September 27,2008
Dear YOU! ^-^
How's it going? I hope it's all good. You know, after that text message, I was in a bit of a trance for like 10 minutes, but for me they felt like hours. Thanks… for everything, for making me smile, because with just seeing you I smile, for making me cry, because I know you are worth ever tear that comes down my cheek, anyway, thanks for everything you've done for me. YOU, I was really scared you know…I thought… I thought I was going to lose you…I was really scared, you have no idea how much it hurt to have that idea in my mind. I felt alone… I can have family and friends but without you… is the same as being alone. You were my best friend before my boyfriend, and if there's a time when we break up, I hope we can still be friends because just having you in my life is enough…you're already part of it, no, correction…you are my life. I can't be without you; even if you're there and you make me suffer I still need you. You know…I saw a shooting star, and you know what I wished for? ... I wished for you to be the same as before sweet, gentle, loving and for you to do those gestures you knew and I hope you still know make me fall more in love with you every day. I remember I fought with you once because you paid more attention to a tennis ball than me…I told you that you should marry it…and you told me…I don't want to marry anyone that's not you…In that moment my temper went down…way down. Is a bit curious that you know how to calm me down even though not even my mom knows how. You're also the only one that's made me experience love for real, you're the first one to love me for real and the first one I've ever loved from the depts of my heart, you were my first kiss (and all those you stole don't count XP) you were and are my first boyfriend. And you know now that I think about it our friend was right, we liked each other and we didn't know it. Do you remember my birthday? When we were going to drop you off at your house, I was sad because of the fight I had cost between my cousin and her boyfriend. I remember you switched seats with her to talk to me and you started asking what was wrong, I was so worried about not looking at you that I didn't realize the distance we were from each other. When I finally did look at you, we were so close I could feel your warm breath on my lips…I…kind of felt the urge to kiss you. We were so close but we got to your house and well you had to leave, I said good bye and then I started asking myself, Why did I want to kiss you? Why did I even think about such a thing? I think ever since I denied myself that I liked you. I didn't want to ruin our beautiful friendship just because of my feelings. When I told you…it hadn't been long since I accepted that fact myself and I really thought I was going to lose you. But that wasn't what happen, I was wrong again. When you told me you liked me too I was in a trance for like half an hour hahaha I remember when you stole my FIRST kiss you almost fell hahhahahha (serves you right you can't steal a kiss and act cool about it). Sometimes I wonder, if that was what you really wanted; Or if you just asked me to be your girlfriend because you needed to control your hormones. I even thought that you were with me because you wanted to get my best friend jealous. But my heart told me to believe you, that you really did love me. And do I tell you a little secret? I'm happy that I heard my heart and not that annoying voice in my head that likes to torment me (or how I call her IS! inner self) I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! And I will never grow tired of telling you how much I love you. And you know what? I hope you never grow tired of me telling you. I love you.
Loving you forever,
Your ME forever
P.S.
Please go back to how you were, I miss you whispering in my ear, I felt electricity up my spine and how you caressed my cheek, how you kissed my forehead…but if I have to choose I miss your lips on top of mine the most.
