Chapter 4 everybody, let me know what you think. Review.
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"Edward… We need to talk."
"You're right, let's go somewhere a little more private." He said as he turned from me and stalked out the door. Once outside I could see the light rain glistening off his hair like it used to back in Forks. I shuddered as I tried to erase the thought from my mind, again thankful that he couldn't read my mind. "I'm so sorry Bella." He said as he came to an abrupt halt in a back ally away from any doors and people. Clumsy me ran smack dab into him, he caught my elbow to help me regain my balance.
"Sorry." I mumbled as I back away.
"You have no reason to be sorry. I know I have no right to say these things to you as I have no right to even get the chance to talk to you again after what I did to you that day." I just stared up at him as he rambled on. "I was wrong, I never should have left you, those things I told you about you not being good for me and me not wanting you to come with me, it was a lie. I am a liar Bella. I was terrified after what happened with Jasper that I was willing to give you up so that I could know you were living a long and happy human life. I fully intended to keep my promise but then I was driving past the store and I smelt your scent and I lost control…"
"The car accident. I knew you wouldn't have crashed if you weren't surprised by something."
"Yes, that's why the car crashed I never thought I would smell your scent again and then you ran out with everyone else to see what happened and I knew you saw me, it would have been better if you didn't see me, I couldn't have tried to leave again, but not facing you. I am selfish Bella I always have been…" He went on.
"So let me get this straight. You are saying that you lied to me to make me believe you were leaving because you didn't like me anymore when really it was because you think you're not good for me?" I interrupted him
"Yes." Was his short reply.
"Well here's some new for you Edward Cullen, I was broken, I tried to follow you and got stuck in the woods. I was emotionless and frozen for so long I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep the nightmares were all too real. I was a zombie Edward, people couldn't even say your name or any of your families names without sending me further down a dark path. It took months to get me to come out of it and only Jacob could do it. Then he left me too. Angela has been there she helped get me back on track but everyone in my life still treads carefully when it comes to all of you for fear of sending me back. So no Edward you don't have the right to say these things, you broke me." I lifted my hand has if to slap him before I remembered it would most likely break my hand, instead I dropped my hand and turned on my heel and walked away. Out of the ally, out of Edward's line of sight, out of his life once again. Only this time it's on my terms.
I'm stronger now than I was before. I smiled as I walked back to the apartment. This is what I had to do I had to close things, I had to feel that closure I could only have gotten from telling him what he did. Confrontation was never my thing but boy did it feel good. The last image of Edward is no longer the one where he left me in the woods that day, no it's his shocked expression of fear and confusion. Not smug like he had been whenever he was getting his way. He will no longer get his way when it comes to me, if I ever talk to him again and I highly doubt I will it will be because I sanction it. Because I want to or need to not because he wants to lift more of the weight of the world off his shoulders.
I walk past Angela who is sitting expectantly on the sofa waiting for me. "Tomorrow." Is all I say as I head straight for my room. As I lay my head on the pillow I let my mind wander to my time here in London and how it has been more helpful then I could have ever imagined, how my life was turning around from where it had been a few years ago. How I no longer feared growing older. The last thought I had before I drifted off into a dreamless sleep was 'goodbye Edward.'
I know this chapter is shorter than all the others but I hope you enjoy, I had to get their conversation going. Let me know what you think by a little review please. I will hopefully have the next chapter up within the next week.
I am so excited for Breaking Dawn Part 2 this Thursday 1991 and I are going to the 10 pm sneak peak showing and we are super stoked.
