How could I grasp this? This is way too much for my mind to wrap around. I must be dreaming, yes dreaming. Bill could not be in front of me, he didn't say he loved me. If this were real then what would I say? Of course almost every girl in the world would say yes if their idol asked them out, but I couldn't let my friend down or the world down with it. Even if it meant having a horrible life, I couldn't stand seeing everyone else around me hurting.

"You love me?" I asked, still slightly confused if I was awake or in a lovely dream.

"Yes Katie, more than anything." He looked at me with his gorgeous chocolate brown eyes and his heavenly smile. I loved this boy so much and he was offering everything to me. I couldn't let him down, not after all he did. He came here for me and I had to reject him. I knew he believed in love at first sight and I knew he would always keep fighting for the girl he wanted. Nothing will ever go the way I had wanted it to. Life is not a fairytale; the bad things keep coming back to haunt you when you think everything is going great.

"I- I don't know if I'm ready... I need some time." I stuttered.

"I want to apologize to you Katie. I know I left you back when we were kids and I never told you I would be leaving to Germany… I just didn't want to see you hurt. But I guess you probably are now…"

"It's fine Bill. We were just kids at the time." I smiled and looked at him. He really didn't look like the Billy I knew. He took my hand and stood up. "Let's get you back to class."

"Uh... yeah." I followed behind his footsteps and sat back in my desk. I looked at Tom and saw him smirking, which made my face even redder than it was before all this.

"You okay Caitlin?" Mia asked me.

"JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yelled to everyone in the class. I knew this day was just set up for worse things to happen. Mr. Gretch stood up from his desk.

"Okay class. Tokio Hotel is going to perform in the gym, so let's head down."

I started walking towards the gym and fled the room as fast as I could. Bill just had to catch up with me. "You okay Katie?"

"I just have a lot on my mind. I need sometime alone if that's okay." I sighed. He left my side and I sat on the bleachers. Mia sat next to me and sighed. "What happened? AND don't get mad this time!"

"I can't say… I just need to think okay?"

"Whatever…" she laid her back up against the wall. Bill was standing at the microphone getting ready to sing.

"Hallo. Uh, were going to sing Durch Den Monsun. I hope you like it." He said with his heavy German accent.

Das Fernster öffnet sich nicht mehr
Hier drin ist's voll von dir und mehr
Und vor mir geht die letzte Kerze aus
Ich warte schon ne Ewigkeit
Endlich ist es jetzt so weit
und draußen ziehn die schwarzen Wolken auf

Ich muss durch den Monsun
Hinter die Welt
Ans Ende der Zeit
Bis kein Regen mehr fällt
Gegen den Sturm
Am Abgrund entlang
Und wenn ich nichtmehr kann
Denke ich daran
Irgendwann laufen wir zusammen
Durch den Monsun
Ein halber Mond versinkt vor mir
War der eben noch bei dir ?
Und hält er wirklich was er mir verspricht ?
Ich weiß, dass ich dich finden kann
hör deinen Namen im Orkan
Ich glaub noch mehr dran glauben kann ich nicht

Ich muss durch den Monsun
Hinter die Welt
Ans Ende der Zeit
Bis kein Regen mehr fällt
Gegen den Sturm
Am Abgrund entlang
Und wenn ich nichtmehr kann
Denke ich daran
Irgendwann laufen wir zusammen
Weil uns einfach nichts mehr halten kann
Durch den Monsun
Hey...
Hey...
Ich kämpf mich durch die Mächte
Hinter dieser Tür
Werde sie besiegen und dann
Führ'n sie mich zu dir
Dann wird alles gut
Dann wird alles gut
Alles gut

He ended the song smoothly. Every word he sang made me want to fall into his arms and say that I loved him. Something was holding me back. I knew I was nervous but that wasn't it. It was something more, something deep inside of me that I couldn't let out. I slouched against the wall and sighed. I had to much on my mind.