I'm back! Thanks to all of you that waited! I'll tell you more at the bottom, for now, just read and I hope you enjoy!


This chapter contains lyrics to "Overtake you" by Red, "Watch you crawl" by Red, and "Die for you" by Red. I do not own anything, I just love the band

Leo's POV

Mikey was right.

Ever since Alex and I have gotten together, its all been making out. No talking. No getting to know each other. After that month she had her broken leg, we haven't really talked. The closest we've gotten is a "Hello how was your day?" All we do now is make out and spar. She talks more with Donatello then she does with me. I walked in on them talking once, I could see that they were both enjoying themselves. Her blue eyes were wide, thirsty for knowledge. I could tell Donatello was having the time of his life. He made it seem so effortless to have a conversation with her.

But it wasn't. Whenever I try to talk to her, it just turned awkward. She didn't seem to want to continue talking to me. Maybe I was boring to her. Maybe I just wasn't interesting anymore. Was she really the kind of girl that likes what she can't have? And then when she gets it she just looses interest?

I don't know know what to do. In cases like this, I would go to Master Splinter for advice. But I can't do that now. I went against his wishes, and the result of that is that I can't ask him for advice on this.

"I need some exercise,"

I got out of bed and headed for the dojo. It's 2 in the morning, I don't think any one is up.

"YEAH THERE ARE! OF WHAT YOU WON'T GIVE ME!" I heard Raphael yell. It sounded like a roar really.

God, I hope they make up soon. Raphael gets so irritable without her. I would hate to see him like that. But judging by the way things are, I find that its going to be hard for them to move past this one.

Donatello's lab is between my room and the dojo, so I HAD to pass by (and I really want to see what they're doing at this hour). As I passed by, I heard giggling.

"Don, stop! It tickles!" Alex gasped out. I didn't know she was ticklish. Add that to the list of things I don't know about her.

"Don't worry, I won't hurt you," Donatello whispered.

What are they doing in there? I get closer to the door. Through the crack I could see Donatello standing near his compute, Alex sitting on his examination table... in only her underwear.

"Are you sure about this?" Donatello asked her as he came in closer.

"Completely." She sounded so serious.

"If Leo finds out-" He started to warn.

"-He wont. I'll make sure of it. Plus, its not like we're doing anything wrong,"

Well it looked wrong to me. My girlfriend is in her underwear, sitting in front my brother. What am I supposed to think?

"If you're sure..." Donatello laid her down on the table. He garbed a chair and sat beside he, right next to her leg.

"Ready?" he asked, for what seemed like the last time.

"Just do it."

He started trailing his hand up towards her stomach-

I couldn't take it. I turned and ran; like a coward; into the dojo. My heart is racing, sweat running down my face. I'm shacking like crazy. My brother and my girlfriend are cheating on me. Master Splinter was right, I never should of trusted her. I garbed my mp3 from my belt and started doing my form.

"Breath. You're Leonardo. You can handle anything and everything. Breath..."

Alex's POV

"No turning back... Breath..."

As Don trailed his hand over my stomach, pin pointing where to cut me open, I couldn't help but think of last week. Before I came here, I knew I was sick. There was a grease ball like thing on the outside of my stomach. It was just there. The doctors said it didn't affect anything, but lately it had been hurting. Sometimes when Leo and I would spar, it would start to hurt. It felt like a regular cramp, but then it started throbbing, and I felt it expanding. So Don had taken an X-ray and seen that it was indeed expanding.

I hadn't told Leo any of this so I wouldn't worry him. It had seemed like a good idea at the time, but I felt the guilt eating me alive. It was like I was lying to him. I couldn't look him in the eye, much less talk to him. I hope he's not taking this the wrong way. But knowing him, he probably is.

"Okay, here we go," Don said as he stuck the needle filled with anastasia in my flesh.

"This is going to hurt..."

And then he started.

Leo's POV

*"Just carry on
Just prove me wrong
I know that I'm dying right now
And it seems that I'm so far gone
But not for long
I'll just be strong and keep knowing
That now I will overtake you"

I'm such an idiot. How is it that I ended up making out with a girl I hardly knew. And on top of that, I let her come between me and my Master, the most influential person in my life. I went against his wishes. A leader is a good follower. If I can't even do that, then maybe I shouldn't be leader.

I glanced at the clock. 4 a.m. and I wasn't even tired. I bet Alex isn't even in our room. She's probably still sucking face with my brother.

But seriously, how could I have not seen this coming? I mean they talk everyday. She always seems to spend more time with him then me. It's not fair. Why is it that every time I try to be "normal", I get burned. Well not anymore. She wants to play rough? She has no idea how rough I can be.

*"You put my back against the wall
Watching, waiting
You never thought I'd this far
Beneath your skin
I watched you swim with all your lies
That pulled you under
And as you wait for my demise
I'm just getting stronger

Learning who you really are
And nothing can save you

I will fight until-"

A hand touched my shoulder. I almost jumped out of my skin.

"You look troubled, my son. What's wrong?" Master Sensei asked from behind. He must of come in and I hadn't noticed. He really is the master and I the student. Or maybe I had my headphones on and wasn't paying attention.

"Nothing is wrong Master. Nothing you can help me with."

"It's about Alex, isn't it?"

I turned around and looked up. Master Splinter's eyes where kind and soft. I hadn't realized how long it had been since I had actually looked up to see them.

"Father...I...I'm..." I chocked on words. My vision began to blur. My knees began to buckle. I felt like I was 6 years old again. I felt broken.

Father seemed to understand this and pulled me into a hug. Yep, just like being 6 again. Once I felt those protective arms around me, I completely fell apart. It had been so long since I had hugged my father, I felt ashamed. Why didn't I do that anymore?

"It's okay to cry, my son. There is nothing to be ashamed of."

"You were right, feelings are overrated," I said through sobs.

"No, Leonardo. I was wrong."

That completely caught me of guard. Was my Master admitting to me he was WRONG? What?

"Since you have been with Alex, I have seen you at your natural state. I have seen you have fun, something that you rarely do. You have always had the ability to, but you feel so responsible for the well being of our family to allow yourself to have fun. You went against my wishes and made your own choice, like a good leader should. And I am so proud of you for doing that." Master said with all sincerity.

But I couldn't believe him.

"But I was wrong about her...s-she isn't who I thought she was. I-I should have listened. Falling for somebody can cloud your vision, blind you to the obvious. Its the worst thing that has ever happened-"

"No my son. This is were you are wrong. Having feelings for someone is one of the most beautiful thing that can happen to one in this life. It makes you see things from a different perspective."

"Then why does it hurt so much?"

"Because we don't always get those feelings back."

I stared at the wise old rat looking back at me. Its true. I was hurt because she treated my feelings like trash. Like it never mattered.

"Knock knock,"

There at the door way was Alex, looking tired as hell.

What am I going to do?

"Leo, can we talk?" she asked so innocently.

"I'll...be in my room," Master Splinter said as he left for the door.

Silence. As she moved closer, I found myself moving farther until I was against the wall. Once she herd the thud of my shell, her face broke out in a devilish grin. She practically jumped me. Her lips crashed on to mine. It was so familiar, I couldn't help wrap my arms around her. She pushed herself flush into me. I hugged her tighter. Her tongue forced my mouth hands wondered towards my bandana and started to untie it...

Uh-oh...

"Stop." It took all the will power I had to get her hands of me. She's a talented seductress, I'll give her that.

"What is it? Do you not want to..." her hands started to trail down my plastron.

"No...I just... First, I- I need you to tell me-"

"Tell you what?" she sounded nervous. Perfect. This way it will be so much easier to squeeze what I need out of her.

"You think I'm blind don't you? That I couldn't possibly see what was happening?"

"W-what are you talking about?" I could see fear in her eyes. She started to pull away from me. But this time I started walking towards her. The prey has become the predator.

"So are you going to tell me what's going on?"

"I- Leo, I-"

"Please don't insult my intelligence. I already know what you've been up to with Donatello. I just want to hear you say it."

She sighed and looked down, defeated. Her shoulders went down and she started shacking. I almost gave in and pulled Alex into a hug. Almost.

"Okay... You're right, I should have told you- I just didn't know how."

I just had to laugh. Is she serious? She wants to act like the victim. Fuck, how much longer does she want this to go on? Time to speed things up.

"Well, how about, 'Leo, I'm leaving you for you're smarter brother' that would have worked, don't you think?" My voice drips poison. I know I'm hurting her, and even thought it kills me, I have to. I need to just do this as quickly as possible so I won't have a chance to back track.

Her head snapped up. Her blue ice help confusion. "What?"

"Oh, please don't play dumb with me, Alexandra. For the past few weeks, you've been spending all of you're nights with Donatello. You won't talk to me, you won't even look at me!"

"Leo, I can explain, it's not what you think-"

"It's not? Okay then please tell me how I should interpret my girlfriend spending her nights with my brother and not with me! Explain what I should think when she is in her underwear and my brother is touching her! Explain that!"

"Well, skin had to show so that he could cut me open-"

What? "What? You expect me to believe that Donatello was trailing his hand up your stomach to cut you? Why would he do that?"

"To remove a grease ball from inside me!"

"Oh, come on!" I'm getting really tired of this. How stupid does she think I am? "Just admit that you're sleeping around with him!"

"But I'm not-"

"THEN WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?"

"SAVING MY LIFE SO I CAN BE WITH YOU!"

My eyes go wide with shock. Alex was trembling. Her blue eyes where almost black with rage... towards me. Her voice is cracking and I can tell she's been telling me the truth, only I was to dumb to believe it. I open my mouth to say something, but she cuts me out.

"ALL I WANTED WAS TO BE HEALTHY TO BE WITH YOU! I DIDN'T TELL YOU SO YOU WOULDN'T WORRY, BECAUSE I THOUGHT YOU TRUSTED ME-

"I do trust you-"

"NO YOU DON'T BECAUSE IF YOU DID WE WOULDN'T BE LIKE THIS!"

"Well can you blame me? You've been spending so much tim with him and I didn't know what to think. Yes, maybe I should've talked to you about it but please... can we just... talk?"

I didn't realize how nervous I was- am. I can't lose Alex, she's everything. Without her, I'm nothing.

"Will you listen to me?" her voice was so timid, it broke my heart.

"I promise, just... please..." I reached for her hands. She didn't pull back. She didn't say anything either, she just nodded.

I start leading her to the door. The dojo feels like too a public place to talk. I lead us to our room. While waking there, I heard Lea sing,

"I know you hate me

I never meant to make you feel this way

I feel so betrayed

I never thought I could feel condemned I never thought I could feel on your sin

Oh! I can feel your madness now

Oh! I can feel your fire now

Its what I burn for, Its what I live for

I would die for you"

I can't help but think it fits perfectly. I would fight for Lea. This wasn't going to ruin us. I'll make sure of that.

We get to our room and close the door. This time, she won't be coming out until tomorrow.

Okay, so I hope you liked it, again I'm so sorry this took so long, with school and unexpected death, it just became to much for me to handle. But thank you to all of those that kept waiting. The next update will come much faster I promise.