A/N: Thanks for reviews and adds! The love makes me want to keep writing. And as usual, I don't own twilight or its characters, just borrowing =) And sorry for a bit of a wait. The semester is ending so all my profs think it's a great time to give me three tests. They are over now so I can do a bet more posting. Yay! Oh and, please review!
Jacob and Bella rode in silence from the school to her house. He kept a hand lightly on her knee. Gravel crunched under Bella's tires as she pulled into her driveway. She let out a sigh as she opened her door. The conversation to come was going to be a rocky one. She liked Jake, hell, she loved him, but the memories of Edward wouldn't go away. Jacob had been there for her when Edward wasn't. That had to mean something. Bella looked to Jacob with apologetic eyes.
Jacob was worried about the feelings that where going to end up out in the open. He loved her, more than she knew. He wanted to hold her as she fell asleep. He wanted to kiss her lips, he cheeks, he neck, her… Focus, Jacob. This is a serious conversation. He grabbed Bella's hand and led her to the front door. Before entering, he grabbed her shoulders and turned her toward him. She seemed to refuse to look in his eyes. "Bella, look at me. Please," Jacob begged her. Bella slowly lifted her head, allowing her eyes to meet his. "I love you, Bella. Just know this."
Bella looked deep in his dark eyes. She could see he was speaking from his soul. Before she could respond, they heard a howl in the distance. Jacob closed his eyes. Not now Embry. No more than a few seconds later Embry appeared from the forests edge, "JACOB! Jake. It's Seth. He's phased. Sam wants all of us there. He sent me to get you. Oh hey Bella!" He smiled as he greeted her warmly.
Jacob look confused, "Seth? He shouldn't have phased for at least another year."
"Yeah I know. That's one of the reasons Sam wants us there. So let's go." Embry said urgently.
"Fine, I'm right behind you."
Embry took off for the woods. Jacob looked at Bella with pained eyes. He didn't want to leave her, not right now. "Sorry," he replied shortly. Jacob turned on his heel and started to jog towards the woods.
Bella couldn't let him run off like that, "Jacob! I just wanted to… I love you too." A grin spread across Jacob's face as another howl came from the woods. He had no choice but to leave standing in her own sorrow.
Jacob disappeared into the woods as Bella stared from her doorstep. Several minutes later, when she knew he was gone she finally went inside. She set her bag down on the table and looked at the clock on the stove: 3:45. It was Charlie's day to get home a little earlier so Bella decided to start dinner now. Cooking would also keep her mind of things she was not prepared to think about. After spending a few minutes routing through cabinets, she decided on meatloaf, twice baked potatoes and green beans. A nice time consuming meal. That would keep her mind of things.
She nuked the potatoes while she prepared the meatloaf. I wonder if Jacob likes meatloaf. Who am I kidding, that boy eats anything. Bella smiled to herself as she cut added breadcrumbs. Edward wouldn't though. Cooking. That's something I'd miss when I'm like him. Bella froze. When. When I'm like him. A few tears escaped her eyes. She didn't know if it was from the thought of Edward or the onions. I'm never going to be like him. He left me. She put the meatloaf in the pan and nearly through it in the oven. Her anger was rising. And you know what that's fine with me. I don't need him. She reached in the microwave to grab the potatoes, forgetting they were obviously hot. "Fuck," Bella let out a rarely heard cus word. If only Jake where here. He woulda gotten a kick outta hearing me say that. Her anger insantly subsided at the thought of Jacob. She continued to hollow out the potato skins in preparation to re-stuff them. I'm done with Edward. I have Jacob now. I love him. Well, I think I do. Bella started mixing cheese into the mixture. I know I love him, but do I LOVE him. What about Edward? He can't possibly love me anymore. Why do I still love him so much? He broke me, but yet I still love him. Tears were now streaming down her face.
So much for taking my mind of things.
Later that evening, Bella was at home curled up in her sheets with her nose in a book. Tink. She ignored the noise, assuming it was just rain. Tink. Tink. Bella sat up in her bed. Ok, that was not rain. She slowly threw off her sheets and tiptoed to her window. Looking out, she saw what appeared to be a very tall man standing outside her window. Well I know it's not Romeo.
"Bella, open your window," the abnormally tall man shouted.
Recognizing the voice she slid open her window, "Jake?" Maybe it was Romeo.
"Move, I'm coming up," Jake replied as he swiftly ascended the tree outside her window.
Bella stared at him for a bit, "Jake, you never cease to amaze me."
Jake pulled her into a hug, "It's not that hard, really it's not."
"Yeah, right. I'd break my neck," she gave him an unconvinced look.
He laughed at her. "You probably would," Bella gave him another dirty look, even though she knew it was true. "Anyway Bells, that's not why I'm here. And really I don't have much time. I just wanted to apologize for running off."
Bella interrupted him, "It's ok. You have wolfy things to deal with." She chuckled at her new word. Wolfy. She nuzzled his neck a little as she pulled her body closer to his. She didn't realize she was cold until she was next to his warm body.
Jacob struggled not to let out a small moan when she pressed herself against him. She kinda drove him crazy. "So I'll see you tomorrow? For our date?" He preemptively winced expecting a slap on the arm. Ironically enough, that's just what Bella did.
"It's not a date, it's operation get Mike of my back so Jessica isn't mad at me."
Jacob laughed loudly at Bella's reply, that is until she landed another good slap in the stomach and pointed down the hall. "Oh, right. Charlie. I should be leaving anyway. I'll be over around 7. Love you Bells." Jacob pressed his lips to hers without much of a warning. Bella stood stunned. Before she could say a word, he was out the window and sprinting to the woods.
Bella stood for a moment, possibly angry. She couldn't decide. While he kissed her, she felt warm and fuzzy, but as soon as he stepped away she felt guilty. She thought about Edward. It was like she was cheating on him. Bella climbed into bed and turned off her light. She tossed and turned a bit before drifting off into an uneasy sleep.
The next morning, Bella woke surprised she slept through the night without any nightmares. She noticed her room was a bit messier than usual. She spent the next half an hour tidying. Glancing at the clock she saw it was not quite 10. Ugh, I have to find something to do till 7. Bella spent the next few hours cleaning the rest of the house and working on a few bits of homework. Charlie arrived home around 6 quite surprised to see his house so sparkly.
"Wow Bella, place cleans up nice," Charlie was surveying the house.
Bella shrugged, "I was bored. Needed to occupy myself somehow. I got caught up in the cleaning I kinda forgot about dinner though."
"Don't worry about it kido, we'll order pizza." Charlie picked up the phone and ordered some food.
The two ate their delivery in almost silence. The only noise was when Charlie decided he was angry at whatever game he was watching and yelled. Just then there was a quiet knock on the door.
"Hello?" Jacob peered his head in. Bella jumped up to greet him. Before she got a word out he spoke again, "Hey, do I smell pizza?"
Bella laughed, "Yeah, there are a few pieces left if you want some."
Jacob grinned. He took any opportunity he could to eat, "Heck yeah. I'll eat a few then we will head to the theatre."
Jacob's Rabbit pulled into a spot at the movies. As Bella climbed out of the passenger seat she saw Mike and Jessica holding hands. Oh thank God. Bella waved to them as they made their way through the lot. "Hey guys. Angela and Ben here yet?"
Jessica replied, "Yeah, right behind you."
Bella turned around, "Oh I see them!" Once the whole group was together they got in line for tickets. Mike and Jessica, holding hands. Ben and Angela, holding hands. Jake and Bella, standing together. They all shuffled into their seats. Bella ended up between Jake and Mike.
Mike leaned over to whisper to Bella. Before he got far Jake put his arm around her. Mike instantly leaned back and went to talk to Jessica. Bella gave Jake an appreciative but confused look. It wasn't a date, but it looked like the only way to make it a successful Operation Get Mike off Her Back, it was the only way for it to work.
Two boring hours later, the credits rolled and the lights came up. Ben and Mike were in a frenzy of repeating every action scene complete with explosion sounds. They all were herded out into the parking lot. After talking for a few minutes about the movie the three couples went their separate ways. Jake hadn't taken his arm out from around Bella. When she side stepped slightly out of his arms he simply grabbed her hand. When she didn't seem too fond of that idea, Jacob questioned her, "Don't want to hold my hand?"
Bella put her head down. "I said it wasn't a date."
Jacob instantly dropped her hand, "Fine." He looked hurt. "I guess I'll just drop you off at your house and be on my way."
"NO!" Bella all but yelled. Jacob now looked confused and hurt. "I… I mean, I don't want my time with you to be over yet. You should come in and hang out for a while. Please. For me."
Jacob knew better than to say yes. She was just going to toy with his heart. "Fine. But only for like an hour."
Bella smiled. An hour with my Jake was better than nothing. "Thank you Jake." This time she reached for his hand. Jacob was now less hurt but more confused. It was like one second Bella was afraid of touching him, then the next she wanted nothing more than to cuddle.
They pulled into Bella's driveway, but Charlie's car was gone. Bella didn't think he would go to Billy's or the Clearwater's this late. Not to mention if he did go to Billy's, Jacob would have known. Bella unlocked the door and found a note from Charlie. Hey sweetie, Gotta call about a few maulings in the next county over. They needed my help. One of the victims was a cop. Stay inside once you get home. I'll be home sometime tomorrow afternoon. Love, Dad.
Bella looked at Jacob, fear in her eyes. Oh Charlie, please don't get hurt. Bella now wanted Jacob to stay even more. She took his hands once more and led him to the couch. They sat down together without a word. Bella leaned on him and curled up inside his arms. Breathing deep, she smelled him in ways she never noticed before. He smelled woodsy. Like pine. She liked that smell. She snuggled even close. Jacob began to inadvertently rub her side. He leaned his head on hers as she moved even closer. Jacob kissed the top of her head. She glanced up at him, warmth in her eyes.
Leaning forward, she could feel his breath on her face. No more than an inch away from his face, she felt her insides tense and her legs melt. Bella moved just that little bit further and placed her lips on his. She brought her other hand to his face. She rubber her thumb along his jaw and she pressed herself harder to his side. She let out a small moan as she brushed her tongue along his lips. This was deeper than she ever kissed Edward. Jacob wrapped both his arms around her waist, letting one hand land near the top of her backside. Bella's hand moved down his face and now rested on his chest. She began to run her hand all over his stomach and his abs. She could feel every muscle tense as she moved. Her hand nearly reached the top of his pant when she felt his hip roll slightly forward. She moved her hand back up his chest, this time her hand under his shirt and on his bare chest. Every muscle was beyond defined. Jacob gasped as her cold hands grazed his nipple. She had never elicited such a response from Edward before so she paused, and leaned out of the kiss. Jacob's lips followed hers. "Bella…" He gasped.
She knew she wasn't hurting him, so she returned to her passionate kisses. Oh, Jacob. She had never felt anything like this. She could feel herself getting wet, something she had never experienced before. She pushed her body closer to his. She was now all but on top of him.
In one swift movement Jacob laid her back on the couch and placed himself above her. One hand was on the arm rest, supporting himself from laying completely on her. Bella looked up at him. She saw a look in his eyes she had never seen before. Was it lust?
Jacob began kissing her again, this time it was his hands that did the exploring. He ran his hand up and down her side. He slipped his hand under her shirt. He continued the motion, stopping just below her bra.
Bella's feeling intensified. She involuntarily pushed her hips into his. She was not totally aware of her effects on Jacob. She felt his hardness through both his and her jeans. His hand now wandered further up than before. He was now groping her breast through her bra. He slowly began to move his hand under the lacy cover.
Bella gasped and pulled away quickly. She pushed Jacob with all her might trying desperately to get him off. Oh, what have I done. I really have cheated on him now. Oh god. Edward… Tears were streaming down her face as she continued her assault on Jacobs chest. They were both standing now, Jacob's arms still loosely around her. Her fists were beating him repeatedly. Bella was in hysterics. Crying, hitting, trying to escape. Jacob held her still. "Shhh, Bells. Calm down."
Bella was beginning to tire herself out. Calm down? I can't calm down. I was two seconds from ripping off your pants and I have a boyfriend. She couldn't even begin to talk. And noise she made came out a blubbering. If it weren't for Jacobs hold on her she would have long since crumpled to the ground.
A/N: My first attempt at anything resembling a lemon. Not full on, just a tease. =) hopefully it wasn't horrible. This one is a little long. It's a bit of a filler chapter so all kinds of stuff happen. But anyway. Update tomorrow. I promise. Its now 430 AM and I've had like four hours of sleep. There I go rambling. =P Anywho, rate and review!
