Hi! So sorry for not updating but I was on vacation in Italy! Anyway, here is the new Chapter. 3 to go ;). Tell me your opinions, I'd really like to hear them. Hope you have a great day! xx =)


"Don't go, Marty."

It's dark now but we're still standing on the beach and hugging each other. We don't talk, the only thing we hear are the cars on the streets and music from a bar.

I can't keep doing this. We both need time and it will only hurt more if we keep lying in each other's arms.

"I have to, Kens."

"No." Kensi says with an unsteady voice while pressing her body closer into mine. "Stay here. We talk right now."

One hand on her back finds its way to her shoulder to bring some distance between us. She wouldn't let go of me but I managed it after some time.

"We need some time apart to think about what we want. If I would stay here everything would go back to normal and I can't do this anymore."

"Deeks, I know what I want and that's you."

"Kensi, no, you don't know. You're just reacting this way because you are confused and thinks you're about to lose me. You're not that person. Let me say something straight out: YOU are not going to lose me or what we have; we just have to take a pause from each other. Which is kind of funny because we're not even together but anyway I know what I feel about you and that will never, ever change but your and Sam's way to show me you tolerate you keeps hurting me."

"Deeks, I'm an adult and I know what my feelings mean. I... You... we... Why do you say I'm only tolerating you? That's wrong. When we were together I show you what you mean to me."

"I know you do but something is holding you back to show the same when we are in public or with the team."

She can't say it's not true, so she just nods. At the moment there are no tears on her face anymore and she lets go of me for the moment. Still, one hand keeps clinging on my shirt, like I would suddenly disappear if she breaks every contact with me.

Kensi looks away from me to the ocean, which is quiet now because no one, except a few couples who are there.

Funny, it's like someone planned that. I should ask her if we can to the talk somewhere else, because I'm sure she wouldn't let me go without finishing.

As if Kensi's stomach heard the words, it made a noise, which screams for something eatable.

I chuckle and she looks at me with a shy impression. "Hungry, Fern?" I ask while trying not to smirk too much. "We are both hungry and it's colder by now, besides you can't change my decision."

She wants to say something but keeps her mouth shut. She understands what I want to do.

"We need some normality after this day so let's go get something to eat and let's enjoy these few hours left together. Ok, Sugarbear?" I said smiling down at her.

She nods but hugs me again. "I really don't want you to go."

"Me too but it's something we all need, the whole team. So, what do you wanna eat, Kiki? Some vegetables?" Laughs from both of us came in the end.

"You bet, Shaggy." Kens said with a smirk on her face while letting go of me.


We keep walking for a while, the water right beside us. Being me I just had to throw her into the ocean to break the tension between us.

"Watch out, Fern."

She looks confused. "Why?"

"Run away." I said trying to keep my lips in a firm line.

"Why should I r-AHH, Deeks, don't you dare." She yells hitting me on my back when I started to run deeper into the ocean.

"Fern, Fern, Fern, you know I always dare." With that said I throw her away into the water, the cold water, by now.

"Ahh, you're gonna get hurt, Shaggy. Better be prepared." She said laughing when she came back to the surface.

"Well, then I'll just run away. Now."

She runs after me and hits me as she got me but we were both laughing so the punch wasn't that hard.

It's good to laugh again. Even after something like this we can be the same when we are together without the team. Always teasing and we keep doing stupid things to each other.

"Come on, I'm hungry."

"Big baby. Look at me; I'm wet, cold and hungry like a bear."

"You can change at home after the dinner but for now come here." I said and opened my left arm. She happily hugged me half side and held my hand on her shoulder loosely in hers.


"28.11 $, please."

I handed the man the money and got food as an exchange.

"I still can't believe your girlfriends eats much more than you. Is she pregnant or something?" the man on the counter asks.

"She eats so much on a daily basis so not pregnant and you can't call her my girlfriend either."

"Oh... I'm sorry man. I just thought... but you and her were holding hands so I just assumed that you two are… you know together."

"Don't worry. It's complicated and I'm a little bit confused as well but I can say we are not together."

The man laughed. "Not yet mister, not yet."

"Yeah, not yet. Thanks." I said and started to go back to Kensi but stopped and turned away. "Oh and hey, I'm not that old to be called mister." I said laughing.

"Sorry again man." The man laughed also at my answer.

"What took you so long?" Kensi asks as I came back out and grabbed her food.

Better to lie than bring the subject back up.

"I just had a little nice chat with the guy on the counter. He's a surfer too."

"Is it just me or is every man a surfer here."

"Definitely you. I mean my neighbor can't surf."

"That's one guy, Deeks. You know a second one?" Uhhh, hard one.

"Touché." I said laughing.

"Touché." Kensi said giving me a smirk in return to mine.

"I explained you when you can't say it and I'm not starting again." My smile grew wider as I saw her laughing.

"I know. Just messing with you, Shaggy."

We finished our food and throw it away. "Where to now?"

"Want to watch a movie? There's this film festival 20 minutes from here. Let me just change real quick, I've got my go-bag in the car so we could carpool maybe?"

"Sure thing, Fern. I love movies. Let's go" I said smiling.


We got out of the car and made our way to the entrance.

"You got the blanket? I don't want to sit in dirt."

"Yes, mum, everything's here." She said smiling at me with a soft impression and thanking me with that look that we can still do this.
I just smiled in return and throw my arm over her shoulder.

We found a place in front of a tree and lay the blanket down. I placed myself in the middle of the blanket and placed my back on the tree.
I looked at Kensi, who looked unsure about what to do. She's insecure and thinks I don't want to repeat the act we did on the beach nights ago.
Silly girl.

"Solve a task for me, please?"

"What is it?" she asks still standing.

"When someone sits in the middle of a blanket and you don't have place right or left from that person anymore and that person leans his back on a tree to sit steady and has a girl, who means a lot to that man, with him, what do you think where would that man wants the girl to sit?"

She thinks about it for a moment and then looks at me with wide eyes. "But I thought-"

"You're wrong Kens. My decision doesn't mean we have to stop doing this. God, it'd be so hard to stop it. It just means we have to think about that and other things. Now, come on. The movie is starting."

"But… I don't want to-"

"Hey, Kens, I said its ok." I said smiling and she finally sat down in front of me.

I pulled her to me and hugged her from behind and put my hand on her stomach. She lays her head on my shoulder and entwines her fingers with mine. "I'm going to miss this." she said.

"Me too, Kens." I said sadly.

I felt her move but didn't know what she wanted to do until I felt her lips on my cheek. She stays there a long time and it feels really good.

"Thank you." Kensi said as she laid her head back on my shoulder to watch the movie.

I smile down at her but she doesn't sees it and kiss her temple softly. "You're welcome, Fern."

After the movie ended we drove back to the beach and I parked my car next to hers.

"I had a great time there. We should do that again." Kensi said as we leaned onto our cars.

"I did too. We see what we'll do the next time." I said and waved at her.

We stood there for 5 minutes without saying a word to each other and I was about to say goodbye when she spoke again.

"Can you do something for me before we have to say good-bye?"

"What is it, Fern?" I said smiling but curious about she can asks for.

"Can you... I just need something to remember and as a promise, so... I can't let you go without... I-"

"Kens, stop rambling."

"Can you k-kiss me, Marty? I can't g-"

These words surprised me but they only mean she kind of know what she wants and I want to make sure she knows I won't go anywhere so I do what is hopefully the right thing.

"You don't have to repeat what you said Kens. We both need something to hold on to.

With these words said I began to walk over to Kensi, who also has stood up. I lay both my hands on her cheeks and pulled her up to meet my halfway. My lips softly met hers in an even softer kiss that neither of us thought about.

We pulled apart after a few moments but Kensi hadn't enough so she tried to kiss me again.

"No, Kensi. One kiss, no more. I told you something this afternoon, don't forget that." I said a little angry. "That kiss was a promise and not the sign that I suddenly will stay. Don't make it even harder."

Kensi nodded. "I'm sorry. But it's hard for me, too. You gonna call, right? I need to know that you are ok."

I hadn't thought about that until now. "I don't know Kens. I honestly don't know."

"Ok. Than send a message at least every now and then. Say yes or I'll hurt you." She said with a little smile.

"Uh, bossy Kensi. I like it." I said smirking. "I can do that."

Time to say goodbye. I pulled Kensi back into in my arms and hug her. "I'm going to miss you but we will see each other again. Maybe sooner than later." I said kissing her hair and pulling away afterwards.

"Me too. I hope so." she said and I saw a few little tears.

I opened the door of my car and sat down. I smiled at her one last time. "Bye, Partner."

"Bye, Shaggy." she said.