I don't own Junjou Romantica, Nakamura Shungiku does. I'm just her big fan…!! I do own this story though… ^^;
Please review after read!! I hope my English is improving in this story…
I've… never voice this aloud before… But, if I were to be the most important person in his life, I wonder just how happy I would be…
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Beep beep beep beep
"Uh, stupid alarm clock…"
Kamijyo Hiroki woke up from his bed, rubbed his eyes lazily while yawning, and turned off the alarm. He got up from the bed after a few stretching and walked to drink. Professor Miyagi would be very annoying if Hiroki was late (as if Miyagi was not annoying if he didn't late ^^;). He passed the calendar, accidentally see it, and his eyes widen. Then he stunned and became silent.
The date… is today…
Kamijyo's eyes saddened as tears built in the corner of his eyes. He sighed and wiped his tears, then he closed his eyes.
It's only a dream. Hiroki thought to himself. I must wake up.
Chapter 4. Typhoon
Akihiko's apartment, 07.00 AM
"… I can't believe it…" Misaki murmured with an unpleasant face.
"What is it?" Akihiko asked.
"Well…" Misaki was gazing to Akihiko's super luxury, neat apartment with its elegance in every place… He couldn't believe that this is the place he will live from now on. "I can't believe I'll end up live in this castl—I mean, that Usami-sensei's home, from now on…"
Yup, as you all already predicted. Takahiro went to Osaka for work, and Misaki ended up living with Akihiko, even though at first Misaki was thinking of loving on his own in an apartment. Misaki said Takahiro went to Osaka for work, and Akihiko wondered about the meaning of the work Misaki used. A normal business work, or…
An angel of life's work?
Akihiko blinked. "Well, isn't that easier for you? I told Takahiro you don't need to pay me. And M university is very close from here. You are the one who said that you will do all the house work for paying me."
Misaki still looked unsure. He stared at Akihiko with a confused, suspicious glance. "But…"
"And," Akihiko continued with a smug smirk in his face. "Isn't it easier for you to do your another work?"
Misaki's eyes widen and quickly glared at Akihiko. Akihiko grinned and stared back to the reaper boy.
Oh yes, another work as a reaper, as an angel of death. A work to kill him.
"So you do remember about it?" Misaki spoke. His face completely looked unpleasant and he had a cold tone in his voice. "Don't you afraid of me?"
There was no mock tone. Misaki said it with a serious face. Akihiko glanced at him, then replied, still with the smug face. "Why should I?"
"I am going to kill you," Misaki said, pressuring every word with a cold, harsh tone. "… but why did you act like there's nothing happened?"
Silence came as a reply.
"You should have known, if I live in your house means it will increase my chance to kill you." Misaki spoke again. "But why did you invite me here?"
"Why did you bother remind your prey?" Akihiko grinned. "You are a very kind reaper aren't you?"
"Don't mock me!!" Misaki yelled, and Akihiko was surprised, taken a back with this sudden outburst.
"You think I won't be able to kill you, right?!" Misaki snapped angrily. "Do you think I will keep afraid with you just because this is my first time?! Don't get me wrong!! I'm here to kill you!! And even though now I can't, but I will!! It's my job after all!"
Akihiko sighed annoyingly. "I don't think like that. I just invite you to live in my house so I can always be with you."
Misaki's eyes widen, then he blushed. Akihiko saw this change of expression and smiled while thinking how cute this naïve boy is.
Misaki averted his gaze, so Akihiko couldn't see his sad expression.
"Hey…"
"What is it?" Akihiko was amused with Misaki's behavior.
"At that time, why… did you kiss me?"
Misaki felt his face was burning hot even more with embarrassment while Akihiko was surprised and smiled at the same time. This boy, is so, so cute…
When there's no reply, Misaki quickly said again. "Fo-forget I said anything!!"
But then he felt two big hands pulled him from back into a warm embrace, made Miskai's face completely turned red scarlet and he was looked both surprised and embarrassed at the same time.
"It's because I love you." Akihiko whispered in Misaki's ear softly.
THUMP
Misaki's eyes widen and he gasped for breath. He could felt those hands gripped him even tighter and now it was not just his face alone, but all his entire body felt like burning because of the embarrassment. He could felt Akihiko's breath in his ear. He could feel entire Akihiko's body between their garments, in his back. Misaki shivered, he could feel… Oh God, he could feel…
So… so hot…
"Don't lying… I, I know it when humans are lying…" Misaki's voice felt trembled and weak.
"Then you know it that I'm not lying, right?" Akihiko whispered again in his ear. Misaki blushed.
"You… you're not…!!" Misaki said weakly and pushed Akihiko (it's kinda hard to release the grip if you're hugged from the back, but he did release from the hug^^;), made the older surprised. "You… you're in love with Nii-chan…"
Akihiko's eyes widen. His lavender violet eyes stared at Misaki's emerald green eyes. Those eyes… full with sadness, betrayal, unsure, and worry…
Akihiko sighed. Why those eyes showed up again?
"Why… didn't you afraid with me?" Misaki averted his gaze. "Why don't you afraid of death? I-I mean I know that there are a few people who could overcome their fear of dying, but they at least show some fear… That's natural for humans … But why you…"
Akihiko stared at Misaki confusedly. "I don't know. I just feel like may be dying is better than bearing the pain of jealousness and love all the time…"
Misaki stared back at Akihiko sadly. "Do you still desire death because of that, because Nii-chan won't return your feelings?"
"Not anymore," Akihiko smiled at him. "I no longer desire death, if there's a reason for me to die…"
Akihiko walked approached Misaki, while Misaki gulped and slowly took steps to back. But then Misaki's back reached the wall and Akihiko's hands caged him. Misaki's heart began to beat fast.
"I want it to be in your hands Misaki." Akihiko smirked against the trembled, blushed boy. "Kill me, let my blood leave my marks and essence in you. Dirty you with all my blood and all my essence."
Misaki flushed. "You sick pervert homo…!! Stop it already!! I must go to school now!!"
Misaki pushed Akihiko again quickly grabbed his bag and ran away from the luxury house. Akihiko sighed again while watching Misaki go, as he remembered their first kiss in that snowy night street.
***Flashback***
"You stopped crying."
Akihiko slowly broke the kiss and grinned against the boy. His hands cupped Misaki's red blushed face. Misaki's eyes still widen in shock, while his mouth still opened a little due to the kiss. Akihiko licked his wet lips, but then Misaki pushed him. Akihiko stared at Misaki's hurt face and his eyes widen in shock.
"We… we must go home now…"
Misaki turned his head and slowly walked to his home. Sighing sadly, Akihiko followed him.
***End of flashback***
Akihiko sat in the couch and stared at Suzuki-san. He bumped himself to the bear and began to light his smoke. He wondered why Misaki's face looked so sad. Why?
Actually, deep down Akihiko already knew that Misaki may hate him. He had been teasing him since they met. And actually Akihiko himself didn't really like Misaki at the first time they met. He kept compare him to Takahiro, and Akihiko had loved Takahiro for many years. That kind of love usually won't fade away that easily. But now, after Takahiro dumped him, suddenly he confessed to Misaki. Who wouldn't have though Misaki was being used for replacement? Misaki must be thinking he was being used as a replacement, that's why Misaki became to hate him and avoided him. And it's not just that, Misaki was sent to kill him in the first place.
But even so, Akihiko sat up while hugged Suzuki-san. This feeling is true. I have truly fallen for him, I have already become his prey from the start.
And I want him…
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Mitsuhashi university, 10.00 AM
"It's weird, huh?" Keiichi Sumi, Misaki's classmate who sat beside him said. "Kamijyo the devil is very strict and passionate about literature, but now he's late and has not showed up…"
"Yeah…" Misaki replied. His mind was registered to somewhere else. He was thinking about what just Akihiko said…
It's because I love you.
Misaki blushed in a sec and quickly hide his face with his arms, but then his eyes saddened.
Suddenly the door opened and Hiroki came to the class. Most of the class was surprised in shock as they all saw Hiroki's sad, dead eyes. Hiroki put his books on the teacher's table and apologizing.
"Sorry, I'm late. I woke up late this morning," Hiroki voice was very weak.
All of the students, including Misaki, gawked. He WOKE UP LATE???? The demon is APOLOGIZING???
And the weirdness didn't stop there. The student were shocked to see Hiroki didn't pelt a student who was sleeping in the class with chalks (it appeared to be Sumi who was sleeping ^^;) instead he asked, (Yep, ASKED) Misaki to wake him up. Misaki was stunned for few seconds until he realized that he must wake his friend up.
What's wrong with him?! For the heaven sake, is human's world going to the end?!
Misaki was certain about that and paled when he saw that devil smiled, even though it was a very sad smile and no one saw it except Misaki.
The world is going to the end…
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Akihiko's apartment, 03.00 PM
Akihiko had decided it. He is going to talk with Misaki about his feelings. Akihiko won't let the misunderstanding got Misaki wrong and hate him even more. Then he heard the door was being opened.
He's here.
"Oi, Misa—"
"THE WORLD IS GOING TO END!!!" Misaki's sudden burst made Akihiko blinked and confused.
"…what?"
"THE WORLD!!" Misaki looked mad here, Akihiko didn't understand at all what's wrong with this teen. "Kamijyo-sensei didn't pelt chalks at all just now!! He didn't yell, didn't get angry when there's a sleeping student in his class!! HE EVEN SMILED!! THE WORLD'S END MUST BE NEAR!!"
"Uh, wait for a sec, Misaki…" Akihiko was trying to keep himself stay calm. He didn't know what's wrong nor he know what's got into this weird reaper brat, but when Misaki said something about 'Kamijyo', then he must be talking about Hiroki… wait, what?
"What did you just say??" Akihiko said with widen shock eyes.
"I said, Kamijyo the devil didn't pelt chalks at all, he didn't yell, didn't get angry when there's a sleeping student in his class, he even smiled…"
Okay, The Hiroki Akihiko had always been know would never smile to his students, so there must be something wrong with his childhood friend. Now that he thought about it, Hiroki was weird lately. The last words he said to Akihiko were something about 'It's only a dream' and Akihiko didn't get anything from that at all. They were rarely talking to each other too for these past months.
"Misaki, stay home. I need to do something." Akihiko quickly grabbed his jacket and cell phone, then went out leaving Misaki blinked confusedly in his landlord's apartment.
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"Hiroki, where are you?!" Akihiko put his cell on his ear while driving his red sport car to Hiroki's apartment. "Can we meet now? We need to talk."
"What is it Akihiko, if it's your newest manuscript, could it wait? Please not today, I want to be alone for now…"
"No, that's definitely why we must meet." Akihiko snapped. "You've been weird lately and we're not seeing each other for months. I'm worried about you."
"I see… Sorry, but please, Akihiko—"
"Forget it." Akihiko stopped his car while blinked, couldn't believe the coincidence he saw. "I saw you sitting in the park. I'm going to there."
Hiroki's eyes widen in surprise as he saw Akihiko parked his car across the park where he sat now. Hiroki averted his gaze when Akihiko approached him and Akihiko saw his sad eyes.
Akihiko took a seat beside him and stared at him with a serious face. "Look, Hiroki…"
"Akihiko, please… today is my private time." Hiroki snapped, but his voice was trembled. "Could you just go…"
"Listen Hiroki," Akihiko sighed. "I don't know what's wrong with you. We haven't meet for months. I'm your friend and I'm worried. You act really weird the last time we met when we were talking about your love life…"
Akihiko cut himself as he remembered and realized something. Hiroki's love life… Unrequited love…
Hiroki's love problem actually same with Akihiko was. Hiroki must be understands the feeling and the pain of unrequited love just the same as Akihiko does if what Akihiko was thinking is true. Hiroki stayed in silence as Akihiko stared at him with a worry face.
"Are you… still in love with that person who would never return your love?"
"No…It's not that…" Hiroki smiled sadly. He sighed afterwards. "I think I made you worry so much. Sorry Akihiko, I will tell you everything, do you mind?"
Akihiko blinked. So there is something…
"Yes, of course." Akihiko quickly replied. "Tell me what's bothering you."
Hiroki smiled, still with that sad smile. "Well, about him, my unrequited love… I was really broken after I realized that he would never return my feelings…"
Akihiko felt Hiroki glanced at him for a sec, but Hiroki continued.
"I loved him so much, yet he love another person… after that, I was crying in here, the same exact place, a few years ago."
"A few years ago? That's long time ago…" Akihiko's eyes widen.
"I'm not finished," Hiroki glared at him. "The problem is not my unrequited love."
Akihiko blinked. "It's not?"
"No," Hiroki's face saddened again. "It's a typhoon."
Akihiko stared at his childhood friend confusedly while Hiroki closed his eyes.
It all happened six years ago…
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Kamijyo Hiroki, 22 years old, just had his first love broken by his own childhood friend, who none than other is Usami Akihiko. He may look strict and easy to angry, but he had a very vulnerable heart inside. Sitting in the park alone, Hiroki was trying to forget about his first love, who he loved very much for years. His childhood friend. His very first love.
The voices of children playing surrounded him couldn't be heard by Hiroki. Hiroki was drowned, by the pain and sadness in his heart, couldn't bring himself to the world around him. He just kept his heart locked from falling in love again and stayed in his own dark world.
I was the one who seduced him.
***Flashback***
"A blindfold is all you need." Hiroki said in the bed with Akihiko, who still looked unsure in front of him.
"It will be just like your beloved Takahiro were here, in your arms…" Hiroki smiled again while covered Akihiko's eyes with the blindfold, before he kissed Akihiko.
That was… a completely my own naïve feelings.
"Kuh… Ahhh…"
Hiroki could feel Akihiko inside him. He could feel him. He could feel Akihiko's cold hands sweeping his hands. He could feel everything…
Your cool hands felt so good on my skin…
Hiroki smiled both from pleasure and happiness. Will it reach him? By this, will his feelings reach to Akihiko? Hiroki had too much pride to say how much he loved Akihiko, little did he know the way he showed Akihiko his love, was the wrong, harsh one.
"…ro… Hiro…kkh!!"
Akihiko thrust Hiroki a few times, treated him lovingly with his eyes blinded by the blindfold. Hiroki could feel their sweats became one and his cool fingers touched his skin, touched and cupped his face. Oh how much Hiroki wanted this person to call his name, to feel his love…
"Ahh, ahh… Aki… ahh!"
I love you… Hiroki's eyes sparkled with hope. I love you so much…
Akihiko's head rolled back and gripped Hiroki's face tighter before he came and said that name…
"Ta… Takahiro…"
And that's it. The pain could not be avoided. The mistake could not be repaired. The damage was done for both of them in the silence and pants. Akihiko was punished by the pain for using another person as his love. Hiroki was punished by the pain for using the chance of Akihiko's unrequited love to take him.
All that's left is my memory of his touch…
Hiroki realized it not so long that Akihiko would never return his feelings. He completely saw Hiroki as Takahiro, and he felt sorry for Hiroki too. Both of them just wounded their selves by even more hurt and regret. But everything was too late.
My love will never be returned.
***End of flashback***
Hiroki smiled to himself bitterly. He just sat there, gripped his pants, while tears built in the corner of his eyes. Such a naivete… even with all the prides he had…
I thought that my feelings would get through to him if we had sex. Hiroki thought bitterly, but then again, with everything he had done, Akihiko still didn't looked back at him. His love was dead. Tears began to fall from his face and broken heart. He thought that he must forget about his love, about Akihiko, and promised to himself that he would never, ever fall in love again…
That was, until certain rocket bottle came from the sky and crashed in front of Hiroki, made Hiroki shouted because of the surprise, and then someone came.
Everything just was, until that very tall boy, with a very warm aura, came and saw Hiroki's tearful eyes.
Hiroki realized, that he was crying in front of that tall boy sight. He quickly wiped his tears, but that boy grabbed Hiroki's hand, and without even bothering Hiroki's confused protest, to a group of drinking old man.
"Nice to meet you, I'm Kusama Nowaki."
Hiroki hadn't realize it that time, even after he knew that Nowaki's hand similar with Akihiko's hand, and after he felt that Nowaki's hand is very warm, unlike Akihiko's cold hand, that he will unlock his heart, allowing Nowaki to came inside and replacing all the pain and hurt memories. As the times they share together flowed, and so Hiroki's heart changed…
"Hiro-san, I love you."
"W-what…" Hiroki's eyes widen by the sudden confession. He felt his heart thumping harder than usually it does.
"I asked you to be a tutor, because I fell in love with you at first sight."
"Love at first sight?" Hiroki was blushing very hard. "What are you… talking about…?"
"First time I saw you, you were crying, that was because of Usami-san, right?" Nowaki said again. "I don't know what happened, but I'd never do anything to make you cry."
Hiroki felt his face heating when Nowaki continued. "Your crying face attracted me deeply, but I want to see you're smiling."
"You… you're to direct…" Hiroki replied weakly. His face was already bright red.
"You don't like it this way?"
"No… I'm just not used to it…"
Hiroki felt his body was also heating as he felt two pair of hands embraced him from the back. He could feel Nowaki's bare chest from his back. He could die just because of the embarrassment and weird happiness that flowing in his beating heart.
"Then allow me to get you used to it."
Hiroki could feel Nowaki's breath in his ear. So hot…
"If you've always been the one loving, then from now on it's your turn to be loved by me."
That warm, lovingly voice, those sweet words… Hiroki shut his eyes tightly and tried to act calm, even though it failed because he couldn't control these weird feelings in his heart. Why?? Akihiko had been always the one I love…
Nowaki's hand moved to open Hiroki's shirt slightly, made the older man gasped and blushed.
And yet… now…
"I love you."
Hiroki's shut eyes now opened widely due to shock and embarrassment.
"I love you, Hiro-san." Nowaki said softly. "So please… fall in love with me too."
Hiroki couldn't deny his heart for much longer.
It's all your fault. Hiroki, despite of the embarrassment, slowly brought his hand to Nowaki's.
It's all because your hands are just so warm…
Nowaki moved both of them to the bed and continued his activity.
"Ahh…" The soft moan began to echo in the room.
Nowaki means 'typhoon'. Since when was I sucked in by it? Dizzied by you… dazed by you…
By the time I noticed, I was already falling.
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"So you found another love…" Akihiko said with widen eyes. He sure was surprised.
"Yeah, even though he's younger than me about 4 years, he much kinder and sweeter from the one I loved before too." Hiroki said coldly to him. Akihiko stared at him confusedly. Akihiko wondered why he feels a little annoyed.
"And for these past years you've been dating with him?"
"Yeah…" Hiroki replied. "But…"
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"Hiro-san, do you believe in angels?"
"Eh?" Hiroki stared at Nowaki confusedly when they were in Hiroki's house.
"I've always believe from I was a little that angels were exist to bring happiness!!" Nowaki smiled like a child. "How about you?"
"I don't believe in them of course." Hiroki answered quickly. "I mean, if they do exist, then why we couldn't see them? I can't believe you think something like that exists, that's why you're a brat."
Seeing Nowaki's hurt sad face, Hiroki quickly felt guilty in his face. Uhh that face again…
"Hey Nowaki…" Hiroki said embarrassingly, tried to give up to his prides.
"If… they do exist to bring happiness, then you are my…" Hiroki stopped dead as he felt his face burning hot and blushed.
There's no way I could say it!!! It's too sappy and embarrassing!!
"Yes?" Nowaki stared at Hiroki confusedly. Then embarrassingly Hiroki muttered.
"You are… my angel…"
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Akihiko's eyes widen as 'angels' term was brought up. He quickly think of Misaki and wondered what would Hiroki react if he knew that angels do exist. Not only to bring happiness, but also to kill you.
"What happened after that?" Akihiko asked.
"He hugged me like crazy and we had sex." Hiroki answered with a plain cold tone. "I was beginning to believe that angels were did exist until he suddenly went to America without bothering telling me!!"
Akihiko blinked. "America?"
"Yeah, he ended up going to a national medical university and went to America to study aboard." Hiroki said again. "At first I was angry with him, but later I remembered that I was the one who suggested it to him."
Akihiko stared at him with an 'I know it' glare and Hiroki flushed.
"Then why are you looked so sad?" Akihiko said again. "Is he ditched you or something?"
"No… but he should have come back to Japan at this date, last year."
Akihiko stared at Hiroki confusedly and He waited until finally Hiroki spoke with a sad face.
"The plane crashed. Everyone's died. Their bodies can't be recognized and some of their body lost."
Akihiko's eyes widen in shock as Hiroki spoke again with a bitter tone, tears built in the corner of his eyes and fell from his face.
"Nowaki is dead."
I've… never voice this aloud before… But, if I were to be the most important person in his life, I wonder just how happy I would be…
If only, if only I have courage to say it to him before he's gone…
But angels do not exist. It's all is just a dream, and I must wake up.
To be continued.
Sorry for Hiroki's flashback that looked exactly the same in the manga, but I promise the main story is very different with the manga. I must include some stories in the manga so the story would worked.
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