I wish I owned the characters in this story, but unfortunately I don't :(
The ride home was the most uncomfortable, longest awkwardest car ride I had ever been in. "I know you hate me." There was no way I was going to talk to him. He tried to get me pregnant, what sort of a person does that? "I'll stay at my dad's tonight, don't worry." He tried to grab my hand but I jerked it away from his unusually cold touch. Once we got home I ran straight inside and hopped in the shower hoping this would calm me down. After 20 minutes of pruning under hot water I decided it was time to go out and face the music. I walked over to the couch and turned off the old television and angled my body towards Jake. He immediately looked at me with the saddest eyes I have ever seen. I knew this was going to be difficult but I never figured it would be this hard. I'd talked to him a million times, but I had never been so upset, so disappointed in him.
"Jake... I can't believe you'd do something so completely stupid, so completely irresponsible. I honestly thought you were smarter than that. You have just dragged both of our lives in another direction because of some teenage jealousy crap." Jacob looked up at me with a tear streaking down his face, I never thought I'd see him so fragile.
"You're completely right Bella, I fucked up big time. I let Edward get between us. I feel like a complete idiot and I don't blame you if you hate me, but I will always love you regardless. I'm going to go stay with my dad for the night to let you cool down." I nodded not trusting my voice. Jake got up, kissed my head, and walked out of the house. I flicked through the channels absentmindedly but nothing took my appeal so I decided I'd do a big clean up of the house. Once that was finished I took another shower and realised there was no way in hell I could stay here alone. This was our house. I couldn't think of anywhere to go. But I remembered my short conversation with Alice. I was supposedly welcome there... I wanted to go there, I couldn't keep lying to myself. I grabbed my over night bag, my pyjama's, a spare change of clothes and my toiletries. I ran out of the house as soon as I could and got back on the path to Forks.
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It felt like just yesterday that I drove up this familiar driveway to this amazing house. When I stopped my truck out the front of the house I couldn't find the strength to get out. I just sat there like an idiot staring. I didn't even notice what I was doing until Alice came out with a confused but happy look on her face. She ran up to my door in lightening speed, opening it for me. "Hey Alice." I wasn't even putting on the next smile, I was genuinely happy to be back here, to see Alice, and to know that I was a few short meters from the rest of my other family.
"I know I said you where welcome, but I thought it'd take you longer than this for you to turn around, I mean seriously you're the stubbornest person I have ever met." She smiled at me her little girl smile. I wasn't going to tell her that I just came for a visit, because I didn't.
"Alice, can I stay the night? Jake and I had a fight and I was just wondering if I could stay with you until things sort of blow over?" I felt so bad putting pressure on this like her. Alice looked at me with a worrying smile. "I'll let you give me a make-over?" I knew I was going to regret that last sentence
"YES! YES! You can stay!" Alice squealed. I pretty much had to cover my ears. "oops, sorry. Come inside, Esme will be happy to see you." I quickly grabbed my bag out of my old truck and followed Alice inside. Even though I knew this house inside out, it still felt weird to be walking in here again. Like it was my first time here. Alice turned to me "You look nervous. Oh! And you're hair is much longer now goodie!" of course Alice would always find the bright side.
"I was actually considering cutting it into a dyke haircut." Alice's mouth fell open. "I'm kidding."
"Good, you shall never do such a reckless thing."
"It's just hair Alice."
"Just hair? Oh please Bella you obviously don't know me very well. I like to work with long hair."
"I do, but I just like teasing you." I said with a grin on my face. Even though I hadn't hung out with Alice in almost 3 years it felt like old times again. It was really making me happy.
"No way!" This next voice put a huge smile on my face.
"Emmett!" I ran up to him and jumped into his arms hugging him as hard as I could.
"It's so good to see you again Bella. I missed you." This made me so happy to hear him say that.
"Oh my god, I missed you too!" Me and Emmett kept hugging for at least 30 seconds until a cough interrupted us. Emmett dropped me quickly and steadied me as I almost fell over. "Hey Rosalie."
"It's good to see you again Bella." Good to see me again? Was this really Rosalie? Before I knew it she approached me and gave me a sweet hug, I quickly returned it and blushed a little. Me and Rosalie had never got along. It was really nice to know she had sort of turned a blind eye to our past. "Esme is out buying some food and Carlisle is still at work, they will be home soon."
"Food?"
"Alice saw you coming, never forget her uncanny and annoying ability." Rosalie laughed. And so did I.
"Hello Bella." Jasper smiled at me and came up to give me a hug, which if he did three years ago he would've bitten my head off or something. "you're scared of me? I don't blame you." Jasper started looking down.
"No I'm not afraid of you Jas I'm just surprised." I tried to smile at him but he wasn't really looking at me.
"Bella can I please have a word with you?"
"Sure Jasper" I had a strange feeling I knew what this was going to be about. I would try and do anything to avoid this conversation. Jasper led me into the next room and sat with me on a sofa.
"I blame myself for everything that happened." I went to interrupt but he held out his hand to stop me. "Let me finish, I know what you're going to say. But technically it was my fault, and if I had better self-control back then you and Edward would still be together, you might already have been one of us if it wasn't for me. I hope you can forgive me for what I did." I felt so bad that he felt this way, I grabbed both his hands and waited until he looked up at me.
"I do not blame you for anything between me and... him. It's not your fault, but if it makes you feel better, I most definitely forgive you."
"You can't even say his name without it hurting you."
"Again not your fault, it's his. What he chose to do."
"Thank you Bella, that means a lot to me." Jasper stood up and gave me a long hug and I returned it with a kiss on the cheek. Jasper suddenly became still. I stepped back quickly.
"So sorry." Jasper looked up at me and smiled.
"I've been practising." he smiled triumphantly. We then joined the others back in the large lounge room. This time Edward was standing there smiling at me. I felt so angry when I saw him and I had no idea why. Suddenly a wash of calm spread over me. I knew exactly what Jasper was doing and I sort of felt grateful that me being calm could actually let me and Edward talk rationally. He walked past me grabbing my wrist and gently pulling me along. I felt so nervous I had no idea what was about to happen.
