Hey people. So June's updates went a bit pear shaped and I can only really apologise for this and stick to my update plan for July and hope that there are no major hitches along the way. I do feel bad that I haven't updated in ages and to everyone that has been awaiting updates thank you for you patience and here is the long awaited update. Happy 4th of July to my readers in the US!
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LM xxxxx
The Two Truest Believers-Part 4:
Eva 5-years-old:
Emma stood and looked at Eva. She had brought her daughter some new clothes as it was her first day at primary school. They weren't expensive but they were new to Eva and that was all that mattered to Emma.
The two had been settled at the nursery but Emma had almost placed Eva into care. She had felt so low and lost, despite the support she was being given from her coworkers. It took a while and Eva being under the care of Melissa but Emma realised how far she'd come with Eva and she realised she didn't want to lose the one thing that kept her going.
Eva stood looking at her mother,
"Mummy what's wrong?" she asked her mother.
"Nothing darling. Mummy's just sad you're growing up," Emma replied, "now I'm taking you this week and then it'll be the yellow bus instead of the yellow Bug."
"But still yellow?" Eva asked. Emma nodded before lifting Eva into her hip and walked out to the car with her.
Eva was sat in the back of the Bug and Emma watched Eva. She was scared about how the day would go and whether Eva would be able to cope being away from her. If Emma was being honest it was her that was the more nervous out of the two. She wanted to protect Eva and felt like she'd be unable to do it now Eva was starting school.
She drove the long way round and watched as her daughter sang along to the radio. She couldn't help but wonder how Eva knew the songs when she hadn't heard them herself. She just listened to Eva singing and wondered if her daughter could stay that little and cute forever.
They arrived at the school and Eva suddenly fell silent. It all seemed so big and loud to her, there were kids running everywhere and the yellow school buses parked up.
"Right time to go Eva," Emma said before getting out and then going and getting Eva and her bag out and they headed inside to the principal's office.
Eva was looking around and taking everything in as the kids looked at her. She was a little in starting school and it was rather a last minute call to get Eva into school. Emma was trying to get to the office without letting onto Eva how nervous she really was.
They arrived and were shown into the Principal's office and sat down. Emma sat Eva on her lap so she could see over the desk.
"Welcome to the school, better late than never," Principal Collins smiled as she looked at the mother and daughter.
"Yes it was just something that was overlooked," Emma said, "it's been a hard year and I hadn't even thought about it." The principal nodded before looking,
"Well luckily we are only a few weeks into term and Eva will be given work to help her catch up but it is possible that she can catch up. Now my daughter is in Eva's class so I will take her along now if that's ok." Emma kissed and cuddled Eva before witching her leave with the Principal and then headed to the nursery.
The change in routine affected Emma and Eva greatly and they were struggling to adapt and get into a new routine. Emma was trying to remain strong for Eva but sometimes, at night, she found herself crying when Eva was asleep. It wasn't the fact that she regretted keeping Eva, it was she was finding it hard adjusting to the new routine. For some reason this was the hardest step to take.
"Emma I know you can do this," Melissa had said to her one morning.
"I can't. I don't even know why I kept her to be honest. They were mistakes, both of them," Emma said, "the plan was to give them both up and move on with my life."
"Yes but something inside you decided to keep Eva and you can't give up on her now," Melissa said, "not after how far you have come together." Emma sighed knowing Melissa was right,
"Why is everything so hard? I can't even figure out what I'm meant to be doing."
"Sounds to me like you've lost your way with Eva being at school now. I think it's time Miss Swan got herself a hobby as well as this job."
"Ok I'll look into it," Emma said, "I'm thinking about taking her away for a week when she gets on half term." Melissa nodded,
"That sounds like a good idea, might do you both the world of good too." Emma nodded and sipped her drink, clearly thinking.
Things were getting rocky for Emma and Eva and the mother was unsure about what the best thing to do was. She really didn't want to let Eva down or abandon her after everything they'd been through. The was a stubbornness inside her that wasn't going to give up easily. But would it be enough?
