Everyone stood there, frozen, as if the whole world had just stopped. Rollins was dead; Benson was in critical condition, what next? None of them could believe it, partly because none of them wanted to believe it.
"Wh-wha-wha-what?" Those were the only words Fin was able to form. Why Amanda? She was so loving and caring… She never hurt anybody. All he wanted to do was hold her. He had fallen in love with her. Everyone could see it. What's going to happen to him now?
"Where's Olivia Benson?" Elliot was able to form a full sentence, to his surprise. He was still in total shock after hearing that one of his friends had been killed. They were going to find the guy who did this and make him wish he was dead.
"She's in surgery. She lost a lot of blood and has severe burns to her face. We don't know the extent of the burns yet but from what we can see, she should make a full recovery if she makes it through the surgery." The doctor replied, trying to find the best choice of words.
"What do you mean, if?" Everyone heard Cragen yell out, his voice made up of worry and anger.
"What are the odds that she will make it?" Fin said, trying hard not to cry, afraid that he was going to lose his other friend.
"Well as of right now she has about a 30% chance, she had severe internal contusions. Most of them, life threatening." The doctor said. He had known Olivia personally. Every time there was a rape victim she was always the first one there, comforting the victims. He was afraid as well. Olivia was a good person, friend, and detective. Why did this have to happen to her?
*In the operating room*
"Scalpel." one of the doctors said as motioning to one of the nurses that had scrubbed in with him.
"Okay so we're going to make an inci-" His voice was cut off by a loud, frequent beeping.
"She's crashing, go go go!" He motioned to one of the nurses to get the crash cart they had set aside, just in case. "Her heart rates slowing!" One of the nurses screamed out, afraid. She knew detective Benson personally as well. She was afraid for her friend.
*Back in the waiting room*
All sorts of things were going through Elliot's mind; what's going on in there? Why is it taking so long? It's taking longer than the doctor said, is that good or bad? I love her, I don't know what I would do if I lost her. I couldn't bare it…
"What do you thinks going on in there?" He heard fin say, everyone could tell he was still fighting tears. He had never seen any of his team mates like that before. Was this going to bring them closer or tear them apart more? He was still angry with Elliot, the whole squad was. How could he do that to Liv? He knew she forgave him, but it was going to take a lot more than an apology for everyone else.
Elliot couldn't stop thinking about Rollins. He felt awful that she died mad at him. He never got a chance to apologize. He felt guilty. What if Rollins head wasn't in the game because of mad she was at him? What if Olivia was thinking too much about everything, and that's why this happened. He couldn't help but blame himself.
Everyone saw how upset Elliot was, and they felt bad because no one was sitting, all of them still angry with him. That's when Fin got up and went to talk to Eliot, try to get both their minds off of this.
"Hey buddy, how you holding up?" Elliot heard fin say as he slowly fell back into the chair next to him.
"Trying to be strong, I can't though. Rollins was my friend and I'm in love with Liv, I don't know what I'm going to do if I lose both of them." Elliot said, fighting the tears. They started coming down his face anyway.
"I know how you feel. I can't even bear the thought… Hey, I know I said some pretty nasty things to you. I'm sorry for that, it's just Liv's like a sister to me and I would do anything to protect her, yah know?" Fin said as he looked at the ground, trying not to make eye contact at Elliot.
"I know, and I screwed up big time. I want to make it up to Liv, I just don't know how. She said she forgave me, she just doesn't trust me. 12 years and I threw it all away. How stupid can I be?!"
"She's hurt. She will trust you again eventually. She loves you, Stabler. You're her best friend. She was devastated when you left. Just give it time." Fin said, trying to reassure Elliot.
"I don't know if I have time. You heard the doctor. She only has a 30% chance making it out of this surgery. What if she doesn't make it?" Elliot said this as he was wiping his tears.
"Hey, you know Liv. She is one of the strongest members of the squad. She'll pull through. Don't worry. She wouldn't leave you without a fight." Fin said, placing a hand on his friends shoulder. He tried to be convincing, but he wasn't sure she was going to make it either. That's when they saw the doctor coming down the hall. He had a weird look on his face, like he was sad.
They all stood up. Cragen said, "What is it?"
"I'm sorry…" The doctor started to say as he told them what had happened to their beloved friend. The tears started coming down, they couldn't control it. They didn't want to. She was gone too. Rollins and Benson were both gone.
**There will be more chapters so just hang tight. There is sort of like a MAJOR plot twist coming so just wait for the new update!**
