Female Nagisa, au
Disclaimer: I don't own Assassination Classroom and yeah this is just a fanfic
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Chapter 4: Bonds
Karma and Kayano hide in the bushes, they wait for the right moment to comfort her. They stare at each other as if they are doing a conversation telepathically. Unfortunately, they have different understanding in their so called conversation.
Karma rolls his eyes to Kayano and try to make some gesture. 'Kayano, what should we do? Should we wait or what?'
Kayano tilt her head in confusion. 'Why are you staring at me? Don't tell me we are doing that telepathic conversation like in movies.'
Karma squint his eyes. He tries to interpret what Kayano is saying. Suddenly, Nagisa stands up, Karma gives Kayano another signal by pointing at her. 'Hold on, what to do now?'
Kayano gives him a thumb. 'Great idea! I'll go there first and you'll wait here and go later.' She then stands up and walks toward Nagisa.
'WAIT KAYANO! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!' Karma tries to stop her but it seems he was a second too late.
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Nagisa is gazing at the cloud up in the sky wondering about the feeling that she doesn't understand. It is quite here.
'Maybe I should go back to the classroom and apologize to everyone'
Nagisa then stands up and readies to return to the classroom when suddenly certain small hands close her eyes from behind.
"Nagisa!"
"Kayano? What are you doing here?"
"Looking for you."
"Ah… it's because I ran off so sudden… Sorry about that."
Kayano lets go of her hand and takes a step so that she can face Nagisa properly. "Why are you apologizing?"
"Well, I kinda ruin our day. I don't know what's got into me. I don't even understand why I cried."
"Nagisa…" Kayano attemps to comfort her by holding her hand. "It's okay… you don't need to hold it in anymore. Just let it out. Nobody will blame you for grieving."
Hearing those words, Nagisa starts to think is it okay to stop pretending she is okay. She looks at Kayano who earnestly comfort her. Once again tears start to for in her blue eyes. It's as if the bottled up tears being spilled. She doesn't hold herself.
"Kayano…" , she said while sobbing. "I know that we… we need to move on. It just… I… I don't know why …but it feels like somehow there are this gap in my heart… yet I …I don't know what to do." At this point her eyes start to get very blurry.
"There, there. It's okay…" Seeing Nagisa cries, tears start to build up as well her yellow eyes. She hugs the blue-haired-girl. She understands it. She understands the feeling that her friend has bottled up. "It's okay… because It's also hard for me. So…so it's okay if we feel sad."
Both of them let out lot of emotions that they have sealed for a month. How won't they? All of the things that they all shared with the class. It was… unexplainable. They knew that goodbye is something unavoidable and they did embrace the truth about Koro-sensei death… but it just hard to suddenly get those memories over. It's probably because the bond they all share because of the common bloodlust and because of that they all got to experience things that nurture them.
After a while, they calm themselves.
Nagisa start sweeps her tears away. For the girl, it's like a heavy weight has been lifted away. Maybe this time… she can finally move forward rather than keeping all of the grieve bottled up
"Kayano… thank you."
Kayano gives a genuine smile.
"Yeah… thank you too, Nagisa."
They sit and talk a little afterwards while enjoying the forest breeze. For both girls, this event just strengthens their friendship. It's as if both of them are bonding as sisters.
"Nagisa, I think I'll go back first. I'll tell everyone that you are fine. I bet they all worry about you." Kayano lets out a small laughter.
"Yeah. I'll catch you later, Kayano."
Kayano stands up and starts to go back to the classroom, when suddenly she stops her steps. "Nagisa, actually you can stop calling me Kayano."
"Eh? Then what should I call you Kaede instead?"
Kayano shakes her head. "Call me Akari from now on. Afterall that is my real name."
Nagisa lets out a small chuckle. "Very well then, Akari."
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Karma was in the bushes as he watched both girl cried and comforted each other. For him, those kind of sight is different. It was second time seeing Nagisa this vulnerable. He wished that he could comfort her… but the bond that Kayano and Nagisa shares are different than the one he shares with her. Of course they are friend and they got closer after that fight, yet somehow the person who understand Nagisa most is probably Kayano.
'There is no way I can comfort her like Kayano', as he glanced gently at the moment that both girl shared, he decided he should go back first.
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Back at the classroom, Sugino, Kanzaki, and Okuda could only stay silent after what happened. They wanted to star some conversation several time, but the timing just not right. Everyone were very worried about Nagisa. Even if the silence was short, it felt like several hours has passed for them.
Suddenly, they heard the squeak of the open door. It was Karma. He's back.
Kanzaki stood up directly. She worriedly asked Karma about her friend. "Karma-kun, is Nagisa-san alright?"
"Yeah, she's with Kayano now."
"Thank goodness.",replied Kanzaki.
Everyone was relieved by the news that Karma brought. The heavy atmosphere in the room was lifted by it.
Okuda started to wonder about a certain thing. "Nagisa-chan… I wonder why she cried."
"It was probably because we started to talk about Koro-sensei.",said Sugino.
"Yeah, that's probably it. For Nagisa, Koro-sensei was someone she admires very deeply. Maybe because he can see her…no, everyone of the E class. She even desperately fights in order to save him." , said Karma.
"Furthermore, she was the one who ended his life… It must've left some impact on her.", added Sugino.
"Not to mention, Nagisa-san tends to hide her feeling.",said Kanzaki.
Okuda nervously said, "I hope Nagisa-chan is alright… But if Kayano-chan is right there with her…then everything will probably be okay."
A moment later Kayano returned to the class. She explained what has happened and told them that Nagisa will be back soon. It was right, Nagisa did indeed come back soon after Kayano. Her eyes were little bit red, but she looks fine now.
Karma let out a relief sigh as he saw Nagisa.
'I'm glad she's feeling better now' he thought.
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As the sun begins to set, the six of them decide to return home. They run down the hills together with laughter in their face. They all walk together until some point. On the way back, Nagisa apologizes about what had just happened. The other just shrug it down and said it was fine. She feels so warm by her friend reaction. It's because everyone has already bonded with each other that at some point they understand.
As they reach the intersection, they all go in separate path, except Karma and Nagisa. He decides to accompany her until the train station. They talk and talk until they reach the station.
"Nagisa!"
"Yeah?"
'You can talk to me if something is troubling you. I'll always be there for you' he thought.
"…nevermind. See ya~" said Karma while tilting his head.
Nagisa can only give her warmest smile. "See you too ,Karma."
For some reason Karma's heart feels warm seeing her that way.
'It's a good thing that I invited everyone today. Today was nice'. The red-haired starts to take his steps home.
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Author's note
Yay! Finally, chapter 4 is done. I was kind of confuse how to write this. In my mind it was vivid clear, but to write it into words it's just quite hard. Thank you everyone for writing the review. I'm really happy reading all of your reviews :3. Thank you so much for reading this fic. I hope I didn't make them out of character too much. I was scared that nobody will continue to read this fic after the show ends. But let's not hope for the , I like to points out that if Nagisa was a girl, her relationship with Kayano probably will be like sister and that's just how I imagine it lol. By the way, while writing this fic, I repeatedly listen to Not Today by Imagine Dragons. (sobs) it is a really good song. Try and listen to it; ). Once again , thank you so much.
p.s for ch5 there will be more Karma and Nagisa interaction
-creamycinamont
