Double Trouble

Chapter 4~ Kiryu's POV

It's been a year since I was first sent to jail. They put me in an Insane Asylum a little after being thrown into jail and given a criminal marker. I knew there was something wrong with me, something that wasn't my fault. I heard a voice from nowhere. No matter how much I screamed or threw crazy tantrums, the voice remained. There was no hiding from it. It told me things I didn't want to hear, about Yusei, about the world, about myself. I would have small blackouts, in which he took over my body. Most of the time, I didn't realize it. I went through many time-skips in which several hours went by in a few seconds. It scared me. I was afraid of myself. But most of all, I was afraid for Yusei. Yusei was (and still is the love of my life, and I was terrified of accidentally hurting him. I had already hurt everyone else I ever cared about. But Yusei had stayed by my side the entire time. He's the only reason that I'm still alive, my only reason for living.

I went through a lot of therapy and medications to finally become stable again. The voice hasn't talked to me in four months. Tomorrow, I would be released from the Asylum and allowed back into society. Yusei would be waiting for me. We could finally be alone together. It's been over a year since we've "satisfied" each other.

Tomorrow came slower than usual. I gathered up my few possessions (which were clothes) and exited my room for the last time. When I got outside, Yusei was already there. I hadn't seen him in over ten months. After two months, he had been forbidden to see me because whenever he left, I would have huge, uncontrollable break downs and violent fits. It was like Yusei was a drug, and whenever he left, I would go through withdraw. So they stopped him from seeing me, thus quelling my cravings for him. However, I never, ever forgot about Yusei. I dreamt of him almost every night, and when I woke up, usually one or two staff members would inform me that I had been screaming in my sleep again. Now, seeing him again after ten months… it felt like a dream. Before I could say anything, Yusei threw his arms around me and kissed me. I wrapped his arms around him. Feeling his warm body again was indescribable. "Yusei…" I whispered. "Kiryu…" he whispered back. We just stood there for a few minutes. Then Yusei said, "Come on, let's go home." He took me by the hand and we began to walk.

The day went by slowly and quickly at the same time. Before I knew it, Yusei and I were having dinner together. I hadn't had real cooking in a year. I swear, it was the best thing I had ever tasted! Well, besides Yusei of course. That's why I was saving him for dessert. Tonight, I was going to make up for all the other nights I wasn't able to be with him. Tonight, he wouldn't have to be alone.

When dinner was done, we both stood up. "I'll take care of this," Yusei said, waving to the mess on the table, "You go get ready~" He winked at me. "And don't forget to take your medications," he added. "Wow Yusei," I teased him, "stop being so girly. You sound like a house wife." He made a face. "I'm not girly!" He grunted. "Oh yeah?" I teased him again, leaning in closer, "then put your manliness where your mouth is!" He leaned in closer. "I'll put my manliness where your mouth is!" he said arousingly. He stuck one of his fingers in my mouth and played with my tongue. I was ready to jump him right there, but he quickly pulled it out. "Go take your meds and we'll finish this debate in the bedroom." He started picking up dishes. I pouted, but headed for the bathroom, where my medications were. I had five different medications to take. I knew that if I skipped even one pill, one little dose, I would loose control of myself. These five little pills were my bridge between sanity and insanity. But as I reached for the little plastic bottles, I heard a faint voice.

"Don't…"

I whipped around. "Yusei, did you say something?!" I called. "No," Yusei called back. That was weird I thought, reaching for the plastic bottles again.

"Don't do it!"

The voice was louder this time. My hands began to shake. No… I thought, The voice… The voice is gone…! The voice has been gone for four months…!

"You silly boy," the voice said, getting louder and clearer, "Did you think you could really get rid of me that easily?" "No… you're gone!" I hissed. "I'm not gone," the voice said, "I never was. I was just hiding." I looked in the mirror and gasped. Staring back at me was my reflection… but… it wasn't. The Kiryu in the mirror's eyes were black, and his marker was red. He wore a twisted smile, like a crazed man. I screamed and fell to the floor, panting in fear and shock. Yusei rushed in. "Kiryu, are you okay?!" he gasped. I felt myself shaking. "M-my medicines…" I choked out, "Yusei, no matter what… you have to make me take them…" I put my hand over my face and groaned, feeling light headed. Yusei quickly uncapped all the bottles and took a pill from each one. "Don't you dare give me those!" the voice made me yell. Yusei hesitated. "No, Yusei, I need them!" the real me pleaded. I fought to stay in control of my body. Yusei grabbed a cup and filled it with water. He then quickly shoved the pills in my mouth and put the cup to my lips. I tried to open my mouth to drink the water, but I couldn't move. I whimpered at Yusei, and he understood. He tilted my head back and forced my mouth open, pouring water into my mouth. I was able to swallow. Then I coughed and gasped. "Thank you, Yusei," I said in a hoarse voice. "Kiryu, what happened?" Yusei asked. "The voice came back…" I told him, "He didn't want me to take my medications…" "It probably makes him weak," Yusei said, "but he's gone now, right?" I listened. No voice. "I think so," I said. "Good. I don't want any more interruptions." Yusei climbed on top of me and pressed his lips against mine. I felt my heart lurch. How I had missed Yusei's warm lips on mine! I put my arms around him and pulled him down on top of me. He pushed his tongue into my mouth. I let out a moan and ran my fingers through his hair. Suddenly, Yusei pulled away. I grew anxious. Did I do something wrong? But then he said, "Let's go somewhere bigger and more comfortable." He stood up, then grabbed my hand and pulled me up. I saw the longing in his eyes, and I felt a sorrowful pang in my heart. I must have hurt him a lot this past year. I had to keep reminding myself that it wasn't my fault. But still… he must have been so lonely without me… Just like I was without him. But that was all behind us now. Today, I was starting over.

I took one look at the bed in the room Yusei led me into, and a hunger unlike any other exploded inside of me. I wanted to fuck Yusei so hard that we'd both be too sore to get up in the morning. I wanted him so bad I almost cried out. I took my gaze off the bed and back to Yusei. His eyes were so beautiful. Before I knew it, Yusei had jumped on me and tackled me onto the bed. We practically ripped each others' clothes off, laughing with pleasure the whole time. But when Yusei finally got a good look at my exposed body, he gasped in horror. "Kiryu! What are all these scars from?!" I looked down at myself. I had forgotten all about my scars. I hadn't realized Yusei would be so upset about them. I tried to lie. "They're nothing. Just from normal things at the institution," I told him, "Just forget them." I went to kiss him, but he backed away. "Kiryu, what happened?!" he demanded, "Who did this to you?! Who did this to you, Kiryu?! Tell me!" I sighed. I knew I couldn't keep the truth from him. "I did…" I barely whispered. "What?!" he gasped. "Look, Yusei, it's complicated," I told him, "I wasn't always in control of myself. Some of these, I don't even know how I got. But that's all in the past now. So… just forget about it now, please?" Yusei gave me a disapproving look. "Fine," he said, "But we will talk about it!" I nodded.

Yusei kissed me, again and again. And every time, I felt my heart flutter. If we hadn't been so loud, I swear I would have heard angels singing. Every time Yusei moaned, I wanted more. But then it was my turn to be the one who moaned. Yusei's touches were like a drug, and I was intoxicated. I let him do whatever he wanted to me. I said his name over and over, never getting tired of it. And I found that I couldn't stop. I was like a broken record. Suddenly, I felt like if I stopped, he'd disappear into thin air. I never wanted him to leave my sight. I had to keep saying his name. I had to keep calling him to me. I couldn't lose him again. He was smiling. His mouth was moving, but he wasn't saying anything. Then his expression changed to a concerned look. Then he looked worried. What was he so worried about? I tried to tell him everything was okay, but I couldn't stop saying his name. "Yusei… Yusei… Yusei… Yusei…" Colors began to swim into each other and around the room. I suddenly felt like I was being sucked into some kind of vortex. Then I snapped back to reality. For a second, everything was dark and quiet. "YUSEI?!" I screamed. He was gone! I had lost him again!

"Kiryu, I'm right here!"

I blinked, and Yusei was staring down at me. I felt his warm body on mine. I sat up and my arms around him. "Never leave me!" I gasped, "Please… I can't lose you again… I need you! Yusei, I love you!" I was shaking and almost began hyperventilating. I felt Yusei's arms around me. "I'll never leave you, Kiryu," he whispered, "I never have. I've always been here. I love you."

I never should have told him to never leave me. Being with me was the worst mistake he could have ever made.