red ribbon, showing it proudly in her palm. Confusion settles in the boy's face as she smiled at him. A ribbon? Why a ribbon?

"Madeline...why are you giving me a ribbon?" he asked, perplexed at the gift.

"Well I once read a book from a faraway country that tells the story of a boy and girl that their destinies are tied together if the ribbons on their finger or if they have the same ribbon." she answered "If we have ribbons then we'll always be together right frere?"

His hear pounded as he gingerly took the ribbon from her palmed as he examined it. From the looks of it, the ribbons is nothing more of an everyday ribbon and scientifically it has no evidence that a simple red thread could bind them...but then...

"Thank you..." he whispered "I'll treasure it forever.."

Allen slowly touches the age old ribbon. "I wonder..." he murmured "If I were to wore it and so do you...will our destinies be tied forever?..."


A young blonde hair woman slowly strolls outside at the garden as she watches the flowers slowly closing it and retire for the night. Kumarie, her pet polar bear, is sleeping at her room as usual and still asking about her name. By then, a pair of beautiful butterflies flew passed by her. Her hand extends towards the pair, hoping that they will land on her soft hands. A smile made its way on her face as they both land together.

"I wonder... If I can find the same love as you two did..." she murmured sadly "Who am I kidding?... I love him and...I'm so conflicted...I am supposed to be loyal to my family and now...I am falling towards the deep that I can't get out...it hurts..."

She can't love the man who've hurt her mother, the one who took her in when she was cast away. Was she being ungrateful? Her tutor once told her long ago that her heart may feel love but always think rationally. Don't jump off the cliff without checking it whether it was safe or not. Now, her heart screams for her to be free and love him but her mind argues that she should leave, run away and return to her mother. He is dangerous and rebellious. Her people are loyal to the British yet here she is with the enemy...

What she didn't notice during her reverie is that one of the butterfly flew at the window of the library leaving the other alone.

I'm scared of falling and making mistakes...


Love is such a complicated thing, no amount of intelligence nor pages of every single book would be able to explain it perfectly. It moves erratically, acts against the laid out formulas, countless of possibility that weighs more than the stars that decorates the night sky. Sometimes you can trust it to make you feel safe or shun it when it betrays you.

Allen wished he had a weapon to vent out his frustrations.

Why won't Madeline be his? Why?! Just why?... They were meant to be together weren't they? He gave her freedom didn't he? So why?...

"You are thinking too hard..."

His head snapped as he turned around to find the source of the voice, none.

"Show yourself!" he snarled.

The voice sigh just as Allen turned his head towards another direction. In front of him was a transparent figure of a child. Its face was blank and he can't tell what he even looks like. The figure looked as him as it folded its arms.

"That wasn't very nice..." the figure huffed "I was just telling you the answer jeez..."

"Who and what are you!? How did you even come to my home undetected!?" he demanded.

The figure slowly transformed, color rose into his body as Allen's eyes widens. The boy in front of him looks exactly like him when he was a young boy except his hair was dirty blonde and his eyes were like the sky. The young boy grins when Allen nearly lose his balance.

"W-what are you? An illusion? A figment of my imagination?" Allen asked.

The boy happily answered "I'm Alfred, the other you." he then change into a sadder too "You've been too selfish lately, you ignore Maddie's feelings and you pretty much bit her dude. Why are you scaring her?"

"You don't know anything! Who do you think you are!? You are just a figment of my imagination!"

'Alfred' then smiled at him, it was no ordinary smile. The smile he use was cold, it chills every fiber of his spine as the boy merely chuckled "You can say that I am your conscience dude. Me don't know anything? Well why can't I Allen? I'm a part of you. The opposite you, the person that you should have been in another world.' he took a deep breathe "If you really love Maddie, then why do you keep on thinking that your methods are right and not asking on what she really feels? You are making her confuse and more prone to choose the safest path which is that old lady. Geez, if you love her, make her happy and quite hurting her!" he then disappear.

If you really love her, make her happy!

Allen slowly stared at his hands then at the spot where the boy disappeared. His mind buzzed as he slowly sank. What have he done? He let his inner monster take control. He then punched the wall behind. His rational thoughts returning, ever since Madeline rejected him, his mind was clouded with anger and hurt he had felt that day. All it took was a little cheeky brat to snap him out of it.

What have I done?...


Night fall as the stars twinkled like precious gems against the dark heavens. The moon glow as the orchestra of cicadas has started its grand performance. The once barren field is now filled with soft glows of fireflies, creating a picturesque landscape as if one would at a painting. Madeline carefully leaned from the balcony as she marveled the fireflies dance their song.

"So beautiful..." she whispered as one firefly land on top of her palm "Are you keeping me company little one?" she softly asked.

"...May I be the one to accompany you, Madeline?"

Her head whipped at the direction from which it came from. Allen slowly walked towards her, cautious in every step he take. The heart inside her chest beats rapidly as she could feel the need to flee. Her legs started to move when he grabbed her hand, pulling her slowly towards him. Their eyes met as her throat dries. For a while, she avoided him and now they are face to face.

His free hand shakily touched her right cheek as she keeps on staring at his red ruby eyes. Allen couldn't help but think that the person in front is an angel, so beautiful and so precious. Her purple amethyst eyes keeps on staring back at him, no words were able to escape from his nor her lips as none of them would be able to convey it to words.

"Madeline..." he whispered her name, breaking the silence "I miss you..."

Madeline slowly looked down as she heard his words. Why can't she make up her own mind? Why is everything so complicated?

"I'm sorry, I must have made things so difficult for you huh?.."

I bit her...

She looked up to him, regret shone in his eyes as he looked at her.

I was raised as a gentleman but didn't act like one...I turned out to be the most introverted, vegetarian, short- tempered young child with an intense dislike of heroes that use brute force instead of realistic approach and my eyes...scared them...

Why am I like this?...

"I scared you...I wasn't thinking about what you feel... I was supposed to be your knight but then like always, I can never be a hero. I'm a villain who always end up hurting you even when I try to be a prince for you-" his eyes widen as she kissed him. Their lips stayed on like this before parting ways, faces flushed from the kissed they'd had.

I'm sorry...

I'm so sorry...

I love you...

"I don't need a hero Allen...I just need my dark knight...the Allen who would protect me" she softly said as she held his face "N-no matter how many times you've hurt me...I have and will always love you and treasure you..." I...must have to make my own decisions from now on...Allen is still there..no, he was always there... I can't be afraid of him anymore...I love him...

His eyes widen at her words, she loves him as well? "Madeline...I-I'm sorry...I-how could you forgive, even love a monster like me? I-I can't control this inner beast inside me! My eyes are color of blood for crying out loud-!" he then felt a warm pair of lips on his. His arms snake around her small frame as she held his face in her hands.

"I love you Allen and you are no monster..." she said after their lips parted once again but she still held his face, their foreheads touching each other "Even if you did turn into one a few days ago, today you just come back, the Allen I love..." she saw his tears pouring down from his face. "I...I won't leave you Allen..." she said quietly.

Their lips meet again as the lingering taste of salt is between them,

I'm sorry mother...but I love him...