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Chapter 4: Don't hide of fear for falling

Seven days three hours and forty seven minutes since she last talked to him, now hey would act as if they were strangers, when he'd see her he didn't try to do anything he didn't say anything he just locked his eyes with hers and they would walk passed each other. Peyton always sat together with Jake, who apparently had enrolled in THH again, and he and Peyton were getting back to dating again or so it seemed, there was Peyton, Jake, Haley, Nathan and Lucas.

Haley sometimes sat with Brooke and the cheerleaders, just because she didn't want to have to choose. When they passed each other in the hall way they'd make small talk, and she would hug her occasionally just like she would with Nathan and even Jake, yet nothing was like it had been before. She and Haley had drifted apart and Brooke understood why, Lucas was her best friend, and well he was Nathan's brother.

Brooke pretended to listen to Rachel, Bevin and Theresa who were talking about a party tonight, held in Bevin's house after the basketball game, Brooke pretended to listen, but she wasn't she was too transfixed on that blue eyed blond haired boy who was reading in his book, he didn't socialise with any of his friends he just brooded and read his book, and that is how it had been going for seven days. Brooke knew she had to let him go; there was simply nothing there right…no that was not it she knew she loved him, but she also knew she was done. It was not because he hurt her before because she knew she had hurt him to so it was only fair not to bring that issue up again. She was going to let him go because she was tired she just wanted to be the old Brooke again.

'Brooke are you even listening to us?' Rachel asked her friend a little annoyed.

Brooke didn't listen though she was too lost in those eyes, those eyes she loved so much, Lucas had looked up only to see her stare, he didn't dare to look back at his book and resume reading he didn't dare to look away because he was scared that if he did she would not be looking at him anymore. They looked into each other's eyes both trying to figure what to do next, Lucas could hear the obvious silence and he could feel the stares of his friend burn holes into him, but he didn't care all he cared about was the pretty girl sitting at another lunch table and staring at him.

Brooke got a little uncomfortable under the gaze she had been having for minutes now, her heart was still beating rapidly and her hands were all sweaty. 'Gross' she thought to herself. Brooke was the first one to break the stare and as she did so she got up and started walking away back inside.

'Hey Brooke you haven't eaten anything…' Bevin called after her as she saw how quickly she was walking away from them.

'I'm just not hungry.' Brooke replied briefly looking back at them.

The music was loud and everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves, teenagers danced to the R&B music which blared through the speakers, plastic cups were filled with alcoholic substances every teenager in Tree Hill, was partying and celebrating the fact that the Ravens had yet again won another game.

Lucas walked through the mansion's doors with his best friend/ sister-in-law, his brother and his other two friends, they had to drag him along claiming that he needed some fun after all of the extra brooding sessions he had planned in the previous seven days. Lucas reluctantly agreed and when he walked along side his friends he wished he hadn't.

'I need a drink.' he said and walked away to the kitchen where he knew there were enough alcoholic substances, a drink he could mix one in which he would drown all his sorrows. As Lucas walked away Brooke eyed him up and down.

'God he looks handsome…' Brooke thought, as she danced with Bevin and Rachel, he was wearing a beige short which came just below his knees, on top of that a indigo coloured polo, which Brooke her self had bought for him declaring that it brought out his soft blue eyes, and to top his handsomeness of he had cut his hair again. It was just way too long and now he looked as gorgeous as hell again, Lucas held a girl by her waist as she stumbled out of the kitchen, she looked at him in her obvious drunken state and smiled he gave her a small smile back and when she had regained her composure he let her go, unbeknownst to him Brooke felt a huge twinge of jealousy rush through her. Brooke shook her head at herself, god that jaw she thought as she saw him tighten it, she remembered how she kissed him there. Brooke shook her self out of her day dream, today was not the day to drool over Lucas Eugene Scott.

Lucas walked out of the kitchen clutching a plastic cup filled with vodka on the rocks, he sipped it ever since he had known Brooke he had learned to just loosen up and drink. He watched her move to Nelly Furtado's Say it right, and he had to catch his breath when he saw how stunning and hot she looked.

Brooke was wearing a grey summer dress, which clung to her body perfectly showing all her perfect curves, around her waist there was a black bow which showed of her small waist, Lucas thought back to the time she fitted so perfectly between his hands, he shook his head to rid himself of those thoughts unfortunately for him it didn't work. She had almost no make-up on and he loved her this way. Her hair had become pretty long over the year, it hang loosely against her back and long soft waves framed her gorgeous face. Lucas breathed in a huge breath and let it escape, he missed her so much, and such a short period of time she was suddenly no longer in his life.

Lucas walked back to his group of friends and watched her all the while, he then saw a boy walk to her slowly and as he saw the boy stand behind her and lock his arms around her waist he felt a pang of jealousy rush through him, he never used to be like this but Brooke seemed to get everything out of him, features he never knew he had. As Lucas looked at them he saw that Brooke and the boy were grinding and moving to the music in a harmony, Lucas clutched his right hand, forming a fist, he clenched his teeth, and turned back around to the kitchen knowing that if he were to survive this evening he was going to need a much stronger drink.

Hours passed and the gap between Lucas and Brooke seemed to get bigger, with every minute that passed, every once in a while they would look at each other, and then Brooke would break the stare grinding up against boys, and she even kissed one, certainly with tongue, Lucas could make that out from the other side of the room as he sat on the sofa drowning his sorrows and kindly repudiating every girl that asked him to dance, or asked him for his phone number. Lucas sat there watching Brooke who was so beautiful, yet he could see she was broken.

Brooke walked away from the dance floor all sweaty but she was still looking stunning as she waltzed over the dance floor, making her way to the alcoholic bottles, which were standing on a table one that was next to a sofa, with a gloomy looking Lucas seated on it.

'Great' she thought. She told herself that she was going to pour the strongest alcoholic drink in one of the blue plastic cups and just as she was done she would make her way back to the dance floor as fast as she could. Unfortunately for her the minute she took a plastic cup in hand Lucas began to speak.

'So I guess it's true what they say about you…you being a party girl and all, you really do like to get around.' Lucas said as he got up and was about to walk away, that actually felt good he had been sitting on that sofa for more then three hours, and he saw her grind up to guys, kiss one, seeing there hands go to places on her body which were used to be off limits, when she was dating him now he had to just sit back and see all of those guys get a hard on while they were just looking at her.

Brooke's voice cut through the air, she walked towards him and stopped him with her hand, in a swift movement she tried to turn him around. The music was starting to subside the party people were wrapping things up to go back home, and Brooke's former friends were silently listening to the conversation they knew was bound to happen.

'What did you say to me…did you just call me a slut.' Brooke asked madder than ever before she looked at him and Lucas saw the tears that were pooling in her eyes. He knew that on some level it was a little bit harsh what he said, and he knew he wasn't one to talk, but as he sat there hours seeing her get ready to take one guy home, seeing all the guys drool over her, he just couldn't keep what he was thinking to himself.

Lucas looked at her hand which holding on to his bicep, he used to love that feeling of her but now it seemed as if he was burned under that touch.

'You have no right to call me a slut…' Brooke started she looked at Lucas who had a hurt expression on his face, and Brooke knew it was because of her and the way she had danced with every other boy, the way she had smiled at them a smile she used to give him, she knew that it hurt him and that was exactly what she had been feeling for so long.

'You know what Luke when I met you I thought I had found the one guy, the guy I was going to spend the rest of my life with, college and everything that came after that.' Brooke said and Peyton, Jake, Haley, Nathan, Mouth, hell even Rachel all listened closely. The scene was heart breaking and nobody could look away.

'I was done, so all the parties and the boys, who cared because I was done!' she said yet again. 'You cheated on me…you cheated on me with my best friend.' She screamed and now one tear was making it's way down her cheek, she quickly wiped the evidence of crying away, not that it worked.

'I'm trying so hard to hold my self together now, okay you don't get to stare at me from across a room, or quad, I am not going to apologize for how I decide how to hold together what you tore apart.' She said once again her voice began to quiver; her rose tinted looking lips began to tremble.

'When are you ever going to admit that it's not about the kiss Brooke, you're hiding behind that because you're too afraid to let me all the way in. You're too afraid of needing me too much…but you know that you do. Stop hiding from me Brooke, and stop hurting me and yourself in the process.' Lucas said and the two notorious lovers looked at each other, they waited for another, one of them had to say something eventually, right?

'I'm the guy for you Brooke Davis, but I can't be that guy when you keep pushing me away, so when you need me…you can tell me…until then I'm done…' Lucas said and he walked away, everyone was staring at Brooke, or at least that was what she felt everyone's eyes burning holes in her body as they waited for her to say something. As everyone waited for her to response.

'Yeah…it's done.' She said and walked back to the dance floor, back to where she could be the old Brooke Davis, or at least where she could attempt to be the old Brooke Davis.